Hexun says goodbye

hello. Its been a long journey, and the tales of mithrandir must go unfinished, whether i will complete it, time will tell. But for now, the numenorean archives will stay as it is, it will not continue here. I leave everyone here now, i hope you all have a great life!















Hexun leaves with a bang! haha, alright, the my fifa image is a little screwed, i'm not supposed to have grey hair, but i'm supposed to score many many goals! goodbye!~

Holiday

At has been a marvellous holiday. Alright, for those of you who really are too tired, and really need the rest, and loathe that certain period of time on monday mornings, from 6 to 6:30, the wake up call, and the disgruntled grunt and wish that we could sleep forever, oh how we hate monday mornings! Doesn't it seem better if the week starts on tuesdays? Anyway, if you ever want to escape this, just feign ill. haha, alright i didn't feign. I was sick. And frankly, it was a pleasurable experience, though many would hate me for saying this, when we're being woken up, and seeing my brother's sulky face, while i get to snort, cuddle under my blanket, reposition my head on the pillow, and return to my beauty sleep.

To the second phase. At around 10am, when for some in school, recess nears, i'm still all cuddled up in bed, salivating on my pillow! Then when i finally open my eyes, i can't help wondering, ''while i'm lying here, what's going on in school?''

The break was really much needed. I found myself much sicker than i thought i was. And finally i find so much time in the world! It really felt like a holiday, i just realised i had been really busy during the december holidays, because i've never felt like this-having too much time to do too little things.

And so begun my doings of my many wonderful past times. So much time, to finish reading a book. And i realise my book reading style has gone astray, i read half! half of a book and i start a new book. That half-read book only gets readen when i see it at the corner of the room, piled on top of many other half-read books, all with bookmarks at their halfway point. And pianoing, and reading up on some chapters of school. Lots of messaging, and sleeping. Life void of the television and the computer is still very meaningful isn't it. And i read one of the many books, and it said to look out the window and admire God's wonderful creations. Haha, my, they're beautiful. The grass are just soo cheerfully green.

Tuesday! Finally school, and the end of my short-lived holiday. Ah, i thought i was fit. But really, in school i started to get dizzy spells, and my coughing was really bad. Aiya, what to do, had 2 tests and a chem spa. Ss! And math, and really i wanted to go home. But i have chem spa! And the trouble to have to do it at another time, and alone.

Haha, alright by spa i was really getting dizzy often, and knowing it was going to be titration, i didn't read the questions and jumped to setting up my experiment. Wasn't until after the spa that teck asked me whether i had used the measuring cylinder to measure 25cm cube of that solution, and i said i hadn't. I had to collect 2 25cm cubes of 2 solutions and i just thought since they were both 25, i'd probably have to pipette them, aiya, why so troublesome to make us use the measuring cylinder? But in the end, there're only 2 points in total aren't there? And you're bound to get your 1 mark, unless you don't do anything right? Its hard to get the full mark, unless you get the question right and experiment set-up right of course, which is hardly.

Anyway, really thankful it was over because i was on the verge of fainting.

So since till then i wasn't well, i decided to visit the doctor. The doctor who treated me since young. Isn't it cool, he watched me grow up, ever since i was little, when i had miniature lungs and a miniature heart, till now, when i'm tall and uh, handsome. haha. Anyway, i was fine, and he gave me an mc for wednesday. WhoOHOO! haha, can skip school again!

Ah, don't we all hate wednesdays? Won't it be better if we didn't have to go to school on the middle of the week? Why can't the middle of the week start on thursdays? (considering all our "pain and stress-filled" days to be on the weekdays, and wednesdays to be the middle of the weekdays). haha, anyway, i slept all the way till noon, and wasted the day.

Ah at least the week had plenty of good results to be thankful for, finally i can show my mum! And she'll give me more allowance outside.


Anyway, the week sped by quickly and before long, friday again! Oh marvellous fridays. We had the chinese composition class and haha, the teacher's so cute. Ahaha, the elderly are always cute. He just heard some stuff from weng fung then he jogged all the way in front and kept laughing and laughing, haha, couldn't even catch his breath.

Anyway, got to church after that and found out they were playing street bandy............... aiya, and xiu ling didn't even tell me she was planning to play, and i didn't bring clothesss.....Anyway, it was really funny, looking at how we were like when we were primary school, looking at the tantrums they throw. I remember there was this boy as the goal keeper, and he didn't do his job properly, and derrick kept going over to scold him harshly and said something like, ''anyone's a better keeper than you!" Then during another game, derrick was the keeper and yet another guy came over and kept scolding derrick, but he just kept smiling. haha, isn't this funny. And everyone out there don't ever say anything like, ''kids nowadays'' or whatever, even if you're not referring to my example, even when you see kids on the streets, we WERE like that, though some of us, still remain like that. But its true some kids are kids of the new generation. BAD KIDS. haha. Anyway ah, uncle james came and play again, and we were having a great time until the kids stormed in and started taking the game into their own hands, so uncle james stopped, he can't possible play in the presence of soooo many little kids! So haha, and i saw his quiet face, and it looked so sad, i wish we could play more.

