The Undying Lands

Hexun says goodbye

2007-02-08T21:27:00.000+08:00

hello. Its been a long journey, and the tales of mithrandir must go unfinished, whether i will complete it, time will tell. But for now, the numenorean archives will stay as it is, it will not continue here. I leave everyone here now, i hope you all have a great life!

Hexun leaves with a bang! haha, alright, the my fifa image is a little screwed, i'm not supposed to have grey hair, but i'm supposed to score many many goals! goodbye!~

Holiday

2007-02-03T22:19:00.000+08:00

At has been a marvellous holiday. Alright, for those of you who really are too tired, and really need the rest, and loathe that certain period of time on monday mornings, from 6 to 6:30, the wake up call, and the disgruntled grunt and wish that we could sleep forever, oh how we hate monday mornings! Doesn't it seem better if the week starts on tuesdays? Anyway, if you ever want to escape this, just feign ill. haha, alright i didn't feign. I was sick. And frankly, it was a pleasurable experience, though many would hate me for saying this, when we're being woken up, and seeing my brother's sulky face, while i get to snort, cuddle under my blanket, reposition my head on the pillow, and return to my beauty sleep.

To the second phase. At around 10am, when for some in school, recess nears, i'm still all cuddled up in bed, salivating on my pillow! Then when i finally open my eyes, i can't help wondering, ''while i'm lying here, what's going on in school?''

The break was really much needed. I found myself much sicker than i thought i was. And finally i find so much time in the world! It really felt like a holiday, i just realised i had been really busy during the december holidays, because i've never felt like this-having too much time to do too little things.

And so begun my doings of my many wonderful past times. So much time, to finish reading a book. And i realise my book reading style has gone astray, i read half! half of a book and i start a new book. That half-read book only gets readen when i see it at the corner of the room, piled on top of many other half-read books, all with bookmarks at their halfway point. And pianoing, and reading up on some chapters of school. Lots of messaging, and sleeping. Life void of the television and the computer is still very meaningful isn't it. And i read one of the many books, and it said to look out the window and admire God's wonderful creations. Haha, my, they're beautiful. The grass are just soo cheerfully green.

Tuesday! Finally school, and the end of my short-lived holiday. Ah, i thought i was fit. But really, in school i started to get dizzy spells, and my coughing was really bad. Aiya, what to do, had 2 tests and a chem spa. Ss! And math, and really i wanted to go home. But i have chem spa! And the trouble to have to do it at another time, and alone.

Haha, alright by spa i was really getting dizzy often, and knowing it was going to be titration, i didn't read the questions and jumped to setting up my experiment. Wasn't until after the spa that teck asked me whether i had used the measuring cylinder to measure 25cm cube of that solution, and i said i hadn't. I had to collect 2 25cm cubes of 2 solutions and i just thought since they were both 25, i'd probably have to pipette them, aiya, why so troublesome to make us use the measuring cylinder? But in the end, there're only 2 points in total aren't there? And you're bound to get your 1 mark, unless you don't do anything right? Its hard to get the full mark, unless you get the question right and experiment set-up right of course, which is hardly.

Anyway, really thankful it was over because i was on the verge of fainting.

So since till then i wasn't well, i decided to visit the doctor. The doctor who treated me since young. Isn't it cool, he watched me grow up, ever since i was little, when i had miniature lungs and a miniature heart, till now, when i'm tall and uh, handsome. haha. Anyway, i was fine, and he gave me an mc for wednesday. WhoOHOO! haha, can skip school again!

Ah, don't we all hate wednesdays? Won't it be better if we didn't have to go to school on the middle of the week? Why can't the middle of the week start on thursdays? (considering all our "pain and stress-filled" days to be on the weekdays, and wednesdays to be the middle of the weekdays). haha, anyway, i slept all the way till noon, and wasted the day.

Ah at least the week had plenty of good results to be thankful for, finally i can show my mum! And she'll give me more allowance outside.

Anyway, the week sped by quickly and before long, friday again! Oh marvellous fridays. We had the chinese composition class and haha, the teacher's so cute. Ahaha, the elderly are always cute. He just heard some stuff from weng fung then he jogged all the way in front and kept laughing and laughing, haha, couldn't even catch his breath.

Anyway, got to church after that and found out they were playing street bandy............... aiya, and xiu ling didn't even tell me she was planning to play, and i didn't bring clothesss.....Anyway, it was really funny, looking at how we were like when we were primary school, looking at the tantrums they throw. I remember there was this boy as the goal keeper, and he didn't do his job properly, and derrick kept going over to scold him harshly and said something like, ''anyone's a better keeper than you!" Then during another game, derrick was the keeper and yet another guy came over and kept scolding derrick, but he just kept smiling. haha, isn't this funny. And everyone out there don't ever say anything like, ''kids nowadays'' or whatever, even if you're not referring to my example, even when you see kids on the streets, we WERE like that, though some of us, still remain like that. But its true some kids are kids of the new generation. BAD KIDS. haha. Anyway ah, uncle james came and play again, and we were having a great time until the kids stormed in and started taking the game into their own hands, so uncle james stopped, he can't possible play in the presence of soooo many little kids! So haha, and i saw his quiet face, and it looked so sad, i wish we could play more.

Anyway, i spent my time taking pictures of myself with the phones of others for ''safety purposes'' Well, after taking them, putting them as wallpaper serves as kindof a safety thingy, it really helps. haha. Though, many of the side effects are like people like xl puking when the unlock their menus. haha. My face is irresistable. to the vomit.

So i spent the night doing work with xl, and then i assumed pf was gonna go home, so i thought we could go home together, but she wasn't done with meeting shu qin, haiya. I followed xl home then. Ah haha, dinner was great, and i desperately tried to make a good impression with xl's mum, cause i aim to be her best friend. Haha, and xl's brothers, never ceasing unkind words as i took over their gunbound. Haha, so when xl's mum announced there were nuggets for grabs, we all sped to the kitchen..haha, and xl closed the door and i saw her brother sprawled upon the glass door, hahaha. And i stole 5 nuggets. haha, when i went back her brothers were all complaining, because there were none left. haha, and i saw their faces. And i know what it tells. Aw, that face, knowing there are nuggets, having been told by the nugget maker- mum. Having smelt them. Having seen them. But they were all stolen, and all the excitement. All of a sudden mum cooked nuggets. And my brain lights up. Ting! nuggets! How i thirst for them now! But then its taken away! wahhaa, how lost they were, and i couldn't help thinking how lucky i am. But i refused to give them away! Because they teased me. Anyway, i finished my dinner and slept on her bed till i went home at 11.

Ah! saturday! CYYAM day! woooo. haha, anyway i really wanted to join the guys to play soccer, murali called the day before. Ah, but khong guan biscuit called to tell me they had already finished at around 12. sigh, another opportunity to unwind with the guys missed.

After that i went to church to meet pf for some time management settings. haha. My timetable's set! No more time wastage. Time, is an essence. And then came to more serious problems, where she was really surprised such an emo person like me has settled my bgr problems so neatly. Of course! I run a tight ship here! in terms of bgr.

Anyway the cyyam day started soon and ahh, pei en told me he read my blog. heh. All the things i said he probably read. ah haha. that is, embarassing. Turned out wei en had some thingy i couldn't understand, and if we ever updated, he would know. ah. PEI EN IS GREAT. WEI EN IS GREAT. haha.

yep, ya uhm so set-up and we ate a buffet, and sat down to watch 30 daze! again. And ah, i had to see my stupid face again. Wish i could redo so i wouldn't have that stupid face. haha. And the ngs! don't even have mine =( Probably cause mine really really has the least least least dialogues. haiya.

Then singing, and tearing. And heh, someone tearredd. Ya, haha, then watched the slideshow of uncle zhi cheng and i told the guys he really was handsome in the past, my mum told me the girls were snatching for him. haha, and he really looked so handsome in the past, and still does now. Special thanks to him. Giving discipleship cards, more pictures of the previous year. And what more to come this year. I look forward to this beautiful year, where i'm finally unleashed. Where i've finally found my true self.

Friday!

2007-01-26T23:01:00.000+08:00

Friday's are great aren't they? Very wonderful day of a week. If we spend enough time looking, analysing and studying fridays, we'll find they're absolutely wondrous things. haha. Well. Friday! Math, and keng guang, the craziest smart guy in class, is sick! aww. haha. He looked like some sick puppy, the craziness in him was all gone. And being nice, or rather, under the order of miss tuan, i bought him a panadol, and he went back to his siao self. Ah, the first human geog test of the year. How could i not get nervous? I haven't been doing that well in 2006, letting mrs chow down a few number of times, well, being an a1. Of course, i did prepare well for the test, only knowing during the last final-year that pure geog requires memorizing, no wonder i didn't get an a1, only an a2, because i didn't memorize. And i did.

When the papers were passed, down, teck siang cursed immediately, in the many different languages and dialects. haha. i don't know what he's cursing about, maybe he doesn't know how to do. But i kept reminding anyway, to focus on geog, or chem, or both. Well i didn't waste much time, i just scribbled as much as i could. And teck was obviously stunned, he didn't know what to write. But isn't it all the same? All the question revolves around the same few stuff. And he should have memorized them.

Honestly i've been fearing the arrival of this day for a while, firstly being the geography test, for i've learnt not to undermine its prowess. Next, the chem re-assessment. Ah. My first re-assessment, thought even if you failed, they wouldn't force you to drop it, but still, i had to start working hard. I guess i do not need to remind others what year this is, you're all sick of it! Alright i did do my studying. And we all realised, the whole of tpa except kenneth had to take chem reassessments! haha. That's so coincidental. Of course i still wish i did study last year, i studied for geog instead. haha, the same situation as now. Because i wanted an a1, so i didn't study chem. Ah, i didn't even get a1, but i got 48 for chem. Then, it was the pool tournament, i didn't even go for the mass revision, i expected to fail anyway.

Anyway, everyone was nervous about it, but i think the re-assessment is really good la, i hope i can take the papers for a maths and physics, i bet i've forgotten everything by now. But the paper was relatively easy i guess, much easier than the final-year, remembering the first few words teck uttered when he received his paper last year for the final-year chemistry were also curses. haha. But it was quite easy. I only want to see a passing mark.

Finishing an examination paper is releasing a huge rock from your chest. Although the pressure might not be that obvious. But sometimes, especially facing time consuming papers like the sciences and the maths, you'll find yourself racing against time. Panic seeps in after more than a minute of staring at a question. And when you finish it, you feel like you've finished using all your powers and just want a good rest, i don't even feel like checking. After a quick check, i then proceeded to bury my head into my arms but i held one eye uncovered, and open. The world was under the ''eye's'' scrutiny. And i saw everything. Let me share my observations. Mostly from people who've finished. Teck, would normally do a soft whistle, the forced whistle he always does, then he'll ruffle his short hair, and spin his pen. Then after checking, he'll neaten up everything, zip up his pencil case, fold his legs the tpa way, and start spinning his pen. Bryan, just behind teck, would stare ahead, at thin air, and subconciously start spinning his pen too. Weng fung on the other hand, is a rather special case. Weng fung would finish his paper, put both hands at the sides of the table, look at teck siang, open his mouth halfway, and stone. Just that way. Half open, and staring at teck siang. No wonder he always asks me why teck hates him so much. hahha.

Alright, no more nonsense. Let's get serious. After the paper i just rushed off to church, i was late! Ah, today was great, had i know today was street bandy, i would've brought an extra change of clothes. And 2 extra seekers today! And so, i just finished my lunch, grabbed tao yi's special stick, and jumped in. I absolutely love those special sticks. Not much special, but just professional ones. Light and good. And tao yi's one is especially curved, which results in less difficulty of carrying the ball up into the air. Anyway, i had dry cough, just finished dinner. in full school uniform, and it just wasn't the best of conditions to play street bandy. Until uncle james came in. Wha, i knew there was no escape, because i wouldn't miss a chance to play with him for nothing. Ah anyway, it was super uncomfortable, the tie and the shirt, and the sweat.

But so what, i love playing with him, because i love receiving his air balls. Oh my goodness, he's power. Absolute. Sometimes people in school cannot believe how good these guys play. I tell you. Top-class. Although the real class is kai en. Uncle James is close to 2 metres tall, big, like a giant, no doubt his muscles must be bigger than my head then. He's not a runner, he gets the ball, and skillfully and forcefully whacks it in. And the more he does that, the more i get better in being a goal keeper. He uses so much force laa, even if i block, sometimes i wish i hadn't blocked it. Its sooo painful. I remember xl was in front of me, one of his high balls came, she ducked and it hit my chest and chin. oww. But he's good, he can shoot straight from the other end! And i love to stop his balls. Wahhaha, its so exciting. Gracefullness, skill, magnificence, power. He'll just come up, while the ball is in the air, even behind him! He just times a blind back hand shot perfectly and it catches me unawares, right into the back of the net, through that small opening. He roughly knows how i keep my goals anyway, i'm not an ordinary keeper! Somehow, through my playing years, i developed my own style, i move a lot! not stiff, and when they shoot, i tend to bend my legs a lot, sometimes, people refer to them as ''striking a pose'' but it really helps, because of it, it has blocked the craftiest of balls, balls that slide by the side quickly, and that extra inch from my shoe helps it. But uncle james revealed his secret to me today, that he could anticipate how i would move, and leave a gap in the middle, haha. So now i'll alternate between stiff and moving, and i'll be the world no 1 shot stopper in floorball!

Its really fun, and if you guy thinking the school's health and fitness club's floorball team has skill, come here and expereince skill yourself. Haha, i don't blame anyone though, i don't even know how they guys acquire such skills, the best being kai en. Its just magic you know, he scores the most unthinkable goals with the most outrageous of techniques. Its a wonder how he learnt it all. Here, we can see that floorball does not = to practice = kai en's standard. I've been playing for awhile and i've picked up lots of things, but i'm not even half of kai en's standard. Maybe i'll just improve as much as possible in being a goal keeper. Besides, its street bandy! Floorball in a court, and i don't know how much fats i've lost today, and how much muscles formed..haha. Its a great workout.

Then i just got in and did some homework, and read some notes on history. And that nonsensical ziling, who still insisted i look like bert from sesame street, she showed me his photo. eh, how on earth do you compare a doll or whatever with a human being?#!% Wah, and the worst is, vivina agrees with her. I don't believe it! haha, which part of bert looks like me??

Anyway, it was 8 and we all went up for the prayer meeting. Haha, my first prayer meeting in the school uniform, and everyone started staring, or rather, a more pleasant word, admiring? haha. Many said how good i looked la, how neat la. Then they asked why i wore the tie still, still BUTTONED up. I guess i'm just used to it, and don't say i'm acting cool or smart, because i'm really used to it. i do it even why i play pool outside, i rarely unbutton it. Anyway, the prayer meeting was great, good reflections, good lessons.

After the meeting, at 10 plus, we all just stood around and did nothing. And pei en came up to talk to me. Oh my gosh!! hhaha, pei enn! I'm always in awe of him, he's the philosopherrr, the actual oneee. I've always longed to learn from him. Anyway, he really wanted me to teach him pool, haha, and i was with heng yi and i told him all the bad effects of pool. haha, its like submitting my ideas to the high one and i was awaiting a satisfied response. Then he started a debate, comparing it with other sports, wooo i was so excited.haha. I won! weeee. Haha. And heng yi was telling them how his friends thought he was pro cause i taught him to break, which is something i'm surprised at because i taught him like when i was sec 2 or something, its a miracle he still remembers. Haha, then pei en started asking lots of questions, and it came down to that one questions, ''so do you think you're very good?'' hahaha, so i just gave that stupid blank loook and laughed, ''eh, i don't know!"hahaha. Peii ennnnn!! Though i know the study of philosophy might be anti-religion but pei en's the man who studied philosophy so he could use religion to debate philosophy. ahhh! Haha, anyway, heng yi told me he was training henderson? Ah, that's what i heard, henderson's netball team or something, and he told me they thrashed our school 40-8. sighh.. haha. Well at least i told him our school's volleyball's good! hahaha, well, i guess, i haven't seen them play but i think they're good. And i should have said my school's journalism and photography is the best..wahha.

Anyway, some thoughts. Especially from the guys in school, giant intellectuals like yyh and ray, though sometimes i tell xl i have difficulty succeeding in terms of words and logic, but i've learnt it really doesn't matter even if i lose. What's most important is my believe and faith. i do not believe pei en's faith wasn't challenged. Some things are beyond comprehension and logic, need they be? Some things are beyond words and reasoning, but need they be? How, with words and logic, do you explain the faith? The spiritual body? The soul? The believe? How on earth, can i tell you what i've felt that makes me 100% sure with words? Haha, really. These things are beyond expression aren't they? Even if there's a perfect word to describe this, this must be felt, not understood. So i hope you understand giant intellectuals! Haha, even if i can't win the debate of religion, i feel and experience His existence, i needn't understand how and why the grass is green and the sky is blue, and why the birds sing in the morning to the rising sun.

Undaunted

2007-01-20T18:23:00.000+08:00

This week has been a week full of failures, setbacks, recoveries, achievements, and enlightenments. Lots and lots of it. It has been a very very very good week because of failures, and achievements.

Of course, the first failure is my Spa. For my blindness, and carelessness. That's still something small. And i learnt a small lesson from it. Throughout the week i've failed in lots of stuff! Haha, i've failed chinese finally, i've failed eh i forgot. Well yeah, the biggest was my shock piano theory failure on thursday. Indeed i was still as confident as ever, i smiled at my teacher asking her if i passed, she told me i didn't. So i stunned for as long as 20 minutes, staring at my paper in deep thought, and she kept talking and talking and i didn't make a sound. She said i have to buck up for the reexam in march. I then asked her what made her think i can pass if i've already failed. I then walked off like a cool guy, act cool of course. Ya, its true la, how on earth can i pass again if she teaches me? Sammie has taught me all that i've never known before, and i thought i'd definitely pass with her help, because for all your info, my teacher can't teach well. I honestly cannot learn things from her. Its not an excuse, i really can't.

Well then ya i talked to xl and i was really very down la, how come this week i'm tested by a long bout of setbacks. And its really for the whole week, no matter how much i pick myself up and be happy, i'm still unable to advance, yet i continue to retreat. And i know, and i've been looking forward to many setbacks like this, because i've heard from many about such things that happen. Tests of faith. And i did understand, from the phonecall, that i haven't given it all up into the hands of God. Complacency. Ah, i'm a mere powerless human! I thought i could do it all myself. And i realise i couldn't.

And of course, the stamping out of the seed of pool. No, its not entirely bad, but ultimately, the environment isn't the best. In fact, i feel rather down lots of times when i play it. After all, how long can i radiate light at places where its dark? Even if i am not consumed by the bad environment, i'll gradually feel weaker anyway. So the conclusion after months of brainwashing everybody, pool, isn't the best of sports. Because of the culture that it comes with. Approximately 2 years ago, i discovered what i thought would be take up a big portion of my life. I know realise it only too a big portion of my pocket! How many thousands have the few of us spent on pool? Thousands. I've worked my way to the top. It's been a long journey. Full of late home goings, pocket burnings, and pool, has largely built up that pride of mine. Which is, extremely dangerous. And i've had my glorious moments, winning veterans, beating gangsters, senious, youths, old people, young people, boys, men, women.. Of course, i have to write a lot about this, for a large moment of my life, it was all about pool.

You've all seen my previous blog posts, all about how excited i am. It really has been a good time. Satisfying what men wants most to satisfy. Achievements, superiority over others, pride. Its been good, yes. How i've always said i'm always surprised how come this group of young guns can pick up so many skills. Honestly, it has been rather spine-thrilling adventures. It's just like some fighting anime, and they spar with dunno who all the time, thrilling and nerve wrecking, that's why it's been great fun. Because we, or rather me, feel that wow! in this large world of pool, i'm a force to be reckoned with! And we grew to become the best in the school. That meant a lot to me, like i'm a small fry being noticed. I'm a weed to others, a needle, a stone in the shoe, a FORCE to be reckoned with. I'm not just an ordinary stranger some pool guy walks past and doesn't bat an eyelid over. I, and we, are people whom strangers notice, look at, analyse, learn from, and worry about. We, become their worries, we, aren't small children, we show them they aren't the best. That's what made me love it, superiority over others. I love for people to have that thought, ''this small boy is good! he makes me look funny out here!'' Its because i'm still young and small, that we upset people. That's what kept me going.

However, is isn't the best ultimately. It isn't even the game i can play. A game for me, such an emotional person, how can i excel here? It depends on my mood! I had to have a lot of favourable conditions in order for me to play well on a certain day. And sometimes, these conditions aren't offered.

And i've stopped! The shark of Tpa, the rosemary of tpa, the first student to be offered the postion of master ( a little bragging before i quit! haha) The most uninvolved, unenthusiastic, fun-spoiling member, the trendsetter of the Tpa. I leave tpa, i leave this ''brotherhood'' Though i've quit, i will not consider myself to be an outsider to the Tpa. darren still bows to me when he sees me, wei zhou still asks me when he can. But i leave behind my legacy, the trends i've set, of the woman's (more often practiced by woman) leg cross. The rootbeer (2nd most popular to green tea) The power break, the power screw. I thank the master of tpa for imparting these things to me. Though it has burned a clear hole in my pocket. And how sure can you say i've quit? Because i was eating with yh at lorong 8 and saw them, and they were headed to safra, without my knowing. That means, the tpa has given up on calling me. That seed that was planted 2 years back, had become a weed to me, although they had tried hard to water it and shower love and sunlight upon it, i saw it as weed, and i refused to fertilize it as often as i could. I knew long ago it was weed, however, i couldn't have the heart to pluck it out! It was planted by my good friends. And it did bring happiness, to the passing strangers who saw it in my yard, they saw a beautiful rose. But i saw it as a weed. And i've finally removed it. The strangers have nothing to see, the ''brotherhood'' has left me behind. Though, there're still scars of a thorny rose growing in that patch of soil. And that, is the legacy i've left. The people i've won, the trends i've set, the glory i've brought. If tpa should ever go national one day, haha, i only hope i'll be in wei zhou's hall of fame.

Friday was a relatively good day. And i really realised and was thankful for having many thinkers around me, ray.. yuan hong. Though i did overhear how ray attacked my religion on thurs or wed (no offense). Though sometimes i feel angry, feel sad, for they are my friends, feel hurt. And i know, that that's many that we have to face. But i did realise, they strengthen our faith. I wouldn't like to use challenging my faith. Rather, they strengthen it. And i did thank ray. Because of the questions they pose that i can't answer due to the lack of knowledge, i find them out. And therefore, it strengthens. I am beginning to understand many things i couldn't understand why, though i knew there was a reason. Headed to church straight after school. Sc! Rather quiet sc. Same old derrick. I miss the days when the church is swarming with macpherson primary kids, and all chasing that ball (floorball/street bandy). The numbers have lessened. To 1? After that i met xl and we chatted all the way till 9. haha

Well today's sushi making! Ah, i woke up so early to study cause ziling wanted me to meet them at amk mrt station, and i had to study if not my mum would go mad. And the program was alright. Did lots of work. And grace's brother is soo cute! haha. I dont' know, he can't even speak clearly, cause he'll swallow his words with his laughter when he's just halfway through the sentence. Ya, the sushi making was quite fun. haha. Though i hate to eat sushi, i just made for everyone to eat. tsk tsk, that playful ziling. hhaa. She can't stop bullying me!! I still remember nightour she put that lightstick right into my mouth. When we were washing, she took a bowl of a rice solution, and tried to scare me by pretending to pour it on me. When it did. WHATAIT@U#T)(!826!!! Whaa, the sticky wet rick got on my shorts laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. And she was laughing and apologising away. tskkkk. Then when me and xl went to throw the thrash, it was raining really heavily, and we went all the way to the huge dustbin, yi qian opened it, we threw the thrashbags in, and he slammed it shut. All the dirty dustbin water splashed at uss!#)%*10235812601826[0816!@#%)*!@*#%!!! HOW UNLUCKY CAN I GET!#@%!I%) haha. Yuckckkkk.

Ah, then went home with the guys, but spent most of the home going time with ziling. She's so funny laa. haha, the way she laughs at everything, ''bleaghs'', sticks out her tongue, its all so comical. haha. I have yet to check out what on earth the sesame street character bert looks like, because she insisted that i looked like him, so i told her she looked like a butt ugly martian.haha, she actually boxed me for real today, because i dared her to. She always says something but doesn't do it. And she finally did it! haha.

Ah, the weekend passes by so quickly. There's still sunday! Rejoice!

All hail the Nerds

2007-01-17T20:10:00.001+08:00

Wednesday! A great day! Ah, then, first 2 periods of english. A shocking surprise 50 word spelling, and pronunciation learning? Haha, honestly, i begin to feel that she might feel that she's a professor, i mean, the HOD of english does mean something doesn't it!? I really really really really think the learning of phonetics is unnecessary, just teach us some commonly made mistakes! There's no need to learn the symbols and lots and lots of stuff, like most of us will actually get those in our minds. The quest for perfection in english, will never be complete. Here in singapore, the land of singlish, singlish is a trait, we don't need english! Though, i'm wanna study linguistics in the future in university, thennn, if i do become some lecturer, i'll be able to teach with ease.

Next, pe. Ow how i hate the first few lessons of pe for the new year. And i wasn't wrong. We spent the lesson learning about our muscles. Haha. Then! strenuous exercise. 5 of 5 different push up positions, and holding with our elbows and hands to the ground, body straight for 40 counts! While girls do 20 counts! Gender discrimination! Its not fair, i was about to cry when he started counting, so slowly, but i lived, and my arms turned to jelly. Gender discrimination! I'll support any girl who decides to sign on for NS fully!

Then just some lessons, recess and ah, a maths test. haha, i didn't even read up on the chapter cause i left my book at home. The first question, the teacher made an amendment. Sigh, i couldn't even do it from the start. Cos inverse X 2 = error2. Wha.. and since they made an amendment, i figured it must be right. And i felt really stupid, stuck from the beginning, first question, 3 step. And i felt really really really stupid. wha, but i completed the other two, and mr sin came in and told us that the question 1's wrong. Haha, i felt so relieved, i guess all 41 of us felt like idiots when we pondered over that question.

Then physics, where mr chan spent 2 or 3 periods doing pc! haha, and we had a birthday celebration for all the january babies.

Happy Birthday to Jia yan, andy, xin yi, the twins, and not forgetting amanda. Happy birthday!

ahh. it took us awhile to get to after school. Soccer rematch once again with e4. And we're gonna win. Well the e1s had spa and everyone was waiting for them. I told everyone i'll score a hat trick (3 goals). But of course, i'm only joking, that's stupid. haha. Anyway e1 arrived at around 345 and we could finally get started.

Sigh e4, e4, always smuggling players, i don't know their real reason maybe its valid, but this is not a class match if they keep doing so. Smuggled a school team defender in. And we, the same e1-e2.

Ever since the game started, i really had the lousiest stamina i ever had in any game of my life. I totally couldn't keep up with the pace of the game. I got tired mighty easily. Sigh. I can't blame myself. haha, i don't even remember the last time i even exercised. They scored the first goal. I really felt lost then, i felt we might lose, they broke free first. Ah, the heat was melting me, i got dizzier and dizzier i couldn't even run. I really got pissed at the guys, the DIDN'T PASS?!@#% Peera! He shot himself when i was open, i shouted at him, hassan, he dribbled all the way and lost the ball like he always does, i shouted at him. I'm sorry for all for shouting at you all. But before the game i told all of you all to pass! to me! Because i'm the lone striker! If you don't pass, no one will! And to hassan too, we're repeatedly told him to pass pass pass not dribble all the way, spend his energy, and lose the ball. Ok, our first goal came from latif's corner, it hit the back of a defender and went in. hahah. Well i missed lots of chances, i was open and imran finally passed to me when it was an open goal! But he passed a little too behind and it deflected off my leg. ahh, what a waste. The real beauty came when i chested a high ball and volleyed it, but it hit the post!#%?!@#^

My goodness, if that ball had went in, it would've been one of the marvellousestsest goals i've ever scored. Imran shot a long shot and scored another marvellous goal. 2-1. Ah, the first half lasted 40 long minutes! I almost fainted. I really couldn't take it. I felt lousy, being the captain, being the lone striker, and i did absolutely nothing but get tired. Sigh.. What hat trick? lol.

Well after that, when the second half started, i felt energised however. hhaa. And the weather was perfect! Just perfect! I have no idea why but i really felt good. And when the match started, i found myself to have unlasting stamina! hahah. I have no idea why. The defence was tight, because i'm the lone striker, i'm easy to mark. Okay once, everyone was in the box and there was much confusion, i got the ball and banged it in. First goal, 3-1. But they soon capitalised! They scored another goal to keep up at 3-2.

Peera finally passed, i shouted for him ''through! through!'' he did a through pass, and it was me and the keeper alone, but the ball was too ahead of me, we crashed into one another, i don't know how many somersaults i did. And i injured both my elbows. He got up and swore at me. no one can ever know how infuriated i was at him. Earlier on while he was the defender, he pushed me roughly from behind, one of them even elbowed my lips. I was really really really angry. I was, he swore at me. I just walked and kept turning back to give him that unhappy face. Alright don't say i'm acting cool. haha, but i really am angry. I told shi xiong to watch his players, and he told me he did tell him off already. Well, somehow jj let in 2 goals through the hole oh his legs. Haha, i was really mad at him too, okay i did shout at him. Okay okay, sorry!! Ah, i don't exactly remember how, but i scored my second! haha, i was elated, and i told everyone.. One more! one more! Give me one more! One more to a hat-trick! And once again, they scored a few too. 5-5 was the score. Somehow i thought we had the lead, i didn't know the score. Darren actually took over the previous referee during second half, he was forced. And everyone was not happy, saying he was too soft and didn't know anything and didn't dare to say anything. Poor guy. I never blamed him one bit. Haha.

9 more minutes! Darren told us. oh man oh man. haha. I really felt there was a possibility i could complete my hat-trick. the guys pushed the ball up, and peera did a through for me. i sprinted in from the right, i never expected to shoot from there, i wanted to pass, but i found lots of space ahead of me with not much defenders, so i just went ahead and blasted one at the far left corner. Hat-trick. Complete.

I was over the moon, over the sun, over mars. Wahooooo, everyone hugged me, beat me, high-fived me. Hat-trick!! wahhaha. yay! And it ended at 6-5! Wahooo!! haha. YESS!#%)!@*^)@$^ It was a great match. We've won. The nerds, have conquered all. The nerds. All hail the nerds! Haha, alif, came over and shook everyone's hand, ya he's their top player, and he hugged me. haha. Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. weeeeeeeeeee. wee. I'm happy! Good job everyone! Good job you bunch of nerds!!!

Actually after the game shi xiong said some of the soccer guys said the captain is so boastful and rough! Wha. I don't believe it mannnn. How can they say such hurtful things? I was never boastful. I celebrated my goals with my team and i never shouted to everyone i scored a hat-trick! And rough? That's totally wrong, i was the one that was hurt and injured and pushed to the ground. haiya. I don't know.

Ya we did stay late, and me and latif went to get some cup noodles to chow. And i went home. I had lots of pains EVERYWHERE. I even had a cramp taking off my socks. hahha. Yes! Alright! haha. okay goodbye..

Halfway

2007-01-16T21:05:00.000+08:00

There's time to blog! Wahah. Anyway, it was a great start to the week till now. Since sunday, after all the fellowship, i stayed back till late to just do some work. And i was hungry! Haha, i knew it was way past dinner time and i probably wouldn't have food left at home anyway, i was drooling about fried hokkien mee just at jb, vivina was hungry too. Ah! haha, what a nice idea! Xiao ling's house! haha. It wasn't my first time there but my first time i'm staying for dinner. And i must say i was pretty embarrassed going there for free dinner. But everything was fine, everyone was happy. And sleeping on her bed they started talking to me about how different jc is. And frankly, i still can't wait to get there!! Though it's a place that's very different, its a different culture, and many temptations that linger, but still.. i gather its better than secondary school? I don't know, from what the guys have been telling me, they really miss secondary school. And xl's friend's getting married! haha, at 17! Though i wasn't really surprised, these are one of the many teens who don't think before they act.

It happens. The reason why i never found that surprising was because i've heard many similiar stories from my mum in court about such stuff, where they're just too young! And the girls get pregnant, aged 17, to her cousin. Haha, that's a pretty dumb think to do honestly. Well if you ask me, things're really messed up for her, but according to xl, she's really excited about the impending wedding. We'll in approximately 5 to 10 years time, she's be wishing she could turn back time. Firstly, she isn't studying at all, she scored 30 points for her o levels cause she didn't study for it! And now she's pregnant, we'll see how manly this guy can be. If he was man enough to know of the responsibilities that follow if he took of his pants that day, he should be man enough to continue taking care of his future wife and child till the end of his days.

Well the dinner was great! haha, though it was just rice and some other stuff, it was filling. And ya, i stayed till so late.

honestly, we've been seeing the worse side of mum's recently. Lots of people are really unable to bear their mum's unreasonable scoldings and naggings recently. But its most probably because we're growing up. When i was young, i read that teens would look for more freedom from parents, and i believed i'd never do that, i'll always be filial. But it has been happening recently! Not only to me though. But honestly, all our parents, no matter how, to some extent will care and love us. Though i really don't know what all the other parents are like and i'm prepared to have tons of people flooding to me ''you know what's my mum/dad like anot?'' But yes, they still love us. Who painstakingly bore us for 9 months? Who were the first ones to want to much to cuddle us in their warm arms when we first entered the world? Who tickled and made stupid faces at us nonstop and played with our little fingers? Who taught us to walk and celebrated our first birthday? Then, who were the first ones who caned us for our wrongdoings or scolded us in public? Who gave us so 80 cents a day while john got 2 dollars a day? Who who who who nagged us nonstop till we locked ourselves in our room? Who compared us with smart people and nagged at us for not getting a1?!# Who on earth grounded us!?% Who gave us stupid curfew!?% Sigh.. Since we were all so young when they showed so much love for us, taught us to walk, taught us words, told us why the grass is green. But its during the period when we start to understand matters that we hate and hate and hate naggings, hate groundings, hate scoldings! They hate it too. I guess when my parents die, i'll wish i could hear they nagging at me once more, scold me once more, be unreasonable once more!

When they leave, who would fill up that empty void? Alright, i'll not be a saint and tell you guys to be filial and love your parents no matter how unreasonable they are. because some might just be unreasonable to the core. But if we don't remember them, who will?

Monday.. wasn't a good day. Uhhhh, the spa at the end of the day. Spa assessment!! Well i didn't really bother about it actually, graph drawing is relatively easy. No one bothered actually. But when we did it, firstly, i got 6 readings that were 10 units apart, i didn't try to look for readings 5 units apart. Maybe that was too big. Then secondly, i plotted my points to become a curved graph. haha, and the equation, y=mx+c that was disguised into y=au+b is a straight line graph! haha, i didn't realise that! Because my points were all a distinct curve anyway! Well mr chan, he looked at me, and patted my back, he even knocked at my y=mx+c equation, i stupidly stared at it till the time was up, i didn't even know what was happening. Stupid me. Ahhh yeah, i think i'm like the only guy in the whole class that plotted a curve. haha, it just didn't occur to me that it might be a straight-line graph because my points were an obvious curve! haha, i guess when it comes down to ''who does the stupidest things'' its me! haha at first i was rather down about it but c'monnn. I learnt lessons from it.

Then tuesday. Ah. English. I really can't take it anymore. Miss shamsudin, there's always that haughty tone in her voice. And she demands perfection from our english. Its such a hard time we're all having here! This stinks! Yaya, over every little thing she says and says, and her english is sooo good bla bla, i bet she tells people outside she's a english professor outside. Like we need to know that the comprehension questions are divided into linguistics and bla bla. We really don't need to know these unnecessary information that will not aid us! English, whether we do well, to some extent depends on the teacher's methods. Some, like our teacher, teaches english the textbook way. C'mon!! I don't even think it helps, besides, what she teaches is sooo i don't even know what to say. Like pronunciation, she had to draw the pronunciation symbol for that word. Wha.. like we need to know.. Look at miss huang! Talk about spontaneous! We don't need to know all that nonsense! Just some practice! Some fun way of practice! We thoroughly enjoy her lessons!

And once again, the soccer match tomorrow! haha and this time we really lack people, many people are busy and are unsure if they can play the whole game, well i can. And i hope i don't faint and die in the middle of the match.

fun

2007-01-13T19:03:00.000+08:00

the second week of school is already over. so fast! and i hope it'll go at a faster rate. Get over 2007! Yes, with each passing day, there's really much more work. Especially from that Mrs shamsudin, she's like the most hardcore eng teacher ever. I find a lot of difficulty getting through her lessons. We've to write and write and write, maybe if in the beggining of the year when we were giving our expectations we shouldn't have kept saying i want practice on this and that! Its really too much to take! Everyday someone has to go up to write a quote and everyday we have to write a long comment on it. 365 commentaries xl.

And of course, homework for both maths have increased 100fold.One hundred fold, there're really tons and tons that that, i guess is really good for us. And Spa, lol, don't ask me why i haven't handed in the very first spa practice, cause i have no idea why too. And it was on thursday, after the spa practice i really had a big headache. And i got on the wrong bus! I don't know what's happened, maybe i've gone crazy, but i really saw the bus as 163, and when i got in, it really didn't feel like it was a 163, but i just sat and i realised i got on the wrong bus until it took a turn. Lol, its one of the very few times i've taken the wrong bus. Maybe i should get my eyesight checked. Piano piano piano. I know i'm pretty dumb to have failed grade 3 theory, i guess i really hate it. Or my teacher sucks at teaching me. honestly, she does the work. haha. And ya, thank goodness i got sammie's help this time, but its like, my mum doesn't even believe i can pass, and she got psychoed by my piano teacher to sign up to retake in march. What a waste of money. I believe i can pass! As in, i learnt so much from sam. My teacher's just. She's just. Too soft. She'll just teach and teach and teach even if i'm not hexun. I can close my eyes and play the scales and she can't even tell the difference, she'll just keep correcting and keep guiding my hands. Then during theory, i just can't stand it, i can't sit and listen to her. I learn nothing. But i don't want to change a teacher, i hate change. So till now, the results still aren't back. And i'm still anxiously waiting. If i pass..hahahaha. I'm gonna buy sam a nice big present okay? haha.

