Thursday, October 19, 2006

The nature of Boys

Today is thurs, lol, we were supposed to have inline skating cause sheryl kindly signed the whole class up, lol, i was already told that all my friends wouldn't be going, except latif, haiya, no matter how much i begged them they'd rather stay at home and sleep, so i had no choice but still go to school today. Lol, during the morning assembly, i was like, the only guy sitting there amongst the girls and there was a HUGE gap between me and the other half of the class ='( I was so alone, haha, teck didn't come, kenneth didn't come, peera didn't come, now that's half the class, haha, since i'm not close with the other half, so sad..

Anyway, when the inline skating started, i was really really lazy about changing into pe and skates, so i kinda didn't change, but then, lol, me and latif still changed, and yeah, we got started and i recognised the salomen guy, the boss i think, he was also the boss last time when i learnt skating, and yeah, the asked for those who could skate to go over to one side, but only like ulfred and ricky went there, i thought everyone else would stay at the new corner, so i stayed too. lol, the starting was sooooo boring, but i just decided to follow everyone since i hadn't skated for like 3 to four years, and yeah, we started just moving slooowwwly, and i was getting really uncomfortable and hot...moreover, we had to wear that stupid helmet which made all of us look like.. look like, look funny, i didn't even have to wear one then..lol, after ''learning'' how to skate for like sooo long, i realised i was skating in circles and i realised, i haven't passed anyone that looked like jhansi robelle or sam or the others, and i was just passing latif and the guys, lol, waaaaaa, then i saw them skating at the intermediate zone.. wahhhhhh!! lol, i felt so left out, haha, they left without meeeee, while over at my area, i had no friends because everyone was busy looking after themselves trying to balance and stuff, lol, then i kept glancing over giving that pathetic look, they were soooo mean, they just laughed at me but i didn't dare to cross over.

Anyway after that, during recess, i was the only guy amongst all the girls again, soo lonely, haha, cause it was only our class and the guys didn't come anyway, haiya.

It was after i changed and when i walked back to class, i walked past kenneth and he said, ''hi hexun!'' then continued walking, lol, at first i walked past too but then i suddenly realised he was in school, haha, then i stopped him and he told me he just came.. WHAT?? haha, then i just got in and did nothing. Then we realised that the pool table was open for some reason, so me and kenneth got there and took a look and learnt that mr yeo had opened the table just for his class, so kenneth and i tagged for one match and we won in 3 turns i think, then we got back again.. Teck messaged me asking me who was in school, so i told him no one, but kenneth just turned up. It was sooooo boring in class, most of the guys were reading, if not, sleeping, lol, no togetherness, what class sprit? All i could do was just molest ricky and prevent him from molesting me back, haha..

Then i was in a middle of a muderer game with a group of the people when i saw teck talking to ray, lol, once again i thought it was pretty normal, until i realised teck didn't come this morning! haha, then he told me he just arrived too, wa lauuuuuu, like that.. haha.

I didn't bother much about him, he told me he wanted to go to HQ, which was wei zhou's house, that was why he came to school. Miss tuan came in and gave us some survey, and she also realised teck and kenneth just got in, then she kinda scolded teck in a nice way, and teck was just smiling, haiya, miss tuan is just soo nice.. But she said she wanted to see him and kenneth after school. So i decided although i had piano lessons, i told teck to leave his house with me at like 330, he agreed, yay! so i have something fun to do after school.

Yeah, i had to wait awhile for him and kenneth, miss tuan led them to the office, and teck passed me his phone, kenneth passed his to wei zhou. wei zhou then left with daniel first.. WAH, after that, they were inside for soooo long, and when i saw them, i could see that miss tuan was really really angry and serious about this matter.. Miss tuan then came out and she was really really angry, and led me to a corner and told me not to wait for them, she scolded me, asking me to watch out.. wahh, then i asked her what i did, she said i didn't do anything but she said if i don't influence them, they'd eventually influence me, she told me they have really really bad attitude and stuff, oh man, i was so afraid cause miss tuan's so nice.. she told me they'd be serving detention for coming late.. oooh, i can imagine how angry teck would be and he'd probably vent his anger on me too.. i was just caught in the middle! wahhh, i was kinda down after that, seeing them in there..

I then walked to the canteen and just told the guys, i really didn't know what to do, i was about to have fun at Wz's house and all these things happen, and i hate it when teck's angry and when he curses, and just to think, i'd have to listen to them and try to tell him to relax but there's nothing much i can do actually.. Yeah, i kept walking back to outside the office, and i saw mr boo talking to kenneth, miss tuan told me kenneth was really really rude..