Anyway, i spent my time taking pictures of myself with the phones of others for ''safety purposes'' Well, after taking them, putting them as wallpaper serves as kindof a safety thingy, it really helps. haha. Though, many of the side effects are like people like xl puking when the unlock their menus. haha. My face is irresistable. to the vomit.

So i spent the night doing work with xl, and then i assumed pf was gonna go home, so i thought we could go home together, but she wasn't done with meeting shu qin, haiya. I followed xl home then. Ah haha, dinner was great, and i desperately tried to make a good impression with xl's mum, cause i aim to be her best friend. Haha, and xl's brothers, never ceasing unkind words as i took over their gunbound. Haha, so when xl's mum announced there were nuggets for grabs, we all sped to the kitchen..haha, and xl closed the door and i saw her brother sprawled upon the glass door, hahaha. And i stole 5 nuggets. haha, when i went back her brothers were all complaining, because there were none left. haha, and i saw their faces. And i know what it tells. Aw, that face, knowing there are nuggets, having been told by the nugget maker- mum. Having smelt them. Having seen them. But they were all stolen, and all the excitement. All of a sudden mum cooked nuggets. And my brain lights up. Ting! nuggets! How i thirst for them now! But then its taken away! wahhaa, how lost they were, and i couldn't help thinking how lucky i am. But i refused to give them away! Because they teased me. Anyway, i finished my dinner and slept on her bed till i went home at 11.



Ah! saturday! CYYAM day! woooo. haha, anyway i really wanted to join the guys to play soccer, murali called the day before. Ah, but khong guan biscuit called to tell me they had already finished at around 12. sigh, another opportunity to unwind with the guys missed.

After that i went to church to meet pf for some time management settings. haha. My timetable's set! No more time wastage. Time, is an essence. And then came to more serious problems, where she was really surprised such an emo person like me has settled my bgr problems so neatly. Of course! I run a tight ship here! in terms of bgr.

Anyway the cyyam day started soon and ahh, pei en told me he read my blog. heh. All the things i said he probably read. ah haha. that is, embarassing. Turned out wei en had some thingy i couldn't understand, and if we ever updated, he would know. ah. PEI EN IS GREAT. WEI EN IS GREAT. haha.

yep, ya uhm so set-up and we ate a buffet, and sat down to watch 30 daze! again. And ah, i had to see my stupid face again. Wish i could redo so i wouldn't have that stupid face. haha. And the ngs! don't even have mine =( Probably cause mine really really has the least least least dialogues. haiya.

Then singing, and tearing. And heh, someone tearredd. Ya, haha, then watched the slideshow of uncle zhi cheng and i told the guys he really was handsome in the past, my mum told me the girls were snatching for him. haha, and he really looked so handsome in the past, and still does now. Special thanks to him. Giving discipleship cards, more pictures of the previous year. And what more to come this year. I look forward to this beautiful year, where i'm finally unleashed. Where i've finally found my true self.

Friday!

Friday's are great aren't they? Very wonderful day of a week. If we spend enough time looking, analysing and studying fridays, we'll find they're absolutely wondrous things. haha. Well. Friday! Math, and keng guang, the craziest smart guy in class, is sick! aww. haha. He looked like some sick puppy, the craziness in him was all gone. And being nice, or rather, under the order of miss tuan, i bought him a panadol, and he went back to his siao self. Ah, the first human geog test of the year. How could i not get nervous? I haven't been doing that well in 2006, letting mrs chow down a few number of times, well, being an a1. Of course, i did prepare well for the test, only knowing during the last final-year that pure geog requires memorizing, no wonder i didn't get an a1, only an a2, because i didn't memorize. And i did.

When the papers were passed, down, teck siang cursed immediately, in the many different languages and dialects. haha. i don't know what he's cursing about, maybe he doesn't know how to do. But i kept reminding anyway, to focus on geog, or chem, or both. Well i didn't waste much time, i just scribbled as much as i could. And teck was obviously stunned, he didn't know what to write. But isn't it all the same? All the question revolves around the same few stuff. And he should have memorized them.

Honestly i've been fearing the arrival of this day for a while, firstly being the geography test, for i've learnt not to undermine its prowess. Next, the chem re-assessment. Ah. My first re-assessment, thought even if you failed, they wouldn't force you to drop it, but still, i had to start working hard. I guess i do not need to remind others what year this is, you're all sick of it! Alright i did do my studying. And we all realised, the whole of tpa except kenneth had to take chem reassessments! haha. That's so coincidental. Of course i still wish i did study last year, i studied for geog instead. haha, the same situation as now. Because i wanted an a1, so i didn't study chem. Ah, i didn't even get a1, but i got 48 for chem. Then, it was the pool tournament, i didn't even go for the mass revision, i expected to fail anyway.