And another thing we've all been anxiously awaiting is the results for the SVA competition. No doubt we're gonna win something. haha. Even faezah knows. We put in quite alot of effort you know. And from what i've seen from the guys, they tell me its really good. And of course, i bet its better than state of mind. Which won silver. And unless the judges don't like the story, we're gonna get silver AT LEAST. But of course, it better get platinum. haha. And i'm the group leader, and i haven't even seen the final product. I guess i left my team at the lurch. But we're waiting. When we get our award, and get recognition, and when we shake mr boo's hand, ''in your face!'' wahh. I really dont' know what's going through his mind. Closing down so many ccas. like basketball, though i don't like it. Which school doesn't have basketball? Its like the basic of basic ccas. So what if they dont' do well. tsktsk. Its about passion and interest. You can't take that away! I mean, isn't some part of the beattiyan spirit to allow us to ''fa hui'' in our areas of expertise or interest. I don't know, i think i made that up. But nevertheless, that should be something all schools should follow what.. What good would be a guy who's really really really good in basketball in say, uhh, info com? haha. He can't maximise his potential!

And i can't say i'm not happy with the merging of ej and dmc. Maybe i just like that name eJournalism. haha. But ya, we've got really good times, especially the few of us, sec 4s. Afterall, we've long foreseen the doom of ej after we leave, but i've never expected it to be like this, to merge, how anticlimax. haha. And now, the total population of infocom is----close to 100! It's become a small country. Of course, all of the ejers will be very very uncomfortable with the size. 20 to 100 is a big big huge jump. Oh well, i'm sec 4 already.

And soccer! The game that ruined my life! Finally i can play it again. And its against e4 again. Next wed. Supporters kindly support us!! We're gonnna win!

And friday, ran in the rain and got to church. For sc. And it was really fun this time. Street bandy! Haha, and it was a really really really good workout. But our 2 macpherson kids dropped out halfway cause they couldn't keep up with the pace of the game. It was really really really intense. Great workout, shook some fats. And ya, just 2 kids. Sigh. haha. But one of them says i look korean! Isn't that marvellous? I don't know, i guess i can pass off as a korean in korea. The name Hexun, thanks to the great dodohead, actually can sound korean = hexuna. haha. Of course, i don't know if i agree that i look korean, i look like lots of people. Some people think i look like bert from sesame street. Someone i've never seen before. Some, a dinosaur.

Yeah, then after that i was just planning with xl for the event. Haha, it really isn't easy to head one. And its still so early. I know deep down there're be like one million changes to the original. Its impossible to stick to it. Changes have to be made. Then kind ziling gave me my present! From bali, a spoilt wooden aeroplane. Maybe xuan'll like that. It spoilt! =( Cause she spoilt it =(. haha. And she expects me to fix it myself =(.

Saturday! CCA recruitment day! Of course, i didn't expect i could get as much fun as i did last year. Dressing up as a jedi. It was fun. I really love cca recruitment days. Maybe next year i'll come back to have fun! Its also a good time to make friends. Its easy to. Ya, its really fun la. So this time i didn't expect that much fun. The guys brought xbox and ps2. Sigh. We're not ej. haha. Anyway. Its good to be in infocom!!! Well darren got those mikes. That the whole school could hear! hhaha. it was really so funny. We kept singing songs while walking around. ''infocommm infocomm. infoinfocomm!!'' Really, i wanted to hyptnotize all the sec 1s into going into c2-05. Then after that i was tired, and we all sat down. I really didn't know that speaker was that strong!!! Its soo cool. They were all sitting. Then lakshmi spoke to the mike. ''why's hexun so handsome?'' then i answered, ''cause i'm in infocom!'' haha. Then isabel started, ''why did the chicken cross the road?'' I answered again, ''cause it was trying to get to infocom!'' hhaa. So we did a lot of this lame stuff. Haha, and i really didn't know it was so loud. Jhans told me all the volleyball girls were laughing. ''who's hexun?'' they asked. hahaha.. oh no.

So once again, it was a really enjoyable cca orientation day for me. I played quite a lot of soccer on imran's xbox too.

Then after that my parents fetched me and we went to eat. Wha. They were in a really generous mood today. Probably because the lunch was to celebrate my brother's birthday. My mum just stopped by a swatch shop and cause my bro doesn't have a watch. Then they just picked one really nice one and bought it. Of course, being me, i felt an itch too, since they were really generous. But i just can't. I know i'll waste the money. Besides, the watch i bought last year is now around my mum's wrist. Because i stopped wearing watches and i find it hard to start. I just want to save my parent's money to buy me new track shoes.

Oh another tiring week. Spa next week! TESTS! i just realised. Have a good weekend!

2006

2006-12-31T19:28:00.000+08:00

This year'll be over in a few hours. It's been a really quick year, a year with lots of changes, adaptation to long pants, new subject combinations, and lots more. School's one thing, lots of other stuff, new temptations, new feelings, emotional problems, but finally, peace at heart, and lots of warmth, one i've been awaiting for quite a while since the year started. My change to the ss ministry.. i didn't favour in the begginning, and i see where my mistakes lie and now i thank God for putting me here, for there're some underlying bad points in Peace.

Perhaps i'm changed, and i enjoy it. And i'm looking forward to the new year. I really can't wait for the o levels to end, i'm dying to leave secondary school. The schedule, if i have any, will be very very packed and busy for me and i hope next year will go by just as fast as this year went by, or maybe, much faster. And i want to see myself, if i can still manage to hold my faith in place, though i'm emotional, i hope the changes i've requested pf to make will really assist me.

In church today, my last day of being in ye's disciple group, sharing time, lots of thinkings and recollections of this past good year. And, haha, wei zhou called me twice, once telling me how he was freaked out at some Charismatic church.. Though, no matter how big the size, how many people go to it, how good are their sermons, how ''hot'' their stuff are, to me, they'll remain as part of the unorthodox churches. Well maybe i'm wrong, but that's what i think anyway. Besides, most of them have the wrong aim, mostly, their aim being to increase the membership and attendance, which really isn't what they should be looking for.

And lots of lessons to learn of course, on vivian, how she learnt to put her focus at the right place, and not put her aims wrongly due to stress and exams. Cheng huan, to just really accept what His plans holds for us in the future.

Back at home, reading the Screwtape Letters i told pf to buy from me at expo, another brilliant book by a genius. Because cs Lewis assumes the role of a senior devil, writing tips through letters to his nephew, we can see an entire different view. Though he, not being a devil himself cannot show truly what's happening, but he gives many valuable lessons that we cannot see directly from a human's point of view. Its funny how he says there's a devil in charge of every person, and they call us ''patients''.

Some things to learn and to remind us.. Like even simple things like not handing all over to Him, even in trivial matters, we have to look to Him. The Devil does easy of keeping things out of our minds, instead of us accusing Him of putting things into our minds. This i find true, we tend to forget and lose focus, forget our direction.

The devil teaches us to estimate the value of each prayer by their success in producing the desired feeling. For example, we ourselves, making us feel forgiven when asking for forgiveness.

Another point, all the pleasures and desires of the flesh are, made and given by God. The devil cannot create new ones, however, he can encourage us to take the pleasure at times, or in ways, or in degrees, which God has forbidden. Hence, the devil tries to work away from the natural condition of any pleasure. This applies a lot especially in terms of human sexuality. Keeping in mind, Christians that no matter how politically correct something seems to be, we shouldn't do it as long as it doensn't please Him.

Yes finally, its really coming, the new year, and i really really really really really want it to end quickly. If i had a time machine, i'd go ahead of time. Spare me all the nonsense of school, just get me over the year! I shall end here and Happy New Year to everyone, hoping you all are looking forward to the reopening of school as much as i am! =)

The return you all have been fearing of

2006-12-26T20:38:00.000+08:00

Alright, i shall resume my blogging habit, i haven't been doing so because of many reasons. Well business is one thing, but i haven't been online frequently, thanks to Jia Yan for her reminder.. haha, its been at least 1 week.

Alright i have been satisfied this holidays, honestly, for the first time i have been satisfied, i've had all the fun i couldn't possibly have had. Well i'll start from the last week. For the first time ever, i fell sick early in the week, and i didn't dare to tell anyone at all, because i didn't want pei fen to worry about me. There's a huge reason behind it. I fell sick finally, because it had been raining for many days, and it was just really cold, and my homewear is just a thin undersized shirt and really short shorts. I was colded i guess. I started with sore throat and a little fever. But the next day i really rushed through my healing process, early in the morning i told my maid to buy some luo han guo to treat my sore throat, and i drank galleons and galleons of water. My fever was gone within half of the day, and my sore throat still bothered me. I wish i had my sore throat healed.

Alright, the reason why i was rushing the healing process was because pei fen were bringing 7 of us to wild wild wet to rackey. hahaha, it's the funnest idea ever. Going to swim in december when its the coldest and wettest. I knew it'd rain somehow and spoil our plans, nevertheless i still hoped and i daren't think of the possible outcomes of that day. My goodness i was very happy i was all healthy and strong, but somehow pf knew i was sick the day before la, and she kept checking if we had fever. I met pf in the morning and she told me some pretty startling things about what's going to happen to the ss ministry and the changes and some new things that i will have to exprience in the year to come. Then they all came.

Pei fen, me, xl, ye, jing yang, vivian and ziling met downstairs and had our lunch. And ziling, just back from bali, was really really really really black, thank goodness my parents didn't come up with some wild idea to holiday in bali, i'd probably buy galleons of whitening lotion. The trip there was really long la. And just like i expected, it rained, but still, it stopped, probably due to prayer haha.

I was sooo excited when we got there la.. after we got the tickets we went in, though there was a locker problem, when we got changed and got out.. my goodness i was soo excited, just like a little kid. But jy kept telling me he didn't have that excited feel, So i jumped and clapped and imitated ziling to try to make him excited..haha.

Alright, when we were all dry, we got all the way up to try our first ride, the big round circly thingy that 6 people can sit. And when we were happily queueing, that www guy had to take a bucket, fill it with water, and splash it at ussss. when we where all dry! I was sooo coldd.. and the wind up there was very very very coldd. And everyone dodged behind me which made the most splashed guy and haiya.. The ride was alright, haha, i can't scream anyway.

Next was that really cool ride, the two seater ride its like a U-shaped ride, it looked really cool. And when it was me and jy's turn, we sat on and i wasn't expecting much anyway. And all the guys were looking at us from below. Haha, so i planned to sit back but when we went down, i never expected it to beee sooooooooooooo steeeeppp. The steepness almost made me pee, so i opened my mouth in shock, though i couldn't scream..haha.. everyone was laughing at my expression.

Well that were the only 2 rides, other than that, we only got into the floats and started floating around aimlessly. Well the only fun was that i started to capsize people with my legs, i just dug deep and i capsized vivian and ziling's float hahaha, though it was heavy.. and they were sooo pissed when i did that haha, vivina dunked my head into the water in an attempt to drown me..wahha.

Well after that we just resat the rides and did much more floating and we went to bathe.

After that we went back to pasir ris and went to macs to eat. And to dicuss the planning for next year. And it's going to be really hectic. There were many changes to the ministry. Many plannings for new events, and she gave a small event entirely to me. whahaha i'm so happy. And we dicussed till late at night then i went home.

Well after that we had a one day's break before sunday. Sunday sunday, the Christmas eve, everyone treated it like Christmas anyway. Though i left early cause i had to pay respects to my grandfather because he died on that day, but when i returned, i received a warm welcome.. hahaha, people telling me they've been looking for me, and i received many Christmas cards and presents.

Then we made our way to pasir ris mrt, then to changi aloha chalet. The exact same chalet i went 2 years ago. Lots of preparations. And i was called to go shopping with zhi yang. I went into NTUC alone and did all the shopping and then came out quick. wow, i never thought i was so intependent, ahah. Then once again, i had to travel myself to tampines mrt, i even had to ask this guy which side for tampines, and he told me both sides could go..haha, it was only one stop. And i reached tampines, searched and found xl's brother and wei liang, both almost asleep, sitting on the floor waiting for us to fetch them.

So i joined them in the waiting, crouched down and waited, and they told me i really looked very ah beng. Tsk tsk, my image must be really bad. Now i finally know, i actually look like an ah beng. haha. And they did come finally, and many new friends to meet. Took a bus down to the chalet again.

In the beginning it was a little boring, pf told me to attach to a guy darrell, okay, he's quite open, as long as he's opener than me that's fine, haha, cause i'm closed all the time. The beginning was just playing some games, card games. Then was the cast puzzle competition.

I was pretty excited about it because i was never able to solve the cast puzzle in the past competitions, but i finally could, but haven't been able to in a long time because i left my puzzle at wei zhou's house. So i got a new unseasoned one, and started training. When it began, i was so proud when i could make it to section 2 and 3, cause in the past i only stayed at section 1, all the noobies. haha. Of course, in the end, only the proest got to level 4.

Then was the best of the groups, and kai xuan the previous winner went up. It was pure amazement, she open and put it back within 15 seconds, i take a minute to do that. Ya, after that was snacking time, and we all pigged at all the snacks they gave, because it still took a while before dinner.

Then, haiyo, i was really afraid, because they'd be showing the movie.. oh man i was really very afraid i'd look really stupid, although pf messaged me last night she's seen it and i look really okay. Then, it was timmee.. I was soo afraid.

Okay, i sat very in front, and had wei hong, heng wei, cheng hong all the big and strong ns guys lie on me, so i couldn't move and had to cramp my neck to watch, haha.

Well, the movie was preetyy alright, though i looked a little stupid.. haha. Well maybe i didn't do as well because i was the main character with the least scenes. Least lines, i even had a very expressive line taken away from me because i was overseas.

But towards the end, when i found no satisfaction in gaming anymore, that scene. whaa.. Haha, eveeryone said i did that really well, many people commented me on that scene. And my brother even said my acting was the best amongst all because of that scene, awww. How touching haha, YAY! YES! I've done my best and i've made it. I won't be surprised if Hollywood calls.. hahhaaha. I'm joking, do not vomit.

Ya after that was steamboat la, and each group had their own satay steamboat. The meal was alright, wasn't really very filling. Then i urged everyone to start telling us lame jokes and stupid questions, and we all went crazy, trying to solve stupid pattern puzzles, and at all the lame questions and jokes. haha. Then pf sat down and started talking to me, then we shifted to outside to the barbecue pit due to the noise.

And that was it, we sat there and chatted for dunno hoooow many hours, probably 4 or 5 hours, just talking about a lot and a lot of stuff, about next year's tight schedule, how i'm going to juggle church and the o levels, and my planning, and my events. And she told me she's giving me the whole wild wild wet event.. whoa. haha. That's really something big, and new, i've never led a whole event by myself, and this is a really big one i guess. And the steps we planned to take next year to keep my faith in place.

After that she called together the 6 of us, and she told everyone about next years plans again, about the www, and everyone was surprised that i'll be leading a whole event.. wahaa. they said i've grown up..wahha. Anyway it was then, when i started borrowing pf's feng you, her oil, and i started sniffing.. that really really made me go crazy. I started uttering nonsensical gibberish. I really really really went crazy, and not many people have the honour and opportunity to see this crazy side. And wei hong and his friend came along, and they watched me like i were in a zoo..haha. For no reasons i started scolding ye for farting..hahaha, and i kept saying and saying she farted..ahaha. They said i really loooked like a drug addict. Events of that night, i really couldn't remember. haha. But it took a few long hours before i got sober again. Actually everyone was sleeping already, except us.

We stayed through, till the morning, till sunrise. Then the clean up. I assured pf i'll never go crazy again, as long as the grass is green. But it was really inevitable, i really slowly started going crazy, maybe cause i didn't sleep, and i started making fun of people's surname and stuff. Thene everyone helped to clean up and then pf shared a cab with us and vivina and we got home then.

At home, tearing open people's presents and reading through the Christmas cards, was great. haha. The cards were all really encouraging and funny, more words finnally, because in the past i was just a quiet little boy no one really knew, and i've opened much so much more. some of the cards even extended to the next page. Haha, all the people that care.

And i slept for the whole day, though i told my mum to wake me up because i wanted to have lunch with the other people, but she didn't wake me up, i understood. Haha, then at night i went to my relative's house to celebrate Christmas. And this is the first year i haven't touched their computer to play any games, i'm so proud of myself. I guess i'm finally over the computer and the television. I don't even dare to play any games on my computer now, it all leads to = wastage of time. Time, is an essence. haha.

Other than that wasn't much. I'll be back more often to blog when the school reopens soon.

Footprints

2006-12-17T22:03:00.000+08:00

The long awaited sunday. Well i almost couldn't wake up early in the morning due to extreme tiredness and even light night watching of japanese dramas yesterday. And we merrily headed to church =).

Well it was quite okay, i'm a lot more carefree nowadays since i'm free from the clutches of tuition, and wei hong, my dear friend.. haha. The only guy that breaks out from his own crowd, from the crowd that surrounds him all the time to chat, to come to chat with me, what a nice guy with sparkling charisma i suspect many girls stalk him home everyday. Okay that's nonsense, but anyway he had to leave for awhile with the guys to somewhere so he chucked me his psp when i didn't say a word and left. haha. What a thoughtful and sweet nice guy with sparkling personality and charm! Haha..

Anyway, yep, did some playing, and of course, it doesn't belong to me, so i lent it to everyone, though he told me not to, but i have no right over it and i have no heart to see the guys peeking over at my screen and drooling all over it.

Lunch was great and finally singspiration, the long awaited singspiration came and i could finally sing all my troubles and frustrations all out. Ya, haha, though today wasn't the highest of worship moods, funny it is for me, i never get the high mood i look for. At times everyone's just clapping along, the merriness, the cheerfulness, the smiles, the laughter, the love, and God, just makes even you tear.

Game time! Haha, it was mostly boring, but lots of laughter through such simple games, and the people around love to make me perform, i had to sing thrice, once the national anthem, once twinkle twinkle, and once the cyyam's favourite welcome song.. Haha. Though my voice was very shaky and i was on the verge of bursting out in laughter, i sang great!!! hahaha..

Ya after that was the packing for log stuff for yesterday night, and everyone got together to clean the church because the caretaker's wife's dad passed away, so they weren't here, and we washed all the toilets and mopped all the floors so they needn't have to worry. And me.. haha. Since it was raining, after most of the work was done, i just stood out in the rain with the white umbrella in hand. Haha, between the container and the church, awaiting people to go to the container to store stuff so i can ferry them across. haha. And before long when all the work was done, i was still standing there, and pei en came over asking me why i was standing in the rain, haha, everyone thought i was posing and started taking photos.. hmm my preparation.. on my way, on the correct path to being a model.. hahaha.

Yep, so we left soon after since ziling would be flying off to bali, and we all headed to the airport to send her off.

I spend this really really really rare fruitful talking time with the guy with the most sparkling personality.. guess who? Wei hong!! haha.. Well when we reached the airport, we saw ziling's sister, and ohhhh my gooodness, they looked alike and haha.. And ziling came forward and asked us how old we think she is. She told us she's in university year 1.. we almost fainted because they loooked all alike. she asked me how old i thought she was, i told her she looks like my girlfriend. By that, i mean she looks like my ordinary girlfriends from school. But okay, my bad for sending the wrong signals, i didn't even have a chance to make my amendments and they erupted.. haha. Ziling started screaming to pei fen.. ahha, and wei hong also, telling the whole world that ziling's sis loooks like my girlfriend!! NONONO!! hahaha, but then.. haha, who would believe me?!! haha, but of course, i'm only joking, i hope her sister doesn't get the wrong idea that i'm hinting her to be my girlfriend. haha.

Well the time there was great! haha, firstly wei hong treated me to a vanilla i dunno what which cost him 5.20. A sweet guy, big heart, sparkling personality, big wallet. I will repay him someday. And there, we started talking about bgr again. Why? haha. And i realised he really treeats me like his good friend, which i'm pretty surprised about, since we've an age gap of 4, and i'm a little antisocial at times, and he has the friends of his generation to talk to, but he treats me as one of his closer friends, and i'm happy.

And its wierd talking to him about girls since it makes more sense for him to talk about it at his age but for me, it doesn't since i'm only sec 3. And he openly shared me his secret about his deep crush that lasted 5 years, and he told me to guess it out so openly! No wonder. In his friendster, he has maintained the same profile since the very day i added him. The same mushy words that proclaims his deep love. And the other day i checked it surprised me that he has changed it! Then i figured it must have been something that has impacted him greatly to change his 5 year unchanged profile run.

And so the two of stood in a corner, while everyone was merrily chatting inside burger king.. And wei hong shared with me how he got over his deeep liking just 2 days ago. And he shared with me many many things. And i told him many things about the girls i like too. And he told me not to think so much about the people that treat me really nice, he said its because i look like a kid, a small kid and people always treat me like a small kid. Then i felt really sad, i wish i look less kiddy. The probably explains why some people call my childish, though yes i am childish, mix it with my kiddy face, and childishness.. That explains why i try to look fierce sometimes, cocking up my eyebrows, not because i'm trying to act cool, but because i'm trying to do away with the kiddy face! But the actual reason why wei hong says i look kiddy, he couldn't tell me, he just said there's something about me that looks kiddy.

Our sharing was so in depth, so secret, that when cheng huan came asking to join our conversation, wei hong asked him to excuse himself, because we were really talking heart to heart as in, close friends. And he kept saying cheng huan's too small.. Which was really stupid since he's one year my senior..haha. Ya, so i was surprised too wei hong shooed him away. Girls are a nono now, its not the feeling that we have for the opposite sex now we get, that's inevitable, its going out and thinking about dating.. But ya, it was quite awkward for me to share with wei hong since he's my senior and i feel stupid telling him about girls since i'm young. He told me to wait for j1, but that's not exactly what i'm thinking, i think the best time is in uni! haha.

Ya, there's the class bbq, which honestly i had no intention to go for, because i'm really really tired. But shi xiong called to tell me he'd only go if i went, and that he'd be waiting for me at tpc and he wouldn't leave till i showed up. Goodness, where on earth did i meet such a good friend? I had to go, i had to.

So anyway, ziling's family finally left, hope she'll have loads of fun and buy me gifts since i bought her gifts! haha..

So headed all the way to toa payoh, met shi xiong, and headed to miss huang's house. Oh i'm sorry guys, i seemed cold, i seemed like i had a black face, but i'm just tired. And to all the people saying i look like a pastor when i held my Bible, thanks for the compliment and i will consider one day.. haha..

Before i end off. people have been shocked to see me reading a chinese book. Its just footprints, the story about a poem that inspired millions la, and its good for my chinese. So why not share it here?

I had a Dream (Footprints)

One night i dreamed a dream,
I was walking along the beach with my Lord.
Across the dark sky flashed scenes from my life.
For each scene, I noticed two sets
of footprints in the sand,
one belonging to me
and one to my Lord.
When the last scene of my life shot before me
I looked back at the footprints in the sand.
There was only one set of footprints.
I realized that this was the lowest
and saddest times of my life.
This always bothered me
And i questioned the Lord
about my dilemma.
''Lord, you told me when i decided to follow You,
You would walk and talk with me all the way.
But i'm aware that during the most troublesome times of my life there is only one set of footprints.
I just don't understand why, when i needed You most,
You leave me."
He whispered, ''My precious child,
I love you and will never leave you
never, ever, during your trials and testings.
When you saw only one set of footprints
It was then when I carried you.''

Night Tour

2006-12-16T16:29:00.000+08:00

It's finally over, the event we've been planning for since the early days. And its alll oover. The night tour is done. Goodness me. So it all started from the late afternoon yesterday and i headed to church early to sort out stuff. From there already, i got tired. haha. moving, packing, moving, packing. Then i met pei fen and told her all the dark angel plans. Since jing yang's sick, and he's the log head.. now pei fen has to take over, and we already have a shortage of manpower.

So i stayed all the way till night, after the prayer and i had to introduce my guys, and uhh.. the sorting out of groups, so i deliberately requested for wei zhou to be in a all guys group, just to protect his eyes.

So yes, 930, wei zhou and darren hopped out of the bus, and immediately after the introduction, between my pei en and zhi yang and them, wei zhou told me he knew that pink shirted girl would stop at our church and he already had a hit on her.. oh my, lol, thank goodness he's in a all guy group.

Ya, the beginnining was a little boring, cause it was just a little bonding time to wait for the late, and the played some card games, then they played ice breakers, where i left them completely because i'm not a playerr. And to all the people who think i have quick reflexes, like how i jump to protect myself when something moves too quickly, its because like people like heng yi, who's muscles are much bigger than maybe my head.. he just swings his arms around and tries to hit me all the time, so i always try to protect myself as much as possible, and since i grew up with him too, it has become a habit to cover myself when i think i'm gonna be attacked.. haha, okay la, it might seem a little sissy, its not that badd. haha..

So when the bus came, we could finally finally begin, and all the programmers and loggers rushed to load everything when the bus came.

First stop, i think its lavander food court. So ya, i'm still unclear to how the game's being played there. But all the programmers and loggers had a great time there.. haha. Well in the beginning i guess they were given 10 mins to buy what they want with the amount they're given, so we sat there and uncle james just bought us tons of food, so we ate merrily, and i just had to find a group 10 mins later and inform them time's up, count their dishes, and tell them to buy their favourite dish with 5 dollars, so my group's vivina's group and i told them everything except to buy their favourite dish.. haha, then i went back to eat and eat. It wasn't until another 10mins later did i realise i have to tell them too.. hahaha, so much more complaning and all the groups were supposed to put their favourite food on our table.

So there was pork ribs soup i think, and uhh, carrot cake, and french fries, fried chicken, and.. a whole box of veggies?!@#% WHO ON EARTH EAT'S VEGGIES FOR A MEAL!#%?!% lol, their favourite food's veggies.. ya, so they had to play some games and compete, if they lose, they lose their food. Haha. News spread fast that cheng hung's group lost, and we could have their pork ribs soup. .haha, but i hate pork anyway.. so i just kept picking their food a little by little. Yaa.. and i picked the 5 dollar carrot cake soo carelessly that they caught me picking.. haha. But i ate really full.. it was great picking food.

haiyo, xiao ling had to remind me my game's next..

Wah, when we got onto the bus, on our way to pasir ris park.. it started drizzling!!! Wahhh.. of all
time, all the games it can rain on, it has to be this game!#% Well yes, patience, prayer, and hope. Soon enough it stopped.. and pei fen could finally allow it to continue, so the loggers were very very busy. When the bus stopped, all of us rushed to the maze, xiao ling and the rest were to slow down the pace of the players, and make sure they take a relaxing stroll.. haa.

And we rushed all the way down to the maze. Plucking out the light sticks, hurling them into the bushes of the maze, all the loggers rushed to the middle. And i, alone, awaited all the men. They came finally, and i need help from xiao ling to make them all settle down, esp cheng hung, had to whack his arse several times before he would listen to me. And so.. haha, total silence, and everyone was looking at me.. ah haha, can't blame me for being nervous.

So i carried on to explain the game of this dark angel, total different version, and the inclusion of the riddles. And that if they were to be caught, they had to go to prison to suffer punishment before they could be released. Okay, in the beginning it was rather chaotic, no one knew anything, nor where the riddles lay. Till i gave them the riddle of riddles.

The Riddle of Riddles

I am, the lord of all the seven,
To tell you now, where they are hidden;
Look up above at the wind vane!
Looking North, south, east or west will all be in vain;
Where they lie, is equidistant,
To find the spot, one has to walk a distance;
Perilous is the journey, one must navigate,
Avoid the dark angels when the music is played!
Along the way, danger and treasure alternates,
But in the center, the riddles await.

This simple riddle is not for solving! haha. The purpose of the riddle is to tell them all the other riddles are held in the middle of the maze! And yet everyone was having a headache. ''what's the lord of the 7?'' ''seven seven, seven dwarves!'' haha, i said earlier on there's a total of 7 riddles!!! So i told everyone its just for your information!!! There're seven riddles! haha..

Oh yeah.. haha, i forgot to give fiana's group the riddle.. and they complained soo much.. ahha.. Anyway, they were really really really very slow in getting the riddles, i was supposed to give pf a miss call everytime i'm ready to let off another riddle, and they're all in the middle! But no one's getting them!! So i told pf to tell the dark angels to not catch them when they've already entered the middle. Everyone just busied themselves collecting lightsticks. 7 riddles to collect, 1 hour of gameplay, 2 dark angels, lots of musical play.. and still no one got anything.. Much relief when the first group got a riddle. And the clues! The clues! Every group kept taking extra clues which was frustrating, i had to walk all way in to pass it to someone to put it back..

Soon enough i was telling everybody to head to the middle!!! And ya, haha, i saw darren kena caught! wee.. haha.. And they had to head to jail. Hahaha, in jail, ailing passed them paragraphs and they had to memorize one or two sentences.. which are probably the most difficult..haha. The sentences are about Gandalf and are from wikipedia.. hahahaha.. everyone had a hard time memorizing..

Before long, even pei en started reciting, ''He found that the Necromancer was indeed the Dark Lord himself, and also discovered the dying dwarf Thrain II, who gave him the map and the key to Erebor.''

Haha, a little Gandalf knowledge won't hurt right? haha.. Ya anyway, we had to extend the game a little more.. and everyone could get a lot of the riddles, only a few couldn't get all. And ya. the clues and all were pretty useless i guess.. all the riddles are soooo easy! haha.. In answer is in it itself! Well in some of course, they're all pretty obvious, but i can't make it too hard can i?!

Well yes, its finally over.. And on the bus everyone gave me their answers, and i'm sad to say everyone got everything right, except one group who wrote ''saturn'' instead of ''satan'' haha.. and besides those who didn't get all their riddles.

That was pretty much about it.. next was esplanade for the phototaking competition.. which went pretty bad.. because that bus uncle fetched us to the wrong side of esplanade.. and they didn't go in..

Finally was prawn catching.. and the programmers and loggers didn't get much rest either.. we had to rush about.. starting the fire.. giving out food.. thought i wasn't doing much since i was beat.. And everyone was doing soo well catching prawns.. except pei en's group.. they only caught one.. haha.. and i saw every group had sooooo many..

killing the prawns was fun.. they dumped them out and drowned them with salt.. which was really cool.. they kept jumping about.. and me, being a sissy, was busy shielding myself..hahaha.
And catching.. barbecuing.. salting.. before long, we didn't even know it but the sun rose.. and aww.. the mood was spoiled.. sun rise le where got mood? haha.. no more mood to sleep too..

That's it.. its all over.. and finally. back to church.. back home.. back to bed..

Riddles

2006-12-12T15:24:00.000+08:00

Today is the first day i'm home! Haha, long since i had a good rest, so good i woke up to lunch in front of me. Yesterday i went out for the whole day and went home alone at uhh, 1030? I guess, have been really really busy since the few days before china, i never really spent time at home at all! haha. But its good, spritually enriching too, and i'm glad, i'm happy.

Ya so i spent my day at home and the program for night tour is finally done!!!!!!!!!!! Wah, we had huge headaches over it, especially over my section, and then lastly we decided to come out with 7 riddles, and i had to headache once again for 7 riddles, and they're done, and i'm quite surprised i could come out with them too. So to the guys that are going to the night tour, you all are going to have quite some fun! haha, unless it rains of course. And uhhh.. maybe i'll post my riddles one day, after the night tour. Very short post because i have to get back to the night tour stuff. see ya guys!

Holy Wood debut

2006-12-10T19:10:00.000+08:00

Today, finally church after missing 2 weeks, though i still went a lot these few days, but i've missed the sunday service for 2 consecutive weeks. Yes, it finally came and though today isn't a very good day. Cause after tuition though i have none because i finally released my tuition kid and i no longer have to teach him ever ever again.

Ya after lunch we went straight to filming the biggest scene for the Christmas movie, and before that we had to put makeup. Haha, everyone made a big deal out of my interest in putting make up, i think its cool! Haha, but but.. sigh, don't say, just put the usual basic foundation, and wei hong came over to put some blusher on me.. hahaha, of course, that wasn't what they intended, but i looked so ewww, or maybe, cool when i looked myself in the mirror, with bright pink rosy cheeks =).

Ya, and i have to change back to that outfit i wore the last time i filmed. And this time is the class scene la, so ya, back to that beng outfit, and the moment i walked about after displaying my cross pendant, i got stares from everyone there, saying i look beng.. hahaha, yes! Looks definitely ARE deceiving!

So begins the gruesome waiting hours, had to wait for yan heng to take soooooo many shots just for the intro scene into the classroom. And i just sat there with the beng way of sitting, and everyone still continued looking at me and feeling the inability to just continue elsewhere and stopping to tell me how really really beng i look. And the worst is that wei hong's psp didn't have batt, and i had to fiddle with it while the screen's blank, cause my role is to be an extreme gamer. Well yeah, i pity the care leh fairs, lol, don't know how to spell cause they don't have any roles at all! They're just there waiting for so many hours doing nothing, saying nothing, just showing their faces.

Well it HAD to be at my scene, whereby EVERYONE got out of their chairs to come to me for a much closer look, or maybe to count the number of pimples i have but sadly, i have none at the moment.. haha. Ya, so the camera was right in front of me and everyone surrounded me and i had to give that beng look, cock my lips, my eyebrown, look fierce, use my hand and do an ah beng hand sign, and say ''wu hiao bo'' is that it? I forgot, then ailing has to say something and i have to reply with ''wah kio xiang shen'' Which means my name is xiang sheng i think, and heng wei suggested i point at myself so i did, and i decided to do it slowly, to show some authority, like i'm the biggest beng, haha.. Ya, that scene i had to do tons of times, maybe not tons, because i kept bursting out laughing.

Then another difficult scene to settle was the voiceover scene whereby i had to just give that blank look, open my mouth, and shake my head, simply put, look stupid for 10 secs, and the 10 secs never seemed to end, i had to shake my head and look dumb clearly knowing that there're so many eyes staring at me, and it was difficult because sometimes, that dumb look couldn't last 10 secs, and sometimes yan heng sniggered when he watched me on the video cam. Haha, lots of laughs and pressure in those scenes.

Ya, it tooooooooooook sooo long for it to be over la, what a tiring day..

Lot's more to come! Ah, there's still night tour meeting tomorrow, night tour logging on tues, wed's free! Thur's st bandy, Fri's the long awaited night tour! And uhh.. yep. haha. And i haven't had proper rest since before China! haha.. this is fun.

Army's closing

2006-12-09T21:24:00.000+08:00

Well today morning i woke up early to have to prepare to meet pf at ang mo kio, my goodness, since before china i've been heading out early in the morning, but i thought today i'd be happily at home before night. So i was looking for something really casual to wear, but haha, after china and the camp, i had no more bermudas, haha, so i decided to dress more formal with collared shirt and jeans and shoes, which might not be that formal but at least more formal than flip flops.

Well the reason why i had to head out early was because we were sending kai en off to the army, i feel so sorry for him, he had the best of fun during the camp and now he has to leave the ones he wouldn't want to leave most. And heading to where? But the most demoralising botak camp, oh that's sad.

Well yeah i meet pf at uh, amk and sat a really really long bus to pasir ris and on our journey there, we were talking about Bgr, and pf was really puzzled on why i haven't liked many girls yet, haha.. and to their macs, and mostly everyone was already there. Then ate a meal. And followed the guys to send him off.

Well the thing i regret was that i didn't even say much to him, i was like at the back at the back, and i didn't get much chance to speak to him. And we headed to where they were, and saw many young men walking to their buses, awww, so sad. And pf told me kai en's special because he's going in earlier because this batch is for the guys who are much bigger in size, or simply put, fat. And they'd be surprised because kai en has slimmed down sooooo much, he's in the skinniest state i've ever seen him in all my life, he used to be fat. He's slimmed down so much that he can even wear my size's T-shirt (which isn't small, haha).. He was like the skinniest in the lot, everyone along with him were really really HUGE..

And yeah, cheng hong jokingly asked me to tuck in my shirt and join them, which really reminded me and everyone that i'm going in soon too! haha..Yes, 3 years go by pretty quick, and before long a lot of guys were asking me when i was going in, since i was the only young gun there that hasn't gone it. Now Cyyam faces a serious crisis known as the shortage of MANpower, when i say man, i mean it literally, we really have no MEN, and too many WOmen. That was why i even had to help other groups during the camp, and it was only because of training that i was sent to Log, that was why i was the only guy in log. Haha, right now is really the Ns period. Wei hong's still in ns, Ying Qian's in ns, cheng hong's in ns, uhh, shawn's in ns, uhh, zhi yang's in ns, yan heng's in ns. heng yi's going in, jon's going in, Dao yi's going in, Kai en just got in. My goodness, who's left? But the guys who have already done them, and the guys who are still far from doing them, like me and jing yang.

And seriously, 3 years is not not not long. That was why everyone really noticed me when cheng hong joked to me, because hey, really! The small little quiet boy they know as hexun's going to be enlisted in 3 years? Unless they deem my brain to be too deformed or my eyesight to be too cocked that i can't march in a straight line. Ya, and these 3 years will be the 3 longest years of my life! Oooo i can't wait! haha, i want to join the Botak trend, yep, more and more guys are going bald, ok not bald, botak, and i'll find my hair won't stay there for long..

Well just after we bade farewell, while we were still discussing and planning my dangerous and perilous journey home, ailing, on the phone with Wei Hong asked if i could go for his commissioning. I was shocked of course. I didn't even understand what was happening. Well, she told me today was the day he'd become an officer and there's a ceremony for it. Wahh, i'm invited! haha. Well she couldn't make it and somehow i was the only one there who was properly dressed, besides zhi yang, well i don't know if he waas invited earlier on.. But when she told wei hong about it, she told me he sounded really happy.. haha.

So yay, no need to go home, instead, me pf xl and ye went all the way to uhh, parkway, which was where we ate ramen yesterday to eat pasta mania. And i strayed off to buy some sports shorts, then i went to change my chinese currency to sing, since i had soo much left over.