I really don't know what's wrong with these guys, i mean, they're my friends but, i guess they really took advantage of miss tuan's niceness. Miss tuan's really very nice and they think it'd be okay to do this and that.. and when miss tuan punishes them, they'd be cursing her and stuff.. i feel so sorry for her, i mean honestly, althought they get good grades and stuff, they should still respect the teachers and the rules i think.. especially kenneth, i mean, he shouted at miss tuan this afternoon, and in class he's quite rude, he wasn't even like this last year.. moreover, he's the monitor!

Yesterday, kenneth didn't come to school, and the during math revision, mdm soh asked for the monitress, she specifically asked for the monitress, and since i'm used to being called the monitress, and i AM the monitress and since kenneth didn't come, i walked up to collect the paper, lol, i know everyone was laughing at me but haha, if kenneth came i'd still have to go.. anyway, mdm soh asked me where was our class'monitress, i said we didn't have any, and she asked if i gave out the math paper 2, i said no, she said good, cause she the last one was hurling the papers to his classmates.. yeah, during math paper 2, kenneth threw everyone's math paper, i mean, kenneth's funny, but sometimes, i don't know what to say, the only person that dared to say something was ray, and he should have..

Yeah, when i went to check on teck again mr singh was talking to him one on one and giving him a big scolding, ahh, it pained my heart to see him, it pains my heart to see my friends in trouble, but i was just caught up in the middle, i always am, i was quite saddened by how my friends treated miss tuan and how they were being punished, besides, teck's phone was in my pocket.. So i told him i'd put it in his locker, and after a little hesitation and stuff, i left myself to meet wz and darren.

Yeah, i finally met wei zhou and daniel, and i finally met someone who could understand how i felt, he asked me how come kenenth was like this, and yeah, i was relaly saddened by it, i mean, sometimes kenneth is really insulting and it really hurts other people's feelings, although kenneth does not insult me, he never has, but i really feel sorry for the guys he has hurt..like the twins in class, they are really helpful, but yet kenneth is really nasty to them, although i sometimes am cause i find them kinda irritating at times but i still talk to them sometimes, while kenneth is really really nasty that even i am afraid of him and i can't help but sympathise the twins.. yesterday during the pool finals, the teacher sent micheal off for making too much noise and comments, then suddenly, kenneth came to school, and kenneth was also making a lot of noise and comments, and i was really afraid the teacher might sent him away since the teacher knew us, i was afraid the teacher might be angry with us..

I don't know i'm really quite sick of all these.. sometimes i wish i'm a girl, haha, i don't mean anything about like girly stuff or whatever, but the guys are really, quite bad, the girls are more human than the guys i feel, in fact, the only guys that i feel are really human are ray and yuan hong, they really have feelings and they have a heart.. I mean you see how close girls can get amongst each other, while for me, i rarely had a good friendship with a boy because boys will be boys.. they guys rarely spare a thought for others and rarely sacrifice and really be nice.. i always find i do so much for the guys but they return much less, except shi xiong maybe, sometimes..

especially these days, i find i share my stuff with girls other than guys, the only guy that i really share stuff with is ray, with kenneth and the others, we only talk about business, kenneth will talk about which guy he thrashed, and how to play this thing and that in pool, no personal stuff.. teck's a nice guy, but i think he's just too angry sometimes, in fact, he makes himself so many enemies, he really hates jj, he hates many guys, esp wang yi ren and micheal and he won't hesitate to fight them if he has too.. which i find, is a huge waste, he's so smart and hardworking, but yet, he won't hesitate to fight someone who has offended him. He almost wanted to punch wang yi ren for staring at him, he almost wanted to fight micheal cause micheal mouthed vulgarities at him... although in all these cases he didn't start first, he just calm down and forget about these people who aren't worth fighting for, and i have trouble trying to make him forget his anger.. i guess i can so easily, but not for him..

we took a cab to wz's house, and i tried to forget all my troubles.. yeah, i had a great time, i beat wei zhou 3-2 in 9 ball and he was really impressed and he was full of respect for me, he promoted me to hustler =D.. haha, i spent the other half of my stay there playing with daniel and ate maggi me then i went home..

ahhh, home, piano lessons, i HATE THEORY!#%I@U%PU!@.. sitting there for soooo long going through stuff i don't even know makes me really really sick and tired.. arghghhh..ahhh,i know i was really disrespectful, haha, but she doesn't care anyway, i mean, she's too nice, haha.. I was behaving just like my tuition kid, but i mean, haha, she just doesn't understand that i don't understand a word she says and even if she tries explaining when i do ask out of concern for myself, she just says it out and i find it's difficult for me to learn that way!! I mean, she's a really good patient teacher, but she just cannot teach me theory! There were supposed to be 3 crotchets and she asked me, i said 3, she asked me 3 what? apples, oranges or bananas? then i said apples and wrote it down, lol, then she just rewrote for me.. i can''tt learn even if i really want tooo! Lol, that's why i asked sammie to teach me tomorrow since my exams are next week...

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