Anyway, everyone was nervous about it, but i think the re-assessment is really good la, i hope i can take the papers for a maths and physics, i bet i've forgotten everything by now. But the paper was relatively easy i guess, much easier than the final-year, remembering the first few words teck uttered when he received his paper last year for the final-year chemistry were also curses. haha. But it was quite easy. I only want to see a passing mark.

Finishing an examination paper is releasing a huge rock from your chest. Although the pressure might not be that obvious. But sometimes, especially facing time consuming papers like the sciences and the maths, you'll find yourself racing against time. Panic seeps in after more than a minute of staring at a question. And when you finish it, you feel like you've finished using all your powers and just want a good rest, i don't even feel like checking. After a quick check, i then proceeded to bury my head into my arms but i held one eye uncovered, and open. The world was under the ''eye's'' scrutiny. And i saw everything. Let me share my observations. Mostly from people who've finished. Teck, would normally do a soft whistle, the forced whistle he always does, then he'll ruffle his short hair, and spin his pen. Then after checking, he'll neaten up everything, zip up his pencil case, fold his legs the tpa way, and start spinning his pen. Bryan, just behind teck, would stare ahead, at thin air, and subconciously start spinning his pen too. Weng fung on the other hand, is a rather special case. Weng fung would finish his paper, put both hands at the sides of the table, look at teck siang, open his mouth halfway, and stone. Just that way. Half open, and staring at teck siang. No wonder he always asks me why teck hates him so much. hahha.

Alright, no more nonsense. Let's get serious. After the paper i just rushed off to church, i was late! Ah, today was great, had i know today was street bandy, i would've brought an extra change of clothes. And 2 extra seekers today! And so, i just finished my lunch, grabbed tao yi's special stick, and jumped in. I absolutely love those special sticks. Not much special, but just professional ones. Light and good. And tao yi's one is especially curved, which results in less difficulty of carrying the ball up into the air. Anyway, i had dry cough, just finished dinner. in full school uniform, and it just wasn't the best of conditions to play street bandy. Until uncle james came in. Wha, i knew there was no escape, because i wouldn't miss a chance to play with him for nothing. Ah anyway, it was super uncomfortable, the tie and the shirt, and the sweat.

But so what, i love playing with him, because i love receiving his air balls. Oh my goodness, he's power. Absolute. Sometimes people in school cannot believe how good these guys play. I tell you. Top-class. Although the real class is kai en. Uncle James is close to 2 metres tall, big, like a giant, no doubt his muscles must be bigger than my head then. He's not a runner, he gets the ball, and skillfully and forcefully whacks it in. And the more he does that, the more i get better in being a goal keeper. He uses so much force laa, even if i block, sometimes i wish i hadn't blocked it. Its sooo painful. I remember xl was in front of me, one of his high balls came, she ducked and it hit my chest and chin. oww. But he's good, he can shoot straight from the other end! And i love to stop his balls. Wahhaha, its so exciting. Gracefullness, skill, magnificence, power. He'll just come up, while the ball is in the air, even behind him! He just times a blind back hand shot perfectly and it catches me unawares, right into the back of the net, through that small opening. He roughly knows how i keep my goals anyway, i'm not an ordinary keeper! Somehow, through my playing years, i developed my own style, i move a lot! not stiff, and when they shoot, i tend to bend my legs a lot, sometimes, people refer to them as ''striking a pose'' but it really helps, because of it, it has blocked the craftiest of balls, balls that slide by the side quickly, and that extra inch from my shoe helps it. But uncle james revealed his secret to me today, that he could anticipate how i would move, and leave a gap in the middle, haha. So now i'll alternate between stiff and moving, and i'll be the world no 1 shot stopper in floorball!

Its really fun, and if you guy thinking the school's health and fitness club's floorball team has skill, come here and expereince skill yourself. Haha, i don't blame anyone though, i don't even know how they guys acquire such skills, the best being kai en. Its just magic you know, he scores the most unthinkable goals with the most outrageous of techniques. Its a wonder how he learnt it all. Here, we can see that floorball does not = to practice = kai en's standard. I've been playing for awhile and i've picked up lots of things, but i'm not even half of kai en's standard. Maybe i'll just improve as much as possible in being a goal keeper. Besides, its street bandy! Floorball in a court, and i don't know how much fats i've lost today, and how much muscles formed..haha. Its a great workout.

Then i just got in and did some homework, and read some notes on history. And that nonsensical ziling, who still insisted i look like bert from sesame street, she showed me his photo. eh, how on earth do you compare a doll or whatever with a human being?#!% Wah, and the worst is, vivina agrees with her. I don't believe it! haha, which part of bert looks like me??