Yep i reached wei hong's house after that and wei shen showed me some cool movie trailers like spiderman 3.. soo cool! But then again, we have to wait for spiderman 4 before venom appears, oh how waiting kills, and i realised he had the whole seasons of simpsons all in his computer, and i told him there's the simpsons movie which he hadn't even heard of. Wow, the movie trailer was just too funny.. haha, very simple.. but extremely funny..

Well yeah, wei shen's a funny guy, not many from church know him or some haven't even seen him, because he's a very quiet who doesn't enjoy the crowd, put shortly, an extreme introvert, i guess only the early churchers who grew up in church know him, and he didn't join the youth. Yep, i was kinda afraid of him when i was young, he seemed quite hostile. But i realised he's a super funny guy. Haha i remember last time when i shared a room with wei hong and wei shen in langkawi, he was so funny la, he demanded that i'd be in bed by nine when he realised i was sleeping with them. haha. AND, i still remember in Australia when we had to take a gruesome 8 hour car ride from adelaide to melbourne, he slept on my shoulder for 1 portion of the car journey, which took about 2-3 hours before the toilet break, and because i didn't have the heart to wake him up, i didn't, and i couldn't sleep, and when the toilet break came, my shoulder literally broke.

Yeah, i really like wei hong's mum! haha, she's very cute and really nice to me, she treats me like her son! hahaYeah, so wei hong's parents all dressed very formally fetched me to the satif thingy placey and we picked up zhi yang and sat down at the parade square. My goodness, it was the boringest place on earth. I mean, just watching them march and march and march, and cramping our necks to see if the 5th guy of the 6th platoon is wei hong. And yeah it was him alright.

And there was finally a time when we could meet face to face, to uhh, what's that word, i forgot that magic word, something like crown him his officer badge la, and EVERYONE ran down to crown their guys, so he was there, all tan and sweaty, and hot and handsome. Took a few pics with him and then it was over. It so cool la, i also wanna be officer! haha..

Ya, we parted with his parents for they had dinner with them, so the rest of us left for Jurong Point. Wei shen's so super funny.. haha

We went to mos burger, and it was my first time there.. And wei shen kept asking me what i wanted, i said anything, he told me he'll get me the BEST. So i trusted him. He bought all of us Unagi Rice burgers. When he first told me it was eel, i was shocked. Okay la guys, don't freak out, just that i haven't eaten eel. It was nice, but the seaweed wasn't, i don't like seaweed see.. Then that wei shen kept saying don't waste food, people in africa also never see before. He was exaggerating so much on how nice that burger was la, he even kissed his wrapping paper clean after finishing his burger.. haha..

Ya, after that we took a cab, 3 destinations. And he was hilarious, telling me about the simpsons episodes, telling me how his holiday just started and he spent his days watching every episode every season, so i told him to stop wasting his life, asking him why he didn't attend uj's time management talk.. hahaha, and i told him he could have spent his time improving english by reading.. He told me he improves his english by reading soccernet..hahahaha, so hilarious, and when i told him i wrote articles for soccernet he rocked the whole taxi..

I was joking of course..

Yeah, he's really funny.. haha.

Just to add, i had stomach upset when i got home, must be wei shen and his stupid unagi! haha.. Well yes i'll be as busy as before, night tour coming next friday!! woohoo! haha.. and yeah, lots more, even filming tomorrow..

Enjoy the holidays!

Love, warmth, and dark angels

2006-12-08T18:46:00.000+08:00

Ooh okay i'm back from youth camp, back home once again, i really had the best time here and i guess i'll just summarize as much as possible, haha. Well the first day, hmmm.. Oh yes, i got there early and helped out in quite a lot of stuff. I'm in the log committee see, i'm not one of the players, and there're really really many players this year, i wonder why, and i wonder why too, i'm the only guy in the log committee, guess pf wants to put me there for a good reason, and i'm not complaining, though that means i have to do lots of work while everyone's having a great time.

Well the response for camp wasn't that overwhelming, we only had 5 seekers, and all 5 of them were young guns, primary 6 to sec 1 only, and all males. And yes, i have to add we happened to have a shortage of males, all of them were struck with ns, too bad i was drafted to log. Well the first day was really really fun, well i missed the uhh, icebreakers, but they soon started the amazing race game, well the theme for the camp this year is life's codebreaker and everybody happened to get stuck on this stupid ulu island and everyone has to fight for plots of land, as in competition between groups, and kai en briefed me, to be a marshall for the amazing race game.. ooohoo!

Well, though the game wasn't much fun, it was still fun actually, i found out everyone had the most problems getting through my station. Well originally i was just to make the guys do 3 two pointers, and as i waited at macpherson's cc's basketball court, kai en called me to delay the time, so when every group got here, they had to wait super duper long cause i told them to do 5 two pointers and 2 three pointers and the 2 pointers have to be consecutive. And ziling complained like crazy and she pushed me all around the court. What disrespect to the game marshall! Anyway i let every group so much la, i'm such a nice guy.

Ya its soo hott, thank goodness i'm not a player, i returned back to church and i even got a sneak preview of the Christmas movie, my goodness, its really funny.. haha, but i didn't see much of myself, i certainly hope i loook okay. Yeah after that everyone came back halfdead, they were scorched, tired and just, tired. Then more games, and the clash of the factions thingy, and i had to join one group cause they had a serious lack of guys.

Yeah so the first night was pretty much like that, i can't remember if there was a talk after that, but must have been, i probably missed it cause the loggers were all soo busy. And yeah, slept after that, and sleeping beside jing yang's bad, he snores quite loudly.. haha

The next morning i complained to him he snored really loudly, he surprised me when he said i slept first and he told me i snored like a frog, hmmm.. that's bad, haha.. means i don't have enough oxygen!!

Yeah then was the study smart talk and i assited pei en thruout. And halfway my brother handed me my wallet telling me not to leave it in my bag, then i check check check, i realised i had 10 dollars missing leh.. someone must have stolen it!!! Oh well..Then was the Bgr talk!!! I don't believe i missed it, the speaker's like sooooo good, i wanted to listen but had to leave halfway to set up more games. sigh.. Oh yes, during breakfast, someone poked me, then i couldn't find out who leh, then i realised it was vivian, then i was very angry! haha.. So i picked up a spoon, waiting for a golden chance to poke her.. haha.

Well yeah, after that was more games, and got wet and stuff. And i finally got the chance to poke vivian with the spoon! Then we busied ourselves with the preparation for talentime, we started blowing balloons, and i blew the heart shaped one, because the heart shaped balloon wouldn't look good if you don't blow it big, i blew it big and it burst in my face! Haha, it was soo scary, like someone gave me a tight slap, but i was alright.. haha. and every group did acting, which was way way below par, i mean their story's soooo boring laa, but it was really really funny, i laughed a lot throughout, especially at yan heng and his silly antics..It was here that i found a little green balloon, i slipped it over my spoon and found it really cool. Well so i went around wielding my spoon and a lot a lot of people asked me what i was doing, haha, its all for that girl named vivian.

So comes the highlight of the camp, dayyy 3! Well after breakfast we listened to the talk for a while then had to rush down to prepare for more games at pasir ris, so uhh, 5 of us squeezed at the back of a car, and i was squashed to death, i'm like the only guy there, lol, and i was squashed by fiana.

Well we had a good time, because we went there and it was raining, so we ate and played bluff for the whole time, haha, we had a great time, it was so funnny. And when they did finally come, they only played the dressing up game, and somehow, fiana just got me to stand up and she started dressing me up! As caesar! Lol, after the game, kai en said there's a special guest apperance and he invited me in front of everyone to do a catwalk.. My goodness, that was sooo embarrassing, and he said i had to pose 3 times, haha, so i walked to the end and stood, then uhh, i just shifted my butt.. lol, i did that 3 times because i can't think of any sexy poses, and i was holding my ballooned spoon throughout.. haha, my scepter.

Finally finally finally the night came, my goodness i've been waiting all night, while everyone was listening to the talk, we came out halfway to prepare for dark angel. I was soooo excited, because for the first time i can be a dark angel!! weeee. I couldn't even wait, while everyone was busy setting up clues. Oh yes i haven't explained the game, its a mighty simple game, the simplest version is simply just a few cloaked people in masks, scary masks. The players roam about looking for clues to the game, but when the scary music is played, the dark angels will roam about and try to catch these players. Well this version is just that when we catch them, they have to go to prison upstairs and the group members will have to redeem them through points.

It must sound really corny here, but it's a really really scary and exciting game. Well i was really jumping about when they were already testing, the game was going to played at the second floor, and all the lights were switched off except the exit sign.. oooo, sooo coool. Cheng hung came down and expected good stuff, he thought he'd be the dark angel, haha, i could feel his disappointment when we told him he wasn't, because he's too fast, and he gave me that look, telling me to watch out.. haha, i can't wait to catch him. And when we prepared to dress up, my heart was already beating like hell.. I was sooo excited. wahahah. Yeah, i got that cool scary mask on, hooded myself with the black cloak, and went down with fiana for hiding. Wah, we waited soo long for them la.. haha, when ailing walked past she almost had a heart attack when she saw me.. haha, okay, i was really really scary.

The game was VERY VERY exciting, when it started, i could feel the adrenaline.. oo, the music played, and i ran out, wahhh.. haha, looking at all the players, they screamed at the sight of me, i was happy, very very happy. During the first music i caught 2 players, and many many more. As the game went on, i got fiercer and fiercer, it's just sooo cool, and i ran and ran and frightened and frightened, i remember i frightened shu qin that she couldn't even stand up, she just crouched down in fear. haha..

It was so fierce la, i played till my mask kept slipping down due to sweat, eventually, the string broke, i rushed up again to replace. And i entered the prison. When i entered, there was a huge uproar. ''HEXUN!'' haha, ''hexun, you idiot! Never let me off!'' ''Hexun! Hexun!'' hexun hexun hexun! haha, i put half of the guys in jail! I ran down again.

There was once i was hiding in the room when the music wasn't on, a seeker came in and took his lightstick and knocked it against my mask, poking fun of me, he was with several others, well i couldn't do anything but keep quiet, he made fun of my and i was boiling. They left and the music immediately started, i sprinted all the way, just directed at him alone, and when they reached the door, i just nice caught him and though we went out of the door, i caught his shirt.. wahhaha, revenge is sweeeeett, i could feel his regret when i escorted him to jail.. wahhaha, make fun somemore laaa!

I hid in the sound room and was in cahoots with the sounds people.. hahaha, they told me to prepare when they were about to play the music. Its so funny, one moment you see someone running, then they click then you see them running back.. hahah. Yanheng told me that dao yi just ran past, so he played for me and i got out and he ran right into my arms.. hahaha..

That was pretty much it, i couldn't play anymore, within 1 hour i had become a public enemy, while resting in the sound room, i could even hear them chanting my name!! Everyone, EVERYONE knew it was me..before long jia hui even told me to be substituted because everyone knew it was me, and that wasn't the plan.. lol..

Well yeah, after the game finished, i was just really hot, and i suddenly received many many smses and i realised it's my birthday already. My goodness, so fast, i'm 15! All those who stayed up all night to wish me, i thank you, all those who just happened to be up, i thank you all the same.. haha.

I received non stop smses from schoolmates and there not a soul even knew it was my birthday! haha.. Anyway eventually they knew la, and everyone just erupted into the birthday song. And how can i say i'm not touched, since everyone kept erupting into the song like througout the whole day, which made me really embarrassed. haha. And yeah, when the camp was about to end, phototaking session, and zi wei the gangster looking guy wrapped his armed around me, i felt so, touched.. haha, i mean, i didn't really talk to him much la. And yeah, the whole church erupted into a birthday song again..haha.

Yes, the big cleanup, and i spent my birthday srubbing the girl's toilets. haha, not that i mind, but it's pretty ironic isn't it?

yeah soon after, pf, wai yee and xiaoling and i left, and the people sang me the birthday song once more, and we left to eat ramen.

Ramen was fine, ate for a while and spent a few hours there laughing about lots of stuff.

So that was the camp, and my birthday, i'd like to thank all those who wrote to me encouragement cards during the camp, will remind me of the wonderful days, and pf for her treat. Thank you guys.

Survivor

2006-12-03T19:11:00.000+08:00

I'm back from survivor. And i don't want to make this sound like i'm back, so i'll start from the very first day. This will be my attempt to type down the longest ever post i've ever posted. Well firstly there's a short introduction to the characters of survivor, or china. Well, my family didn't exactly go alone, we have never for a long long time. In fact, i think the last time we've ever gone alone as a family was to beijing. And so, i'll never be used to it if our family goes overseas as the family, as in flesh and blood family. If not, it'll be the big family, haha. Anyway.. the usual people that go with us are from church, its wei hong's family, to people who don't know, he's the guy on my desktop background, (in a pic with me) and uhhh.. sometimes heng yi's family, but quite seldom nowadays, and uhh.. very rarely jessica's family.. Anyway, i've had most fun going in families, i'm telling everyone going as a family alone is BORING, really.. its just simply the best fun and laughter. I remember last year we went to langkawi, and heng yi's family weren't going, yet they were there to sent us off to the airport.. while we were about to board, they followed us.. haha.. they shocked us like crazy when they told us they were actually going to penang.. But then, in the end they told us they were going along with us to langkawi.. That was the prank of the century.. The biggest surprised ever.. haha.. i never imagined they were so sneaky.

Well that's it, and i was pretty sure i'd be bored to death since wei hong's family was going but he and his brother isn't, and only jess's parents are going.. My goodness, i was quite sad when haiyo.. only their parents were going, means me and my brother are the only kiddies going.. and its China.. the boringest place for kiddies who know nothing. Well i'll start the story already. Its not exactly an exciting story, so don't read it if you're bored.

China Horror Day 1

Well we had to wake up so early in the morning. And rushing here and there, and yes, its a holiday we're going for, so its inevitable to feel happy, or even excited, but i knew i couldn't expect too much.. c'mon! Its china! Its not paris or new zealand or venice or or or russia? Its china! the country richest in culture and history and and and history! But yeah, what am i complaining about, its a trip overseas and not get bored in singapore. But then again, i think i'd rather stay here.

Well yes, time for excitement, took a cab to the airport. And wei hong was there to sent his parents off too.. oh i was so sad they weren't going. But go wee did..And my parting words to him were to enjoy the teddy bear video i filmed the day before. Oh this trip is the only trip i didn't want to go.. i just wasn't in that mood.. I wanted to go to churcchh.. haha. Yes, its the first time i missed the take off.. oh the wonderful takeoff, how could anyone in the world miss it? And so, i slept alot alot, and after 4 hours, we reached kun ming airport.

And after meeting our guide, getting out, the whipping cold, and getting on the bus, i got excited already. I mean, i know China, china's boring, but still, i don't know much of what we'll be doing, i just wanted to get in the bus, and get to the hotel and sleep. If you guys didn't know.. i LOVE hotels. Remember i gave a speech in chinese class last year on how my ambition was to be a hotelier? Yes, i absolutelly love them, and really unfortunately, getting on a tour and letting them send you to the hotel to sleep immediately happens 0% of the time. IT NEVER HAPPENS. Unless you're on free and easy of course, yes, no matter which country i'm in, i'd always long to go back to the hotel. I don't like walking much, shopping much, exploring much, i just love the comfort of the hotel. And thus, while we were on the bus, still going through the introduction part, the guide started telling us about the tons of pickpockets and beggars around the area, that there're ruthless cheats and it just scared me a lot, i really wanted to go home at that time.. Anyway, wei hong's mum told me wei hong smsed me to tell me he really enjoyed the teddy bear video.. haha, yes, I HAVE SEXY VOICE!

We got our own really really short time to eat lunch, and walking through the square of the city, really pained me. We were told to totally ignore all the beggars. And that was really painful, i mean, we walked through, when the pitiful old man asked for money, when the homeless little children begged for coins, when the legless man pleaded for compassion, we had to not even look them in the eye and walk through like snobbish rich people. But sigh.. what to do..

We toured the some spots in kunming after lunch, learning their thousand year old histories, but i was still fine, its the first day! I'm full of energy. Yes, and our first dinner was really fun too. While we were dining, there was this guy looking at some of us, and he started cutting some paper, and my father told us he was cutting people's side profiles and pasting it on the thingys.. So he cut some guy from our tour and sold it to him for 10rmb, which is equivalent to 2 dollars here of course, and then he came over.. haha. And yay, i just knew he would be cutting my profile, although i wasn't sure, so everyone was pretty unsure who's profile he was cutting. And wei hong's mum joked with me, as she was sitting beside me, she wanted to bet with me if he was cutting her profile or mine, and in the end, he cut mine. =D. Everyone said it looked very alike, i didn't think so.. it didn't even look like me.. ahha.. and he said i had special lips.. aww! Maybe cause they were swollen due to the cold..haha. And so after my cut everyone started to ask him to cut too.. ahha, wei hong's mum told him to enhance her looks even.. haha.

And i was still quite happy, when we went to the hotel, wei hong's mum said something about going to ktv to sing songs, well of course i thought they were joking, but then, after we settled down, my parents told me they'd be going to the hotel's ktv.. And how on earth could i miss that. The tv had NOTHING on except chinese news, so yes! My first ever trip to ktvvv.. wahhaha. And so we got to the 5th floor of the hotel, when the door opened, it was all black, and blinking lights and blaring music, and a lady welcomed us in, haha, i felt like a vip, i don't know, it seemed like some high class night club. A long hallway with doors to the rooms, and the people there guarding the outside of the rooms, and all the doors were gold, as in painted gold haha.. And the red carpets, and more blaring music, it was so high class, i have no idea if its likee this in singapore too.

And wow, when we entered the room it was even more high classed.. okay maybe its just i haven't been to any ktv.. haha, its such a huge cosy room and comfortable funiture and haiya, its just nice la.. And they started singing and singing, and there's the ever so helpful hostess.. And she served DUCK TONGUE.. my goodness, what surprised me more was that i tried it, and i spat the first mouth out.. and everyone was eating it like its uhhh.. its a hamburger or something.. haha, like its the tastiest thing on earth.. And ya.. when the hostess asked if me and my brother could drink the red wine, jessica's mum just said can la can la.. haha.. and i'm glad she did.. So it was a VERY fun night.. though i was just looking at them sing.. but it was REALLY funny. I mean, wei hong's dad was just singing everything offkey.. haha.. it was really really really funny, his singing is so funny la.. i mean, no offense but it was.. haha, everyone laughed when he sings, and he's great because he dared to. Yes, my dad was the only one who can sing, i'm not boasting cause he's my dad but ya la, he can sing la, and i always tell him to teach me, i wish i could sing half as good as me.

So yes, there was red wine and mango juice, and i wanted to get done with just one glass of red wine and be fine for the night. So i gulped down the right wine and the mango juice. But, the hostess refilled, and i'm telling you guys, i dislike to see that glass full, so i drank it too.. But then, however busy the hostess was, she still refilled my CUP! MYYY goodness, its not because i wanted to drink the wine, i didn't want to, not that much, but i had to because its me everytime she refilled it. And so i gulped and gulped and gulped. And i really didn't want to drink anymore, at my 6th glass, i told her not to fill my red wine, she filled others' then came back and gave me a little more.. WHAT'S HER PROBLEM!#?% I guess she doesn't like to see cups empty just as much as how i don't like to see cups full..haha.. But i really stopped at my 8th cup no matter how much my brain told me to continue. And thus, the cup count was: red wine- 8, mango juice- 4. And red wine was just WONDERFUL, i guess, my heart beat so much faster, haha, before long, i could hear my heart throbbing from my head. And having drunk 12 cups, it was a matter of time before i started to visit the loo. The 2nd time i visited the loo, i suddenly felt very very very sick, and i felt like vomitting..

My goodness, i came out wanting to vomit, but i just drank a glass of water and i was just as fine as before, and so, all the adults made me and my brother sing tong hua.. which is a song i don't hear often, but still.. haha, maybe its the influence of red wine? I mean, i drank red wine and sang like john denver at ngee ann poly.. haha.. But i didn't refuse the mike at all, they just asked the young uns to sing, and i just picked up the mike and sang.. haha. it was quite embarrassing though.. everyone was clapping along, and the hostess squatted beside me and clapped along too, singing beside me, and she kept looking at me as if i didn't know how to read the words.. haha.. And so i sang like a drunk girl and everyone applauded after we finished.. haha. That was a great night, i sang another english oldie, but it was a real real pity they didn't have enough english songs, because that, ''unchained melody'' was the ONLY song i knew, and i happened to sing that in ngee ann too.. haha.. And after that, everyone was really glad we sang for them, that we were so game, because maybe i wouldn't if i don't know.. i honestly dont' know why i took up the mike.. I think i was actually looking forward to singing that night. That was why i wanted to go with them to the ktv, i actually wanted to sing! haha..

Anyway, we got back to sleep and my parents were proud of us.. haha, its as if i scored 6 points for my o's but they were glad we sang.

China Horror Day 2:

Nono guys, don't be afraid, the first day was fun, that's why its long, the rest will be short, don't worry.. haha. Anyway, woke up so early luh, 630, as if we were going to school, and took a long bus ride to some ancient cave, and yay, there was smoke when we talked.. so cool! haha.. And there was the 336 steps climb, which i must say was tougher than everest. Finally, after so long, we visited 5-star toilets. One of the biggest problems china faces is their toilets.. dirty smelly and totally revolting.. and they've got the best toilets too. Totally amazing, they have televisions to let you watch while peeing, though, no one would actually watch, to me, i'd focus on doing my job, i wouldn't want to watch above, i'd want to know i'm well ambushed, no one can see it, so i'll keep looking down.. haha.. so yeah, they have a spider there, and when i first saw it, i really almost screamed, when i realised its there, i don't know for what, i think it helps aiming.. haha.

Well next was dinner, and we were eating when jessica's mum suddenly called me shuai ge.. haha.. then she asked if people called me that often, i said not so often, then she said i'm skinny and i hunch often and that's a minus point, so i nodded. Then she said i had great complexion =D Then my mum said i have little pimples, then she said i had NONE, then my mum said where got??? She pointed to her some, then she replied saying its okay since she's short-sighted.. hahaha.

China Horror Day 3:

Lol, this post is getting booring.. That's how china is.. On the morning of the third day, there was no cold water, i was really very pissed, i wanted to bathe!!!! So i was really depressed, because its freezing cold, i really wanted to go home at that time, and when i realised we were 5 days away from home, i was really depressed. So we visited a jade store, and the director happened to be a singaporean. Telling us all about the fakes in the business, and telling us alot of nonsense. Then he gave us a really low price on some jades, and the sales promoters gave that stupid dumbfounded face.. haha..

So it was the really really really long 5 hours bus ride to dali. My goodness, i just couldn't take it. One year ago i slipped while playing soccer in school and hurt my butt bone, ever since, it pains my butt when i sit long. For example, i couldn't wait for king kong to finish. It was really killing me. So many hours watching that dumb ape, my butt really really was hurt. And now, its 5 hours, my goodness, luckily i sleep all the time, but i did awake and realised my arse was hurting loads. Sigh.. i wish i can do something about this.

And just as we were about to reach, the guide told us about child beggars, about how children could be taken away and tortured, and told to beg. There was this story, of a plain clothed policeman who saw this girl who had a chunk removed from her thigh and she was bleeding and begging for money. The policeman asked her where she came from, she refused to tell him anything. And thus, he kept giving her money everyday, till one day he asked her again, she replied her uncle and auntie took care of her. He asked her why she was bleeding everyday, she said something like making herself bleed so that the the meat won't grow back and her uncle won't cut that piece off again.. eewww, so that policeman uncovered china's biggest child beggaring scam society.. they earn tens of thousands.. So giving them money is giving their owners.

That story freaked me out, though i was quite old already, but i was still afraid some guy will kidnap me and make me a beggar.. my goodness, all the more i wanted to return home. And so in dali, we were told the winds were freaking strong, that's why the trees are never straight, all bent.

And so, we put the winds to the test, the few of us decided to go out for dinner, and MY GOODNESS. THE WHIPPING WIND WAS TOTALLY WHIPPING. I had 4 layers on, plus a scarf, plus my gloves, but the wind was just cold and stinging, against my face, KFC was a super long walk away and we really almost couldn't make it.. The wind was really really really really stinging cold, and i still remember today, i really couldn't take it, i almost ran to Kfc when i saw the sigh from afar. Wow, the dinner there was great. But all of us sulked when we finished, knowing we had to walk through that blizzard again..And we did, thankfully it wasn't as bad as the first time..

China Horror Day 4:

BLANK. 3 hour butt hurting ride to lijiang (somewhere colder)

China Horror Day 5:

Yes, my brother wanted to go home too, i told him to jia you.. haha.. 3 more days.. And yes, in lijiang it neared the negatives.. it was suppper cold. I almost froze to death standing in the toilet half naked, you see. its really fun. You're in the toilet, you want to bathe, you know it'll be freezing, you prepare all the clothes, towels, stuff, undies, and prepare for the moment to take it all off and quickly jump in before you freeze.. haha, so yes, i almost froze, it was really really cold. And wei hong's dad already turned victim to the cold, or rather, the effect from the differences in altitiude.. As lijiang is much higher..And so it was shopping time, and i was really sad there was nothing to buy, well i bargained for 2 wind chimes and 2 scarves. The scarves were at 65 rmb each, i told her to give me 100 for 2, she said 120, gave me that cute look and called me handsome.. haha, so i bargained for 105, and due to my lousiness in chinese, i think i said 150 in chinese instead.. haha.. she asked me if i was serious, i said yes, but i then said 105 clearly just in case, then she laughed.. haha.. she said i was joking.. so yes, my mum did scold me after that for not barganing enough..

We visited yet another jade store, and the director once again was singaporean? i mean, when they heard we were from singapore they'd say their director's singaporean too, and they'll specially request him to lead us..That's so wierd.. Except this time, everyone didn't even bother to listen, just giving that bored look, because we felt they were bluffing us..

Well after that it was just our own free time and yeah.. that was it, lol, just that our dinner was tooooo cheap.. i think all 8 of us cost only 8-9 singapore dollars for a really full meal.

China Horror Day 6:

How terribly exhausting, from the start we had to sit long bus rides from kunming to Dali from dali to lijiang, and now, from lijiang back to dali which took us 3 hours.. And once again, my butt called for help, i wish i can do something about it, it really worrys me, i'm afraid my butt will hurt as soon as i sit down in future..Yeah and we visited some silk factory.. And i had to beg my mum to buy a silk blanket but she wouldn't because she doesn't like it to be too cold when sleeping.. aw darn.. the silk's quality and feel is just.. like a cloud.. so smooth and soo.. you'll stick to it when you feel it it's just marvellous.. And yeah, my dad bought some silk shirt and when he was about to pay i asked my mom if i could get 2 silk boxers but when i ran to my dad he already paid and didn't want to pay anymore.. oh darn, for men, our downstairs are pretty hot, i hoped very much getting silk boxers would keep my downstairs cool.. but oh well..

Well yeah, to all Jay Chou fans, he did a live performance there, and all the people thought i'd watch, but i shocked them when i said i listened to oldies.. haha, oldies gain respect, and they do purposely learn stuff we teens do or listen to, like some of them go and make themselves listen to jay chou's songs to try to catch up with kids, but thank goodness i listen to oldies.. haha.

China horror day 7:

It was a really bad night, it was really hot and stuffy, back in kunming.. and i woke up in the middle of the night to watch HBO, we went to some temple, visited a park, where thousands of white gulls were calling me home.

And then again, we went to a place where they promoted bee products.. Oh my goodness, they're geniuses, they gave us a free foot massage to trap us from running away, then some professor attends to everyone of us to tell us where we have problems and asks us to buy this and that..

The Chinese are too much, everyday we visit a place offering some natural products that cure our daily pains, There're decades old puer tea leaves which everyone bought a whole bundle, Jade jewellery that improves blood circulation and this and that, There're bee honey powder that cures this and that..

With all these wonderful products with their ''wonderfull'' abilities to cure so many problems, you'd think the Chinese are immortal, can't we live life as it is.. The ancient people surely did not worry of their future. Like the Bible says do not worry for tomorrow, so why worry. Its definitely not nice to have to drink a cup of puer tea once before every meal and brew ourselves weird concoctions every night and try to ensure we evade the clutches of a terrible disease or illness but then, we do contract it later. If all these work so well we HAVE to be immortal! But yet death knocks on our doors when he wants to. And i see my parents falling victim to their fierce persuasion, we came light, we left so heavy.

In fact, after that, when we left, the professor told us not to drink too much puer tea which is bad for health. We all laughed. The previous day visiting a tea school, we had a whole afternoon's lecture on the GREAT effects of the puer tea which can cure slight diabetes, and improve this and that and the more we drink, the more we can avoid lots of things, really, it seemed like some miracle tea, and here they tell us not to drink too much.. hahahha, it was a big joke.. No wonder we're not immortal, they're all lying..

Oh Joy and Glee Day 8:

This day i had awaited since day 1 had finally arrived, we've been through a lot of stuff. I haven't stated i realised i have a bladder problem. After visiting the toilet, i actually visit it again and again with the time intervals lasting barely 10 mins. I remember embarrassingly how i had to pay this woman 3 times to enter the toilet within 20 minutes.. That was very embarrassing. But thankfully i didn't have that problem on the bus. The cold was great. But the bad thing was that there wasn't much shopping, i returned home pretty empty handed and my wallet still very much fat.

Yes and all you guys cannot imagine how excited i was. On the bus to the airport, i was squirming in my sit, i was restless, i can't wait to get back. And i was still squirming on the plane, and i didn't miss the takeoff this time.. Woohoo! Took my 8 painful days and i'm back finally!

And i was so touched.. haha.. when the guys from church came and welcomed me back, that's just a perfect trip.. haha..and yeah, wei hong was very jealous i didn't sms him while i did to everyone, but i really lost half of my phonebook contacts there.. haha.. which was why i couldn't wish sheryl happy birthday.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHERYL!

Just a pic.
Oh China, i hope we won't meet again so soon.

Today's short post:

I woke up early and got to church to help out a lot.. And kind kai en bought me a silver pendant to make up for my missing cross. If you guys didn't know i lost my cross while asleep and i've been wearing just a chain all these while till yay, he finally bought me one for my birthday present. I'm so touched.. haha. And it's a real pity i can't stay tonight for his farewell to the army. And yeah, i spent the day helping out for camp, moping the floor, which everyone somehow very amazing, scrubbing the floor, which everyone found very amusing.. And yes, tomorrow's camp.. wonderful camp. Goodbye people. i hope you guys are having as much fun as i am.

Closer to Home

2006-11-25T10:41:00.000+08:00

Oh yesterday was just so.. haha.. because street bandy was scheduled at 9, and i had a meeting anyway at 10, Vivian, very insistent on me taking a bus to church and not cab, gave me a morning call at 7!! My goodness, that was a really really really early morning call..And i DID not take a cab.. though i still felt like because yeah.. really rushed and stuff.. And it really really really really troublesome to take a bus all the way to outside school, cross the bridge and take another bus to church. 2 of the longest buses, 2 of the longest bus journeys..

And when i reached, the first thing Vivian asked was, ''dashaoye.. so how did you come to church?'' haha.. it would be pretty obvious i took a bus huh? If not why would she call so early.. i mean.. she would be pissed if i still took a bus.

Street bandy was pretty great.. still as intense as ever.. and me, still as busy as ever.. being the goal keeper.. haha.. and i don't stay there guarding my goal post that might be why i let in tons of goals.. i just storm forward if i get a ball.. and that became the other team's strategy. to lure me out.

Well then after that was the meeting.. which i kept very very quiet.. only until prompted.. yeah that was the meeting.. lol..

All i could remember was that was really really really hungry and when we went to eat.. i ate my 2nd favourite combo again.. this time it was 3 dollars of fried kuay teow, plus wanton mee and uhh.. mango ice kachang.. yeah.. so i was really really really really really really full and when we went back.. it was preatty much nothing..

The guys just sat around and it was really really funny.. haha.. i don't know.. everyone started going crazy, recollecting past memories of shows and songs.. especially sailormoon, lol, i myself remember i took a picture with a blue haired sailormoon character when i was still super young..I laughed so much it was equivalent to doing like 100 sit-ups, haha, could feel my stomach.. no wonder my stomach aches right now.. and i really laughed at the way ziling talks to vivian.. ziling.. is a very girly girl.. haha.. despite that.. she's the biggest bully.. she picks on me the MOST... ''hexun, sing us a song!!" "hexun! tell us a joke!'' ''hexun! I wanna see your phone! you're phone is so special, you smile everytime you look at it!" haha.. there's more. but she makes me embarrassed every 10 mins.. and the way she speaks is, ''oh you know you know yesterday i dreamt of being at prom and it was like sooo weird OHmygosh, i was soo scared, we were like getting our o' levels at prom! Oh my gosh i was like sooo scared!'' haha.. she likes to use like huh..

Well.. that was pretty much what i did in that room, except that after laughing soo much after a while.. i started covering my mouth and when everyone asked what happened, i told them my mouth was having cramps.. ahha.. because when i laugh.. i smile too.. so when i laugh a lot a lot, i smile a lot a lot.. so i end up having cramps.. haha, especially on the story whereby every guy in the army had to throw their real grenades and shout, ''GRENADE!'' , and there was this crazy guy, he threw and shouted, ''POKEMON! I CHOOSE YOU!'' haha.. when they told me that i almost fell off my chair.. ahha.. that's the stupidest craziest funniest wildest thing a guy can do! haha.. and he got the detention barracks thing after that.. haha..

So anyway, uncle james came in and asked us to play street bandy again.. so waa.. this time.. i wasn't in their team.. it was just him and kai en and someone else against all of us.. oh my goodness.. i suspected i'd really have a tough time trying to keep my goal safe.. and i did.. my goodness goodness.. everytime the ball came to uncle james and his huge arm lifts for a really powerful shot.. i get really afraid.. ahah.. I'm really thankful all their wild balls didn't hit my face once.. and there are instances whereby the ball would keep going to the both of them and they keep bombarding and bombarding and bombarding, the ball hits my stick, my thigh, my calf, my shin and sometimes my rocks.. my goodness. these attacks are just killers. not to the goal but to the poor goal keeper!!! Every strong shot is like a whip of the cane.. its just like ''pppakkk!'' so loudly on your soft skin and then you hear me gasp, ''aawhhh'' Nevertheless it was still a great workout.. really really really tiring.. exhilarating though..

Well i didn't mention i got pf a birthday present and i got her one.. haha.. so everyone was just looking at me because i'm leaving early as in i'm flying off soon so i can't take part in their birthday celebrations.. so i decided to write a card for her.. but i really had nothing to write.. so i tore a small paper of a big paper and wrote some chinese characters and pasted it on my present.. So everyone was just doing nothing, just laughing.. So when it was 530 and time to meet her.. i grabbed my present and headed out.. lol.. everyone gave me that ''woahhhhhhh!!!!!'' haha.. those sheepish smiles.. c'mon! haha..

Anyway, yeah, its kinda awkward to give a present to a girl.. although pf's already 27.. haha.. so i just gave her in her office and said happy birthday.. so she was full of gratitude and we went out for lunch..oh no.. dinner i guess.. dinner was great too.. haha. i don't know what got into me but i just kept ordering and ordering for the vegetable rice thing... chai fan la.. and i was really full again.. then we went back and talked a lot and oh no!!!!!!!!!!

haha.. pei fen wants to make me play the piano for the cyyam singspiration.. haha.... i replied, ''uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..'' when she asked.. she said its good enough she did not recommend me for the auditorium already.. uhhh.. haha.. i told her its so difficult luh.. ahha..i'm still soo lousy.. so i told her to call me when i'm at least grade 7.. haha.. when maybe i'll be better.. of course.. those are just reasons and excuses. when my mum told me to play for her bible class when i was grade 4, i told her to wait till i was grade 6.. but i still played for her that time when i was grade 4.. and i'm grade 6 now.. by right i should be playing for everyone's bible classes.. haha.. but awww darn.. its difficult..

Well then after that i had to rush to meet ying rou because she wanted to film something.. lol.. and i was just following her.. i didn't even know what she wanted to do.. i only knew she was filming bears. Then she started saying, ''so you say this this.. '' and started writing the script down while thinking, then i asked her,''why are you telling me?'' haha.. then she said i was to be the male voice.. hahaha.. So in our filming room, for some reason, many people gathered.. ohh it was so embarrassing.. so when they started filming.. i put up my sexy voice, haha.. i had to kept saying stuff like, ''Laura, i have another gift for you, do you like this ring? Would you go steady with me?'' haha.. yeah. the film's publicity for the camp tackling bgr stuff.. and haha.. everyone burst out laughing everytime i finished saying something and the camera stopped rolling.. haha.. i guess my voice was.. uhh.. toooo sexy.. haha..

So shu mei started bullying me too and started calling me laura.. haha.. she said i sounded really funny.. haha.. hey, i tried putting on a seductive yet soft and manly and sexy voice okay! haha..

After that was prayer meeting, my first ever.. and i went up to the annex and vivian brought my bag up.. haha.. ''i'm really like your maid huh? first have to give you morning call, now have to bring your bag!'' haha.. oh i thought i'd take my bag afterwards maa. haha. So yes, prayer meeting, and aunty shu ying shared her wonderful testimony of pain in the hospital after getting burned by hot water.. my my, i wouldn't have been able to tolerate all the pain.. eww, it was pure horror. yet through all her pain and her story we could see God's amazing power.. That was about it, it was really late, like 930 and we split into groups to pray for stuff and ye and xl were once again in my group.. haha.. they made me laugh till my throat pained and daren't laugh any longer.. haha..

So after that pf told Vivian to accompany me home and take me to amk to take another bus.. haha.. so Vivian could qualify to be my mum huh? Haha.. on the bus ziling continued her painful bullying.. haha.. but hey! she noticed my elf ears! haha.. i was sitting in front of them and ziling whispered something to vivian like, ''he's got elf ears!'' haha, then she asked me to turn and said ''see! see! he's got elf ears!!'' YES!!! Finally! My ears gain recognition! Though they already have.. haha.. but no one's told me until lee yen did.. and ziling noticed! hahaha.. So when she was alighting she laughed and asked me if she was bullying me.. DUH! haha.. but i just said i'm afraid.. haha..

