Friday, September 15, 2006

Anxiousness

Lol, i relised sammie had her piano exams today, her grade eight piano exam, then everyone croweded around her during recess, haiya, looking at her, being so anxious, what could i do except give the same advice the others were busy giving? But i decided not to. Ah hah, will people be crowding around me like they did to her next thurs when i sit for miine? hahhaa, i bet they won't even know, cause i'm not showing any signs of anxiety, which, i should show.. Yeah, yesterday my piano teacher told me off, saying i should take it more seriously, then my mum returned home and came in and started telling me to play seriously too, but by then i really went crazy and started laughing for no reason, cause i found it funny, i guess, i'm having my exams next week, haha, isn't it funny? Then my teacher even said, when you're taking exams cannot laugh in front of the examiner.... lol, what nonsense, of course i know, then my mum looked and my and started smiling too, then she said i was crazy, its about time she realised its driving me crazy.

After me teacher left my mum still told me sternly i should play seriously, then i told her, i'm tired of getting anxious out of every big stuff, so i should just take it easy, and i keep telling her i want to learn, not to play just to pass the exams, haiya, she wouldn't listen.

But anyway, the first week of the new term has gone by so fast, i felt very good today, dunno why, especially after Miss Jamie's class, then it was windy and nice and i looked and teck and said, you know what day it is? Haha, its just, friday's a good day, a really really good day.. Yep, everything zoomed by pretty quickly and before long we were released. And it was raining quite heavily. And since i had to get to church to rehearse my skit, we rushed to safra cause wei zhou wanted to redo the TPA video, everyone was not satisfied, including me, haha, when i was videotaken making shots, i couldn't even see my face. So yeah, today, got there and i started playing with teck and i'm pleased to say his standard has fallen drastically, haha, but he's still the champion, and i'm lucky to still be able to win him easily cause i predict he'll shoot up again, and by then, few can stop him. Yeah and i saw that fat relief teacher there, then i was uncomfortable when he stood there watching me and teck play, cause i was itching to play with him again and i was afraid he'd see me making a lousy shot, luckily the only words i heard form him to me were ''good shot!'' haha. Yeah, i wanted to settle a personal feud, ahha.

Haiya, but kenneth challenged him first. He walked past us while i did a break, then he said, ''wah, so fierce ah?'' lol, i snorted, then when i look over at his break, i couldn't bear it, cause i wanted to challenge him, i dunno, he's a grown man, i guess challenging and beating grown men for young boys my age brings about much satisfaction, and i saw he had many many flaws, yeah, the only TPA members who played with him were the elite, and out of the elite, only kenneth lost, but kenneth has improved much over the days. Nevertheless, everytime i see this huge menacing figure bounding over, i get jumpy, cause he's the best relief teacher in the school, i want to challenge him again and again until he cringes at the sight of me. haha. Anyway, unfortunately, he left early, and i continued with teck.

I had great rounds of pool today, teck cleared me, i cleared him, i could see the huge improvement compared to, uhhh, last year, haha, one quick game can last for 2 mins, haha, and then we saw wang yi ren and his girlfriends, lol, we see him EVERYDAY, yesterday we saw him and his girlfriends too, and we informed them there weren't any table available, i saw them last week with a HUGE crowd. And they looked over at our table, haha, we finished our games so fast, teck went to rack the balls like 5 times in around 10 mins, really! Lol, then i was really bored, and i really had to go, so i approached him and asked him for a game, with teck, then he spoke, with his heavy chinese accent, saying, ''i don't know how to play!" , lol, i whispered to teck, liar! Then we were like, what to do? Then i asked him again, then he kept saying, ''I really don't know how to play!!" Lol, so we just walked back, then teck kept cursing, haha, everyone knows he was lying, c'mon.. Daniel said he was afraid to play with us, cause he knows we play for the school and he's seen us play. True, lol, they saw us play snooker last week. Haiya, anyway, we didn't bother them anymore, they even opened a snooker table, lol, if he didn't know how to play what on earth was he doing that, what a blatant lie.

So i left immediately and sat a bus to church. Uh yeah, i have to act for a skit again, ahh, i hate to rehearse, cause its really embarassing when you act in front of your friends, i don't do it properly, but of course, when its time to act in front of the audience, you'd do it properly. Yeah, basically, everyone was having a good laugh, i was supposed to do nothing accept act cool and say several lines, haha, that's very difficult okay!

Relax, the exams are still far far away..






Ray- AKVO


Contact is but an illusion
for the fraction of a moment
of the stranger's bridge
was merely in cyberspace

Then there a chance,
Where savior was unsure
though victory was mine
when fate was where it was

Experience is only worth
what it last
only ended by a move
a fool would make

But the uncertain lost
is far from hope gone
when chance repeat
and comprehension complete.

0 Comments:

Post a Comment

<< Home