Anyway, it was 8 and we all went up for the prayer meeting. Haha, my first prayer meeting in the school uniform, and everyone started staring, or rather, a more pleasant word, admiring? haha. Many said how good i looked la, how neat la. Then they asked why i wore the tie still, still BUTTONED up. I guess i'm just used to it, and don't say i'm acting cool or smart, because i'm really used to it. i do it even why i play pool outside, i rarely unbutton it. Anyway, the prayer meeting was great, good reflections, good lessons.

After the meeting, at 10 plus, we all just stood around and did nothing. And pei en came up to talk to me. Oh my gosh!! hhaha, pei enn! I'm always in awe of him, he's the philosopherrr, the actual oneee. I've always longed to learn from him. Anyway, he really wanted me to teach him pool, haha, and i was with heng yi and i told him all the bad effects of pool. haha, its like submitting my ideas to the high one and i was awaiting a satisfied response. Then he started a debate, comparing it with other sports, wooo i was so excited.haha. I won! weeee. Haha. And heng yi was telling them how his friends thought he was pro cause i taught him to break, which is something i'm surprised at because i taught him like when i was sec 2 or something, its a miracle he still remembers. Haha, then pei en started asking lots of questions, and it came down to that one questions, ''so do you think you're very good?'' hahaha, so i just gave that stupid blank loook and laughed, ''eh, i don't know!"hahaha. Peii ennnnn!! Though i know the study of philosophy might be anti-religion but pei en's the man who studied philosophy so he could use religion to debate philosophy. ahhh! Haha, anyway, heng yi told me he was training henderson? Ah, that's what i heard, henderson's netball team or something, and he told me they thrashed our school 40-8. sighh.. haha. Well at least i told him our school's volleyball's good! hahaha, well, i guess, i haven't seen them play but i think they're good. And i should have said my school's journalism and photography is the best..wahha.

Anyway, some thoughts. Especially from the guys in school, giant intellectuals like yyh and ray, though sometimes i tell xl i have difficulty succeeding in terms of words and logic, but i've learnt it really doesn't matter even if i lose. What's most important is my believe and faith. i do not believe pei en's faith wasn't challenged. Some things are beyond comprehension and logic, need they be? Some things are beyond words and reasoning, but need they be? How, with words and logic, do you explain the faith? The spiritual body? The soul? The believe? How on earth, can i tell you what i've felt that makes me 100% sure with words? Haha, really. These things are beyond expression aren't they? Even if there's a perfect word to describe this, this must be felt, not understood. So i hope you understand giant intellectuals! Haha, even if i can't win the debate of religion, i feel and experience His existence, i needn't understand how and why the grass is green and the sky is blue, and why the birds sing in the morning to the rising sun.

Undaunted

This week has been a week full of failures, setbacks, recoveries, achievements, and enlightenments. Lots and lots of it. It has been a very very very good week because of failures, and achievements.

Of course, the first failure is my Spa. For my blindness, and carelessness. That's still something small. And i learnt a small lesson from it. Throughout the week i've failed in lots of stuff! Haha, i've failed chinese finally, i've failed eh i forgot. Well yeah, the biggest was my shock piano theory failure on thursday. Indeed i was still as confident as ever, i smiled at my teacher asking her if i passed, she told me i didn't. So i stunned for as long as 20 minutes, staring at my paper in deep thought, and she kept talking and talking and i didn't make a sound. She said i have to buck up for the reexam in march. I then asked her what made her think i can pass if i've already failed. I then walked off like a cool guy, act cool of course. Ya, its true la, how on earth can i pass again if she teaches me? Sammie has taught me all that i've never known before, and i thought i'd definitely pass with her help, because for all your info, my teacher can't teach well. I honestly cannot learn things from her. Its not an excuse, i really can't.

Well then ya i talked to xl and i was really very down la, how come this week i'm tested by a long bout of setbacks. And its really for the whole week, no matter how much i pick myself up and be happy, i'm still unable to advance, yet i continue to retreat. And i know, and i've been looking forward to many setbacks like this, because i've heard from many about such things that happen. Tests of faith. And i did understand, from the phonecall, that i haven't given it all up into the hands of God. Complacency. Ah, i'm a mere powerless human! I thought i could do it all myself. And i realise i couldn't.

And of course, the stamping out of the seed of pool. No, its not entirely bad, but ultimately, the environment isn't the best. In fact, i feel rather down lots of times when i play it. After all, how long can i radiate light at places where its dark? Even if i am not consumed by the bad environment, i'll gradually feel weaker anyway. So the conclusion after months of brainwashing everybody, pool, isn't the best of sports. Because of the culture that it comes with. Approximately 2 years ago, i discovered what i thought would be take up a big portion of my life. I know realise it only too a big portion of my pocket! How many thousands have the few of us spent on pool? Thousands. I've worked my way to the top. It's been a long journey. Full of late home goings, pocket burnings, and pool, has largely built up that pride of mine. Which is, extremely dangerous. And i've had my glorious moments, winning veterans, beating gangsters, senious, youths, old people, young people, boys, men, women.. Of course, i have to write a lot about this, for a large moment of my life, it was all about pool.