Well we got to the interchange and vivian waited with me... and she said she knew i was busy with my cca.. and she inquired about the video stuff.. and she asked if i went for competitions.. then i just said yeah. snooker competitions.. lol..then i said, which had nothing to do with my cca.. Then she was puzzled.. so actually she thought i was in a cca called snooker.. haha.. what on earth would the cca snooker be doing making videos for a competition? haha.. so i told her i'm in journalism and she wouldn't believe it.. haha. Okay so i went home after that.. what a long long way home from church..

Yes i woke up today and my body's paining.. my goodness. I'll be leaving soon, in the morning of this sunday.. for china.. oh china.. lol.. Its china again.. but i guess its too big and we'll never explore enough of it.. haha.. But yet i'm certain i'd be bored to death there too.. i'm just looking forward to the cold.. And if anyone's kindhearted enough to not let me die of boredome. do message me! haha.

Enjoy the holidays!

Worry

2006-11-22T17:00:00.000+08:00

Another new day.. i opened my eyes and i was really really tired.. i really wanted to fall back to my unconcious state.. but i just had to fight hard to keep myself concious.. after all, i promised kai en yesterday i'd go to church to play street bandy, its just floorball but smaller space and the space is enclosed.. so its like street soccer.. it's at 10!!! My goodness.. So i managed to do the hardest sit up.. the sit up from sleep sit up.. oh my.. then i ran to my room and realised after i switched on my phone he already gave me a few messages.. thank goodness it was still 930.. But oh.. it'll take a long time to get to church..

So i quickly ate breakfast and bathed and wore shorts and a shirt and brought along Cat and Dog theology xl lent me since the bus ride will be looong.. Ah.. i'd probably take an hour to reach, so i decided against bringing an extra shirt and bringing shoes.. i just wore those sporty shorts and.. slippers.. haha.. Oh its just so troublesome to head to church from my home.. have to take 163 to toa payoh and take another 155.. thankgoodness i had the great book to entertain me..

And when i finally did arrive.. they were playing and once again, uncle james greeted me with much enthusiasim which warmed me.. lol.. So i picked up a stick and got in.. in slippers, while everyone else wore shoes.. And yeah.. they stole me away.. me uncle james and kai en against 5 others.. haha.. And i got my favourite position, the keeper!

At this point.. i'd love to tell the world how good ke and uncle james are.. goodness me.. oh my.. I just can't describe it.. ke, though he's not a VERY fast person while playing floorball.. his skills and his movement.. it seems like he's moving like the wind.. One hand holding that stick.. and that stick seems to by his magic wand. His movements are just quick and just.. amazing.. curving his stick in and out.. avoiding other people's sticks and you'll find in the end.. the ball's still stuck to his stick like his dog.. it doesn't move and with one fell swooop.. the ball's in the net. If any of you guys who've played in school think you're good.. hahaha.. wait till you play against him..What amazes me is what he can do with his ball.. once he got the ball and went all the way up slowly.. and EVERYONE from the opposite team just gathered around the goal post forming a wall.. I looked at him.. he was looking for something.. so i thought, probably an opening? And i noticed one between a few legs.. a very tiny opening.. just enough for that little ball.. But that's impossible isn't it? Whoever can slide that ball through that whole must be inhuman.. and he did it effortlessly.. just lifted the ball up and it was in the net.. the guys surronding the goal post didn't even know what happened.. because his movement is not like golf.. you swing all the way back and you strike it hard.. he just sorta carries his stick up and flings it in..

And he did it!! That was totally amazing.. it's magic i tell you.. And uncle james.. big menacing figure.. standing at like 1.9 or 2 metres tall.. he definitely is intimidating.. he is not much of dribbling and speed.. but power and precision.. well once i let in a goal.. and he was to start again.. and there were three people lined up blocking him, blocking the goal.. And the three people really stood in line.. He just carried the ball up and curved his stick inward and the ball curled in sweet and soundlessly.. haha.. that's just beauty..

And i didn't really get to play much.. though i really let in many goals.. Uncle james came up to my after the game telling me i'm a great shot stopper but i don't have the know how to bring the ball up.. that's why i block and block and block but i they keep shooting till they score.. but the truth is.. i couldn't bring the ball up because i was in slippers.. i found it difficult because i couldn't run and my body couldn't get into a good position to hit hard.. so i only managed sissy shots.. haha.. but my best position is still the keeper.. though if you guys play against me i might look funny.. the way i block is like soccer.. and sometimes the guys think i'm striking a pose.. haha.. but it works okay.. So hexun's popularity as goal keeper -4.. sigh =( next time i'm gonna wear my shoes and do the team proud!

Well after that was the painful night tour meeting.. my goodness.. we found quite a lot of loopholes.. and my my.. lots of problems in a particular game.. so it gave us a big big big headache.. we were stuck in the cold room for hours.. and yes.. we found the solution.. and all you guys out there better make up to my dead brain cells by coming! It's gonna be so funn..

After that excruciating meeting.. we went for lunch.. and i just transformed into a beastly beast.. i unleashed myself upon the food.. i couldn't believe myself either..its the most i've eaten.. Well, i was hungry.. I first bought wanton mee.. and i finished it.. Then it was sooooo spicy my tongue almost dropped out.. okay, it was so spicy my head was kinda throbbing.. so i quickly ran to buy mango ice kachang.. then i saw this guy carrying a plate of mouthwatering fried kuay teow.. so i sat down and started eating.. and realised, ''hey, hexun, you're hungry!'' So i told the guys i felt like buying the kuay teow.. the guys stared at me. lol.. So it took a while for me to decide.. so after two mouths of ice kachang i ran off to buy kuay teow.. then i wolfed it down and the guys clapped after i finished the kuay teow.. then i slowly finished my ice kachang.. haha.. the guys only had one dish and they had to wait for me to finish 3 dishes.. oh my.. but i'm still not fat =(
Girls around the world would die to get metabolism like mine.. haha.. to eat 3 meals a meal and still by darn skinny..

Enjoy your holidays!

Facial Defence

2006-11-20T20:44:00.000+08:00

I've been sooo tired recently. Just yesterday once again i was out for the whole day. Started in church then went off to xiao ling's house to watch her film and do the night tour meeting.. then all the way to eating dinner and rushing all the way to wei en's grandmother's funeral once again. I've attended their grandmother's funeral twice and my parent's only attended it for 5 to 10 mins.. tsk tsk.. well yeah.. kinda funny shaking the hands of their relatives twice.. THEN, xl wasn't done and demanded another meeting with wai yee and me.. my goodness.. and we ended up at the nearby hawker centre doing our programming.. we just laughed about pretty much.. nothing fruitful.. loll.. They laughed all the way till like 10!!!!!!!!!!!! What am i doing so far away from home 10 o clock at night?!%###$&@ So i kinda panicked lol.. and went all the way back to s'pore caskets to look if pf's still there.. only to find out even she has gone home.. sigh.. then i called my dad as my last resort..

Its like these few days.. my oil reserves have hit the negatives.. i'm like totally broke for some reason.. it really pains me to bring an empty wallet out. i feel really helpless.. lol.. My dad gave me money on monday.. Monday i had dragon kiln.. and i already spent alllllll the money on that monday.. Then from friday to saturday to sunday.. i spent full days out.. whatever my dad gave me i totally finished them.. Its like going out with the guys... ''hexun, want to eat or not?'' Then i have to give that pathetic face and say, ''no money'' Or i'll have to turn to my brother for money.. he on the other hand, has a HUGE oil reserve and to top that, a gold mine.. he already paid for a lot of my stuff.. taxi fare.. food.. lol..it pains me to see him spend his money too.. Yeah.. so the guys have been treating me lots of food.. i thank all you kind souls.. i will repay you guys! haha.. And i complained to my dad.. thankfully thankfully thankfully he believed me and decided to invest in my business.. now i'm back in business! weeeee.. feels good to have money in the wallet!

Yes, so now let's get to the main topic.. As the title suggests.. i'm in need to strengthen my facial defence.. my facial walls are crumbling!!!!! HELP! I need to get some oxy fast.. !! haha.. Its like spending the whole day out and sleeping so late everyday is giving me TONS AND TONS of pimples!! help! I'm like dying! Do i need to mention some of them come in pairs.. some even thriplets! i'm sooooo dead.. having good skin isn't gonna be one of my traits for long if i don't do something about my defence..

Well today had another ej meeting at my house.. thank goodness its at my house.. i almost couldn't get out of bed.. and goodness me.. widya's sick .. and the myth's with her.. so they came and did absolutely nothing.. just listening to me play the piano.. lol.. argh.. we've already gone so far.. i don't want this to die! I mean, everything's been edited perfectly.. but now its the subtitles for the interview and the filming of the myth! That's still quite alot considering that dan guy expecting us to show him by this week.

So that's it.. we did NOTHING.. haiya.

Flaming passion

2006-11-18T22:22:00.000+08:00

Great day Saturday. It's a good day to pig in bed. Well, i woke up eaarrrllly in the morning at 730am because my dad said if i wanted him to fetch me to Marina bay MRT i had to follow them.. Lol.. so my dad fetched my mum to some office retreat.. then my dad fetched me to some market to have a great breakfast. Then after that he fetched me off to Marina mrt alone.. lol.. and i realised i didn't bring anything.. only my phone.. i didn't even bring my wallet.. lol.. so my dad scolded me, gave me some money and his ez-link..

Thankfully they were already waiting.. the whole crew was there except cheng huan.. and i was wearing black.. plus bermudas.. plus flip flops.. then shumei asked kai en to give me all his ''cool'' accessories which included some uhh.. diamond studded leather wrist thingy.. and a black band.. and a cross pendant.. though i have one but i lost my cross sleeping.. lol.. So anyway.. when i put on those accessories..everyone started saying i looked like a beng already.. sigh.. i think i want to pierce my ear too. haha!

Anyway.. we got to the arcade at Marina south? And started getting ready.. My goodness the guys are so serious luh.. lol.. camera.. and the mikes.. even the extended one the guy has to carry.. and ear phones.. and the board thing for takes for shots.. My goodness. they went to the extent of putting foundation on our faces.. haha.. when fiana was unwrapping the foundation.. i asked her.. ''what's that?'' Then she simply answered, ''foundation'' lol.. almost fainted.. she powdered my whole face.. though.. its not that new to me. .haha!They took quite a while to get ready.. i changed 5 dolllars in 50cent coins.. lol.. Then when they started filming.. i put one coin in the game! But before long they cutttttt.. had to redo.. wahhh. .ahha.. i wasted 50 cents.. Haha. .the first few scenes were quite easy. just switching games with my pals too..

The next few were difficult.. because they included many closeups of me.. and some scenes i had to do alone.. with my own body language.. no lines to speak.. i really really really really really really really hope i don't look like an idiot. But i think i do.. i guess.. hopefully the beng accessories make me look more of a beng than an idiot.. haha..

It was really really tiring and troublesome.. we had to do shots for everything.. walking in the arcade from the outside.. walking in the arcade from the inside.. everything.. And after that.. time to come to my home for more filming.

Lol on the bus robelle messaged me she met some of my church people doing street e in toa payoh for events i already invited her for the previous night.. lol.. what a coincidence.. oh yes.. i have to mention my dad's ez link couldn't even work.. lol.. problem with the giro.. had to use cash for all the transport.. so had to buy a stupid ticket to take a train to toa payoh before we took a bus back home..

Wow.. i almost died on the way home.. the scorching sun, and the tremendously hot and scorching sun.. lol.. we were walking in the desert.. all parted.. like we left huge gaps.. lol.. all giving their best.. their energy to walk up the slope.. Hope imran didn't believe the ridiculous story on why my house located on the top of the hill. I told him because my grandfather fought all the other villagemen to vy for the top of the kill.. so he became the king of the hill.. lol.. So yeah.. we finally reached.. and lots more filming to do!%!#%

I thought i understood filming when i did dragon kiln.. the guys almost killed me.. There's this scene i'm sleeping in front of the computer.. then someone wakes me up.. i look at the clock.. get shocked..shout something, grab my bag and run out of the door. Yan heng made me practice that.. and i did it 3 times for an angle.. then he switched to another angle.. did another 3 times.. he switched to a total of 4 angles and i did 3 times for each angle.. do you guys have any idea how tiring that is? And not to mention.. i have to act surprised 12 times..

That's not it.. he filmed me twice running down the stairs from the inside of the room. Twice running out from the outside to the stairs. Twice running down the stairs from the bottom of the stairs.. 3 times from the stairs to the door. 3 times from the door to opening to getting out. 3 times for one angle of getting on my slippers and running off.. 2 times of another angle of getting on my slippers and running off.. And 3 times of me running off...

I went up drenched in sweat.. lol..

Then i was playing cs and i had to make a phonecall.. and the room was kinda congested and everyone was in it.. i had to film that awkward scene 5-6 times.. yeah luh there were some bloopers.. like because i was really playing the game then i wanted to kill this guy after i called.. so i dragged some stuff about..

Lol then the next scene was kai en sleeping in my room and receiving my phone call.. haha.. someone was supposed to call him.. and they assigned me to call him to make his phone make noise.. so when everything was ready and the camera started rolling.. i continued watching and forgot to call him.. haha!

So that was about it for the day.. just another scene whereby the guys came over to my house to play.. that took another while.. Then they had to go off to another film site.. Kai en asked if i wanted to go with him back to church.. but i felt like meeting robelle! haha.. so he went off too.. Then i just bathed once more and redressed for church.. I dropped off at central to meet robelle and drop off my library book and we did chat about lots of stuff although we only met for a short while..before i took a bus to church again..

Well i reached church and started practising for a song for pei en's grandma's funeral.. oh goodness. its such a nice song.. i fell in love with it immediately. haha.. when cheng hong shared his score with me while practising.. the guys were singing the guys part soooo loww yet in the majestic ''high'' way and i was wondering if i should shift to the girls section.. haha.. i can't hit the low notes! nor can i hit the really really high ones.. that makes me in the middle.. though my middle's still relatively high.. that makes me belong to the girls.. haha... But the chorus is just sooo wonderful.. i'd love to sing it again..Yes, uncle james tested us to perfection..

Then we took a bus down to near sg caskets and we had our lunch.. poor me. .haah i spent all the time i had trying to memorize the lyrics.. It's so difficult!! haha.. i yanked all my hair out trying to memorize.. trying to memorize during dinner.. trying to memorize on the bus.. till we reached.. i still couldn't memorize.. Then i was so afraid.. I still couldn't memorize!!! No matter how much pei fen tested me.. my mind was still blank.. in the end..i found out so many people didn't memorize too.. they tried last minute.. unlike me! tsk.. no fair.. then kai en just said.. take the paper luh.. cause he couldn't memorize.. haha.. and he was the one singing so with feel in the annex.. i thought i was the only problem since i was the latecomer.. haha.. in the end we went up to sing and i went to the back.. and i kept my head down most of the time looking.. lol.. thankfully i brought it man.. there was no way i could've memorized up there without the paper..

Yes, the beautiful song.. finally sung.. i was pondering afterward.. i'd love the youth to sing this song at my funeral THAT IS if i die within these few years..haha..If i die 80 years later of course not luh..oh course.. sat through everything..close to tearing during the speech and after that.. went home.. goodness. what a big fight.. haha.. the guys were trying to psych us to take a bus.. then we couldn't get a cab, we as in my brother and me.. so we took a bus to ang mo kio.. but li kuan still tried to stop me from taking cab.. my brother almost followed her.. they were already at the bus stop.. i just waited at the traffic light.. till i finally managed to use my eyes to psych him to take a cab.. lol.. ITS SO LATE!

Yes.. i'm tired.. i'm so tired.. out the whole whole day.. haha.. i had fun yes..

Rekindled flame

2006-11-17T21:25:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. what did i do yesterday? oh yes, i went to ICA with my mum to collect my new passport.. I really don't wanna make a new passport =( because, i like my old passport's picture.. haha.. that's a nice picture of me.. haha.. Anyway.. reached there and sat there for like 1 whole hour waiting.. watching tom and jerry on the television.. and i think, they do it everyday.. because i remember watching tom and jerry on the television there too some years back.. lol.. Anyway my passport is out, finally its done..

So today i was determined to finish another paper for the chinese homework.. but ended up just doing nothing on my chair.. so that was today morning.. my mum isn't gonna motivate me to do something for my hols.. she's too busy studying for her psychology exams.. and it ends today =( which means.. she's gonna make me do stuff again.. and my dad.. who threatens me with my pocket money unless i clear my bed.. lol.. its full of books and worksheets from this past year.. in fact.. my bed has been like this for the whole year.. i rarely sleep there anyway.. but i really don't wanna clear it. I'm a really lazy person.

So after lunch i went off with my brother to church for sc.. and my my.. singapore was really really hoottt today.. since i was broke.. i kept psyching my brother to take a cab.. i just kept complaining about the heat and i'd get a heat stroke and stuff.. i was just sweating bullets when i reached the bus stop.. but he was very strict and just wanted to take the bus.. its mighty troublesome you know! I have to switch bus! Halfway i suddenly shouted, ''OH!" haha.. then he looked back.. then i said i forgot to bring my ez-link.. haha.. then he kept scolding me idiot and gave me that stupid smile.. so while we were walking towards the side of the road to hail a cab.. how could i be that mean? So i told him i actually brought my wallet... haha.. then we went back to take a bus again.. but i kept complaining and complaining that he surprisingly got psyched and hailed a cab! WEEE haha.. i guess he knew it was hot too and he was quite glad i didn't bring my ezlink to be used as an excuse to take a cab.. but he already was in the ''cab mood'' so he went ahead to cab.. haha..

So guys.. i'm a scheming idiot.. i think i should write a book on 1001 sneaky moves.. lol.. Anyway.. i enjoyed the cab ride.. haha.. and we reached soon afterward.. my my.. we had many seekers for sc today.. and i just wasn't happy because of something.. anyway.. i entertained the kids by playing uno and they really treated me like their big brother.. so what pf said was true.. kids their age look up to me like a big brother.. haha.. that's great! Lol.. so anyway.. i just kept quiet most of the time and smiled when i had to.. and sad to say.. i was too bored to see them fighting amongst themselve to ''draw 2 or draw 4'' whoever and try to win that i cheated.. and i won myself.. lol! I'm a scheming idiot.. sigh.. haha.. sometimes, in life.. you have to cheat to win.. hahaha..

Anyway that was about it.. other than that.. i just busied myself testing the keyboard and after that.. pf called me up to meet her..

Sigh.... its been long since we had a meeting.. mostly because i've always evaded her due to my laziness.. and i'm glad my flame has been finally rekindled. Long since i had a good fruitful meeting.

After the meeting i sat a bus home alone.. and when i was walking on the bridge for a change of bus i met phyllis!?#%?@# haha.. what's she doing in school so late?! Bet its councillor stuff.. anyway she waved at me when she saw me i don't know what i did.. i think i smiled and waved.. or did i just smile? Anyway i didn't know why i didn't open my mouth to say hi..lol.. she still looks a little fierce to me.. haha..

That was it.. there's going to be a busy day ahead tomorrow! have to rush to marina south at like.. 930 in the morning for an arcade scene.. then they're coming to my house for a large scene on me.. oh my goodness. maybe i should clear my bed.. lol.. i hope i won't act too badly tomorrow.. the movie's gonna be view by many many people.. haha.. i better try not to look stupid..

Time is an essence!

Misunderstood

2006-11-15T19:21:00.000+08:00

Here begins another long and boring post, though i'll try as much as possible to lessen the boringness of the post.

Well it began in the morning, oh how i miss my beauty sleep, the sound of your feet swiping across the cool bed and resting your rosy cheeks on the soft, tender surface of the pillow, oh my.. till i had to get up early for ej.. sigh.. Well i woke up really early, i arranged to meet in school at 9, i woke at 750, i thought i had enough time, so i pretty much took my own sweet time getting ready. Well, after i finished bathing, while i was still half naked, mr yeo called me to tell me he had to pass me the cam and had no way to meet me in school, he asked me to go to novena to meet, him.. but i can't! I wanted to clear my locker! So i had to make many calls this morning, half naked and walking about.. In the end.. i left the house at 850..

Oh great, thanks dan! When i walked out, i just missed 163, oh great.. thanks dan! So i'm late, great! And i didn't want the guys to wait, all the more for kenny to wait at the dragon kiln for us.. all the more fizzy at novena waiting alone.. So i decided to hail a cab.. And due to my cursed luck and maybe due to my good friend dan, had a long queue.. there were two indian men far far in front waiting for cabs.. goodness.. i'll be late.. and the cabs NEVER pass by outside my house, they're always hired.. So i was kinda pissed i'd be late and was afraid to think of the guys.. about how they'd kill me.. because i had to wait for 2 cabs! Thankfully thankfully thankfully there was this free cab... and thanks to my wonderful luck.. the two indians didn't see it! WAHOO! lol.. so i was smiling to myself while i hailed that lucky cab which took me all the way to school and its that darn cab that charged me 2 bucks extra fee..

Oh so.. when i finally reached school.. i rushed to my locker and tried to open it.. my goodness. to my horror i couldn't even open it.. i was wondering if i forgot.. correct what... 22-04-15 ma.. haha.. why cannot open one? Haha, i was thinking maybe someone changed my lock because it had a different feel.. sigh.. brought my bag for nothing.. so we set off for jurong mrt to meet fizzy and mr manly imran.. couldn't even carry the laptop i had to carry it for him.. plus my bag.

Oh man.. on the train.. my throat was so dry it was killing me.. and imran just talked a load of nonsense... when we passed yishun station, he started saying, ''you know right, this place is north point ah, beside it got the cinema, can buy popcorn, then i always buy salted because i like salted, hexun i know you always buy sweet because you're very sweet right?'' that's hilarious.. lol..

Yeah and so, we reached jurong and we bought some breakfast and we jumped in a cab and headed to the dragon kiln. Kenny was already there.. So kenny briefed the guys what to do.. i was just to do the shooting and the guys, kj and imran were to back me up. I don't know.. kj was ultra irritating.. i just don't wanna be mean to him but he really irritated me a lot.. Kenny told us that whoever had a shot in mind just go ahead and shoot it, so i had my shot, so i went ahead to shoot it, but he came over and kept saying stuff like i think this should be here and that should be there, though i was a little pissed i just kept quiet. I'm doing my shott!!! I'll give you the cam when you get your idea!! Then he told us he'd be a better director than us.. oh my..

Well that was it.. me and imran took many many shots. And i was taking the interior of the dragon kiln when widya popped her head in, ''hexun! there're monkeys ouside!! quick quick!!" lol.. i quickly ran out and found a large group of monkeys climbing the poles above.. FINALLY! the monkeys are out!!! So i quickly went up the stairs and started filming them too.. Oh my.. one little monkey saw me from the opposite side of the bridge, i placed the video recorder on the floor and filmed it.. it ran all the way up to me! haha.. he came so close i started to get afraid he'd take a swipe at me or something.. but imran came up and it ran off.. sooooo cute! haha..

Then i got down for more monkey shots.. it was that same cute little monkey again.. with a cute mini pineapples in its hands.. i don't know if that pineapple was a dud..but the monkey ran from the forest all the way up to my camera.. it's so cute..haha. ''The monkey came so close it almost kissed me!" haha.. kenny almost slapped me when i told the guys this.. haha..

Anyway.. that was most of the shooting i did.. kenny brough me out to do the time lapse with me.. and we left the camera rolling for 20 mins pointed at the sky.. But the cloud cover was really weak so we didn't really get much from it. That was pretty much about it.. we then gathered back under the fan and watched the videos we took from the past few days as the girls were editing em.. and eww.. i look stupid as i always do.. haha..

Anyway, our good friend dan told us much earlier on we needed to redo the myth.. so me and imran just sat on a chair in front of the pot.. and i finally came up with a way to connect the dragon on the monkeys.. lol.. So that's our new myth.. another job done..

We left soon afterward.. at about 1230.. and we walked out to the gates.. just outside.. we dropped all the equipment and started filming once more.. kenny wanted to take the gates.. so i was holding the tripod and some of the equipments when widya said.. ''eww hexun!! all the mosquitoes are around you!'' I thought she meant she got bitten a lot while standing close to me.. but when i looked at myself.. there were 7-8 mosquitoes swirling around me.. What could i do.. first reaction was to scream like a girl! haha.. it was sooo terrifying! although.. its not surprising.. i'm always the only one to get mass attacked by mosquitoes.. and they were mass attacking me!!! AND KENNY!!! haha.. poor kenny.. there were sooooooo mannny mosquitoes attacking him.. even more than they attack me.. what i hate is mosquitoes who elude my powerful slaps. but thankfully those mosquitoes were easy prey.. though i missed many of em.. but i killed many of em too.. i even double killed on kenny's leg.. lol.. In the end his legs were both all red with those mosquito lumpy thingys.. and mine was my right hand.. those vile creatures..

We walked all the way out and took a bus which took us all the way back to jurong point. Well after we reached something happened while we were making our way into the mall.

WELL..... while we were all walking down the stairs.. we encountered several ah lian looking girls dressed quite skimpily.. they were asking for donations.. and they were REALLY FIERCE!!! I mean.. they just put their hand to obstruct path and just ask for donations sooooo fiercely!!! Lol.. I was the last and i was carrying most of the equipment.. When i saw how fierce they were in my mind.. i was already at, ''oh no!'' But seeing my crew just storm past them like nothing.. i thought i'd be safe too.. oh dear.. till it was my turn.. one girl just obstructed me and asked me to donate.. i saw huda ahead.. still walking.. ''c'mon.. okay.. just smile and walk away." But then.. i guess the other girls had telepathy and they seemed to say, ''dudettes! This stupid looking guy is an easy fry.. look at his stupid face! It spells: I'M HOOKED!!!" My goodness. the other girls swarmed over me like flies and i was a hapless soul.. The last of huda i saw was her legs.. rushing past.. Surely, my crew would wait for me?

I was stuck alone.. to all the pleads and begs and their sweet talks but i just kept smiling... i was so embarassed la.. i didn't even know what to do.. all the bags and equipment in hand.. they just bombarded me like hookers.. Then they said, ''monitor right! Should do the right thing! Come la! 2 dollars only. " I looked over.. kenny and the crew were looking from afar.. giving me that ''get it over and done with" look.. but i just kept looking helplessly at them, trying the ''kenny.. kenny.. help me! please! help me!'' But i didn't dare to mouth ''help me" I just gave them those sad eyes.. but they wouldn't help me!!! WAHHHHH.. I just kept smiling at them and the reason why i didn't say anything is because i HAVE NO MONEY!!! Alright.. thanks to my good friend dan.. i spent lots of money on the cab fare.. i had 2 bucks left and i need that 2 bucks!! there's no way i'm gonna give them my only money left!

But i felt, giving them that stupid reason wouldn't satisfy them and they'll surely beg me till i gave them 2 bucks since i was already hooked there.. So i told them, ''but i really have no money!'' then they pointed at kenny and asked, ''that's your teacher right? Ask him to give 2 dollars la!'' Then i just led them.. lol.. i felt like a hostage! haha.. Then i finally got back to the guys.. while the brave kenny negotiated with them, and finally pulled out 2 1 dollar coins out of his wallet. Lol.. and he got a pen in return.. Wahhhhh.. i was a victim of blame and all the verbal assault as we had lunch..

''you ah! make me waste my 2 dollars for a pen!" scolded kenny jokingly. Then he started saying i this type only have an eye for girls.. sigh.. the others also thought i only wanted to flirt with those girls.. sigh.. what could i do? Lol.. honestly.. i really hate to reject people.. even if they were guys.. i'd probably be in the same fix.. if they ask casually to donate.. i might just kindly decline and walk past.. but if they really insist and follow me and talk lots of nonsense.. by then.. i feel its really rude to reject.. oh i really don't have the heart to say no.. and that's how sometimes my money flys away.. lol.. remembering last time some guy walked up to me and latif to sell us tickets.. latif walked past.. but i stayed behind once more.. then he came back.. in the end.. he forked out 5 bucks and i forked out 5 bucks to buy a ticket.. haha.. i'm such a poor thing! ='(

Anyway.. we had lunch and i bought my favourite combo, chicken rice with carrot cake! wahaha.. but i shared the carrot cake with imran of course.. yeah.. after i finished.. fizzy couldn't even finish half of her chicken rice.. sigh.. but i'm still as skinny.. high metabolism what.. what to do.. haha.. And kenny asked me if i prefered video to photography.. i said photography.. he said he thinks i have an eye for photography.. okayyy.. so i also have another eye.. one eye for girls yeah? haha..

Anyway.. we headed off soon and kenny reminded me to take that pen, he personally put it in my breast pocket, ''don't even forget this pen!'' haha.. And we were headed out again.. this time.. to do voxpop.. its just interviewing the public, and we were gonna interview the public on the dragon kiln. haiyo.. of course in the beginning it was difficult la.. like at first only me was supposed to take a video of the people walking.. so i went alone.. and thankfully kj and imran followed. Stand in the middle of the crowd.. and start taking a video.. when i started.. kj started straying away already.. thankfully imran stayed by my side..

Then, was voxpop.. widya interviewed many people.. and i was the camera man again.. haha.. most of them were just ''don't know leh'' when prompted to make a guess, its still ''don't know.. heehee.'' Most of em were like that.. except two cute little girls.. haha.. We approached them and they were eating seaweed.. haha.. then they didn't even have any objections to the camera or whatsoever.. so we asked them,

Widya: Do you know what's the dragon kiln?
Cute small girl #1 and Cute small girl #2: don't know
Widya: What do you think it is? (to cute small girl #1)
Cute small girl #1: dragon
Widya: what about you? (to cute small girl #2)
Cute small girl #2: kiln
Fizzy(from behind the camera): WAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA!!!!HAHAHAHAHH!H!H!H

hahaha.. they were soo cute.. haha..and yeah.. when we interviewed old men.. they could tell us long stories about the dragon kiln.. haha.. not what we were expecting.. so it was okay.. we also interviewed two sporty caucasians.. who were so friendly.. unlike most singaporeans..tsk tsk.. So it was pretty successful.. though standing there as a group in uniform with cameras and notepads is quite embarassing and nervewrecking? Well i'm used to it in doing street e anyway..

So we wrapped everything up and soon, we were dismissed.. Ahh.. took a long long train ride and decided to drop off at yishun with imran to take a direct bus home.

And kind and nice imran unexpectedly treated me to old chang kee's famous curry puff he told me because i've always helped and accompanied him.. haha.. so nice.. thank you imran!! So yes.. the long bus ride all the way home.. And all the way finally. to my warm yet cold but most importantly, comfortable bed.. =)

Have a great week guys! Time's an essence!

Time is an essence

2006-11-14T12:43:00.000+08:00

Today is storytelling time. Time, is a big word, this post will motivate me to not daydream at home... and hopefully motivate everyone too.. because today morning.. still sleeping at 1030, while flipping around the bed, i couldn't help but think about my o'levels.. hahaha, its still really really far away isn't it? But if i don't do something now, the nearer it gets, the more i'll panic. I'd probably get 54 for my o's, but i'm still worrying badly because up till now i haven't really satisfied my mum, and i definitely don't want to disappoint her again. So i jumped up freshened up and ran to my room, only to find myself lazing on my bed again, i really want to start on homework, its impossible.

Fiana called me 4 times this morning, to inform me about details about the shooting this saturday, they're coming to my house to do shooting, oh my. And that morning i have to go to marina south arcade or something to do another scene, and i have to dress cool. I don't have cool clothing. haha. And last night ying rou called me to ask me to go down on friday to do shooting for another short film, and the previous night the director kenny briefed me on details about the shooting on wednesday. I'm certainly having a busy week! Well thankfully yuan hong told me last night i'd be unable to join their group in the shooting of the advertisement as i'm already involved in the dragon kiln. I do not know if they're still doing tau sar pia, but they've told me they want a change in idea, which is a real pity because i think tau sar pia is a great idea. Its really too bad wei zhou didn't have enough action, all he had was talk.. i've nothing more to say about him, we've become sick and tired of getting really excited about some brilliant ideas he brings up, we do them enthusiastically and he seems to just forget anything. My worst fears have come true, i knew tau sar pia would never come out from the start. That was why in the beginning when me and wei zhou were so excited i kept reminding him he had to be serious about it and that i really wanted an award, i thought i could finally trust him then.. well i though wrong then..

So i tried really hard to sit at my table but while reading a chinese passage i heard my brother playing pool downstairs, i haven't seen him play pool since the early days when we just bought the table. And i rushed down after the passage, begging him for a game, but he declined. Oh you guys have no idea how much i begged him for a game, i almost went on my knees trying to ask for one. And when he finally did, it was only one unsatisfactory game. Sigh, i remember when we just bought the table we would spend the whole night playing.. I guess i was still lousy then, after i started taking pool seriously i spent most of my time playing alone. Well i can't blame him too, no one likes to lose. But even so, he should just play for fun, nothing is at stake, he's got nothing to lose.. only TIME. Unlike wei hong, who always comes up to me to talk about pool and asks me out quite a lot, wanting me to teach him. Of course, if you ask me it seems pretty ironic, remembering the times when i was still a small boy, barely the height of the pool table, i saw the big guys, wei hong and the others playing pool, and i was always excluded, its a big boys game, besides, i'm not tall enough. Haha, and it wasn't until last year when i went overseas with him that he really learnt a lot from me, in fact, he even told pei en, who is like, the biggest brother in my eyes, the philospher, i'm awestruck everytime he speaks, and its quite awkward, sitting opposite him in lunch, and he asks me, ''hey, teach me how to play pool one day!'' haha, of course, i wish he'd talk to me about a much civilised subject rather than pool, like he once asked me about lotr, he too, is a fan, oh well.

Anyway, i'll begin my story on time, its taken from some book from my church camp, and some from books i read, so hopefully after everyone reads it they'd start studying at get 6 points for their o's. Well, time is really important, nobody can ask for more or throw away some.. but we can choose to use it conciously or unconciously, with conciousness, we can definitely produce something fruitful. I mean, we should definitely spend our time wisely, knowing what to do when. Urgent things like studying and paying bills, to enjoyable things like surfing and chatting, which unknowingly takes up much of our time.. ''we have to do something to kill time!'' to the people to say this often, time is immortal, but our life isn't, we shouldn't let small amounts of time slip away from our hands. Instead of worrying over the coming exams, why not spend time studying for it? I guess its just my biggest weakness.. time slips away from me all the time, every second goes by while i laze on the sofa, till then, its night time and i'm still lying on the sofa watching the television! Well wouldn't it be better if i had spent that amount of time learning something? For example reading a book? An average student would have to read a passage 3 times to understand a passage, but someone who has a strong command of the language would need just once. Reading storybooks or newspapers might seem like they help little, but they'll definitely benefit you in the long run instead of lazing in front of the tv i guess..

We think that time is necessary for everything we have to do or understand. Therefore time becomes a burden, it becomes a barrier to actual perception, it prevents us from seeing the truth of something immediately because we think we must take time over it.

I've once been told a story of the jellyfish and the salmon by pf, she told me when a salmon is born, it swims from the rivers to the oceans. It is at the oceans where they spend most of their adult lives. But it is strange, something not even scientists understands, why, during a point of their adult life, they start swimming back to where they once came from, that is thousands of miles away, up the river to where they were born. according to uncle james, he once saw a documentary on one determined salmon that even swam through a maze of pipes and nudged open a gate to re-enter the hatchery where it was born, there is when they lay eggs and die.

Then there's the jelly fish, jellyfish are born in the ocean and they die there too, they have limited movement but never use their ability to go anywhere, they're moved along primarily by the wind and waves and tides, they drift about stinging and surviving. That's their life, drifting about aimlessly.

Now are you more of a jellyfish or a salmon? Well, the salmon spends a whole lot of their lives with a mission, that is to go to the ocean, and to return to the rivers, while the jellyfish wanders about aimlessly, though they're carefree.. Well that's the story about time management, whether we're just doing nothing, staring at nothing, dreaming of good results, or working hard to get it.. now i'll constantly read this post to motivate me.. haha.. Now i've probably wasted 5 mins of your time, probably more if you're grasp of the language isn't good, haha, so read a book right now!

Time, is an essence.

Oh yes, i forgot to mention how cool kenny is.. haha.

Kenny: Hey bro, kenny here. So confirm call time 10:30am at dragon kiln?
Me: Yes.. At ten thirty
Kenny: Roger tat boss. Cya guys tomolo.

haha, he sounds like some cool dude, i'm like 10 years his junior i guess. I wonder what happens if i'm a girl.. hey sis, kenny here, so confirm call time 10:30am at dragon kiln? Do they call girls sis? lol.. Anyway.. I'd love to have another brother.. haha, having my brother now is like being a single child =( he doesn't play with me =((..

Time, is still an essence..