You've all seen my previous blog posts, all about how excited i am. It really has been a good time. Satisfying what men wants most to satisfy. Achievements, superiority over others, pride. Its been good, yes. How i've always said i'm always surprised how come this group of young guns can pick up so many skills. Honestly, it has been rather spine-thrilling adventures. It's just like some fighting anime, and they spar with dunno who all the time, thrilling and nerve wrecking, that's why it's been great fun. Because we, or rather me, feel that wow! in this large world of pool, i'm a force to be reckoned with! And we grew to become the best in the school. That meant a lot to me, like i'm a small fry being noticed. I'm a weed to others, a needle, a stone in the shoe, a FORCE to be reckoned with. I'm not just an ordinary stranger some pool guy walks past and doesn't bat an eyelid over. I, and we, are people whom strangers notice, look at, analyse, learn from, and worry about. We, become their worries, we, aren't small children, we show them they aren't the best. That's what made me love it, superiority over others. I love for people to have that thought, ''this small boy is good! he makes me look funny out here!'' Its because i'm still young and small, that we upset people. That's what kept me going.

However, is isn't the best ultimately. It isn't even the game i can play. A game for me, such an emotional person, how can i excel here? It depends on my mood! I had to have a lot of favourable conditions in order for me to play well on a certain day. And sometimes, these conditions aren't offered.

And i've stopped! The shark of Tpa, the rosemary of tpa, the first student to be offered the postion of master ( a little bragging before i quit! haha) The most uninvolved, unenthusiastic, fun-spoiling member, the trendsetter of the Tpa. I leave tpa, i leave this ''brotherhood'' Though i've quit, i will not consider myself to be an outsider to the Tpa. darren still bows to me when he sees me, wei zhou still asks me when he can. But i leave behind my legacy, the trends i've set, of the woman's (more often practiced by woman) leg cross. The rootbeer (2nd most popular to green tea) The power break, the power screw. I thank the master of tpa for imparting these things to me. Though it has burned a clear hole in my pocket. And how sure can you say i've quit? Because i was eating with yh at lorong 8 and saw them, and they were headed to safra, without my knowing. That means, the tpa has given up on calling me. That seed that was planted 2 years back, had become a weed to me, although they had tried hard to water it and shower love and sunlight upon it, i saw it as weed, and i refused to fertilize it as often as i could. I knew long ago it was weed, however, i couldn't have the heart to pluck it out! It was planted by my good friends. And it did bring happiness, to the passing strangers who saw it in my yard, they saw a beautiful rose. But i saw it as a weed. And i've finally removed it. The strangers have nothing to see, the ''brotherhood'' has left me behind. Though, there're still scars of a thorny rose growing in that patch of soil. And that, is the legacy i've left. The people i've won, the trends i've set, the glory i've brought. If tpa should ever go national one day, haha, i only hope i'll be in wei zhou's hall of fame.




Friday was a relatively good day. And i really realised and was thankful for having many thinkers around me, ray.. yuan hong. Though i did overhear how ray attacked my religion on thurs or wed (no offense). Though sometimes i feel angry, feel sad, for they are my friends, feel hurt. And i know, that that's many that we have to face. But i did realise, they strengthen our faith. I wouldn't like to use challenging my faith. Rather, they strengthen it. And i did thank ray. Because of the questions they pose that i can't answer due to the lack of knowledge, i find them out. And therefore, it strengthens. I am beginning to understand many things i couldn't understand why, though i knew there was a reason. Headed to church straight after school. Sc! Rather quiet sc. Same old derrick. I miss the days when the church is swarming with macpherson primary kids, and all chasing that ball (floorball/street bandy). The numbers have lessened. To 1? After that i met xl and we chatted all the way till 9. haha



Well today's sushi making! Ah, i woke up so early to study cause ziling wanted me to meet them at amk mrt station, and i had to study if not my mum would go mad. And the program was alright. Did lots of work. And grace's brother is soo cute! haha. I dont' know, he can't even speak clearly, cause he'll swallow his words with his laughter when he's just halfway through the sentence. Ya, the sushi making was quite fun. haha. Though i hate to eat sushi, i just made for everyone to eat. tsk tsk, that playful ziling. hhaa. She can't stop bullying me!! I still remember nightour she put that lightstick right into my mouth. When we were washing, she took a bowl of a rice solution, and tried to scare me by pretending to pour it on me. When it did. WHATAIT@U#T)(!826!!! Whaa, the sticky wet rick got on my shorts laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. And she was laughing and apologising away. tskkkk. Then when me and xl went to throw the thrash, it was raining really heavily, and we went all the way to the huge dustbin, yi qian opened it, we threw the thrashbags in, and he slammed it shut. All the dirty dustbin water splashed at uss!#)%*10235812601826[0816!@#%)*!@*#%!!! HOW UNLUCKY CAN I GET!#@%!I%) haha. Yuckckkkk.

Ah, then went home with the guys, but spent most of the home going time with ziling. She's so funny laa. haha, the way she laughs at everything, ''bleaghs'', sticks out her tongue, its all so comical. haha. I have yet to check out what on earth the sesame street character bert looks like, because she insisted that i looked like him, so i told her she looked like a butt ugly martian.haha, she actually boxed me for real today, because i dared her to. She always says something but doesn't do it. And she finally did it! haha.

Ah, the weekend passes by so quickly. There's still sunday! Rejoice!

All hail the Nerds

Wednesday! A great day! Ah, then, first 2 periods of english. A shocking surprise 50 word spelling, and pronunciation learning? Haha, honestly, i begin to feel that she might feel that she's a professor, i mean, the HOD of english does mean something doesn't it!? I really really really really think the learning of phonetics is unnecessary, just teach us some commonly made mistakes! There's no need to learn the symbols and lots and lots of stuff, like most of us will actually get those in our minds. The quest for perfection in english, will never be complete. Here in singapore, the land of singlish, singlish is a trait, we don't need english! Though, i'm wanna study linguistics in the future in university, thennn, if i do become some lecturer, i'll be able to teach with ease.

Next, pe. Ow how i hate the first few lessons of pe for the new year. And i wasn't wrong. We spent the lesson learning about our muscles. Haha. Then! strenuous exercise. 5 of 5 different push up positions, and holding with our elbows and hands to the ground, body straight for 40 counts! While girls do 20 counts! Gender discrimination! Its not fair, i was about to cry when he started counting, so slowly, but i lived, and my arms turned to jelly. Gender discrimination! I'll support any girl who decides to sign on for NS fully!

Then just some lessons, recess and ah, a maths test. haha, i didn't even read up on the chapter cause i left my book at home. The first question, the teacher made an amendment. Sigh, i couldn't even do it from the start. Cos inverse X 2 = error2. Wha.. and since they made an amendment, i figured it must be right. And i felt really stupid, stuck from the beginning, first question, 3 step. And i felt really really really stupid. wha, but i completed the other two, and mr sin came in and told us that the question 1's wrong. Haha, i felt so relieved, i guess all 41 of us felt like idiots when we pondered over that question.

Then physics, where mr chan spent 2 or 3 periods doing pc! haha, and we had a birthday celebration for all the january babies.

Happy Birthday to Jia yan, andy, xin yi, the twins, and not forgetting amanda. Happy birthday!


ahh. it took us awhile to get to after school. Soccer rematch once again with e4. And we're gonna win. Well the e1s had spa and everyone was waiting for them. I told everyone i'll score a hat trick (3 goals). But of course, i'm only joking, that's stupid. haha. Anyway e1 arrived at around 345 and we could finally get started.

Sigh e4, e4, always smuggling players, i don't know their real reason maybe its valid, but this is not a class match if they keep doing so. Smuggled a school team defender in. And we, the same e1-e2.

Ever since the game started, i really had the lousiest stamina i ever had in any game of my life. I totally couldn't keep up with the pace of the game. I got tired mighty easily. Sigh. I can't blame myself. haha, i don't even remember the last time i even exercised. They scored the first goal. I really felt lost then, i felt we might lose, they broke free first. Ah, the heat was melting me, i got dizzier and dizzier i couldn't even run. I really got pissed at the guys, the DIDN'T PASS?!@#% Peera! He shot himself when i was open, i shouted at him, hassan, he dribbled all the way and lost the ball like he always does, i shouted at him. I'm sorry for all for shouting at you all. But before the game i told all of you all to pass! to me! Because i'm the lone striker! If you don't pass, no one will! And to hassan too, we're repeatedly told him to pass pass pass not dribble all the way, spend his energy, and lose the ball. Ok, our first goal came from latif's corner, it hit the back of a defender and went in. hahah. Well i missed lots of chances, i was open and imran finally passed to me when it was an open goal! But he passed a little too behind and it deflected off my leg. ahh, what a waste. The real beauty came when i chested a high ball and volleyed it, but it hit the post!#%?!@#^

My goodness, if that ball had went in, it would've been one of the marvellousestsest goals i've ever scored. Imran shot a long shot and scored another marvellous goal. 2-1. Ah, the first half lasted 40 long minutes! I almost fainted. I really couldn't take it. I felt lousy, being the captain, being the lone striker, and i did absolutely nothing but get tired. Sigh.. What hat trick? lol.

Well after that, when the second half started, i felt energised however. hhaa. And the weather was perfect! Just perfect! I have no idea why but i really felt good. And when the match started, i found myself to have unlasting stamina! hahah. I have no idea why. The defence was tight, because i'm the lone striker, i'm easy to mark. Okay once, everyone was in the box and there was much confusion, i got the ball and banged it in. First goal, 3-1. But they soon capitalised! They scored another goal to keep up at 3-2.