Wet

2006-11-11T20:54:00.000+08:00

Today morning i've finally gathered enough motivation to start on some homework.. no luh.. it because last night murali called and asked if i wanted to play soccer.. and since i've been going out lately.. i had to show my mum at least i've been doing work.. actually i haven't been going out to play. Its ej i've been going out for.. sigh.. ej's so taxing.. anyway.. i've been dying to start on my chinese homework for years.. and i finally started.. lol.. i read a model letter which was about this guy telling another guy how his interest in chinese came about and what he did to improve..lol.. then i had an amazing idea.. i decided to try his suggestion and started a chinese diary! woohoo! haha.. it took me soo long to finish one entry on a brand new diary.. Its just like writing a compo! haha.. and i had to check the dictionary a few times.. I guess if i write a compo a day, i'll improve! haha.. Then my mum walked in then i showed her.. '' you see! i'm sooo hardworking! i'll surely get a1 for o levels!'' haha.. no la.. i didn't talk to her like that.. haha. Anyway i doubt it'll last... i'd probably go crazy flipping the dictionary all the time just to get a diary entry done.. but it might benefit me in the long run i guess..

so after lunch i was still taking my own sweet time.. we wanted to meet at twelve but i was still at home at 1230.. still making calls and receiving calls..I called daniel along too.. after that i just got my stuff and reluctantly my ball to.. and made my way.. I called latif and he told me he'd be taking a cab!!!!!!!! haha.. for the first time he's taking a cab.. and i'm not taking? lol.. so he did influence me to want to take a cab too.. haha...so i tried to hail one but 163 came first and i took all the way to central and met imran waiting for his bus.. so we got to SPC together and waaa... the dark clouds started looming over.. soo unfortunate! when i jumped in to start playing.. we hadn't even played for 5 mins when it started raining sooo heavily.. wahhh.. WHY?!%#% lol.. we moved to the void deck and started playing.. we had soo little space there! and uhh.. half of our space was wet.. so we were just playing a fool.. i mean.. all wet and dribbling slowly.. afraid of slipping.. Lol.. latif started playing a fool and pushed me when i was about to score.. haha.. we all had some fun i guess. Though we were all wet and there wasn't much to play.. it just depended on how much skill you have to handle the ball in such little available space.. but i stopped after that.. i went to Spc to buy myself lots of things to fill my stomach with.. chocolate, chips.. drinks.. but most of em were stolen by the guys.. i ate pretty little.. lol..

so daniel asked me where i wanted to go.. in the end.. we decided to head to safra.. and we had to walk in the rain!! Safra's soooo farr awayyy!! Ahhh.. i spent the whole afternoon drenched in the cold stinging rain..and when we reached there.. thank goodness i brought an extra shirt.. but my shorts were wet! lol.. when we started playing, i was sooo cold i was freezing.. My shorts were wet.. my shirt's a little wet.. i was in slippers and short shorts! lol.. freeeeezzzinggg.. I almost died playing a race to 10 with daniel.. haha.. he even rented an extra shirt.. woohoo! I beat daniel! haha.. 10-3 i think.. thank goodness he was freezing too.. so he didn't say much.. haha.. i'm so glad i improved.. must have watched world pool a lot..

after our games we headed to the library cause robelle said she wanted to borrow books.. so i froze in the library for another half an hour or so.. waiting and reading.. and i borrowed a book with dan's card.. but she couldn't make it in the end.. so finally.. we went to fork and spoon to eat dinner.. and i got home after that.. and now.. i'm on the bed and i'm having a blocked nose and i'm still sneezing!! i'm so gonna die.. oh rain rain.. why didn't you go away?

Close Shave

2006-11-09T20:20:00.000+08:00

Today has been a long long long day.. Started out in the morning.. where i woke up because my dad was getting ready for work and thank goodness he woke me up.. just as i was about to enter dreamland once more.. i gathered enough energy to call him before he went down the stairs.. and he came back.. i asked him for money to cut hair.. lol.. Yeah... yesterday ricky suddenly called me asking me to cut hair with him.. so i agreed. And for the entire morning.. i did nothing at all.. just played a little pool.. and lazed around.. ate something.. before i wore on my ej shirt and pants and headed to central.

I was 30mins late.. lol, and we headed to cut at D elements, where it was totally empty.. and i unluckily got that boss. the girly boss.. Lol.. the first time i cut there shi xiong got her and he was pissed with the way she cut her hair.. teck too.. when he cut his.. so i was really afraid she'd make mine a mess.. Well thankfully my hair's still okay.. though when the stylist styled me hair it made me look like an ah beng.. she told me about her hair cream thingy.. which was really appealing.. at 18 bucks.. finally something i can afford! And it had the apple smell.. oh my.. i wanted to buy it.. but i decided against it.. When i came out i looked so beng la.. lol.. i even had some men stare at me.. lol.. i hate coming out from the salon, because they style me hair to the extreme.. And i ate a quick meal before i headed to school.

On my way i saw robelle in school from far so i made my way in quickly.. alas! only to be caught by mr yeo.. he told me i had to ride with him since a cab can only take 4.. wa lauuu.. lol. So i had to squeeze into his front seat. lol, on our way out of school. i saw amanda and pals outside a the busstop.. i almost jumped out to address mummy..lol.. don't say.. i've been asked.. =''( haha..Well i guess he's okay.. although he's really lame and corny and all.. he's just got lots of stuff to tell.. Lol.. i left the storyboard at home so he drove me all the way home.. And i took some time to wash my hair.. haha.. then i came out again.. so we made our way to the dragon kiln..

Well mr yeo was really lame.. though he made me laugh.. he kept asking if i got any jap girl's number during the japanese visit.. then he shifted to how he paid angel 2k plus to teach us nothing.. then he scolded some f words.. Then asked me where would i want ej to go next year.. then he suggested korea.. then he asked me if i knew where the humanities department would be going next year.. i thought i knew... because mrs chow said.. so i answered new zealand.. he shocked me when he said no.. lol.. what he said after that was even more shocking.. he said, ''no, they're trying for Venice." I exploded.. ''VENICE!???!#%" lol.. being a quiet boy... you wouldn't see me doing that most of the time but VENICE!??%?!#?% WOW! lol.. so he told me to start studying my geog now and suck up to the teacher and all.. lol..

Then on our way, i asked, ''uhhhh mr yeo.. what do you think would happen to ej after the sec 4s(us) leave next year? " lol.. he laughed out loud.. haha, he told me he honestly didn't know.. okayy.. so he kinda knows ej probably won't get far.. Well we chatted about lots of stuff.. then he somehow got to miss huang and suddenly called me hesoon and laughed out loudly.. telling me they talked about me occasionally and she called me hesoon.. lol. how insulting! haha..

Driving for like sooo long.. my good friend dan yeo got lost.. he didn't even know where he was headed.. ''how hexun? should i go by this way or that way? " lol.. because we had to head to Ntu to fetch kenny the director.. and finally we did..

When we did reach the dragon kiln... it was kinda fun i guess.. it was raining and everyone felt comfortable and we were ready to do all sorts of stuff that headed our way.. so we had to introduce our project to the owner of the dragon kiln and stuff.. and when we did get started.. everyone was just busy doing everything.. Well i was in charge of cam 2.. the process of the firing of the dragon kiln.. and it was kinda fun.. especially when i almost died..When the firing started.. the owner was supposed to introduce the dragon kiln.. and kenny was supposed to use camera 1 to take him.. they headed INTO the dragon kiln.. and he continued speaking.. I followed..

Since young.. i've always thought fire was nothing.. especially the smoke.. i thought smoke was just small stuff.. well.. i thought wrong.. very very wrong..

Inside.. the whole place was filled with smoke.. the first few seconds were still okay.. i started taking.. it was kinda nice inside.. all smokey with yellow lights in a small cave.. when the smoke thickened in like 10s.. they were gouging my eyes out.. my eyes pained like hell.. and the smoke got into my lungs.. i know this feeling.. i was dying! lol.. i looked up, at the owner.. he was busy telling his story.. i turned at kenny. he was busy shooting like nothing happened.. What on earth? i runned out and almost couldn't make it.. lol.. when i came out everyone asked me why my eyes were so red.. i was crying already.. and i coughed.. my goodness.. what fun!

The filming process was quite okay.. although it was raining and all.. the interview might be screwed up as the sounds are screwed.. but we did go about doing stuff we needn't be told to do.. which was fun.. Filming the cracking fire and lots of stuff.. but this isn't the end.. its only the mock firing.. the actually hellfire would be next weekend.. while filming.. the worker chatted to me.. telling me what would happen if he closed all the wholes and left the kiln fired up for the night.. ooo.. i can imagine myself in it.. all the smoke.. the fire.. First i'd get knocked out within 2 mins.. then i'll lie there unconcious.. no pain.. just close to heaven.. before the roaring fire cackles nearer and nearer.. my body gets blacker.. it's enveloped in flame.. and long later.. dust and ashes.. i finally know how it is like to die in a burning house.. lol.

Anyway.. i had a great day..oh yes.. i've been talking about dragon kiln lately and no one knows what it is.. Well.. its just a long long cavey thingy shaped like a dragon made out of earth and bricks.. well that place is a pottery haven.. its just full of pots.. and when the pots are shaped.. they're put in there and the kiln is lit up.. The kiln lights for one day and one night and the worker tells me even the metal bars go all red.. The firing is to harden the pots.. so that's cool. and we're documenting that.

So it was good.. though fizzy was pissed that kenny started taking things into his own hands.. well.. i went kinda crazy.. as i passed the camera and video recorder to the guys.. i held the camera tripod.. and i couldn't resist it.. haha.. since young. i've always taken my tripod stand to be a machine gun.. plus there's the pulling thingy which is like the scout or attic's reloading thingy to expel the shell.. lol.. so i was playing with it like a machine gun and everyone kept making fun of me.. i told them i was a alien hunter on a mission to hunt aliens.. so fizzy told me she was alien.. but i shot her yet she wouldn't die.. so i had to use my plasma something something.. i forgot what i called it.. oh yes.. plasma blaster.. it's the one in the middle of the tripod.. i told her it was only for very powerful aliens.. but she still wouldn't die.. lol.. well okay.. i was kinda bored..

So anyway.. back inside.. widya was telling everyone how saggitaurius and gemini don't get along cause of her sister and stuff.. so i was silently hoping she was saggitaurius.. then fizzy was like, ''huh? you're talking about hexun ah?'' lol. then widya said no.. she asked me what sign i was i said saggitaurius.. lol.. then everyone started laughing.. cause they finally knew why i couldn't get along well with widya.. haha.. though maybe after this i could get along well with her even better..

Well after that mr yeo sent the guys out to the main road to take a cab.. while he fetched me, widya and kenny out.. he dropped kenny and the main road too and fetched us to upper thomson.. well i tell you.. if you ever get a chance to sit his car.. NEVER SIT IT! lol.. the thing is.. his driving follows his personality.. HE NEVER GETS THERE!!! he told us to look at the time.. 5:31, see what time we reach thomson.lol.. firsly we drove about.. then he headed to the fish farm to get some fish food.. then i also got off to look at some ewwwey crickets and humongous mealworms.. haha.. then we had some difficulty coming out again.. sigh..

Then he started talking about his connections.. friends who sell exotic animals like tigers and poison treefrogs.. then he told us he owned sting rays and he has four dogs.. lol.. okayy.. sigh.. i had an okay time.. although he drove us to this and that place and never got anywhere.. widya complained her bladder had reacher its peak.. so we drove to the petrol kiosk.

Sigh.. we talked about lots of stuff.. i forgot what.. about widya's family.. about dan's family.. wish i taped everything down.. lol.. and yeah.. i remember this conversation..

Dan Yeo: so hexun.. you got catch the monkeys at your house anot?
Me: no la! for what?
Dan Yeo: dunno.. so we can make a skull necklace with his skull?
Me: (nothing to say.. lame joke..)
Dan Yeo: hey hexun, have you ever talked to a monkey?
Me: yeah..
Dan Yeo: what did you say?
Me: normal stuff lor..

lol.. brainless stupid conversation.. haha..i sat back on the front seat.. wondering when on earth would we get home.. lol.. taking a turn here and there.. he asked how long it has been since 5:30.. i said not fair cause we went to the fish farm.. lol.. they he sort of told me off.. haha.. ''fish farm not counted la! Fish farm so fast! same road leh.. not counted! " what nonsense.. he went to the fish farm and got lost la..haha

When we were reaching.. he asked again,

Dan Yeo: how long did it take huh?
Widya: around 1 hour 15mins
Me: You forgot we went to the fish farm..
Dan Yeo: WOULD YOU DROP THE FISH FARM?!@%@#%^@!^ lol..

haha.. anyway.. he kept telling us he wanted to get suzuki swift.. i told him it wasn't worth it since last year suzuki swift came with a free psp.. hahaha.. lol... he almost hit me on my head.. haha.. but its really worth it! Buy a car and get a great gadget! If i'm him last year.. i would've bought a suzuki swift.. oh man! psp! That'll greatly enhance my collection.. my best handheld device being a gameboy colour.. lol.. haha

That was it.. we got to longhouse and i'm surprised they have good food there! hah.. i mean its right outside my house and its been there for like 5-6 years and i've only tried duckrice.. lol.. they have nice goreng pisang.. haha we shared too a plate of carrot cake.. haha.. then i walked home.. that was my rather entertaining day.. lots of lessons learnt.. most important being.. never let Dan Yeo drive you home.

Have a great holiday!

The big 100

2006-11-07T18:18:00.000+08:00

This is my 100 post!! woohoo!! haha.. today i woke up early and went straight to switch on the computer for a game of FIFA 07.. my goodness.. few days back my brother bought the game himself and he didn't even tell me.. until i saw the FIFA 07 in my desktop too.. then i thought my brother downloaded some internet league gamey thingy.. until i saw him playing one night.. i've been addicted ever since.. woohoo.. its such a great game. And the best thing is.. its brand new.. it just hit the shelves.. 2007!! But the bad thing is.. i can only have 1 year to play this great game before its outdated.. =(

Anyway.. i headed to school for physics today and benjamin wong was teaching us.. not bad.. lol.. at least i understood stuff.. I headed to jhansi to tell her something but she told me very disappointing news that shocked me.. i was sooo sad there's a misunderstanding.. but.. uh.. nvvm.. anyway.. towards the end of the lesson, the boys were already split into two groups.. one group, led by kenneth.. playing pool online on the computer.. with a large crowd of pool addicts surrounding them.. the other.. led by latif.. playing counter-strike..WTHHHHH!!!!! COUNTER-STRIKE ON THE SCHOOL COMPUTER?!!?#%??!#% I thought i was dreaming when i saw him play cs there earlier on.. lol.. wonder who's the genius who downloaded it into the computer.. lol.. after the lesson i just followed jhans all the way because i had to clear up many thoughts and stuff..

Then i met widya and huda and fizzy.. i almost forgot they were supposed to meet at my house.. So keng jin was late and i called him.. when he arrived, he gave me a brand new lakoral sweet box thingy.. telling me it was a small gift from his mum.. A simple token that touched me.. haha.. Anyway.. last night keng jin's mum called me to ask a favour from me.. to take care of him and watch him as he just recovered from an illness.. Kj suffers from Epilepsy.. and i guess it was rather caring of her to call me.. well i've had some experience with this so i understood..

So we set off.. and imran called to tell me he had reached the bus stop.. when we all finally finally reached.. we got started.. and lol.. didn't have mahjong paper to do the still drawings.. So me and imran headed to thomson plaza to get some.. and he revealed much more secrets to me.. about lots of stuff.. haha..

That was about it.. during our lunch break imran was addicted over fifa and he played a lot.. lol.. we didn't get much done. but it was kinda a fruitful meeting.. and after widya left.. the study room was in a big mess and everyone were complaining about being hungry.. oh then kj muttered something which sounded like.. ''i'm so hungry i could eat a whole pack of maggie mee.. i think i'll go to thomson plaza..'' being busy.. i didn't hear much of what he said.. and he went out.. well i didn't really notice his absence.. he left the room quite often to try out my foosball table on his own.. so i spent a long time daydreaming until i noticed something amiss.. ''where's keng jin?'' lol.. everyone were ''oh ya huh? where's he?'' Then i started panicking.. and faezah said she heard him say he was gonna go to thomson plaza.. ohhhh nooo!!! i'm sooooo deadddd.... I was so worried luhhh. why did he wonder off on his ownnn? I was so afraid he'd get lost and his mum would kill me.. ahhhh!!! I wanted to kill him.. his absence was greatly felt.. we all were so worried.. i called him like one billion times but he just didn't pick up.. but i refused to run out to look for him.. i don't even know which way he headed! Besides.. it takes up lots of energy sweat and time to run to thomson plaza.. wahhhh..

I wish all you people were there to see me.. i was banging my head on the wall.. i was sooo deadddd.. i called him one last time and just as i was to go out if he didn't pick up.. he picked up.. i almost died of relief.. and he told me he reached thomson plaza.. i forgot all my anger and just told him to pick up so cocoa crunch and rush back here..

Afer a while.. which was really really really a long while.. i asked, ''where's keng jin?'' Then once again.. ''oh ya huh? why isn't he back?" lol.. as it was raining heavily.. i began to worry again.. thankfully he came back safely.. lol.. with cocoa crunch.. when he came back.. he started talking nonsense again.. lol.. but i'm not complaining..

After that we were pretty much doing nothing.. imran finished his work and he busied himself with fifa.. and i played foosball with huda.. she scored 3 goals in 2 games.. great for a girl.. lol.. then i realised widya left her hairband.. and i wore it.. my my.. i looked like a girl.. i went down and chanced upon my mum's new scarf.. actually.. its mine.. lol.. so i put it around my neck too.. as i was holding an open pack of doritoes while swinging the scarf around my neck.. i poured all the doritoes on the floor.. lol.. hahah.. what a waste! Then i looked at the mirror again.. i really look like a girl now.. i took a pic and posted on friendster.. hahaha..

That was it.. we had a great day.. my maid sent the rest off to the buststop and it was raining heavily.. imran stayed to play fifa.. and when i sent him to the busstop.. i thanked him for introducing me to fifa.. and i ran back to play.. lol.. FIFA'S GREAT!!!

Fiery Anger

2006-11-06T17:55:00.000+08:00

I had the worst ej meeting in my whole life.. well after the extra lessons i went out to eat witht he guys.. and i went back to school late.. mr yeo.. once again.. started talking nonsense.. full of nonsense.. i know he's trying to sound logical and philosophical but most of the time.. its nonsensical.. and it sucks.. because no one can win anything.. because he'll insist on some stupid point no matter what you said.. ''oh i had to eat lunch because i just had lessons.'' ''you know i hadn't drunk a single cup of water or eaten since the morning? Everyone was to make sacrifices okay hexun? I don't want to see people who are not committed to this project.. if so.. we can just call this off. " what a load of dung.. like i'll skip lunch for this.. lunch is important.. with a full stomach it can be a more fruitful meeting.. but to mr yeo.. for ej.. we have to skip sleep fun lunch homework and EVERYTHING..

Okay.. i can deal with that.. but then after that.. he wasn't happy once again because of our ideas.. Firstly.. he had already seen widya's idea.. so he asked for mine.. and i asked huda to give him the paper of my rough sketch.. Ohhhh.. then he started talking nonsense once again.. telling me ''you call this a storyboard?'' Of course widya drew hers so nicely and stuff.. then he hinted he liked widya's idea.. then keng jin started making me really pissed..Then mr yeo once again attacked me.. telling me ít'd be stupid to film us doing research and it'd be fake.. it wasn't even what i had in mind.. okay okay.. so i've lost.. He really spoke a lot of nonsens.. i just kept my head down and blocked my ears, not this time dan.. then mr yeo once again.. told me off for being unable to come to a consensus.. ''but widya wasn't there.. and keng jin wasn't there." oh yeah.. no reason is good enough for that guy.. saying i should have made a decision with the avaliable guys..

Like i was gonna be unfair and choose my idea.. then widya would definitely think i'm taking advantage because i'm the leader.. okay.. so after that i kept quiet beacuse i was raging already.. ok then everyone voted for widya's idea.. and after that everyone started apologising to me.. imran placaed his hand on my shoulder and said ''sorry ah hexun.. " everyone gave me those sorry eyes.. knowing i'm disappointed.. then widya had to break the silence and tell me, ''hexun you know what's your problem? you keep your mouth shut and you're so mysterious that we don't know what the f*** you're doing. "oh great.. thanks widya. I never said anything about anything and yet she thinks i'm waging war against her.. and she has to add in some vulgarities.. oh great.. the biggest misunderstanding.. Once again.. keng jin started pissing me off "i heard you pla y snooker hexun! "

Oh what's wrong with everyone? Of course i was unhappy that widya's idea was chosen since i think that her's wont work.. and yet.. everyone thinks i'm keeping quiet cause i'm unhappy that widya had won.. what's the big deal? I got scolded because i didn't want to be unfair okay.. that's what i was unhappy about.. mr yeo was being unreasonable..

I left soon after with teck to edward's house.. and we got lost.. lol.. When we got there.. once again i felt very unhappy. Because daniel was there.. Along with kenneth.. Daniel and kenneth are just like twins.. well keneth always seemed to have a tone of arrogance in his voice and what he said someone is insulting.. daniel on the other hand.. can't stay still and keep quiet.. always making so much noise.. and i really dislike that because it affects the people he's playing against.. i've said it before.. and i really hate it when he des it.. his stupid antics.. Its really irritating.. When he played teck siang.. he missed and he cursed and cursed and jumped up and said ''lose already la.. ''when that was only his first shot.. i was so pissed i almost asked him to keep quiet.. that will really affect people.. especially me.. being such an emotional player..

I tried as much as possible to avoid playing on the table.. firstly.. i had a headache.. and secondly... i wouldn't like to lose to daniel since he'd probably affect me.. so as much as possible.. i tried to stay on the sofa.. just looking.. and danile dominated as we played ''winner stay'' Even kenneth couldn't unseat him.. in the end.. edward did.. and it was really surprising he did.. I spent my day playing with ricky.. as in.. playing a fool.. and i realise.. i've found some one that's 10times more childish than me. lol.. ricky was ULTRA childish.. haha.. good thing he was.. it provided me great entertainment.. And he noticed i was keeping really quiet and he kept asking if i wanted to play pool..

Kenneth was dominating then.. and he invited me for a game.. i said i had aheadache but he just asked me to play.. and ricky said he wanted to play with me.. so i had to win kenneth.. lol.. well i did win kenneth.. and i played with ricky.. then played with daniel.. then ricky again.. before we went home..

It's been such a stressed day.. imran unexpectedly messaged me.. do i have to inform the people.. imran NEVER uses his phone.. even if i message him.. he NEVER replies.. he sent me a long message telling me to not be disheartened and not be sad.. i told him it was not about the idea.. it was just about mr yeo.. and he told me to show mr yeo how well i can lead.. and still direct widya's idea as well as mine.. well i'm not sure about that.. i am committed to this.. but i guess i won't skip lunch and sleep just to perfect everything.. well my thanks to imran for his concern..

Went back to central with teck and he waited for my bus.. and he revealedto me soo many secrets.. lol.. cool.. he never does that.. how nice..

At home.. watching tony drago.. i realised his play is totally like mine.. quick to decisions.. no hesitations.. he doesn't waste time.. his racks take as fast as 20 secs.. lol.. no thinking no strategies.. well.. even he plays faster than me.. but kenneth has highlighted to me before i play really quickly.. i think its important to play fast so thaere's a smooth quick flow.. and there's the feel.. taking time isn't my way.. i'm impatient and emotional.. if i play chao fong pang i'm probably end up in IMH after the match.. chao fong pang, nickednamed the ''cold face killer'' doesn't show any emotions he does look like as assasin and yesterday he and his opponent continually snooked each other on the number 3 ball.. which took them 15 minutes.. lol.. i'd die first.. he is so composed and so mentally calm.. i'd die playing with him.. or maybe end up crying.. he'll certainly twist my mind.. and that might be why drago isn't doing well.. he's awfully offensive.. like me.. and just goes straight to a shot.. and might result in many misses.. no wonder i'm not as successful as wei zhou..well i guess that's it.. i'm done.. i'm going to go on a holiday after all about eh video is done..

Heart attack efren

2006-11-05T17:36:00.000+08:00

Today's sunday.. woke up in the morning and got ready for church already.. on the car my mum was talking about some stuff from her sociology work.. about the churches once again.. luckily i was the poor soul who helped her type her atrocious handwriting into the computer and i got to read what she wrote.. about my favourite topic.. criticizing the churches.. about how they arise to please teens.. teens find it fun that's why.. i guess that isn't totally right.. and their ability to dress scantily and stuff.. even a famous speaker has addressed this situation.. its even a situation in sociology.. sigh.. Okay i gooot to church.. feeling really tired.. then got to tuition.. had a really really really really boring time teaching my kid.. and after that was a great lunch and we were briefed with some announcements.. didn't have singspiration due to street e.. and fiana was tell whole cyyam about the upcoming movie.. lol, okay. now i know its gonna be a movie.. and she said almost everybody would be included.. along with the 6 main characters.. ooo.. that adds more pressure and burden on me.. haha.. its a big project!! i'm gonna die cause i'll look stupid.. lol..

Anyway next was street e.. just publicizing for many many events.. and once again.. i wasn't feeling very good.. i haven't broken out of my shy barrier.. its not easy talking like old friends to strangers okay.. and this time it was gonna be at tpc.. it'd certainly be embarassing for people who've seen you in school to see you look like a salesperson.. well.. shame and pride aside, just do it! Lol.. its definitely not as easy as it sounds.. well, for me.. as i was texting robelle.. ziling and vivian kept teasing me.. asking me why i was smiling.. lol

Anyway got there.. and had to stand in the middle of central with 2 guys.. looking for potential victims.. but i was pretty much doing nothing.. i'm too cowardly.. lol.. and jing yang just came along and started telling me about all the foolish young teens i already criticize a lot.. lol.. i never thought he'd be even more against these stuff.. lol.. i thought i'm already bad enough.. in fact.. i ever considered such stuff before.. lol.. i'd be doomed if i ever got a girlfriend and he found out.. lol..

It wasn't as bad.. i never met anyone familiar.. it finished really soon and we met together again.. once again.. the two girls had to tease me.. lol.. and then time for a short prayer before we were released.. and everyone looked at jy.. but he smmed busy and just said, ''uhh.. hexun la. '' for some reason after he said that.. EVERYBODY were like.. ''yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah hexun yeah yeah hexun!! " lol.. wa lauu.. lol.. i was sabotaged.. and everyone.. especially ziling who kept pestering me.. lol.. i was so dead.. although i kept refusing.. there was absolutely no way i could get out of this!! wahh.. lol.. then everyone just started bowing their heads.. so i had no choice.. lol.. when i finished, everyone complained that i could not be heard.. lol.. i'm being bullied!! =''(

Anyway got home and watched world pool.. once again.. robelle's countryman efren reyes almost gave me a heart attack when he and some unknown pol went hill hill at 7-7 and efren won.. the suspense almost killed me! lol.. I love the philippines!! I love manila!! i wanna go there!!

Fatigue

2006-11-04T18:24:00.000+08:00

oh my goodness.. is it the holidays or not? Last night faezah messaged me telling me meeting's at 8... 8! 8! 8! why is it always always 8":?!!??!?!?!? what's with 8!!?? i can't wake up early enough to make it for 8 can't you guys get itt?? the past few days i've had school at 8 and only once did i get to school early because my dad fetched me.. anyway.. i told her i'd definitely be late.. there's no way i'm gonna be on time.. so i advised imran to be late too.. lol

Anyway woke up today cause my brother was calling me.. telling me someone had called.. lol, but i didn't dare to pick up the call cause í was sure that'd be fizzy and that she'd scold me like crazy.. so i got dressed and my dad fetched me to macs.. but i got to the wrong mac!!!@# thankfully i reached earlier than widya..

That was it.. it was such a shooorttt meeting just discussing and making a few additions to my idea and widya's one.. but still.. we haven't chosen an idea.. and that was it!!!! that was the meeting.. they had me wake up in early morning, rush there just for a short meeting.. sigh.. since i was out.. i suggested going somewhere with imran.. and then we decided to head to his home for some xboxing... then i suddenly stopped and asked if it was possible to play soccer.. but i was only joking.. i was in flip flops.. he said i could head home and change.. that's absurd! but.. it was a good idea.. haha.. he called everyone.. and woo! i was gonna play soccer finally again..

Unfortunately.. there weren't many that were so free especially when it was soo last minute.. only murali and avinesh could.. so.. i took a train with imran all the way to bishan.. then took a bus back to thomson.. and walked all the way back home.. sneaked in.. and changed and got my shoes..when we got out.. it was already like 1130.. and we arranged for 12!! lol.. moreover.. imran was unsure which side to take 855 to get back to khatib.. lol.. we had to cross the road twice.. and when we reached his house.. he took another 10mins to change.. we took a train all the way back to toa payoh.. and THEN.. took 232 to the court. My goodness.. and we didn't even know where to stop.. imran suddenly said.. ''here! i remember!'' then we got off.. and we realised it wasn't even there.. lol. so we walked allllll the way to the next stop.. and waited once again.. for another 232.. which took us all the way to the court.. finally finally finally!!!! lol.. it was soo sad murali and avinesh waited for sooo long for us.. because the ball was with imran..

We played for 3 whole hours.. and me imran and murali secretly got into each other's team all the time because we raised our backhands whenever we had to decide who was to go to the other team since that team didn't have enough.. Yeah.. we played with 3 guys.. lol.. we won every game since we had the best combination.. It was just perfect play.. back to the old times.. perfect teamplay and finishing.. but most of the time i was slacking.. lol..

After that i went home alone and i realised i could last 3 whole hours yet i can't last a half hour on field.. guess it really makes a big difference. the grass really tires one out super super fast.. i can't wait for our next class match.. probably even no.. since the o levels are coming.. but its important to make use of the first few days of the start of school since that's the only time we can afford to let fly..

Went home and ahhh.. world pool! and efren reyes up against what's his name.. from usa.. oh my goodness.. efren what're you doing?!! lol.. he made soooo many mistakes.. what's his name got on the hill and efren fought back all the way till they tied 7-7 in a race to 8.. ahhhh!! he missed on the 9.. what on earth???!?!

Lol.. next match was appleton against the prince of brunei.. now what on earth is the crown prince of brunei doing playing pool? he should be worrying over his royal affairs instead!! hahahaha.. lol.. this is funny.. and to think of it.. i met his sister!!! wahhaha.. i'd never forget her beautiful face.. actually.. i've forgotten her.. lol.. only remember that she was a stunning beauty.. he's playing pool! can you believe that? but he wasn't very good.. and he's a super unique player.. i've never seen any player break from the middle on the table.. moreover.. with an open bridge.. that's the kind of break i see from teck siang.. never from professional players..

Speaking of crown princes.. lol.. reminds me of that prince from goong.. ahh.. i'm so addicted to it.. its so nice.. ok it isn't really.. but i really like to watch it.. royal politics.. and the girl's cute.. just another perfect addictive korean drama... and rain's coming to singapore!!! haha..

The Wizard's Achilles heel: his stomach

2006-10-30T20:11:00.000+08:00

My stomach's really really really really killing meee.. i have stomach cancer!! nooooooooooooo.. i'm doing this post because i realised blogger is working already. Finally! Woke up at 1030.. my goodness, no time to play at all! Since i had to meet teck at 12.. So i only played cs for a while and dressed and met teck at central.. Tpa cup today, i just went because i don't want guys like kenneth to curse me.. lol, they have been unable to hold the Tpa cup because their beloved shark, yours truly, didn't bother to go to his house at all.. lol, then master keeps saying, no Tpa without the sharky, haiya, later kenneth not happy.. lol, in fact, i was wondering if i could skip it yesterday night.. but since teck was going too.. i just went..

Sigh, such a boring day.. the first few matches i already played with wei zhou.. and i won him a few times.. haha, wei zhou was just, amazed.. And he suggested we'd start the Tpa cup, and he grouped me and him together.. lol, early exit for hexun! haha, but surprisingly i didn't complain much, i had nothing to lose anyway.. haiyo, just a stupid mini tournamant.. haha.. i lost by a small margin.. and i just sat down, and stared at thin air.. Wei zhou was pretty amazed, he suddenly said, ''hexun, i promote you to master.'' and he was darn serious about it.. lol, i didn't even dare to hold that position, i just kept asking.. what? promote me to what? lol.. he was super super serious, and he asked the others whether i played like that at safra.. actually.. i don't think so.. i guess because i'm super comfortable with my cue, which was there and because its easier with a 7 feet table.. teck said yes.. and he really promoted me.. but i was too cowardly to take that high position.. i mean, deep down i know i'm so far from wei zhou, its not time for me to be one yet.. so i said no.. that was it..

For the rest of the day, i just did nothing much, played ps2 for while, and more of pool.. and then i got out at like 6 and got to central once again for dinner... have to go to school to discuss dargon kiln.. oooo, i love my hols! haha..

The Wizard's frailty

2006-10-29T18:34:00.000+08:00

Woke up feeling so tired. because i stayed up late to watch lovers in prague.. lol, quite a new korean drama on channel 55. It isn't especially good, but hey! Korean dramas are korean dramas! haha.. My body is sooo broken.. lol, its after the exams, and i seem busier than when the exams are arriving.. In the morning, got to church.. and i started messaging people over the Dragon Kiln project. Mr yeo didn't really get me to do things, which worries me. I don't want to end up with nothing and all the blame goes to me. I want SVA Gold. Then there's the tau sar pia advertisment to worry about, knowing wei zhou, he'd probably not do much, and i'm afraid we'll end up not doing it, which is terrible, cause i want a gold too.. lol.

Tuition.. sigh, jing yang pointed out that my teaching methods weren't fun enough, that i should make a story out of everything, i'm not a genius, lol, he can really make a story out of everything, and he's teaching math? lol. I just went back to my old habits, but hey, i'm a good teacher okay!

That was about it, my stomach was just giving me loads of trouble, intermittent pains. Then sharing.. sigh, o'level blues.. haha, for my friends.. its really painful to see everyone so carefree and relaxed while they have to rush for time, its so sad.. but i guess when they explode, they'll do it with a bigger bang, we can just imagine how we'll explode after the o'levels, no sleep, no food, game game! Play play! But i really admire Vivian for skipping her higer chinese extra lessons for church, besides, it was her final and most important lesson and her higher chinese exams were tomorrow, she did struggle a bit but came to a decision to choose God over her studies, besides, He provides the results. Wow, that's an admirable thing to do, i myself am not sure if i'd do that.

Thought it'd be a pretty normal day when i was called up for a meeting with some people.. i was wondering what kinda meeting it was gonna be. When i met the people, yan heng handed me a thick stack of papers, ''this is your script." lol, another act!! Lol, and its a really big one this time, he says its gonna be 45 mins long, which is really long for our usual short films. Lol, and everything was in chinese.. I have to be an extreme gamer, play pool, play x box, all day long.. lol, and they wanted to do some extreme makeover, they said my clothing wasn't enough, although i do look a little gangster with my pendant. Sat through the whole meeting which lasted like 2 hours, its gonna be a cool project.

Sigh.. i've been acting and filming so much.. wonder when am i ever gonna get an oscar.. LOL.. went home with a headache.. lol, there really are a lot of things to have a headache over, i'm still working on the story for the Dragon Kiln.. it's killing me.

Video on studying tips my pub com.. hilarious..

My new apprentice

2006-10-28T18:50:00.000+08:00

I am the Master.. i'm the jedi masterr.. call me jedi master!!! And i've managed to steer one promising youth to hexun's side! wahha.. my new apprentice shall assist me in the foundation of my new empire! wooohoo!! Who now has the power to stand against the union of the two heroes? There are none.

Profile of New Apprentice

Name: Darren Lim from the planet sun
Age: 20120002020202020202200202002
Prowess: Can cause severe damage when wields a lightsabre

Master Hexun: Darren shall hereby be known as.. Darth Darrey! Rise Darth Darrey!

Darth Darrey: (grunts) grrhahrahruh.. thank you master!!!

I'm bored =)

The last knot is undone

2006-10-28T12:00:00.000+08:00

today's piano theory exam day!!! YAY!! woke up in the morning, ate breakfast, bathed.. and got out in a cab to MDIS or is it MIDS unicampus.. all aloneeee.. when i got there. waaaa, i didn't even want to get out of the cab, it was filled with peeople.. many many peeople.. so i got out and just walked about.. till i found my examination room..

There, i had to wait for like 30mins.. all aloneee.. and i looked about.. kids with parents.. kids with parents.. but, where's my daddy? Where's my mummy? aww, i felt soo orphaned.. haha. First time alone anyway, in fact, i was surprised i never complained that my dad couldn't fetch me.. when they told me about the exams.. i just nodded and grunted and got back to what i was doing.. i'm finally independent!! woohoo! And i was so darn bored standing alone messaging sammie, i almost wanted to speak to a guy beside me. lol..

Anyway, i got in soon and sat beside a pretty girl.. haha, and started the most enjoyable 2 hours of my life.. yeah, the paper was quite easy.. for the first time.. i KNOW how to do theory! i guess i can pass it.. i better! If i don't, i needn't jump from any building because my mum'll kill my anyway.. and i finished it in an hour... left early cause i was starving already...

YAY! Its over! The last knot is undone!! No more left! Time to focus on o' levels! hahaha..

Special thanks to Master Sammie for teaching me and allowing me to understand theory that i've never been able to understand all my life..

Fiery Passion

2006-10-27T20:09:00.000+08:00

Friday, woke up forgetting that school's no more.. so i walked about the house.. just to get money from my dad.. lol. Spent the morning trying to do something.. trying to load gunbound on the laptop so i can play with yuan hong.. but to no avail.. so it was pretty late.. i quickly got dressed and ran out of the house.. i was late.. so i had to zooooom all the way to church.. Lol, reached there just on time.. and me, xl, waiyee, and meifeng started on our perilous journey all the way to pasir ris mrt.. along the way i started getting worried.. lol, what if jy wasn't going, then i'll be the only guy there.. i was assured he was..

So anyway, i just kept quiet and followed them.. was about to buy food when i saw jy sitting alone eating.. lol.. that was about it.. we got to pasir ris beach thingy place.. and we looked about.. thinking how the actual day would be like. It was pretty good.. the maze.. i can't wait for that day to come.. there'll be so much fun..

spent the rest of the day looking about at the different places.. and got back to church again. i felt very bored at first.. but when i entered the church.. and the cheerful greeting i received from the people.. lol, i just felt so in love again..

talked a lot to pf, went for dinner, and dad fetched me home.. and it was on the car, when he reminded me.. that i realised i have my piano theory exams tomorrow.. haha, i was half asleep when he mentioned it and i jumped up.. ohhh nooooooooo.. lol, i better start doing something.. if i fail i'm dead..

Publicity for life's codebreaker is just great.. pub committee have done a great job.. haha, which means me too.. haha, i totally love the video..

This should be one of the first most boringest posts on my blog.. i'm tired of brainstorming for nice stuff to write on nice post days.. this post is specially meant to bore to death those already bored.. besides.. the purpose of blogs weren't to bring entertainment.. =)

The Brotherhood

2006-10-26T20:46:00.000+08:00

No one's online, probably because today's the last day of school, most of the people are probably spending the whole day outside with their dearest friends.. i'm no exception.. lol.. nah..Who said thursdays are a bore??! Well, i always thought so.. since thursdays are piano days, and i always have to head home before 4.. and can anyone imagine how painful it'll be especially since today is the last day of school? MYGOODNESS! i mean, i can't stay out late at all!! my my my.. being the last day of school, i have to be couped up at home studying theory, in fact, i thought of calling my teacher to move it to friday, but sigh.. that'll be difficult..