Peera finally passed, i shouted for him ''through! through!'' he did a through pass, and it was me and the keeper alone, but the ball was too ahead of me, we crashed into one another, i don't know how many somersaults i did. And i injured both my elbows. He got up and swore at me. no one can ever know how infuriated i was at him. Earlier on while he was the defender, he pushed me roughly from behind, one of them even elbowed my lips. I was really really really angry. I was, he swore at me. I just walked and kept turning back to give him that unhappy face. Alright don't say i'm acting cool. haha, but i really am angry. I told shi xiong to watch his players, and he told me he did tell him off already. Well, somehow jj let in 2 goals through the hole oh his legs. Haha, i was really mad at him too, okay i did shout at him. Okay okay, sorry!! Ah, i don't exactly remember how, but i scored my second! haha, i was elated, and i told everyone.. One more! one more! Give me one more! One more to a hat-trick! And once again, they scored a few too. 5-5 was the score. Somehow i thought we had the lead, i didn't know the score. Darren actually took over the previous referee during second half, he was forced. And everyone was not happy, saying he was too soft and didn't know anything and didn't dare to say anything. Poor guy. I never blamed him one bit. Haha.

9 more minutes! Darren told us. oh man oh man. haha. I really felt there was a possibility i could complete my hat-trick. the guys pushed the ball up, and peera did a through for me. i sprinted in from the right, i never expected to shoot from there, i wanted to pass, but i found lots of space ahead of me with not much defenders, so i just went ahead and blasted one at the far left corner. Hat-trick. Complete.

I was over the moon, over the sun, over mars. Wahooooo, everyone hugged me, beat me, high-fived me. Hat-trick!! wahhaha. yay! And it ended at 6-5! Wahooo!! haha. YESS!#%)!@*^)@$^ It was a great match. We've won. The nerds, have conquered all. The nerds. All hail the nerds! Haha, alif, came over and shook everyone's hand, ya he's their top player, and he hugged me. haha. Weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. weeeeeeeeeee. wee. I'm happy! Good job everyone! Good job you bunch of nerds!!!

Actually after the game shi xiong said some of the soccer guys said the captain is so boastful and rough! Wha. I don't believe it mannnn. How can they say such hurtful things? I was never boastful. I celebrated my goals with my team and i never shouted to everyone i scored a hat-trick! And rough? That's totally wrong, i was the one that was hurt and injured and pushed to the ground. haiya. I don't know.

Ya we did stay late, and me and latif went to get some cup noodles to chow. And i went home. I had lots of pains EVERYWHERE. I even had a cramp taking off my socks. hahha. Yes! Alright! haha. okay goodbye..

Halfway

There's time to blog! Wahah. Anyway, it was a great start to the week till now. Since sunday, after all the fellowship, i stayed back till late to just do some work. And i was hungry! Haha, i knew it was way past dinner time and i probably wouldn't have food left at home anyway, i was drooling about fried hokkien mee just at jb, vivina was hungry too. Ah! haha, what a nice idea! Xiao ling's house! haha. It wasn't my first time there but my first time i'm staying for dinner. And i must say i was pretty embarrassed going there for free dinner. But everything was fine, everyone was happy. And sleeping on her bed they started talking to me about how different jc is. And frankly, i still can't wait to get there!! Though it's a place that's very different, its a different culture, and many temptations that linger, but still.. i gather its better than secondary school? I don't know, from what the guys have been telling me, they really miss secondary school. And xl's friend's getting married! haha, at 17! Though i wasn't really surprised, these are one of the many teens who don't think before they act.

It happens. The reason why i never found that surprising was because i've heard many similiar stories from my mum in court about such stuff, where they're just too young! And the girls get pregnant, aged 17, to her cousin. Haha, that's a pretty dumb think to do honestly. Well if you ask me, things're really messed up for her, but according to xl, she's really excited about the impending wedding. We'll in approximately 5 to 10 years time, she's be wishing she could turn back time. Firstly, she isn't studying at all, she scored 30 points for her o levels cause she didn't study for it! And now she's pregnant, we'll see how manly this guy can be. If he was man enough to know of the responsibilities that follow if he took of his pants that day, he should be man enough to continue taking care of his future wife and child till the end of his days.

Well the dinner was great! haha, though it was just rice and some other stuff, it was filling. And ya, i stayed till so late.