Anyway, today was a GREAT day, nothing was planned, all i ever planned was to die of boredom at home.. yeah, since the morning, where I had to RUN all about as the monitor of 3e2.. well, i'm the only surviving monitor, and i had to do all the work.. Firstly, had to get school mag, then the beatty vibrations, and the trophy for being the most active class.. thankfully i had help from some of the guys, who got the school magazine and the year book for me.. so i was left with only the collection of the trophy in front of the whole school.. lol, if kenneth were still the monitor, he'd surely do that.. he's a crowd pleaser.. i bet he'd do some hardo gay stunt on the stage.. so today i got my first taste of what going on stage was like.. Oh, thinking about it, i feel very stupid not going up on stage thrice.. I could have, if i didn't scratch on the black, we would have won the pool tournament.. if i didn't fall sick due to the haze on softball team, i could have gotten a silver medal.. and being the monitor and since kenenth wasn't one anymore, i'd also have to collect the trophy for being the most active class.. 3 trophies!!! But i ended up collecting just one.. ='(

That was morning, besides that supremely boring LEAPS briefing, which i feel sorry for all those non ccaers in my class, like teck.. haha, he's helpless, can't do anything anymore.. at least i'm in the middle of something in ej, and being the leader for the documentary for the SVA, i'm gonna lead the team to gold.. i must, at least i can do something about my cca points, non ccaers can't do a single thing.. only half a year left..

Soon recess and stuff was over.. and we got our class tees that were given by the school.. yuck, thought it was some impressive thingy.. but it was just a blue shirt.. yes, not long later.. report books were out.. sigh.. once again.. ms tuan just told me my results were very average and i have to press on.. i know i know.. i'll try to put in more effort for the impending o's.. Yeah, the results were really very average.. haha, and then.. bell rang and that was it.. for year 2006 in beatty secondary..

It was really really really boring in the canteen, no one was there. The girl guiders had camp, and some of the people were affected by their results, and weren't their happy selves.. sighh.. so me and teck, we got some cash from some people and headed to safra alone.. lol, its really really really sickening.. to have to spend a day with just one guy, when its like.. the LAST DAY of school.. yeah, moreover, we're spending this beautiful day at safra..

My favorite snooker table was booked.. so we settled for pool.. and because of me, we lost one dollar.. lol.. before we got there, i was telling teck that we could wear that class tee the school gave and save 50 cents per shirt.. then he said the school logo was upfront.. and then i said we've cover it with our bag's straps.. lol, cause teck wore it there, he had it covered.. now i was still in my uniform.. and i thought the lady already knew we had clothing.. so i just put it on.. then she saw the logo.. arghhh!! haha, we had to fork out an extra 1 dollar for two shirts.. yeahh.. playyed a lot a lot a lot of pool.. started very slowly and lousily, but then began to feel used to it. but we were worried for we had limited resources.. firstly, i couldn't find my wallet this morning, so i think i lost it.. and teck didn't have much cash.. so we were hoping some TPAer would come to our rescue somehow.. kenneth came a while later.. then daniel.. so we got some money and paid and left at 4.. sigh.. for piano..

But since i was in a pretty generous mood and teck wasn't rushing anywhere, he requested that i'd go to the interchange.. and so i did.. we walked, and i head someone shouting something.. but i didn't bother.. since it didn't sound anything like my name.. but then teck suddenly shouted.. ''shark shark! where? where?'' lol, i was kinda embarassed, i thought he was making fun of some guy.. haha, then he suddenly shouted then i felt kinda awkward standing besides him.. so i looked back too.. until i saw wei zhou and darren emerge from behind..lol.. he had been calling ''shark''.. and i didn't even hear.. or bother to hear.. lol.. so wei zhou and darren were just idling around with nothing to do, and i told them i'd be leaving taking a bus, so they followed...

They followed me all the way to the 163 queue.. talking about stuff.. then suddenly, wei zhou suggested going to my house.. then darren too followed.. lol.. i totally objected.. i mean, my house is soooooooo boring!!! Besides, i don't have the computer or whatever ready.. but wei zhou just kept saying its not for the playing of whatever, he just wanted to see for 5 mins and go off.. then he just asked yes or no.. i just let it hang there, not giving him any answer.. but darren was super keen on going.. i just covered my ears and walked to my bus as it arrived..

Lol, when i got up on the bus, i looked back and realised darren and wei zhou got up too.. hahahha.. i was so shocked they'd follow me.. oh my goodness.. and thankfully they did too because the bus driver requested to see my ez-link if not i had to pay the adults fare, and i only had 60 cents on me.. waoow.. luckily they were there to help me.. and yeah.. on the bus.. wei zhou was talking a load of nonsense..cause i said there was nothing in my house.. then he said... nothing is good, because when there's nothing, there are no troubles and no worries.. just nothing.. its peaceful and good and stuff.. yeah nonsense.. i'm sure they'd be bored to death..

So we walked all the way home.. and i switched on the tv and brought them up to show them my lightsabre.. lol, what else? i mean, they have nothing to do, and i have lessons.. so keep them preoccupied! Lol, and they were in awe.. so i got down to my lessons.. stole some time to check on them making sure they weren't knocking it against some pole.. and i found darren posing with the lightsabre with wei zhou taking pics with his phone.. lol.. so i entrusted my precious sabre to them and got down to continue my lessons.. throughout my lessons i kept wondering what they were doing.. and you know how difficult is that? To be excited because you have friends to entertain but yet you have no choice but listen and sit beside your teacher and listen to her explain theory.. luckily i only had 1 hour of lesson time left.. yeah, and i heard the collision of pool balls.. good, at least they were doing something..

One hours flew by and i got up, to find them trying out the foosball table.. lol, the first thing i shouted was.. ''no spinning the rods!!!'' haha.. it was good to see two of em fighting out.. and i, of course, was itching to show em the prowess of the master.. hahahaha.. and then, i noticed darren had one hand on his goalkeeper.. lol, that's wierd.. how come an amatuer (i assumed him to be one) knew he had to keep his hand there? lol, so i asked him, and he said he read my blog =)), haha, anyway, he said he only read one sentence which turned out to be that.. haha, and he remembers!!!

Yeah, so i paired wei zhou and darren up.. haha, totalllll owwwnnagee.. haha, thrashed them 10-2 i think, could have been 10-0 if i counted 2 balls that i scored luckily.. yeah.. definitely, it was difficult to keep up with my pace, since i'm so experienced.. they totally had no control at all.. and whenever my striker got the ball, it'd be a goal.. lol. Even i was impressed, i didn't know i could play that fast.. lol.. yeah, the game was really really intense..

Lol, darren was the only one who was really keen on beating me.. haha, he really studied how i played and really took steps and measures to try to keep the ball away from my strikers.. haha.. and when my strikers did get the ball, he'd say, ''omg omg!'' something along that line.. yeah, i felt proud to be able to be looked up upon as a master.. haha, wei zhou could finally give me that pathetic face of his.. i rarely see that face since he beats me in pool most of the time..

Played many more games with them.. especially fun ones were with wei zhou.. cause i could thrash him 10 nil.. haha, i immediately scored when he placed the ball in.. haha, its difficult to play at first.. really quick reflexes are needed.. and since my reflexes where already at lvl 100, it is pretty easy for me to switch positions and score right when the ball is still a while blur.. lol, so they spent lots of time studying how i played.. and they tried learning how to pass between the strikers and shoot with precision.. and they brought up a point which i never even considered.. they realised it isn't so easy to shoot the ball into the goal.. much accuracy is needed.. and i realised i could just shoot all the time.. lol.. even at fast speeds.. ooo, practice.. really makes perfect.. haha, then my parents came home and my dad came over, asking for a doubles.. and i told him no cause i owned them enough.. haha

So we were just resting and wei zhou requested for me to dedicate a piano piece to him.. lol, so we got down and it was like some dedication thingy.. haha, they just kept flipping over my scores and books and kept placing them over my scores and asked me to play this and that.. lol.. yeah, we had a great time.. haha, singing can you feel the loveeee.. awww, with wei zhou's low voice and darren's high voice, and the piano, just perfect.. lol.. then wei zhou kept saying, ''last song la last song..'' lol, that sounded quite familiar.. like in pool, always playing the last game.. and i did play the last song he picked.. which turned out to be a really sad song.. i never realised i had so many nice songs.. i only played those i knew by name to be nice.. waow..

So at 7 plus they left my house.. and i accompanied them all the way to the bus stop.. till 163 came.. and darren reckoned he left my house way tooo early.. haha, he never wanted to leave my house.. maybe one day i should make my house much more entertaining, so much so i'd be a total playground and the kids will never want to leave that wonderful haven..what a great day! haha, tomorrow'll be greater!! and monday will be even greater!! the TPA cup!! oooooooooooo.......

The Brotherhood and its Tyranny

2006-10-21T20:23:00.000+08:00

Today, i awoke cause of my piano teacher, she called to ask me why i wasn't at her house yet, lol.. its 9 in the morning! Yeah, i was supposed to.. but luckily the scheming me set up a secret special meeting with sammie to learn all the secrets, and i told my teacher i do not need her service anymore.. wa lau, then she wasn't convinced, she asked me how many sharps for b minor.. or flats? haha, i counted 5 and told her that, then she was like, wrong! Then she asked me how many so fiercely, so i just put my phone on the table and went back to sleep.. i really don't wanna be mean...but, she should believe me.. haha..

Anyway, after my lunch, my mum asked me if i wanted to go to thomson plaza to restock, i said i was too tired and i wanted to sleep, lol.. so while i was lazing on the sofa, wei zhou smsed me again and telling me that the HQ would be open from 2-9pm.. lol You see, i don't have much time before the holidays start.. and when they do, i'd be too busy with church stuff i don't even have time to breathe, lol, i'm already involved in two event committees and there were already so many many meetings since the beginning of the year, imagine how chaotic it'd be when the date of fun nears..

I took up this other chance and agreed once again, and proving once again, that i'm not a go outer cause wei zhou was shocked once again.. Lol, i went online to beg teck, but he couldn't so i told darren about it and when i first told him i was going, he was shocked too. lol, and he was darn excited..

I bathed, went down to wax my cue, and got to wei zhou's house.. my, when everyone inside saw me, they were so happy, haha, i guess its just surprising to see their sharky there.. i mean, out of all in TPA, i think i'm the only member who doesn't go or refuses to go to here and there all the time, unless its like after school and i have time to kill and i'm free, and that's like, one in a million times.. Yeah, i always reject them.. even teck goes out with them much more than me, i'm just a lazy bum who isn't addicted to pool..

So i got there and started playing.. haiyo, so boring, being there was just as boring as staying at home.. Kenneth didn't even play pool at all, he stopped after i arrived and stuck to wei zhou's ps2 and played final fantasy. And wei zhou guided him.. so daneil played with me for awhile.. And honestly, no matter how much i try to deny it, daniel has made remarkable improvement.. I mean, the rate at which he rises up the pool ranking table is just... too quick.. in fact, guys like kenenth are beginning to take guard, i mean, kenneth does lose to him often, and kenneth even told me he's quite afraid of darren cause he can't play well against him.. But daniel, he started pool for barely like uhh, 5 months? I still remember freshly how i thrashed him the first time he challenged me.. but over the months, he really found a gold mine and went to safra everyday! He played so much yet never seemed to go broke, and under wei zhou's guidance, he definitely shot up the ranks..

Yes yes, no matter what, i had to admit that.. But he will never shoot up to our ranks.. never. Not within 5 months he can't do that.. I've been playing for barely over a year, went under wei zhou's wing for barely 8 months i guess.. And i'm who i am today.. and i daresay daniel will never become me, never.. maybe if he continues his craziness, he might surpass me, but not today, nor tomorrow.. probably not till next year? Or maybe a few years.. Because no matter how much you learn, you can never beat a more experience player, that is of course, unless that experienced player has a lot of experience.. I mean, you can read and learn EVERYTHING there is to learn in pool, but can you beat efren reyes?

It's not the knowledge, not the know how, its the siiiikeeeell.. Daniel doesn't even know how to position properly and he's already jumping to using the close bridge and screwing when unneccessary.. well at least i, know when to screw, because i'm someone who screws more than he follows, and daniel, probably beacause he's captivated by the beauty of the screw, that's why he does it so often.

I shared this to kenneth last night, telling him no matter how much pool stuff daniel cramps into his brain, he cannot last a race to five against anyone of us, because, it takes experience and the wisdom to know how to clear the table and steal the win.. Today, daniel played with me a lot since wei zhou was busy guiding kenneth, and i was right, daniel did not know how to last through the game, there're seven balls you have to pocket as fast as possible, positioning is very very important, he could make the pots but he could not smoothly continue his runs.. i was tiring him out simply.. In fact, once i had 5 balls near the cushion, and i had a ball in hand, i pocketed one ball and called a safety, that way, it would be his turn and he'd be snooked.. And i kept doing this, every turn i had, i pocketed one ball yet did a safety.. as a result, he kept giving me ball-in-hands.. Before long, i had cleared enough to pocket the black too..

He does not have the wisdom and the experience.. And he never will have for a long while unless he trains all the time, and judging by his rate, i think he'll surpass me in no time, say, next year.. But not now daniel, not now.. I played 6 games and he won 1, that used to be the win rate of wei zhou against me.. haha..

Anyway, it got really boring and me and darren got up to use wei zhou's com.. and we loaded the maple patch and started mapling.. Lol, i was playing and that darren, being soooo childish, kept creeping up the stairs on all fours, trying to sneak in to the room without me seeing him.. haha, so cute, but everytime, i thwarted him in his evil plans because i could see a small head out of the corner of my eye.. haha.. Yeah, so once i died, and i complained to darren.. and darren said.. "come la! hack for you here!'' lol wowwiee!! I never thought of that! how come i was stupid!!??! Lol, it took a long while and darren got me the vacuum hack.. i got back 10% after while.. lol, but wei zhou's internet connection could not really support, so we went down again..

Downstairs, wei zhou challenged me and our first rack of nine-ball, i broke, potted the one, and started pocketing and pocketing.. Until, i cleared the table!?#%??!#%??!%? LOLLLL I never cleared a NINE BALL RACK!!! WOWHOOO!! I mean, i ever cleared an 8 ball rack but not 9 ball?!?!?! WowIeee.. The reason why its most difficult to clear a 9 ball rack is because, accurate positioning is demanded, just an off position and you'd be unable to last all the way till the 9, because the balls must be cleared in sequence.. I was so happy!! haha, wei zhou had that look on his face, that smile, that defeated and yet proud smile, and he went to tell the others i cleared.. He promoted me to hustler =D I think he did already huh? Yeah! 4 ohms! After that played so many rounds of pool with him i totally couldn't take it.. but i realised i have improved, i mean, winning just one game against him was so difficult in the past, now i could win like 5-6 out of 10. haha.. Anyway, i asked him if i could have a bowl of maggie mee before i left..

And wei zhou shouted for his maid, his maid said no more mee, then he simply said, go and buy, better come back in 5 mins.. Wa lau! so mean! He was really abusing his maid! Darn, i called him a tyrant, and he smiled at me cause he liked that name, lol, i was really angry at how he treated his maid.. i wish i didn't open my big mouth..

Shared a cab back to toa payoh with the others after that, and we visited long fung.. lol, we were standing there with pitiful faces, we wanted free bread! wei zhou, didn't even know what we were hinting and simply said, eating his bun, ''go on! buy what you want!'' Lol, i said, ''we do not buy buns with cash, we buy buns with brotherhood!'' haha, anyway, we walked out and wei zhou's dad just gave us two free buns =DD.. haha, went home after that..

Softness of the Heart

2006-10-21T11:05:00.000+08:00

This post was written yesterday but blogger kinda had some problems..

goodness, had to wake up so early today just to prepare for school, although i didn't have school till like 2pm, all because of my piano theory... sigh, the sacrifice made is just too big.. anyway, i got dressed in the smartest way i could in my school uniform, lol, and headed out to take a bus.. darn i hate to take the bus! cause i'd still sweat like a pig whenever i do.. whether its in the morning with the cool morning breeze, or if it snows, lol, i'll still sweat a lot when i reach the bus stop..

anyway, thank goodness i messaged sammie, cause apparently, when i was at the bus stop, she informed me she was sleeping like a PIG and she just woke up, lol, then she told me she was rushing.. haiyo, so i missed a 163 just for her..

I reached central really quickly, darn i hate to wait. T'hat's why when i have a meeting with someone, i'd always make an effort to be late, so that i don't have to wait, lol, to have to wait is to kill oneself.. and i had to... just standing at the red circle, with millions of people walking past me, i hate that loneliness... luckily little sammie arrive soon, and she was commanding me and leading me like a cute sheep, threatening me with a ''slap on your face'' if i didn't do something she asked for quickly, lol..Anyway, we headed to macs and looked like a couple, but nvm, haha, we settled down, and started theory.. so began the funnest 2 hours of theory of my life..

c'mon man, if i were at home with my piano teacher, i'd think of ways to stall as much time as possible.. i'd ask my maid to cook food, head up to the toilet and refuse to tell her what i'd be doing, take my own sweet time to do stuff.. or simple, feign death, haha, i'll just drop dead and wait for her to irritate me enough to ''bring me back'', but with sammie, i could learn cause sammie's a fierce lioness.. haha, but i could see she had a hard time since i didn't know.. ANYTHING, lol, finally she realises i meant what i said, i said i don't know ANYTHING about theory on msn, she'd just kinda laugh it off, haha, now you're frustrated, told ya! haha, but i learnt so much cool stuff about theory, no wonder people like theory, haha, wonder how my teacher's students learn their theory..On the whole, i was a GREAT student, cause i paid loads of attention, haha, i guess not.... although i had really short attention span, i BET she had fun teaching me, haha..

that was kinda it, we spent 2 hours doing theory and oh my, i was so satisfied, instant gratification, just 2 simple hours compared to the billions and trillions of hours my teacher has vainly spent over me.. haha..

Yeah, then we walked out of mac, and all of a sudden, yong siong came around, then he whacked my butt and moved along, giving me that sly smile.. wait a min, i knew that smile meant something, lol, WAH! haha, i shouted after him, ''she's just teaching me piano theory! '' haha, since there was much speculation about me and sammie, yong siong ever made fun of me, haha, now there was solid concrete evidence and lol, i was kinda flustered.. haha

Then we went out seperate ways and i went to school for ej.. Everyone had already arrived and yeah, mr yeo talked somemore nonsense about SVA and stuff and about letting us do whatever we wanted to, but honestly, i wasn't really interested in kilns, i was more of.. tau sar pia? haha, yeah, and everyone made me the leader, goodness, i cannot undertake such heavy responsibility! Sigh...

We then took public transport all the way to the National Archives, then more boring stuff..I just hate being introduced to stuff and places, like at the National Archives, once again we had to stand and patiently wait for someone to introduce this and that, i just can't wait to get started.. ALL the time, like when tourguides explain some stupid history, goodness, i just can't keep still, maybe that's why i make an effort to skip most of the ej outings.. cause i can't stand standing and waiting.. waiting kills..Yeah, and did some stupid research and got many photos, had people videotaping and taking pics of us doing research, which would be featured in the documentary...

The rest of the day there was really boring, oh man, i really hated doing such boring stuff, doing research, but i couldn't show that i'm bored since i'm the leader and i knew mr yeo would be really talking loads of nonsense if i were like that.. Anyway, it was darn darn boring and mr yeo once again started on his favourite hobby of picking on me, then he made fun of me, especially on the topic on girls, don't know why.. then he once again, had to tell that story about how i climbed the sofa in front of the Malaysian High Comissioner, which i want to stress ONCE again, NEVER HAPPENED, he told it to miss tan.. yeah, i wonder how many girls he made laugh telling that story of mine which NEVER happened, using my beautiful name to tell a story that NEVER happened, awwww, that iddiott, he'll just never listen to me, especially when i'm there, i keep arguing with him that i NEVER climbed the sofa, but he just had to argue back.. tsk tsk..

Yeah earlier on, Wei Zhou messaged me asking if i wanted to go to Park Lane, which had some pool parlour, and there was a challenger's table there and if you were good, you get to play for free.. And since the beginning of the year, all the guys have been going quite recently, except me, i've never stepped in to such a place before, mostly because i'm not in the mood, or because i'm busy, see? I'm not addicted at all, not like most of them, who probably can't live a week without pool.. tsk tsk.. Anway, wei zhou's messaged kinda surprised me because i rejected them so many times that i thought they had already given up asking me. Anyway, since i was out, i repaid his faithfulness and hopefulness with a yes.. haha, he was so happy after that, then i told him to bring me some clothing..

After we were dismissed, i even bad to ask mr yeo how to go to park lane mall, and yeah, i took a train to dhoby ghaut and waited for years before darren called me, and i got lost for like 30 mins cause i didn't even know where to go, when we FINALLY got there, wei zhou revealed to me his clothing, the shirt was okay, but his shorts were ABSOLUTELY TOO KIDDY, so i refused to wear them although he told me i had to.. but i managed to sneak in with school pants..

Alright! It was here, where i played the best rounds of pool in my life.. i mean in safra, its a snookerium, the only guys that play pool are teens our age and most of them can't play well, so we don't really have much competition in safra, its kinda boring there, but here, is where all the big guys specialize in pool, lol, i was so excited i wrote my name up on the challenger's black board.. Yeah! I played quite well that day, had a few streaks of beating a stranger and wei zhou, but it wouldn't be loong before i was ousted.. yeah me and wei zhou and darren had dinner and we got back to more pool..

I won more than i lost that day, in fact, all the losses were all marginal and stupid losses, mistakes that shouldn't have been made.. I remember when the rhino guy came in with his indian pal, kenneth told me he was really cautious of the rhino guy and sometimes he daren't play him.. Oh man, he was so big sized and he really looked like a rhino.. nevertheless, when he asked who was next, i immediately got up to rack the balls, he was good, but i could've beat him.. I really played quite well, in fact, very well... I made two beautiful consecutive cut shots that he whispered something to his indian pal, lol, so obvious that he never thought a young guy like me could execute such shots.. I had the perfect image, i was just a young and childish looking boy, and i had my school pants on, and an ugly shirt, small sized and uhh, some say, cute.. LOL. haha, just joking.. anyway, i knew that once i entered that place, everyone would look down on me cause i'm so kiddy looking, i mean, take rhino for example.. he was just HUGE, he had long hair and a black shirt, he had an intimidating figure, but i didn't know why i wasn't terrified at all, in safra however, i was.. but i just had the mood to show everyone what a little schoolboy could do..

Anyway, i lost that match just by abit, i owned him at first, in fact, he was quite in a fix for while, but after that he won. kenneth said he was lucky cause most of his balls were near the pocket.. Yeah, then he left and his indian pal took over, kenneth lost to his pal, and i took up the challenge.. My goodness, okay, his pal wasn't that intimidating, but one could really see that he's not a pushover, i mean, he had the look.. He was tall, matured looking, with specs and quite handsome, haaha.. Anyway, when i racked, i tried to give him the impression that he didn't scare me at all and i tried as much as possible to look sleepy, i was anyway.

He was good, once again, not much better than me.. In fact, i was running the table and clearing until i came to an easy shot.. I knew it was an easy shot, but i took like 2mins for that shot because i explored all the possiblities of the runs of the cueball.. In fact, i already went down to aim for that shot, but i got up again, knowing that if i made that shot, i wouldn't have position for the next shot, so i went for a much difficult shot, and got it in, and had much better position for better shots, he tapped the table, which i haven't explained before, people tap the table when someone makes a good shot, and its a commendable shot.. So yeah, he tapped for me, i was soooooo happppppyyyy.. ==DDDDD.. I'm happy especially when someone older taps for me.. I mean, an old guy probably has much much more experience, and even if i'm not his match, he acknowledges that i've made a good shot and applauds me for it, that's the beauty and the happiness you derive from a tap..

Yeah, i was so close to winning, i had 2 balls left and he had several, but i screwed on my 7 ball, lol, i somehow chipped my cueball, AWWWW.. He won me again, darn i was soooo closeeeeee, i couldn't imagine how he would feel if i had won, he was the pro, not much proer, maybe even same, and i almost ousted him.. I blame my stupidity.. lol.. me and kenneth left after that, i certainly hoped that i wouldn't be visiting this place much again, i mean, the atmosphere is unbearable, its really really where all the gangsters lurk, kenneth says its not for learned people.. darn, i don't wanna be an unlearn person! I really couldn't really stand the atmosphere, of course, i didn't mind it, it didn't really affect me, in fact, no matter how bad the atmosphere is, it wouldn't influence me... but certainly i wouldn't want to hang out at such places all the time..

Anyway, took a cab back home after that with kenneth and he shared with me more of his pool insights.. Reached home at 10pm!!! Lol, dad was overseas, mum was already in her room, and my brother was telling me to get ready for bed.. AWWW!?!?!??!?!? One thing i hate most is coming home late and having to sleep.. i have to watch the tele or play the com or at least, spend time at home before sleeping, i can't sleep immediately after coming home.. i hate that feeling, makes me feel very empty..

Anyway, for the first time in months, maybe years, i informed my mum i would like to move back to my room to sleep for a night.. and i told her i wouldn't be going to my piano teacher's home cause my good friend sammie taught me things i've never learnt all my life that my teacher spent years teaching me in vain.. Yes, so everyone slept and i took the laptop to my room and begged sammie to stay up all night.. Sammie, being nice, stayed up all morning.. haha..

Anyway, we talked for like 5 hours, till 2am when she had to go.. we had a great talk.. haha...

The nature of Boys

2006-10-19T18:49:00.000+08:00

Today is thurs, lol, we were supposed to have inline skating cause sheryl kindly signed the whole class up, lol, i was already told that all my friends wouldn't be going, except latif, haiya, no matter how much i begged them they'd rather stay at home and sleep, so i had no choice but still go to school today. Lol, during the morning assembly, i was like, the only guy sitting there amongst the girls and there was a HUGE gap between me and the other half of the class ='( I was so alone, haha, teck didn't come, kenneth didn't come, peera didn't come, now that's half the class, haha, since i'm not close with the other half, so sad..

Anyway, when the inline skating started, i was really really lazy about changing into pe and skates, so i kinda didn't change, but then, lol, me and latif still changed, and yeah, we got started and i recognised the salomen guy, the boss i think, he was also the boss last time when i learnt skating, and yeah, the asked for those who could skate to go over to one side, but only like ulfred and ricky went there, i thought everyone else would stay at the new corner, so i stayed too. lol, the starting was sooooo boring, but i just decided to follow everyone since i hadn't skated for like 3 to four years, and yeah, we started just moving slooowwwly, and i was getting really uncomfortable and hot...moreover, we had to wear that stupid helmet which made all of us look like.. look like, look funny, i didn't even have to wear one then..lol, after ''learning'' how to skate for like sooo long, i realised i was skating in circles and i realised, i haven't passed anyone that looked like jhansi robelle or sam or the others, and i was just passing latif and the guys, lol, waaaaaa, then i saw them skating at the intermediate zone.. wahhhhhh!! lol, i felt so left out, haha, they left without meeeee, while over at my area, i had no friends because everyone was busy looking after themselves trying to balance and stuff, lol, then i kept glancing over giving that pathetic look, they were soooo mean, they just laughed at me but i didn't dare to cross over.

Anyway after that, during recess, i was the only guy amongst all the girls again, soo lonely, haha, cause it was only our class and the guys didn't come anyway, haiya.

It was after i changed and when i walked back to class, i walked past kenneth and he said, ''hi hexun!'' then continued walking, lol, at first i walked past too but then i suddenly realised he was in school, haha, then i stopped him and he told me he just came.. WHAT?? haha, then i just got in and did nothing. Then we realised that the pool table was open for some reason, so me and kenneth got there and took a look and learnt that mr yeo had opened the table just for his class, so kenneth and i tagged for one match and we won in 3 turns i think, then we got back again.. Teck messaged me asking me who was in school, so i told him no one, but kenneth just turned up. It was sooooo boring in class, most of the guys were reading, if not, sleeping, lol, no togetherness, what class sprit? All i could do was just molest ricky and prevent him from molesting me back, haha..

Then i was in a middle of a muderer game with a group of the people when i saw teck talking to ray, lol, once again i thought it was pretty normal, until i realised teck didn't come this morning! haha, then he told me he just arrived too, wa lauuuuuu, like that.. haha.

I didn't bother much about him, he told me he wanted to go to HQ, which was wei zhou's house, that was why he came to school. Miss tuan came in and gave us some survey, and she also realised teck and kenneth just got in, then she kinda scolded teck in a nice way, and teck was just smiling, haiya, miss tuan is just soo nice.. But she said she wanted to see him and kenneth after school. So i decided although i had piano lessons, i told teck to leave his house with me at like 330, he agreed, yay! so i have something fun to do after school.

Yeah, i had to wait awhile for him and kenneth, miss tuan led them to the office, and teck passed me his phone, kenneth passed his to wei zhou. wei zhou then left with daniel first.. WAH, after that, they were inside for soooo long, and when i saw them, i could see that miss tuan was really really angry and serious about this matter.. Miss tuan then came out and she was really really angry, and led me to a corner and told me not to wait for them, she scolded me, asking me to watch out.. wahh, then i asked her what i did, she said i didn't do anything but she said if i don't influence them, they'd eventually influence me, she told me they have really really bad attitude and stuff, oh man, i was so afraid cause miss tuan's so nice.. she told me they'd be serving detention for coming late.. oooh, i can imagine how angry teck would be and he'd probably vent his anger on me too.. i was just caught in the middle! wahhh, i was kinda down after that, seeing them in there..

I then walked to the canteen and just told the guys, i really didn't know what to do, i was about to have fun at Wz's house and all these things happen, and i hate it when teck's angry and when he curses, and just to think, i'd have to listen to them and try to tell him to relax but there's nothing much i can do actually.. Yeah, i kept walking back to outside the office, and i saw mr boo talking to kenneth, miss tuan told me kenneth was really really rude..

I really don't know what's wrong with these guys, i mean, they're my friends but, i guess they really took advantage of miss tuan's niceness. Miss tuan's really very nice and they think it'd be okay to do this and that.. and when miss tuan punishes them, they'd be cursing her and stuff.. i feel so sorry for her, i mean honestly, althought they get good grades and stuff, they should still respect the teachers and the rules i think.. especially kenneth, i mean, he shouted at miss tuan this afternoon, and in class he's quite rude, he wasn't even like this last year.. moreover, he's the monitor!

Yesterday, kenneth didn't come to school, and the during math revision, mdm soh asked for the monitress, she specifically asked for the monitress, and since i'm used to being called the monitress, and i AM the monitress and since kenneth didn't come, i walked up to collect the paper, lol, i know everyone was laughing at me but haha, if kenneth came i'd still have to go.. anyway, mdm soh asked me where was our class'monitress, i said we didn't have any, and she asked if i gave out the math paper 2, i said no, she said good, cause she the last one was hurling the papers to his classmates.. yeah, during math paper 2, kenneth threw everyone's math paper, i mean, kenneth's funny, but sometimes, i don't know what to say, the only person that dared to say something was ray, and he should have..

Yeah, when i went to check on teck again mr singh was talking to him one on one and giving him a big scolding, ahh, it pained my heart to see him, it pains my heart to see my friends in trouble, but i was just caught up in the middle, i always am, i was quite saddened by how my friends treated miss tuan and how they were being punished, besides, teck's phone was in my pocket.. So i told him i'd put it in his locker, and after a little hesitation and stuff, i left myself to meet wz and darren.

Yeah, i finally met wei zhou and daniel, and i finally met someone who could understand how i felt, he asked me how come kenenth was like this, and yeah, i was relaly saddened by it, i mean, sometimes kenneth is really insulting and it really hurts other people's feelings, although kenneth does not insult me, he never has, but i really feel sorry for the guys he has hurt..like the twins in class, they are really helpful, but yet kenneth is really nasty to them, although i sometimes am cause i find them kinda irritating at times but i still talk to them sometimes, while kenneth is really really nasty that even i am afraid of him and i can't help but sympathise the twins.. yesterday during the pool finals, the teacher sent micheal off for making too much noise and comments, then suddenly, kenneth came to school, and kenneth was also making a lot of noise and comments, and i was really afraid the teacher might sent him away since the teacher knew us, i was afraid the teacher might be angry with us..

I don't know i'm really quite sick of all these.. sometimes i wish i'm a girl, haha, i don't mean anything about like girly stuff or whatever, but the guys are really, quite bad, the girls are more human than the guys i feel, in fact, the only guys that i feel are really human are ray and yuan hong, they really have feelings and they have a heart.. I mean you see how close girls can get amongst each other, while for me, i rarely had a good friendship with a boy because boys will be boys.. they guys rarely spare a thought for others and rarely sacrifice and really be nice.. i always find i do so much for the guys but they return much less, except shi xiong maybe, sometimes..

especially these days, i find i share my stuff with girls other than guys, the only guy that i really share stuff with is ray, with kenneth and the others, we only talk about business, kenneth will talk about which guy he thrashed, and how to play this thing and that in pool, no personal stuff.. teck's a nice guy, but i think he's just too angry sometimes, in fact, he makes himself so many enemies, he really hates jj, he hates many guys, esp wang yi ren and micheal and he won't hesitate to fight them if he has too.. which i find, is a huge waste, he's so smart and hardworking, but yet, he won't hesitate to fight someone who has offended him. He almost wanted to punch wang yi ren for staring at him, he almost wanted to fight micheal cause micheal mouthed vulgarities at him... although in all these cases he didn't start first, he just calm down and forget about these people who aren't worth fighting for, and i have trouble trying to make him forget his anger.. i guess i can so easily, but not for him..

we took a cab to wz's house, and i tried to forget all my troubles.. yeah, i had a great time, i beat wei zhou 3-2 in 9 ball and he was really impressed and he was full of respect for me, he promoted me to hustler =D.. haha, i spent the other half of my stay there playing with daniel and ate maggi me then i went home..

ahhh, home, piano lessons, i HATE THEORY!#%I@U%PU!@.. sitting there for soooo long going through stuff i don't even know makes me really really sick and tired.. arghghhh..ahhh,i know i was really disrespectful, haha, but she doesn't care anyway, i mean, she's too nice, haha.. I was behaving just like my tuition kid, but i mean, haha, she just doesn't understand that i don't understand a word she says and even if she tries explaining when i do ask out of concern for myself, she just says it out and i find it's difficult for me to learn that way!! I mean, she's a really good patient teacher, but she just cannot teach me theory! There were supposed to be 3 crotchets and she asked me, i said 3, she asked me 3 what? apples, oranges or bananas? then i said apples and wrote it down, lol, then she just rewrote for me.. i can''tt learn even if i really want tooo! Lol, that's why i asked sammie to teach me tomorrow since my exams are next week...

Its abrupt ending

2006-10-17T20:28:00.000+08:00

I just realised why i've been sneezing so much lately, it suddenly occured to me that it might. Yeah, and today was our big day, very big actually, but i was injured all over, lol, both my hands were bruised from playing volleyball with jy, sam, and jhans, and i even scratched my knee, lol, then i even tore a piece of my flesh out, i don't know how but it took my awhile to realise i was bleeding..

lol yesterday was kinda great, we had ej meeting, and at first they said mr yeo said it was compulsory to go if not i'd be the ''end of realationships'' lol, haha, i decidde to skip it, as i started sneezing (its just a stupid excuse) so i told murali to tell him i was sick, lol, i've always skipped by saying i'm sick.. haha anyway, i was about to leave with the guys to safra when i suddenly turned back, lol, i said i was really afraid that i'd be important, haha, so i told wei zhou to go with me too, since wei zhou just joinined.. yeah, we went for the meeting and told teck that i'd meet him in safra later on..

meeting was.. lol BEST I EVER HAD! haha, firstly, miss tan asked me to join the SVN documentary thingy cause mr yeo recommended me, awww! haha, mr yeo did something nice for me! and did i mention SVN is a super prestigious thingy, we got silver last year i think, and ej gained schoolwide recognition, besides, getting gold would deduct points from my o's, so i said okay. And each group had to get an advertisement proposal for the SVN too, lol, so i took the chance since mr yeo wasn't there to regroup, so i said, uh , yeah, 5 in a group, me, wei zhou, imran murali yuan hong... Lol, we were thinkning about what to advertise, haha, then i suggested using the available resources, and since wei zhou's dad bought over a confectionary store near lorong 8 (20% off if you get a card signed my wz) i suggested we do something about his store, haha, then wei zhou went ballistic and suggested we do one on TAU SAR PIA, hahahaha, its soooo funny, and honestly, it was a GREAT idea, lol, so we decided on it, and he said they would film the beach, which was sar, and beans, then a tau sar pia, then they'd go to his dad's store and film them painstakingly making it, then they'll show me buying one when i'm young, haha, then enjoying it, that's in black and white, then like they'll show a middle-aged me and an old aged me, wahhhh, haha, they just wanted me to do it, i couldn't do anything haha.. but i honestly thought it was a great idea and i told everyone to be really serious about it, haha, in fact, i think we'd get gold, haha, so we submitted our proposal and me and WZ left for safra, haha, along the way i was soooo excited about it i kept telling wz it's a great idea and that we'd surely get gold, lol, we even went to his store and wei zhou took 30 bucks out of the cash register.. haha

on our way there wz just went crazy and kept singing some tau sar pia song, lol, he's excited too, we're gonna get gold!

Yeah so today i looked like i was gonna go overseas or something, i had my back, my cue case, and my shoe bag.. Yeah, since the beginning of school, we were all so excited about the tournament, especially kenneth, kenneth was the most confident, he was already talking about the finals and stuff, and if he got runner-up, he wouldn't want to take the trophies.. lol, out of us three, i was the only one who had a bad feeling about it, think about it, do you think we won't have any competition amongst the competitors? haha and besides, its a race to 1, means you only can play one match, and stupid things can happen in one match.

Yeah, seriously, the pool tournament is a little screwed, it wasn't properly organised, we couldn't even keep to the normal 8 teams, people like aaron just signed up as and when he wants to, what can we do? Lol, yes, after school came and we rushed there to find all those people spoiling the table already, lol, we couldn't stand the sight.. anyway, we were really pissed a lot of people hadn't turned up, then they did eventually, and mr yeo suggested what nonsense, just anyhow pick who challenge who, haiya, we got micheal teams, micheal, the indian guy from 2n3 i think, he looked so fierce, but i was determined to thrash them..

Yeah, we were the second team to play, and i unzipped wz's cue case and took out my cue, and screwed it together, then, yeah, it started so quickly, the guy broke first, i lost the coin toss, and it was quite a weak dry break, and i missed my first shot, lol.. yeah, that guy wasn't even good, i cleared him kinda simply, he didn't even pocket one single shot, i even got a ball in hand. with that ball in hand, i was determined that i could beat him. OH! my first shot, i was trying the screw, and it screwed so far?!!!! IT spoilt my positioning! wahh, cause wei zhou helped me file my cue tip, my goodness, it took another round before i could finally get on the black again, yeah, i pretty much tried to take as much time as possible, playing too fast isn't good at al, i explored every single possibility, and thought a lot for positioning, when i was on the black, i hit it so softly, and it went down, yes! I smiled at the guys, one down! I started unscrewing my cue, but suddenly the cue ball rolled and went into the mid pocket! MY GOODNESS! I almost fainted when i saw the cue ball roll in, my heart sank, my smile faded, i was in the abyss, that similar dark hole, i couldn't believe it, my game, taken away from me. I couldn't believe it! I refuse to! Everyone looked at me in shock, even wei zhou, we all couldn't believe it, wei zhou knew it was over, i knew it was over, kenneth and teck knew it, but wei zhou tried to save me, he took the rule sheet and said to respot the black ball, whew! I was kinda relieved, there were some protests, kenneth came to my rescue, he said world pool rules said so, but that teacher took a second look at the sheet, and she said it can't be respotted since the black was potted at the right time, since it was potted after i finished all my balls.

The game was taken away from me, so was my life, i couldn't believe it, i saw the look on my opponents face, we each had 7 balls to hit, he had 6 balls on the table, i had none, i beat him, HOW ON EARTH COULD I SCRATCH? I was so, i couldn't take it. my opponent was smiling, i still can't believe it, he won without any effort at all, i was smiling, i hung the ''well, that's my luck! '' on my face, i walked away, but deep down it felt like someone stabbed a knife into my heart, i couldn't believe it. I walked down, my goodness, the longest walk in my whole life, i knew clearly how important this tournament was to me, i can't believe it.. all over, my biggest match of my career, i let down master, well, its fate. I knew it from before the tournement and i cautioned myself about this, i just had a hunch i'd pocket the black and pot the cue ball too, i knew it, this move is my bane, it always happened to me, i cautioned myslef so much on that kinda shot, but i knew there was absolutely no way i was gonna scratch on the cue ball, but WHO'D KNOW? It hit my opponent's balls and deflected in.

Yeah, i was depressed, i changed to my white hu lala and got dressed for soccer, it took a while before i caught latif's attention, peera was injured badly on his knee, and he got me in, yes! on the soccer field again, i tried to put the loss behind me and trust in teck and kenneth that they'll win those guys, felt good to walk in the field again. Asked murali and the score was still nil nil. after that they scored one i think, and latif converted a free kick into a goal, that was a great one.

Yeah so before long i was tiring myself out, the team wasn't even passing to me, frankly, i only touched the ball twice, and during those 2 times, i passed on to someone else quickly, i was quite angry imran didn't pass and did a shot then, he missed, and apologised. Yeah, so here comes the good part, haha, i got the ball, dribbled and got past some people, then passed back to murali, he passed to imran, and he sped down the right flank, and i shouted for a pass, he did a beautiful curling cross over, past the like, 4 defenders and towards me and goalkeeper, i just slammed it in without a second thought, goal. Yeah, it felt good, haha, best thing that can happen to a striker is to score a goal..

the rest of the match was very intense, but it wasn't long before half time, and i think the score was 3-2, yeah, half time break, and i met teck at the 2nd level, i asked him if we won, he said kenneth lost.. AFOGJSAOGPJOSJHOAJSOHJASOJHAOSJH!!@$!%@#%(*!@#(&(#^(&^(&@(^&(!&@#$(^!&@#$(^&!(&P^!..

I was sooooooooo depressed then, i kicked the pole, i couldn't believe it, the favorites to win for the tournament was kicked out in the first round?!@!? .. I blamed myself, i couldn't believe it, how could i lose that match! Teck told me it wasn't my fault, no one would have known that the cue ball was going in, i still couldn't believe we were out.. teck was very angry, he said during his match, he attempted a difficult kick shot (like an indirect shot) And my opponent laughed at him, i was angry too, but he made the shot successfully, and aaron scolded him.. I was pissed, my opponent laughed at him, what's he laughing about? he won merely beacuse i got unlucky, and because i wasn't fated to win, what was he laughing about, could he ever pull of a shot like that? Why was he mocking my friend when he couldn't even play half as well as teck? Heck he only pocketed one ball during my game! SHEER LUCK! And he's laughing right there eh? Well, i've never seen such a proud prat..

I was in no mood to join in the team meeting, the guys kept calling me, but i just kept pacing about, i couldn't believe that just because i scratch, we lost, i didn't blame kenneth at all, it was my fault.. darn! Second half started soon, when we started, everyone was so slacked that they scored within 2 mins, lol, so i walked down the pitch and clapped, ''hello! half-time is over!" haha, everyone looked so lethargic.. haiyo, so we started again, and murali passed back, and avinesh got it, he passed to me, oh man! I hate receiving air balls, but low balls are my favourite, i just can't resist the great feeling of dribbling past all the defenders and scoring, in fact, throughout the match i was just imagining myself receiving a perfect low ball and dribbling past everyone..

Yeah, and avinesh somehow passed a low ball to me, oh man! I burst out and dribbled past two of em, YES! nearing the goal, no one can actually stop me when i'm this near, because i'm the fastest on the pitch at the moment beacuse of my ability for short sprints, oooo yeah, so i dribbled past the last defender andooo yeah! it was me and the goalkeeper left, loll, i hadn't scored the goal but i was already smiling, so i just ran left and right and SHHHEHWWHHWWHETTT the ball right in, no chance for the keeper, yeah! But yeah, they kept scoring too, since jj left, and jj is a great keeper..

yeah, throughout the match, i was already feeling sick already, because i sprinted like hell and fought crazily to retrieve prossession of the ball after i lost it, and yeah, that took EVERYTHING out of me, and i've mentioned before my stamina sucked, so i was getting dizzy and breathless, i didn't even have much life left, i told murali if yong siong let one more goal in, i'd take over him as the keeper, since i played as a keeper in sec 1 interclass.. And yeah, i was running for a ball with someone tailing me, i could hear him, yeah, so i did a couple of turns but suddenly something hit my on my calf and as i did a turn, i suddenly felt a SHARP INTENSE PAINNN, and i just collapsed on the ground, darn, it was really really really really painful, uh, i just lied on the ground clutching my calf, everyone ran to me and thought i had a cramp, so they took off my shoe and tried to fix it, but it still hurt like hell, so i said i couldn't continue, i just limped off the pitch..

ohhh man, i limped off and just collapsed at the staircase, it was really really really very painful, i have to thank the girls for being so concerned over me, haha, jhansi robelle and sam just walked over and sat beside me, ohh, i was so dying, i was breathless and had a splitting headche, moreover, i felt like vomitting, ohhh man.. Lol, i just gulped down 2 bottles of water and sweet robelle bought me pandadol, lol, instant effects, my headache slowly stopped, but still, it took the rest of the game for me to get back to normal, lol, i just sitting there, feelling really really very very very sick, and listening to jhansi say that she took a pic of my arse, lol , yeah, and about how unfair 3e4 were, they had a sec 4 keeper and their players were all so big sized and stuff, there were bullying uss!

we didn't score after that, we were down 6-4, sigh, it was a good game anyway, not for me, haha, i limped off to the canteen then got changed. Sigh, when i saw teck, i started slapping myself again, i was really depressed..

i suggested going to safra, even thought it was like, 6, lol, i was just really down, and i had my personal cue anyway, so we headed to safra. And on our way there, i was really killing myself, i really couldn't believe how i lost, it was all my fautl, really, if i had won, teck wins and we win,why!??% did have to scratch? I really killed myself for scratching that cue ball, i couldn't believe it, i caused our failure..

I got to safra with a lot of pool mood, i saw a woman dressed formally, and she was traning alone, she was trying to perfect her banking, and teck told me she's a pro. But i told them i'm gonna go straight up to her this time and challenge her, what've i got to lose? I've already lost the tournement, i've lost everything! Challenging her is unlike of me, i never have so much courage, rarely i guess.. But i rented a shirt, and walked in, i told teck to get my cue ready just in case, so i walked over, and asked her what time she'd be leaving, she couldn't hear me and asked, ''i beg your pardon?'' lol, so high class.. Then she said 630, so i asked if i could have a game with her, then she said sure!

Then i asked politely, ''uhh, don't you want to punch first? so we can play?'' Then she said, ''no no nevermind! its okay, my treat! I'll let you play for free..'' Lol, i was quite embarassed, so i said, ''uh? don't want luh, like that i feel bad. " Then she said ''nevermind its okay! i'm a working adult, i make my own money i while you're still a student right? so i pay for you la! haha, next time when you're making your own money then come and treat me! "haha..

So she asked me to rack, then i walked to teck and took my cue over, ohh man! i was sooo in the mood to thrash her, haha, so she broke, and i couldn't believe how well i played, i was just overjoyed for some reason, because i had a lot of feel, wowiee! i made soooo manyy good shots, haha, she asked if i was in the JC, i said nono, i'm sec 3, haha, i bet she was impressed, haha, yeah, she kept saying, ''good shot!'' haha, i felt quite embarassed cause i didn't say her back haha.. haha, when i won the first round she clapped, lol,i felt so awkward, haha, when she clapped i was like ,''uhhhh, haha.. ''

Then i kinda motioned for teck to come to me cause i wanted to talk to him, then she said i could let him play when she goes for a smoke, and when she did, i played another match with teck and when she came back, i did a beautiful double last, haha, so unintended, i mean, i usually miss this kinda shots, when i won teck she clapped again, lol, what could i do, just smile..

So i racked again, and she said she'd rack and i'd break, but i told her i injured my fingers, so she broke again and once again i won, haha, she's really good, but i guess i had the feel, lol, so after that game i told her i'd be shifting to another table cause i didn't want to take advantage of her, so i kept thanking her.. haha, such a nice person! And yeah, i definitely felt good winner her since she was really good..

Haha so the rest of the night, i played with teck and i want to thank him for making he happy, haha, he's just so funny, haha he kept singing those childhood chinese songs, haha, then he kept making me laugh, lol, he's just crazy, he's so funny, always making girly noises and stuff, haha, yeah, we're so childish, and he calls me childish, actually i am, and through the ages, people have called me childish, there are many things i did that i didn't blog about.. haha.. went home after that..

Amanda's my master, don't say i was asked, haha.. i owe some people many favours. haha

Boring of the Wizard

2006-10-15T18:19:00.000+08:00

uhh, slept at like one plus cause i was caught up with some new korean drama after the last one ended, to think about it, me and my mum have sat thru many many korean drama serials already, since the beginning of the year till now, but i like it, i just don't like having to wake up early for church. My body's broken! In the past no matter what time i slept it's just me to wake up at about 7-8 in the morning, and even if i forced myself to sleep more, i wouldn't, but now i just can't do it, i'll just pig in bed and salivate all over my bedsheet, dreaming my dreams, and when my maid comes in to call me, i'll just rudely shoo her away, there's something wrong, lol..

Anyway, i headed to church with quite a bad mood, shouldn't be that attitude, i guess i'll have to stop watching korean drama serials, but thery're too entertaining, once you start, you definitely can't stop! Then was tuition again, which was a huge bore, i mean, before my kid got a scolding, he was really naughty and stuff, but now he's just so quiet and obedient, i mean that's good but, that's too boring, i miss the time when i'm doing my stuff and i have to look up to give him a scolding, i'm a happy person, i don't get angry much, but i wanna get angry! But i guess its just happy anger, it isn't much of the really angry anger, but yeah, although its good i miss the fun, now its no fun, i was just hugging my bag and my phone and sitting there staring about, while he was busy doing the english exercise, time to time i'll just look over to mark his work and give him new assignments, sigh, a teacher would definitely love rebellious students, i'm sure of that! to think of it, it might also be for the sympathy the teacher can receive, i mean, if a teacher goes about telling people about their 'plight' of having such a rebellious class, they might just be trying to get people's sympathy, and make a big deal out of it, maybe if these teachers were given really quiet classes with really obedient students they'd be bored to death..

Not forgetting there ARE some teachers that vomit blood over their students.. then lunch, i know everyone'll hate me but, i didn't eat my packet of rice cause i felt it was too ewwey, it smelt really bad and i didn't have the mood to eat it, ah, i'm too pampered, remembering xl's mini debate with me yesterday, asking me if there was a need to compare us to like african people who didn't have much to eat, i said it only works, we only sympathise and realise the importance of food for a fraction of a moment, before we go on with our lives, because until we experince first hand what's it like to be without food, we'll never really appreciate it, there shouldn't be a need for comparison firstly because it does not totally change us and thus we have to conciously keep in mind the significance and the importance of food. Which is something i haven't got into my brain, cause i'm such a spoilt kid, i just take the food that's pleasant to my taste buds, which might explain why i'm so small sized, lol. Which leads me to think about casualties we read about in the newspapers, the relatives whom have lost their loved ones tell the people around the world to treasure your loved ones for you never know when they may be taken away from you, that's just something we know but can't follow. It's a simple advice, a common one, so simple that we overlook it, that's something we can spend a whole day nodding our heads in agreement about, but in the end, we still won't follow it will we? Some might but i'd definitely take it all for granted, wait till the day i lose something or i long for something i've lost that everybody was born with, like my eyesight, and i painstakingly tell the youths of the world to treasure your eyesight! people will listen, agree, feel sorry, then continue spoiling their eyes. Its simple, but why don't they see, we just can't do it until we experience it!

Singspiration was as great, that's why its called singspiration, never fails to inspire me, but it does only once a week, i get inspired once a week, that's not enough, i should help out more in church. Then was the publicity for gospel camp, lol, i wasn't part of it, and when i don't i feel bad since i'm in the committee, but hey, i did contribute, its time for me to get back on track.

Nothing much was left, just games and sharing, and about what part of our lives that we actually depend on ourselves much more than Him, not following and trusting His plan, well of course, everyone said studies, i was no exception, but i wasted the most time. I was saying if i didn't get into a good jc, i wouldn't be satisfied at all, althought they were telling me its God's plan, but firstly they should clear the misunderstandings, study hard, play less, focus more, do your best, THEN, the rest is God's plan, whew, before that i was thinking that whatever happened, its God's plan, lol, if i went home to tell my mum, that wherever i went to, its God's plan, she'll kill me, and that did happen.

I got home and ,'' ma, if i get into a lousy JC, don't kill me cause its all God's plan." as expected, she exploded, lol, yeah yeah i get it, study hard before you leave it all to Him, haha, that kinda made me feel easy, i mean, i was a little hard on myself cause this eoy i really slacked till the last minute, which rarely happens, but hey, what's done is done, i should be satisfied and grateful over my results.

Its such a bore, having nothing to do at home, hopefully i can get a movie to watch tomorrow. So i was pretty much staring at mid air when suddenly, i forgot how, but my dad pulled me up for a game of foosball, but it always starts because i provoke him, i taunt him cause 'now i'm better than him, but he refuses to believe he can't beat me, since he's so used to winning in the past, but ever since that period when i surpassed him, i've kept a 100% record. He pulled me up, got the fan out, took of his shirt, took of his specs, and started, ohh man, lol, i wasn't in the mood, but i shouldn't tell him that anyway, he'd think its just an excuse when i'm losing, and i was losing, like 7-2. So i cautioned him and i told him i'd be playing properly, and i just fought all the way up to beat him 10-7, haiya, he's so sad, haha. Then he suggested having a time limit and the one who scored the most goals within 10 mins and one half time wins, lol, then i told him, wah, then i can score 20 goals? 10 per half? Lol, then he kinda laughed at me and said its impossible for me to score 10 goals in 5 mins. Lol, yeah, i took up that challenge, and i really pushed myself to the limit, 'my striker is just unbeatable, then my striker gets a fast ball, my dad and i knows that the next thing we're gonna hear is the loud ''clang'' of the collision between the back of the goal and the ball, and i pushed myself so hard, i managed to beat him 10-1 in the first half!! lol, wow, then 2nd half he suggested switching place, since i always had the red team, then he said that might be why i win so much, then i agreed. Of course, playing a different side is a different feeling, but it affects the player no less, i continued to beat him another 10-1, hammering him with a total score of 20-2, now that's ownage! haha, he just totally gave up after i scored the last goal, he gave a huge sigh, and walked away, not even my challenges for one more game helped, but we both were already soaked to the skin with sweat..

lol, i'm mean, i asked my brother who's your daddy when he walked past me, then he told me to shut up, haha, then i said, i'm your daddy, cause i owned your daddy, haha... its BORINGNGSIAJAS:JSAh.. can't wait for school..

Well honestly, i won't be saying that during the holidays, in the past during the holidays is when i'm so overwhelmed with church folks, that i hate going to school again, especially if i go to a camp, or if we go holidaying with wei hong's folks, i'll be so hot, so passionate that whenever i wake up i wanna see the guys, its a different feeling when the ''school mood'' is on, the ''church mood'' is one now and frankly i'm kinda excited of its arrival because this year has been a largely ''school mood'' year, i can't wait for the holidays to start, by then i wouldn't be bored anymore. Remember the past year end of year holidays, when i'm fresh from an overseas trip or a camp, that i really cringe at the sight of my school bag, i'm always wishing on my own, ''c'mon uncles! one more dinner! one more hi-tea before the holidays end!'' wishing that my dad's great pals, my pals'daddies from church could arrange one more hi-tea or one more dinner, so that i can enjoy, so that i can love them more, before i got back to school..

It comes to a closing

2006-10-13T20:30:00.001+08:00

Ah friday, how does it feel like to have the ''first'' day of school and yet feel like the last? Well once again the announcement was kinda screwed, at first i was supposed to do it, then mr tham for some reason said he would, then he didn't even turn up today, so didn't mr yeo. The more i feel we'd better win the tournament and the trophies, when we're doing so much, soo much I mean, kenneth, he called mr yeo twice and he didn't answer, then he replied one hour later with one word ''draw'' then he replied later with- "draw something" which was regarding the pool booth, and yeah, mrs how made the pool announcement delivering all the credit to 3T2, when they didn't do a SINGLE thing, they didn't even attend a SINGLE meeting, while for me, i only missed one SINGLE meeting cause i had piano lessons, while they just disappeared, and they get all the credit, so naturally, the guys were kinda angry.

First was mass revision for the pure geogers, and uhhh, got an A2 again, darn, i just couldn't find anything to write for paper 2, and i realise there were many memory work, no wonder teck could get so high, haiya, yeah then after that we all got around the school sticking up the pool tournament posters, all by ourselves.. and we were glad to find out there were already some technical guys that were interested, we thought there wouldn't be any response from anyone at all.

Uh so it was A math mass revision, darn i hate mass revisions, yeah, it came as quite a shock as like 16 people passed in our class, and i was already disappointed, beacuse i thought i'd fail, however i thought the paper was quite doable, so i was quite disappointed, but thank goodness i did.. uhh, then they set up the pool booth, it was kinda funny, lol, just a few tables and chairs and one vangaurd sheet, and i ate and when i got back i realised they had already finished the grouping, lol, i thought it was overwhelming response, but there was one group from TPA, i think one group from our class and of course, one group for me teck and kenneth, then the rest were normal and normal techs. Yeah, we were pretty glad..

Uhhh, then i had to go for interclass softball, which i didn't feel like going, so i got changed and realised my maid got me the tight fit sec 1 pe shirt, lol, so embarassing, uh, then luckily robelle bought a new shirt then i changed then for some reason i just got sick, oh thank goodness, i just kept sneezing and sneezing and i had a little dizziness, lol, i sneezed till i couldn't open my eyes, and since i have to keep my eyes most of the time up at the sky, i figured i might be no help and might actually get myself injured, so i changed with yun hui, whew! haha..

So after that we got serious about pool and teck's really in a state where he has fallen into darkness. I mean, a few months ago i even asked him helplessly how i could actually beat him, beause he had actually attained a very high level of pooling, and he was the true champion, he cleared me here and there i thought i was already out of the game, but in the recent months his skills have really gone down, he claims he really can't aim well as he could anymore, i don't know but it might affect the tournament like this, darn, he's a darn good player, lol. He has to win on tues, not to mention me too, ah, there's so mch pressure, kenneth expects us to get the first prize, and we don't care if mr yeo or mdm chia get unhappy, but hey, we taught the sec 1s painstakingly, we met up so much, we put in so mch effort ourselves and we didn't get any benefits! Hell they didn't even want us to play at first.. But yes, kenneth doesn't even want to settle for runner-up, there's a lot of pressure, especially since i'd be the first player..

Oh! i still e1/e2's rematch against e4, lol, i guess i can only play the 2nd half, haha, then i'll be bringing a lot on tues, my own cue and my boots..

Birthdate of a great male

2006-10-12T09:41:00.000+08:00

12 OCT HAPPY BIRTHDAY TECK SIANG

Runescape

2006-10-11T16:05:00.000+08:00

So how did everyone spend day 2 of being caged? haha. I woke up in the morning and immediately jumped to the computer, what a fine day. So i gamed for the whole day, playing cs and lotr before chatting for a while, and spent my whole afternoon watching like a dozen kenan and kel episodes, haha, no one watches kenan and kel, the only people i know who watch them are latif and imran, funniest guys on tv, i used to spend my afternoons rewatching kenan and kel on nickelodeon, but its no more, only to find lots of fans uploading the episodes on youtube, ahh, finally i can have great laughs! ..around noon, i stopped and got down to play pool read the papers and watch tv. While i stared blankly around, i let every second tick by that easily, while a few days ago i'd slap myself for letting time fly. So guys, how does it feel to allow time to slip by?

Its so boring, when i got online again, latif and imran were online, and i havent seen him on for like, one year, lol and latif told me to play runescape with imran! Wow! haha, i was quite surprised they'd still be so on about playing runescape after so long.. to those people laughing at us now, stop laughing! haha, i know its a stupid lousy graphic game, but stilllll....haha. Well i started runescape back in catholic high when i was around p4, when the guys in class were allllll so crazy over it, i, like some of you guys now, laughed loudly at them and critisized them for their immaturity, me and my friend. But then, when i went to try it out just for the purpose of seeing how lousy and stupid it is, i got hooked.. hahaha.. then my friend critisized me too.. haha

But yeah, it went all the way into sec 1 and 2, and i was the only guy in class playing it, its a stupid game honestly, but its a hell lotof fun!! haha, and imran knew i played runescape, cause every morning, i told him of my runescape escapades, lol, although he didn't know anything. One day, i forgot for whatever reason, he started a runescape account, and i was delighted, delighted is an understatement, i was overjoyed, over the moon.. so i pampered him like crazy, showered him with all the gold and riches, he must have been the easiest playing noob in the history of runescape, haha, because when you start runescape, you'll be pathetic and poor.. its all about the knowing how to make your millions, in fact, its so darn difficult to play runescape cause you have like 10-30 skills to learn and level up, and the maximum for each level is 99, which issn't alot, but there're many many things you have to do. Well i started poor and became a rich merchant, lol, made my living selling lobsters, and i have to say, i've done a pretty good job in fishing, with a fishing level of 82 and a cooking level of 81, that's quite high you know, considering the fact that the maximum level is 99, well my combat level is 74, that's quite high too, haha,

But there was just a time when i was totally crazy over it.. spending hours and hours over this stupid game, at least imran knew when to stop, lol, i didn't.. i even spent money for the membership but of course, i've stopped.. Lol, then for some reason latif joined too, and by then imran could manage well, we showered him with gifts, weapon, armoury and riches, he must have been the easiest playing noob in the history of runescape, haha.. I made it so far, but its been so long since i played runescape again, its a boring game, haha, i almost sold my account to imran's friend for 50 bucks, which i felt, wasn't enough, but haiya, i guess my account will always stay with me as part of the memories of the past. I've played this childish yet exhilarating game for about 4-5 years.. ain't it cool..

have a good time relaxing guys, haha, i still have my piano theory exam =D

Caged

2006-10-10T19:38:00.001+08:00

It'd be such a waste to not blog about today, days like today don't come everyday... so anyway, today was supposed to be my big day, haha, was supposed to make an announcement in front of the whole school about the pool tournament, and i wondered when mr yeo would call me up when i heard that councillor making the announcement, haha, i was quite shocked though, all that mental preparation for nothing! Then mr yeo told me i didn't go and find him so never make la, haha, but i'll still be making this friday...wahhh..

.. Yeah, let's not talk about the papers anymore, they're are frustrating enough, so after that it finally ended, the whole year's hardwork ended, not mine, though, i put in little work, haha. Then it was back to the dilemma of making such a difficult decision. You know, such a day like this comes twice a year, and in my life, i've only had 18 of such days, isn't that so little? And for most of the days, i've spent them not well, i didn't go crazy on these days. I told teck my first choice is not that place, that safra place, i'm quite sick of pool frankly, but then again, no other friend of mine had plans to do something fun and exciting, so i ended up in safra again.

When me and teck reached we realised there weren't any shirts left, all taken up, it was those sec 2 people gain, and wang yi ren. After a while, got clothing again, and we took a snooker table that is beside their table.. and that wang yi ren and his girl friend were sitting at our table and playing poker, so when i scored my first 6 points, i walked over to them and said excuse me, and had to reach uncomfortably to shift the score thingy, and i thought they'd be kind enough to shift table, but they still stayed on. I had to reach and reach a few times already, didn't they get the simplest of hints and even have a touch of humanity in them? To make it convenient for me at MY own table and actually shift to their empty table? Well, obviously they didn't get that hint, and while i was making a shot, teck walked over to have a few words with him, the girl moved, but wang yi ren stared at him, when the girl walked over, that guy said, in his thick accented chinese, ''why are you moving? stay!" what a jerk.. Well, frankly i couldn't be bothered, but teck was furious, he was sooooooo pissed that he wanted to hit him, he cursed like crazy. Well so i asked him why he was getting mad and burning joules over that jerk, then he told me he asked them nicely yet he stared at him and gave him that face, lol, there wasn't anything i could do to cool him down, he was boiling, every shot he made, he hit it thrice as hard and missed. Well, what could i do? haha, all i could do was get him to calm down and focus, if not, pot balls and hit harder so as to make the sound louder. Haha, so i did, and i pot extra hard and made extra loud sound. There wasn't anything teck nor i could do, he repeately refused us a game, i mean, its okay to refuse, but he lied that he didn't know how to play, that's a stupid lie...and i think, and all the guys in TPA agree, that's a rather cowardly act, oh even if i know someone's much better, i'd still take up the challenge, nothing much is at stake, nothing to lose, and much to gain!

So before long we got back to the pool table again and daniel once gain pestered me for a match. And i really dislike playing with him, i guess he talks to much, and maybe talking psychs me, lol, i don't like to use that as an excuse, but one will never know whether he's psyched or now. Just imagine, pool, precision is needed, total concentration needs to be given, and just when you lock yourself in a room with the cue ball and the object ball and you fade out of the world, a sentence manages to sneak in to that room, and becomes a hindrance, you never know, i always stand by my nerve theory, haha. People never know, when they're playing pool, whether they're psyched or not, when you're playing, people might say something sensitive and a nerve in your brain might burst, haha, therefore resulting in a miss, haha, i am talking nonsense, but a sentence can really really psych a person. Take kenneth and me for example, when i played with kenneth in the past, i didn't even realise he was psyching me, all i realised was that i was getting angrier and angrier, typical psyching sentences include, ''this is hexun's favorite shot, sure won't miss one.. '' And because of this, i really did miss! haha, yeah but now he doesn't talk that much, and its daniel that irritates me..

Then i just sat on the chair for like one hour plus messaging people and wei zhou and teck played, lol, it wasn't painful to watch them, the painful thing was, wei zhou started saying, ''last match okay!'' like, one hour before they stopped, and after every match, he'd laugh and say last match, and teck would just laugh and rack, lol, that's painful okay, everytime they say last match, it a good chance for me to play again, although i didn't look to play, looking at them for one and a half hours was quite boring, haha. And teck, haiya, i don't know if he was affected by wang yi ren or what, but he wasn't really his usual self, and frankly, i haven't seen his usual self for quite a long time. And wei zhou kept talking to me and i decided, i came up with a name for myself, since wei zhou kept giving me stupid names, firstly, i'm a shark now, next was hustler, and he didn't know what to call me after hustler, he named stupid names like, predator, assassin, what nonsense! People will laugh at me when they hear him calling me that, so i suggested Rosemary, haha, i guess its some kinda plant, and we all agreed, haha, wait till i get promoted, Rosemary Lee..haha

They finally ended, and daniel challenged me again, (what's wrong with him?) lol, haha, and since my hands were getting quite itchy again, i said race to 3, loser punch! haha, well i won and he had to punch, i didn't really mean it, but i wasn't really in the mood to walk over to the counter, press the bell and fork out a few pennies, then kenneth suggested we're play a round robin kinda loser punch game, which we've never done, then i said okay, which suprised him cause i rarely play loser punch with people, winner could stay. So he challenged me first and luckily i won, saved me another trip to the counter, won daniel yet again and saved yet another trip, ha, then came the tricky part, master tian. And i knew, if i couldn't break clear, i had to clear if he made just one mistake, and so fortunately, he made sooo many mistakes, but haiya, couldn't win it still, i made even more stupid mistakes, so finally i had to take that loser's path to the counter..

kenneth was telling me about the tournament, if we only got runner-up he wouldn't go on stage to claim his prize, then i said, i don't think we can win, but he was really confident, saying if we don't win, who'll win? lol, c'mon, we're not the best in the school, maybe wei zhou is, but us, i don't think so, besides, that table cannot be trusted! haha, but i don't have much confidence, besides, i told kenneth it'd be pretty funny for the organizers to claim the trophies and prizes, haha, i can imagine Mdm Chia and Mr Yeo's faces when they realise that we won, haha, they might be a little unhappy, haha. So i kenneth volunteered himself to play last and teck 2nd and me first, that's a lot of pressure! The first and second are the most important and most pressured people, oh my, honestly, i think we'd lose, which will be quite embarassing....

The exams are over! don't go crazy, start studying for your o' levels!

Mastering Foosball

2006-10-06T20:04:00.000+08:00

Foosball, or more commonly known as table soccer, is probably the hardest game in the whole wide world. I've decided to teach the world the secrets of foosball since its the hardest in the world.. lol, but everyone's so stressed, just relax!! lol, a game of foosball is definitely much better than pool, haha. But honestly honestly, haha, skill is needed to play this game, lol, i even learnt there is World Foosball Championships and they have a whole hall filled with foosball tables, mmmn, i'd love to join this tournament, pity singapore doesn't promote foosball.. haha..

Ok firstly, the basic rules.
I. Tables have around 5-6 Balls, the goals are connected to your own team, so if your opponent scores, the balls goes to your hole, so you have to be the one to make a new start, something like loser rack in pool, haha, first to 10 wins.

II. If a ball goes into the goal legally, it is a point, no matter who hit it.

III. NO SPINNING THE RODS!!!..... haha, everywhere i go, whenever there's a foosball table available, people LOVE to spin the rods, its illegal! Also, it damages the table cause the impact is very huge, the man might be damaged.

So how? How to hit hard without spinning, lol, many muscular men have come to my house and when i told them spinning was illegal, they couldn't actually hit a hard shot! Haha, basically, just have to swing it back and bring it forth really hard, hard, as in, hard, full force, just spin the wrist instead. Actually, when people start playing, everyone's a noob, really, but even noobs progress..

Tip1 on foosball: Always keep one hand on the keeper...

This star player is the most importantest, people always switch two by two, but the best combination is to have one hand on the keeper all the time, at first it might be hard to adapt, but before long, you'll find your free hand can switch fast enough... Its important because it can save shots, depending on how good your goalkeeping is and how good your reflexes are, moreover, just letting it stay in the middle doesn't mean the balls can get in even if the ball heads right in his direction, because shots might be really powerful that they can knock past him.

The only shots the keeper can't save are long range screamers, these are freak shots that are never meant to be shots, haha. Because these shots come very fast and unexpectedly, it is almost impossible to save unless you're at the right place because all you see is a white blur, even the other team's keeper is capable of these freak shots. Other than that, you should train your keeper to be able to react fast and stay calm, sometimes easy and slow shots end up in the goal because the keeper is too jumpy and the player starts moving the keeper left and right, too fast, when the ball is going slowly, so just relax..

Tip 2: The opening ball is a good chance for a shot. When the ball is put in place is the best chance for shot because everybody is still not ready, but remember, your chances are not high for there's the opponent's midfield, his defence, and his keeper, and remember they are all vulnerable to long range screamers? So Start whacking the ball like crazy when it starts, or wait for the ball to arrive and whack it hard, but keep in mind that your own striker might actually be a hindrance, so for me, whenever a new ball is rolled in, i keep my strikers up so as to allow the midfield to try for shot, it is shown below..

As you can see everybody is kept down while the striker is kept up, enough for the ball to roll pass but not too high in case a chance comes for the striker to score. In fact, i keep my strikers up most of the time so the midfield and the defence can have shots.

Tip 3: My dad's biggest secret. This is my dad's biggest secret, and he taught it to me when i was a noob, and after my mum persuaded him to teach me, haha, now i tell you. Its always a good advantage, especially for strikers, to wait for the keeper to make a clearance, now get your striker to follow the keeper, and when the player pulls back for a shot, at the same time, you swing your player forward, so that if there's any chance that the ball comes to your path, you can deflect it back to the player's goal. That, is really hard to explain, lol. basically, when the opposite player goes for a shot, you swing your players too, so that the motion that is given to your ball can be doubled when you hit it back the opposite direction. This can be shown in soccer. When a player passes you a ball, you're able to hit it higher or further right? Its the same thing, just that i'm unable to explain it well, haha, this is a really good tactic, especially when the opponent's keeper is making the clearance, lol after my dad taught me, i kept scoring on his keeper that he didn't dare to make clearances with his keeper anymore.

Tip 4 and my last tip, i can't go own tipping you guys all night cause i gotta study, haha. Well, its pretty simple, its just a defending tip, when your opponent's striker gets a ball, just use your defender to shadow, one on one, the baller with your closes defender, let me tell you, one of the only ways you can shoot is just by shooting straight, and thus, its really difficult to score, especially when your opponent has a dead ball, and his handling his ball slowly, just shadow him, it'd be almost impossible to score. But that tip doesn't work against me! haha, well my dad didn't develop the ability to pass and score, and for me, i learnt another way to evade the shadows, but its really difficult to master and i myself haven't gotten a hang out of it, its just a simple nod to your fellow striker and that striker must seize the opportunity and whack it in in a milisecond, no delays, but its really difficult to do that because usually for me, i pass but the ball runs away from me, and i lose the ball instead, but passing requires the ability to stop the ball and slow the game down, slowing the game down is the best when your opponent receives opportunities after opportunities to score, he shoots time and time again, but hits the tiang (post) or the keeper, then his heart beats very fast, when you obtain control of the ball, stop it and your opponent wouldnt be able to take it cause he's very hot already, lol, passing is simple, make sure the ball is slow then pass using the sides, pulling or pushing the rod.

That, is 4 of my tips to mastering foosball, i'm sure anybody would be able to master foosball after reading this post... foosball, similarly, like pool, gains respect, haha, i onced challenged my dad to a game and if he lost he'd have to call me dad, he did and he had to call me dad, haha... i don't waanna play pool after exams! Foosball anyone?

TOEFL

2006-10-01T20:24:00.000+08:00

The Test of English as a Foreign Language (TOEFL). Lol, anybody heard of this? Its like super super high standard of english! Lol, i was browsing around when i got onto this TOEFL site and decided to try one of its practices. Its some kind of a like, exam, a test for foreign students to take in order to qualify for some jobs or to study in American colleges and universities. Lol, i tried a few questions and the standard is really quite high! Lol, its quite difficult you know! Then i complained to my dad telling him i'm practicing my eng by trying out TOEFL and he told me i'm crazy and he said he scored a 600 plus when he did the test which got him into an english university.

Lol, and doing the test reminds me of my tuition kid. Today was supposedly the last day for my tuition kid cause i told PF that i couldn't take him anymore and he hadn't progressed much. Lol, i was in a good mood today towards him cause its his last day, he didn't know actually, but yeah, he had trouble with primary 5 MCQ questions when he's sec 1! lol, can you imagine if he took a TOEFL test? haha, even i can't be of much help if he does... But anyway, Pf pulled him to a corner today to tell him that i wouldn't be teaching him tuition anymore and that he needn't have to come anymore cause she has seen him playing a fool and making fun of me and stuff, lol. Sigh, remember guys, never give your tutors a hard time.. anyway, he suddenly appeared very downcast and regretful and he told her his dad would scold him if he dropped tuition, then Pf suggested giving him another chance, then she looked at me, and he did too, with those mournful eyes and hey, how could i have the heart to say no? So he'd be having tuition again next week... lol, hope he doesn't make fun of me again.

Tomorrow's the english paper! For those who aspire to score an A1, here's the TOEFL free practice site.
http://www.stuff.co.uk/toefl.htm

And those too busy to go there, let me pick out a question or two just for fun:

_______food is quintessentially Indian than basmati rice

1) some
2) any
3) every
4) no

Ans: no

The way the film eventually got made______, like the story itself, a certain ring of destiny to it.

1) has
2) feels
3) indicates
4) looks

ans: has

These are 2 of the difficult questions, if you couldn't get them right, don't kill yourself cause its really tricky!

In Need

2006-09-29T21:37:00.000+08:00

Friday finally. Everybody's been studying. I, haven't. Monday was eng oral, oh ok, tues, got back the oral results and i got 30, okay, that's okay, but i realised that wasn't okay when i learned sammie got 36... what?? What creature, what monster actually gets a 36 for oral? She's crazy, dunno what she said to her teacher, i guess its either the boys, or its miss james because the highest scored she gave was 31... I don't believe the guys are so far far behind compared to the girls? Lol, okay, i kinda forgot what happened that day, i think i went to safra with just teck siang and it is here where i developed much more liking for snooker, well of course, i found it was much easier to play, i scored my highest that day, 71. Then while going home i was smsing teck telling him how concerned i was over my chinese test result cause that'd determine my chinese standard since so many people failed and only a handful passed, lol, he told me he'd frankly think i'd fail, i didn't blame him, my chi really sucked, but well maybe its cause i always ask him stuff while doing chi compo, which is my weakest link, but i was determined that i'd pass.

On wed, during chi, i got back my paper and i got a 32! Wahaha, i passed! lol, i dunno if it was unfair cause i took it late but c'mon, how could i use the extra time i had to prepare for it? But anyway, i passed. haha. Well i don't remember what i did too that day.

Thurs was chinese oral, oh man, lol, in the room, i began to feel a little jumpy cause chinese is totally unlike oral, i have problems expressing myself in chinese, haiya, what to do, i just went up ahead, and speaking to he lao shi, haiya, the passage was okay but the conversation was sooo, dunno what to say, lol, i just didn't know what and how to say stuff, and i ended up like staring at her blackheads, hahaha, i might even fail, but what to do?

So friday finally came, chinese paper! Well maybe i screwed up paper 1, as i always do, but i have a little confidence in my compo, well i injected several chinese idioms, lol, the best i could do. Then it was the paper 2, finally something i'm good at! Lol, but it was pretty hard, for the cloze passage, i was pretty much guessing the answers, then the rest was pretty easy, the comprehension was just really tiring, and really, staring at words and writing and starting gives me double vision, once again i couldn't see straight after the exam, but me and teck didn't talk much and headed straight for safra.

Today was kinda really really off, i played with kenneth snooker, my goodness, such contrast when i play with teck. Totally off, the mood, the feel, the form. i felt stupid, for the past few days i've been telling them on my interest in buying a snooker cue because i had been playing pretty good snooker lately, but here i was playing like a noob in front of kenneth, dunnno if he was laughing at me deep down, ''you call this good?'' Oh man i felt so stupid playing so lousily, maybe its cause its kenneth, i never play well when kenneth and wei zhou are there, they give me really really lots of pressure. Then i played pool with teck, haiya, so much more relaxed, lol, i just playing a fool with teck.

I made my way to church after that, but i was certain i wouldn't enjoy it. Did i ever mention there are two modes i frequently switch to, the school mode and the church mode, and recently i've been looking forward to school so much, owing to water and stuff like that, and of course, my friends. But when i got there a different group of friends took hold of me once more, and i really enjoyed myself, haha. Then xl saw my class photo in my bag! And everybody started pleading my to let them see it, but i refused lol, i loook really stupid! Lol, everyone! When you receive the yearbook, tear out my face! lol, haha, i soo don't look like myself, haiya, i loook stupid every year, but i promise i won't next year! lol

And so i met with pei fen and we went through a lot of stuff, and i asked about the other churches and i understand why so many of my friends, classmates go to them, but are never really on about it, in fact, most of the Christians in school are like these. Its the new age churches, the ones that really attract teens. The ones that are held in big auditoriums, the ones with loud blarring music, and really hyper people jumping around, this gets the teens in the mood. Teens like this, don't they? And its in english, pf told me about our dying chinese batch, and i'm proud to be part of it. About those that require its members to speak in tongue, which is not realyl correct, about many others that aren't really right. I noticed a trend in all these churches, from my friends, they backslide really easily. Firstly, these people feel really passionate, really really high on sundays, where they sing really loudly, happily and enjoy themselves, they daresay loudly, they proclaim their love, but from monday to saturday, this feelings go down and they revert to their old lifestyle. Think! Does that happen to you? especially in those hyper churches. The activity might actually excite and interest you but i guess its not spritually enriching, because it only lasts for a day! That's why i've been learning about several friends backsliding, and another reason is also because this thing attracts teens, and because it does, teens are usually the ones who leads other teens, but i feel, sometimes, doing stuff like this, a certain level of maturity needs to be reached, the age difference should be much wider. Further than the warmth care and love i feel, which could make me grow. That was why i never enjoyed it in shi xiong's church, firstly cause i wasn't used to it, secondly because i felt shi xiong was just enjoying the hyperactivity and stuff, thirdly because speaking in tongue really freaked me out.

I mean, no one ever told me speaking in tongue was wrong, but i just had the hunch, the gut feeling that, hey, this dude's freaking me out! I don't think it's because i am new, i felt ultra uncomfortable about it, and i was right when i asked pf. We have to be careful about the true meanings, many things pop out these days that divide Christianity, different sorts of churches, but do they really help? From my point of view they do, on sundays only, take a good look around!

In times of confusion, falsities arise to trick the hearts of Man.

Rabbit

2006-09-25T21:25:00.000+08:00

Monday. Ahahahha, i finally failed maths=D haha, lol i'm crazy, forgot cos rule then didn't get my answers to 3 sig fig and all those little stuff, marginal failure=( Lol, anyway, we played badminton for pe today, lol, wanted to challenge jia jun since he's like the, ''badminton'' pro. lol, i played with him and realised he's quite pro luh..haha, not bad.. Didn't lose much, haha, but he's not bad luh, then i decided to play with robelle..hmmm, not bad.. hahaha, lol. Anyway, speaking about sports, haha, foosball (table soccer) is a great sport! lol, honestly it requires a lot of skill, i think i'm gonna do a post on master foosball,ahha.

Lol next was chinese, and Mr lim was gonna give back the chinese tests, lol, then i told him i haven't done it, remember? hahah, then he was like, Wah lauuuu, haha, then the whole class was blaming me haha, but then i told him 1 week before laa, then he also never settle, haha, in the end he read off everybody's marks. I think like more than half the class failed, even teck told me it was very very difficult, he himself got 30/60, highest was only jiia yan who got 39, wahaha, i think i'm gonna die too. Lol, then physics test, then i told mr chan i haven't done too, but luckily he just gave out and told me he'd take my previous test. But then i see teck's paper lol, so easy, then i told mr chan i wanted to do it, but everyone said i was crazy since i already had A for the last test, but nvm i guess, its good practice..haha..

Then was history, haiya, when it was gonna be history, teck would say, ''shiok ah! time to sleep! " Lol, so good, his class terrance doing nothing all day, i see them loitering all about everytime, lol. Then ours, mrs haridass, lol, terror, although it might actually be much better for us but lol, it really saps energy, saps a lot a lot.. Lol, today i looked out and saw the terrance tan class all walking towards dunno where, lol, while we were yanking our hair out over a pop quiz kinda thing, without warning, no open book no nothing. Lol, that useless weng fung was busy copying my work, lol at first he wrote hitler led a revolution, lol, what nonsense, revolt la, then he copied me, then the whole class wrote revolution wrong =DD, hahaha. Lol anyway, i really do sleep in her class i mean, c'mon, what's the point of listening? And i really don't get why she insists on us doing mindmaps alllllll the time, i hate it, it doesn't work for me okayy, but she really forces us to do it, haiya, so useless.

Ah, then was eng and ms wong let us off to eat for oral. Haiya, oral, i thought it was tuesday, lol. Ah then chatted with Wei Zhou and he asked me some exodus stuff and then inevitably, topic shifted to pool, then he said after shark and hustler wanted to call me predator, what nonsense, sounds so... yeee, lol, i told him to call me a rabbit. Wahaha, next was oral already, then mr lim looked for me and told me to find him right after oral since i was first. Haiya, oral, lol, in the room, everyone was a little jumpy, then ms james said i was first, then okay lor, haha, then it started immediately and i got to read the thing, lol, one look and i signalled the guys behind it was easy, haha, okay la, the image was just some void deck and some undergarments on the floor, one shocked lady and some passerbys, at first i didn't take a second look and looked at the passage, then i flipped back and realised the picture actually very hard leh. Lol, how come the woman so shocked huh? I'm sure the garments couldn't hurt her? Then i was thinking she might be kinda embarrassed since it was undergarments, lol, i worried quite a little, but i figured i'd just say everything later, then i saw the passage and realised the first sentence was dialogue and also a screaming dialogue, haha, then i was thinking how to make it seem screamed but yet not raise my voice by using different tones.

Uh so that was it, and ms james called me, flop number 1: i greeted her as miss jamie, haha, lol, i think she didn't hear it, its all the same, even if she did, i'm sure she wouldn't minus my marks?? haha, so yeah, just read and did the pic and she asked me what ourdoor street events i've seen, so i said the national day the army vehicles parade, lol, stupid one but i couldn't think of anything else, nothing much to say about it either, then she asked me about an argument i had, since i didn't usually get into arguments except occasional debates, i could only think of the one i had with mr foo, haha, i even asked her if i had to name names, haha, lol, but anyway, i gave my best storytelling face voice and tone and just told it to her like she was my best friend, lol, i tried to speak to much that she needn't even prompt me or anything, just occasional stuff and you know what?! She seemed to enjoy it! hahaha.

Haiya so busy, after that i rushed to meet mr Lim to do my chi test, wahaha, i think i did it with some sec 4 people, they seemed to be having exams, lol, so scary. Anyway, teck was telling me not to take my own sweet time cause i might not have time later, but i dunno why but i took my own sweet time in front, and realised i had quite some difficulty behind, but actually it was quite doable, but i rushed the back a bit so i might fail, since so many people fail and the good ones only got borderline passes, but i still remain confident. Lol, i had the last 5 mark question to do and i had 2 mins left! haha, so the woman stood in front of me and watch me scribble and squeeze everything in, lol, i hate to rush, its at times like this when my hand goes numb and drops off, but it didn't really, it just was so numb that my hand started bending, lol, so i was rushing and realised that my words started to bend horrible, haha, who cares?

So anyway i saw teck in the canteen and he told me mr yeo didn't allow him to open the table, lol, he seemed pissed, then he suggested going to safra, haiya, haha, then i said okay lor, since it was rare for him to have a day whereby he could go home late, i decided to accompany him, haha. Went to safra and found myself to be quite on form, haha, teck, to date, hasn't been able to once again luxuriate in the feel of a real true champion, i've seen it before, but it hasn't returned, it has escaped. Haha, so anyway, played quite well, haha, our bill for that table was 12 i think. Then i said play snooker then since teck's the snooker pro i said, let a bit luh! haha, then he said pool you thrash me snooker my turn, something like that, but anyway, i think the first game he beat me, or was it i beat him, can't remember, haha. Lol 2nd game suddenly so on form, and he was off, haiya, i think i got 63 points, i think that's my highest, lol, so low.. =(

Exams are commminnnggg.... =D

Why do birds sing so gay?

2006-09-21T21:10:00.001+08:00

Thursday, a good day, but its not a really good day because on normal thursdays, i have to head home early for my piano lessons, but not this thursday!! Well yeah, today i'm supposed to have my piano exams so its a different thursday compared to a normal thursday, lol. Ok, so i got to school and everyone was busy studying physics during the reading period, and i was busy studying bach in his baroque period and mozart in the classical period, a load of nonsense, its stupid to have to guess the composer of whatever piece i listen to, but i still tried my best to remember them anyway. Usually, by now, my stomach would be hurting real real bad, real real bad, remembering my past year, one week before the exams i could feel the heat of the burning furnace, and the thousands of cute butterflies fluttering about happily at the expense of my uneasiness, how mean these butterflies are! Well, i've said it before, and i'll say again, i'm trying to find calmness amidst anxiety, trying to learn to forget fear, i hate that feeling okay, everyone does, and whenever the feeling goes away, you'll feel how stupid you were, worrying so much and it's all over in a flash.

But today in math lesson, i couldn't help but feel a little anxious, its because in doing math, everyone was concentrating and focussing and just had these things in their minds:

1. Figure out this easy cyclic quad question
2. Figure out other easy cyclic quad questions
3. Figure out all the cyclic quad questions and make ms tuan happy and get thru this lesson
4. Get all done and get some food during recess.

How i wished it was that simple, i tried to make it that simple but the purple grade 5 piano exam pieces book kept catching my attention, and i wandered off thinking about whether i had prepared, then inevitably a few butterflies slipped in, as soon as i felt these butterflies, i immediately shifted my focus, to God, and to songs, and started singing to myself while others were busy solving questions, and of course, a few more extra trips to the toilet, but surprisingly, i was still quite calm.

Then it was recess, didn't eat, so i just stood around looking at others trying to study for physics, i was left alone with nothing to do, except also talk about physics. Then next was physics, lol, then 1130, but i was still wondering why an announcement hadn't been made, i thought my father was still sound asleep at home, but at like 1140 they sent a messenger to escort me to the office. After that my father brought me to eat, then i decided not to get too full in case i vomit in front of the examiner, but we still had much time, so i went home and took an unnecessary bath, and just took 5 mins to practice 1 song, my weakest, the last song.

ok, enough, i'm beginning to sound like phoebe, writing about EVERY SECOND of her life, but this has been an exciting day. Yeah, so i totally kept my mind off the exam, and chatted with my dad on the car, last year, at this time, i was busy praying, and i was soooo anxious, but i was okay, i kept telling my dad not to worry, and he kept saying, so long as you tried your best, don't worry, then i kept asking him why he's saying all these cause i haven't said anything about the piano exam except promising him a distinction, lol.

So uh, it wasn't long before we reached paragon, i was still really relaxed, then headed up, then headed to the piano place. Ah hah, this is the ultra tricky part, in there, surrounded by pianos, examination rooms, a small table and several people there. The staff told us that they had gone out for lunch and would be back soon. Okay, so they're trying to kill me eh? lol, waiting will kill a person, slowly, devouring his patience and his calmness, but i threw that aside, and found yet another factor devouring me, the cold. Lol, in there it was so cold i was totally freezing, but still, miraculously, i found my composure and found myself smiling for some reasons. Well for several moment, i realised: oh no! there's still this and that, and how on earth am i gonna survive the scales when i didn't practice them as much? And appregios? And contrary motion and whatsoever? Then i panicked a little, flipped the book a little, then i realised it wasn't much, and laid back on the chair again.

I'm gonna die, but after i die, my dad promised he'd take me out to play.

So they returned, and the waiting lady asked for my id, i gave and saw that i'll be first, well that's great! I smiled at that, what a confidence booster! I paced around, cause i was bored, okay, my dad asked me why i was getting jumpy, lol, i said since when was i getting jumpy? I was just bored. By now, people should realise, you should start building that confidence wall before the enemy strikes, no use preparing the guns but forsaking the wall, well, i made my wall well, although some of the clay were diluted, lol, and my guns were kinda water guns, okay, i wasn't prepared, i didn't intend to over prepare, i felt prepared though. Its too later, the enemy's at your doorstep. =)

Ah hah, time to disintegrate the enemy, lol, i was holding my handphone and the waiter saw it and told me i couldn't bring it in, so i was like, uhhhhhh, then i handed it to my dad, then walked towards the waiting examiner, but i stopped and ran back again, lol, then i snatched my phone back and switched it off, then i gave my dad the sad eyes and pleaded, "please la, please please, don't on and look around, please please!!!" lol, i was really afraid he'd check here and there and find some stuff, like me saying i love you to robelle (as a sister) lol, i guess he understood, but i still felt uneasy as i walked away... and so i put on my best smile and walked in, haha, greeting the examiner cheerfully, ok, so comes the downhill part. Yeah, so i still felt nothing much, i chose to start on my scales, and lol, i forgot all of em, lol, its not the practice, its the heat of the moment, in that sound proof room, waiting just a second longer makes it feel so ultra awkward, so even if you didn't know how to play, just play rubbish!!! I did, lol, i played wrong notes from the beggining till the end and i felt pretty embarrassed, haha, i just sighed heavily to let the examiner know i'm really afraid, when i'm not really. Well i guess i got some right.

Then the pieces, i figured, since this chap, some well known pianist form britain has seen my ugly side, its time to show him some skill, lol, so i tried to play really well, with as much likeliness as possible to the cd they provided, and i'm pretty glad it went smoothly, only the third song. And i realised the book holder thing was so low, i hit my hand against it several times while playing, lol. The third song is a really fast song, lasting for barely under a min, i played it so fast, i relied on my fingers and memory, until i jumbled up some keys, and i looked up at my score, lol, i realised i didn't even know where was i, so that was a little difficult, loooking around for my last note, and remember, every silent second invites one extra giant butterfly into your tummy, well i did finish the song eventually.

Next was sight reading, i'm glad to say i did pretty well, maybe because i'm usually lazy to practice my exam stuff at home and i always wander to play other nice new songs, and i did it pretty smoothly. Lol, now comes the really embarassing part, the singing. lol, remembering last year, the examiner gave me so high a note i couldn't even reach it and sang off tune, and being the boy and having to lalala your way thru is quite embarassing, lol. Well, i did it easily and realised i had VIBRATO!!! Lol, afterward i joked with my father ( lucky vibratoer) that i did a vibrato, but only because i was so afraid my voice vibrated..lol.... once again, i'd like to clarify that fact that i wasn't afraid, just tense. Cause you're supposed to sing alone, without the help of the piano, just the first note give, so in that sound proof room, so quiet, not even the sound of air and wind could be heard, just plain silence, and your voice, and the examiner's keen ears, wouldn't you be tense? I was, and i vibrated..lol

So that was about it, the last awkward part being the clapping of the rhythm, sounded so stupid, and yeah, paused several times to give the examiner a huh? and a puzzled look when he asked me a question and errrr, several more times, before being unable to withstand the anti sound room pressure and giving a guessed answer. Then after that, i was released, woohoo!!

lol, when i came out, i was even boreder, lol, i was kinda unimpressed cause its all over!!! That was all anxiety did to me, that was all the harm those butterflies did! I guess it because when you panic, you're scared, when you come out, you're really happy. But here, today, i wasn't panic, i was relaxed, i came out and nothing changed, lol, so i didn't feel specially happy, and i fely very sad cause i expected to feel specially happy but i didn't, haha, the side effects of calmness...I guess it went quite well, i'm sure i can pass, distinction's out of the question! lol, but merit is still possible!! =D

Well after that my dad brought me around to play!!! lol, we went to bras brasah forgot its actual spelling to get some stationery, then i decided to remake my popular card since we were so free, then i hinted to my dad to check out the ping pong tables, and he did, lol, 480 for a table, 9feet. And my dad's really interested, woohoo! haha, my dad's so nice to teach me everything he's so good at, and i beat him when i learn them, and he wouldn't be number one anymore, but he doesn't mind. Like foosball, or table soccer, my dad's really one great table soccer player, i've seen him thrash EVERYONE, 3 on 1s, everyone!! Lol, i always admired him, and that time at the warehouse where we bought the table, the boss came out and played with him, and lost! lol, and the boss claimed he himself was the best in the company, haha. And as i played with my dad every night, i started really lousy, but i learnt his ways and i can beat him now! Remarkable what practice can do yeah?? lol, my dad still finds it hard to believe he's been dethroned.

But i guess he'll never be dethroned from table tennis, now, that's his passion, could've been a national player but he chose studying lol, and i've seen him disintegrate other ping pong players too! lol, i'm gonna learn his way and beat him, i guess.

Then he brought me to his club and we swam and then we played pool, haha, he was in such a generous mood today, i totally forgot i just did my piano exams after that, haiya, i had so much fun while the guys in sch had to suffer two tests, lol. I feel so guilty.

When i got home i headed to the piano room to play and for the first time i could play a piece alone, without my exam pieces. I don't ever want to see that grade 5 book again, i wanna see a grade 6 one, oh please! =)

It's over, more will come.

But in dreams, i can hear your name

2006-09-20T21:24:00.000+08:00

Tamen en songoy, mi povi audi via nomo, kaj en songoy, ni volo rekonti ankoraufoje..

Today's wednesday, i hate wednesdays, wednesdays are really really long. Today when i reached school everyone started saying there'd be a spotcheck on the sec 3s for handphones, so i just put my phone in my locker, lol i realised latif already put his in, then yeah, the normal assembly, then to no one's surprise, they announced that they'd be doing a spotcheck on the sec 3s, and they said they'd be only checking for one item, lol, we were smiling, cause they won't be successful, haha, how exciting...... only to find out they were just checking for right colour ear studs for girls........... lol, was expecting better.. Anyway, today ms tuan took over dunno how many people's periods and we had 5 excruciating periods of math, haha, i was laughing to myself at the start of the lesson already, cause i knew we're gonna die of math, lol, i realise, i laugh when i'm gonna die, lol. So yeah, it was a really really really really long day, and we miraculously got thru ms jamie's last two periods. Oh my, lol, then me, amanda, huda and ray headed out, to watch our film screening. Lol, everyone was really bored, the whether was hot, and we were kinda wishing we could go home, everyone one wanted to study for the exams. Yeah, so after several short incidents and happenings, we made our way to j8 cause huda wanted to get a new pencil case, and i really really really hate to go to j8 cause its the best place to meet old friends and i hate to meet old friends.. lol

And ray was also beside me, telling me how he didn't wanna go and how he'd also meet his old friends. And true enough, after huda bought her pencil case, we were walking when ray suddenly cursed out loud, hahaha, then we walked a little then ray went to meet his friend, lol, they seemed like old lovers, haha, dunno how to explain, ray went forward to meet him but he seemed relunctant, then they shook hands then his friend forced a hug, lol, poor ray, lol, looked bullied, haha, we were laughing at a corner. And yeah, while walking, i did see some one i know, but i couldn't be bothered.

So we continued this way until we got to the substation at armenian st, we waited a while until people started arriving, caucasians, hunky malays with nice western accents, and many more, and we were in the middle of that congested hallway. Then a caucasian woman came up to ask us if we were the students in the movie, and we said yes, then she asked us if we had seen the movie or knew anything about it, then we said no, then she said we're in for a surprise, lol, then the hunky malay guy came to talk to us, telling us he was supposed to be there for the shooting too, i think, i couldn't hear clearly, lol, we felt like stars, haha. Then our man came, lol, Mr aaron wilson, the director, and that old lady, the main actress waved cheerfully at us, haha. Yeah, so we got in the small cinema and sat ourselves. Then Mr Wilson started introducing himself and stuff, and he thanked the main actress, lol, then his eyes hovered over us, then i knew he was gonna call us, oh no! haha, then he did, then we stood up and people clapped for us, we were only extras!!! haha, so anyway, the short movie started.

It was just a simple film on the residency thing, comparing the australian life and the singaporean life, about two people, who went thru the world war and stuff and how their lives differ, lol, we were shown for like, a fraction of a second, and i have to add.. : i look stupid. So yeah, if you think about it, its kinda embarrassing to just be included for a fraction of a second and still be made to look like the heroes, the stars, the vips.. the applause, the credits, all for that fraction, haha. So yeah, watched another short film and we got out again, and Mr Wilson started talking to us a little, took a group photo, and i have to add too, he's a really nice guy, haha, he was so friendly to us during shooting, and so patient and nice when i smsed him and so polite and nice when we bade goodbye, we will meet again.

So after that we made our way home, and i locked myself in the piano room to practice my piano, lol, i'm gonna get a distinction! But if i fail, you'll never hear about me again...

The exams are coming, woohooo! enjoy!

this is actually the TPA video, much better quality..=)

Be poised in times of fear

TPA~ League of Champions

2006-09-18T21:25:00.000+08:00

hehe, the new TPA vid is out, haha, i protest again, i look like some small kid with that kiddy childish face, lol, everyone looks so cool, its okay....haiya, haha, some people never grow up ='(... Yeah, and the first face of mine, i didn't know wei zhou switched on the cam, lol, so i look stupid loooking around, haha, anyway, its stupid...haha... oo, my piano exams on thurs, gonna die!!! ahhaha =D

oh yeah btw, the ohms thingy you see beside the name is the ranking, one ohm for beginner, 2 for advanced, 3 for shark or champion, lol, master is infinity ='(

Anxiousness

2006-09-15T21:40:00.000+08:00

Lol, i relised sammie had her piano exams today, her grade eight piano exam, then everyone croweded around her during recess, haiya, looking at her, being so anxious, what could i do except give the same advice the others were busy giving? But i decided not to. Ah hah, will people be crowding around me like they did to her next thurs when i sit for miine? hahhaa, i bet they won't even know, cause i'm not showing any signs of anxiety, which, i should show.. Yeah, yesterday my piano teacher told me off, saying i should take it more seriously, then my mum returned home and came in and started telling me to play seriously too, but by then i really went crazy and started laughing for no reason, cause i found it funny, i guess, i'm having my exams next week, haha, isn't it funny? Then my teacher even said, when you're taking exams cannot laugh in front of the examiner.... lol, what nonsense, of course i know, then my mum looked and my and started smiling too, then she said i was crazy, its about time she realised its driving me crazy.

After me teacher left my mum still told me sternly i should play seriously, then i told her, i'm tired of getting anxious out of every big stuff, so i should just take it easy, and i keep telling her i want to learn, not to play just to pass the exams, haiya, she wouldn't listen.

But anyway, the first week of the new term has gone by so fast, i felt very good today, dunno why, especially after Miss Jamie's class, then it was windy and nice and i looked and teck and said, you know what day it is? Haha, its just, friday's a good day, a really really good day.. Yep, everything zoomed by pretty quickly and before long we were released. And it was raining quite heavily. And since i had to get to church to rehearse my skit, we rushed to safra cause wei zhou wanted to redo the TPA video, everyone was not satisfied, including me, haha, when i was videotaken making shots, i couldn't even see my face. So yeah, today, got there and i started playing with teck and i'm pleased to say his standard has fallen drastically, haha, but he's still the champion, and i'm lucky to still be able to win him easily cause i predict he'll shoot up again, and by then, few can stop him. Yeah and i saw that fat relief teacher there, then i was uncomfortable when he stood there watching me and teck play, cause i was itching to play with him again and i was afraid he'd see me making a lousy shot, luckily the only words i heard form him to me were ''good shot!'' haha. Yeah, i wanted to settle a personal feud, ahha.

Haiya, but kenneth challenged him first. He walked past us while i did a break, then he said, ''wah, so fierce ah?'' lol, i snorted, then when i look over at his break, i couldn't bear it, cause i wanted to challenge him, i dunno, he's a grown man, i guess challenging and beating grown men for young boys my age brings about much satisfaction, and i saw he had many many flaws, yeah, the only TPA members who played with him were the elite, and out of the elite, only kenneth lost, but kenneth has improved much over the days. Nevertheless, everytime i see this huge menacing figure bounding over, i get jumpy, cause he's the best relief teacher in the school, i want to challenge him again and again until he cringes at the sight of me. haha. Anyway, unfortunately, he left early, and i continued with teck.

I had great rounds of pool today, teck cleared me, i cleared him, i could see the huge improvement compared to, uhhh, last year, haha, one quick game can last for 2 mins, haha, and then we saw wang yi ren and his girlfriends, lol, we see him EVERYDAY, yesterday we saw him and his girlfriends too, and we informed them there weren't any table available, i saw them last week with a HUGE crowd. And they looked over at our table, haha, we finished our games so fast, teck went to rack the balls like 5 times in around 10 mins, really! Lol, then i was really bored, and i really had to go, so i approached him and asked him for a game, with teck, then he spoke, with his heavy chinese accent, saying, ''i don't know how to play!" , lol, i whispered to teck, liar! Then we were like, what to do? Then i asked him again, then he kept saying, ''I really don't know how to play!!" Lol, so we just walked back, then teck kept cursing, haha, everyone knows he was lying, c'mon.. Daniel said he was afraid to play with us, cause he knows we play for the school and he's seen us play. True, lol, they saw us play snooker last week. Haiya, anyway, we didn't bother them anymore, they even opened a snooker table, lol, if he didn't know how to play what on earth was he doing that, what a blatant lie.

So i left immediately and sat a bus to church. Uh yeah, i have to act for a skit again, ahh, i hate to rehearse, cause its really embarassing when you act in front of your friends, i don't do it properly, but of course, when its time to act in front of the audience, you'd do it properly. Yeah, basically, everyone was having a good laugh, i was supposed to do nothing accept act cool and say several lines, haha, that's very difficult okay!

Relax, the exams are still far far away..

Ray- AKVO

Contact is but an illusion
for the fraction of a moment
of the stranger's bridge
was merely in cyberspace

Then there a chance,
Where savior was unsure
though victory was mine
when fate was where it was

Experience is only worth
what it last
only ended by a move
a fool would make

But the uncertain lost
is far from hope gone
when chance repeat
and comprehension complete.

My First Step

2006-09-12T20:46:00.000+08:00

Well today's Tuesday, and yeah, oo, morning we had the spot check, so in the morning, at home, i started doing my hair, but lately i feel i do not put enough wax, haha, it looks so... unmade, then i realised oh ya! today got spotcheck, although my hair wasn't really long, i didn't wanna risk it cause going to detention can really spoil my beautiful Tuesday. So anyway, i already put wax, so i went to wash my hair again, haha, then i realised since i wasn't using the sweet smelling wax, must well use the nicely scented shampoo, so i took of my uniform and washed my hair once more, uhhh, then when they conducted the spotcheck, i lol, they didn't even look at me, haha, my hair was pretty safe, its still short okay..

Then that unreasonable Mr Singh called kenneth up, telling him the back of his hair was long, then kenneth said he just cut yesterday, and that it wasn't long, then mr singh started saying its not right, its not slope...!!!!!!!!!! Lol, then kenneth said the book never said must slope and if not slope then everyone in school go detention already, which i felt was right, then mr singh said don't talk back and demanded that kenenth went to the archive room. But after that, we met him again and he told us he went hiding in the toilet with tons of sec 4s, haha, i'd do that too actually. Yeah, about the slope, i'm really afraid one day the school really makes it a rule for students to cut slope, by then i'm dead, haha, i'd probably shave all my hair than go back to the sloping days, and i mean it.

Yeah so anyway, after school, i suddenly decided to cut my hair, and since darren told me he wanted to cut his hair, i decided to go with him. So anyway, while walking to central, i told darren marvellous stories again. And i'm still waiting for the perfect moment to start the book, i'm keen on starting one, cause the story i have has rocketed to the point it has become absurd, it has become a fairytale, and the fact that this story is a true story, it deserves to by written and published. Lol, and i still think i'm thinking too far, but i don't really think so, although i'd have to cooperate with ms huang and most probably ray, i want this story to be written, its too fairy tale. And i'm sure ms koh would be happy to know if i decide to write on one, haha, in pri sch she says i could be a writer, so i don't feel its too big a venture.

But anyway, we got to hair etc and the woman asked me if i wanted to keep my V-shaped hair, my back i mean.. then i was like..uhhh, can let me see how it looks like? Then she showed me, then i decided that i wanted it to by like the wispy and sharp one, the one last time, then she said can, but it might still turn out to be a little V-shaped and if i really wanted it, she might have to trim all the way up to cancel out the V shape, so i just said, haiya, ok la, cut V shape la. Haha, ya la, so we finished cutting, ok la, not very ugly..haha

yeah, the exams are edging nearer and nearer, and the piano exams even nearer, but its ok..haha, i can't wait for the short film screening next mon, i but i'll look stupid.

Play day

2006-09-09T21:13:00.000+08:00

I got up at 7 am today, worrying about stuff. Lol, yesterday about the filming thing, ray told me aish backed out at the last min. Then he called me at 1130 i think, telling me how we're gonna die, then he told me to find one more female, then at first i was thinking about... who would be able to make it from ej? Then ray said, robelle also can la, then i told him everyone that was online at the moment, then amanda was unluckyly online, haha, then he told me to ask EVERYONE, so i did, but everyone was busy, except unlucky amanda, haiya, but then she's so innocent, just knew her then had to be pulled in, and yeah, after a little persuasion, she finally said ok, oh my, we were really saved, by Amanda the Great. Finally i could crawl back to bed and sleep without worries.

I got up early and realised my father was free, so he told me he'd fetch me, but then he was taking his own sweet time, bathing, then eating breakfast, finally i reached sch. Yeah, so amanda and ray were already there, then we went off to meet the late huda, and when we finally met her, we hopped on a cab to telok blangah. The journey there was so quiet, and a little boring, and when we stopped there, i suddenly realised there was a bee on my lap, lol, what one earth was a bee doing on my lap? Then i started screaming for huda to jump out, and luckily it was a lazy bee, it just flew away lifelessly, the cab fare was 940, and we walked around looking for the right place and we knew we found it when this really tall australian guy waved at us and invited us into the coffeeshop.

So we were quickly introduced ourselves and the australian guy was really really very friendly to us, and huda was going crazy cause she's in love with caucasian males, and we got introduced to the lead actress too, a lively cute old chinese lady, who could speak english and mandarin fluently. The australian director quickly briefed us on what we needed to do, that the old lady will be looking at us and we had to pretend to by lively and energetic and eating our food and stuff, and then leave the scene when he said so. So he bought us a lot of food, but i didn't even think of eating a single bit of them, just bothered about my teh-0, so he helped us mess up our plates and helped us get rid of most of the food, and made our table look messy.

So, okay, basically, had to ''pretend'' to have a good chat, full of energy and life, ok, take one, quite smooth, but we weren't energetic enough, and we left the scene like kinda hurrily. And so it took 4 takes i guess, the 3rd was fine, the 4th for just in case, and he talked to us a little, thanking us, telling us we could leave, but we could stay if we wanted to, so we decided to stay till they finished their filming, and we did, we really had fun, i dunno, laughed quite a lot, was quite interesting i guess.. Then when they finished, we left and we didn't know where to go, lol, then ray said go on the taxi then tell the uncle go anywhere for 10 bucks, ahha. So we really got on the taxi and the driver started driving, then he asked us where we wanted to go, lol, then we laughed, cause we almost said go anywhere, haiya, then decided to head back to central. Lol, then amanda was like following around wherever we went, then i felt like we were boring her so i asked her if she needed to go, then she immediately said yep, she'd go home, lol, i liberated her. So we weren't doing much la, just hanging out at the library, it was 11 i think, and the class meeting was at 2!!!

So we went to the red circle cause ray wanted to meet suyi, and on the way we met mr boo!!! lol, the others didn't see him, then i was like, waving to him like my friend, haha, natural instinct, i said hello mr boo, then i motioned for the others, telling them it was mr boo, but they didn't even hear me, until i told them i 7 eleven did they realise. But then mr boo walked into 7 eleven afterwards, and he asked us what we were doing, then we just told him we went filming. So after that huda got home, and we met suyi, ate lunch then waited and finally got to siang joo's house for the outing. I chatted a lot with shi xiong today, i even told him i missed his voice over the phone, then he went to eat lunch and asked me to follow him, so i really chatted a lot more, very in depth stuff, about his personal life, and about mine, giving me some suggestions and stuff like that, it was good, then we got back and they were busying themselves by playing with the water, and shi xiong strictly said no because he didn't bring extra pants. So i continued talking with him, then he got near the pool, then phoebe came from behind to push him in...ahahaa, lol, he was very angry, haha, the funny way, lol, then they started threatening me too, but i dared them to just to be sure they wouldn't because i was in uniform ma, surprisingly sabrina still threw a water bomb at me and wet my pants, so i screamed haha, no la, shouted in agony.

Yeah, it wasn't really much of a class outing, half the class weren't there, but i was glad i showed up, the whole day i was just busy chatting to either ray or shi xiong, then ate some hotdogs, some doritos, and it was like 730 so i dragged the guys to leave, yuan hong and ray they all, so we finally left. And i got home. Woo, what a day, i didn't touch my work at all, feel so guilty i played for the whole day.. But it had been fun..

Snoooook

2006-09-08T22:15:00.000+08:00

I seem to find a lot of time to come online. But anyway, i had to head to school early in the morning for maths extra lessons, then i told teck to wait for me just to help me tie my tie, and yuan hong was there too, so we took our own sweet time to get to school, and when we did, i was sweating like crazy, i can't walk, i sweat a lot, haha, i realised that when i walk over the bridge sometimes when i have to get to school myself. So i pulled them to the pe toilet and we sat there for 15 mins just for me to cool down, and we were supposed to reach at like 9, it was around 9:40 i think, haha, so we got to class and just went through some questions, got back the a math test paper, haiya, too many careless mistakes... i'm still making them far too much..

So after that, me teck, yuan hong and kenneth headed for lunch, and yohanus tagged along. Yeah, then after lunch headed to safra for more training, lol, it seems so routine. So today i played really well on the first table, i feel, the pockets are bigger, i was told, but i managed my highest of 73 points, i've pretty much lost interest in pool, haha snooker is what seperates the men from the boys, haha, i dunno, but the guys are losing interest in snooker, so i always have to beg someone to play with me. Then after that i switched to pool for a little while with yuan hong, but only into our 2/3 match, i think, andy's girlfriend, i dunno how to spell her name, eline? lol, looks stupid walked up to me and asked me what time i would stop playing, then i asked yuan hong and decided that since we have our friends there so i told her i'd give her the table after my match, and so i did, but i decided to play snooker with yuan hong again, haha.

It was quite a good day, pretty much on form, and wei zhou came along too, came along to psycho me, and yeah, then andy's girlfriend and her friends started to increase, before long, it seemed like their whole class was there, yeah, super noisy, and you know how small the snookerium is. So i got home after that, and mr yeo called me telling me that royston tan is looking for several guys, for some australian director to feature in a film, so he asked me, then i said ok, so tomorrow me and ray and huda and aish will have to once again wake up early to go filming.... as extras, haha. But i guess it'll be fun, cause there's 2e3 class outing, haiya, the 2e3 spirit still thrives, its not dead, and i guess it'll not be for a long time, yeah, so i look forward to tomorrow.

Speaking about snooker, i still can't believe ronnie 'o sullivan did a 147 in 5mins!! I mean, getting a ball in his hard enough, to achieve a maximum break in 5mins is unbelieveable..

enjoy!