honestly, we've been seeing the worse side of mum's recently. Lots of people are really unable to bear their mum's unreasonable scoldings and naggings recently. But its most probably because we're growing up. When i was young, i read that teens would look for more freedom from parents, and i believed i'd never do that, i'll always be filial. But it has been happening recently! Not only to me though. But honestly, all our parents, no matter how, to some extent will care and love us. Though i really don't know what all the other parents are like and i'm prepared to have tons of people flooding to me ''you know what's my mum/dad like anot?'' But yes, they still love us. Who painstakingly bore us for 9 months? Who were the first ones to want to much to cuddle us in their warm arms when we first entered the world? Who tickled and made stupid faces at us nonstop and played with our little fingers? Who taught us to walk and celebrated our first birthday? Then, who were the first ones who caned us for our wrongdoings or scolded us in public? Who gave us so 80 cents a day while john got 2 dollars a day? Who who who who nagged us nonstop till we locked ourselves in our room? Who compared us with smart people and nagged at us for not getting a1?!# Who on earth grounded us!?% Who gave us stupid curfew!?% Sigh.. Since we were all so young when they showed so much love for us, taught us to walk, taught us words, told us why the grass is green. But its during the period when we start to understand matters that we hate and hate and hate naggings, hate groundings, hate scoldings! They hate it too. I guess when my parents die, i'll wish i could hear they nagging at me once more, scold me once more, be unreasonable once more!

When they leave, who would fill up that empty void? Alright, i'll not be a saint and tell you guys to be filial and love your parents no matter how unreasonable they are. because some might just be unreasonable to the core. But if we don't remember them, who will?

Monday.. wasn't a good day. Uhhhh, the spa at the end of the day. Spa assessment!! Well i didn't really bother about it actually, graph drawing is relatively easy. No one bothered actually. But when we did it, firstly, i got 6 readings that were 10 units apart, i didn't try to look for readings 5 units apart. Maybe that was too big. Then secondly, i plotted my points to become a curved graph. haha, and the equation, y=mx+c that was disguised into y=au+b is a straight line graph! haha, i didn't realise that! Because my points were all a distinct curve anyway! Well mr chan, he looked at me, and patted my back, he even knocked at my y=mx+c equation, i stupidly stared at it till the time was up, i didn't even know what was happening. Stupid me. Ahhh yeah, i think i'm like the only guy in the whole class that plotted a curve. haha, it just didn't occur to me that it might be a straight-line graph because my points were an obvious curve! haha, i guess when it comes down to ''who does the stupidest things'' its me! haha at first i was rather down about it but c'monnn. I learnt lessons from it.

Then tuesday. Ah. English. I really can't take it anymore. Miss shamsudin, there's always that haughty tone in her voice. And she demands perfection from our english. Its such a hard time we're all having here! This stinks! Yaya, over every little thing she says and says, and her english is sooo good bla bla, i bet she tells people outside she's a english professor outside. Like we need to know that the comprehension questions are divided into linguistics and bla bla. We really don't need to know these unnecessary information that will not aid us! English, whether we do well, to some extent depends on the teacher's methods. Some, like our teacher, teaches english the textbook way. C'mon!! I don't even think it helps, besides, what she teaches is sooo i don't even know what to say. Like pronunciation, she had to draw the pronunciation symbol for that word. Wha.. like we need to know.. Look at miss huang! Talk about spontaneous! We don't need to know all that nonsense! Just some practice! Some fun way of practice! We thoroughly enjoy her lessons!

And once again, the soccer match tomorrow! haha and this time we really lack people, many people are busy and are unsure if they can play the whole game, well i can. And i hope i don't faint and die in the middle of the match.

fun

the second week of school is already over. so fast! and i hope it'll go at a faster rate. Get over 2007! Yes, with each passing day, there's really much more work. Especially from that Mrs shamsudin, she's like the most hardcore eng teacher ever. I find a lot of difficulty getting through her lessons. We've to write and write and write, maybe if in the beggining of the year when we were giving our expectations we shouldn't have kept saying i want practice on this and that! Its really too much to take! Everyday someone has to go up to write a quote and everyday we have to write a long comment on it. 365 commentaries xl.


And of course, homework for both maths have increased 100fold.One hundred fold, there're really tons and tons that that, i guess is really good for us. And Spa, lol, don't ask me why i haven't handed in the very first spa practice, cause i have no idea why too. And it was on thursday, after the spa practice i really had a big headache. And i got on the wrong bus! I don't know what's happened, maybe i've gone crazy, but i really saw the bus as 163, and when i got in, it really didn't feel like it was a 163, but i just sat and i realised i got on the wrong bus until it took a turn. Lol, its one of the very few times i've taken the wrong bus. Maybe i should get my eyesight checked. Piano piano piano. I know i'm pretty dumb to have failed grade 3 theory, i guess i really hate it. Or my teacher sucks at teaching me. honestly, she does the work. haha. And ya, thank goodness i got sammie's help this time, but its like, my mum doesn't even believe i can pass, and she got psychoed by my piano teacher to sign up to retake in march. What a waste of money. I believe i can pass! As in, i learnt so much from sam. My teacher's just. She's just. Too soft. She'll just teach and teach and teach even if i'm not hexun. I can close my eyes and play the scales and she can't even tell the difference, she'll just keep correcting and keep guiding my hands. Then during theory, i just can't stand it, i can't sit and listen to her. I learn nothing. But i don't want to change a teacher, i hate change. So till now, the results still aren't back. And i'm still anxiously waiting. If i pass..hahahaha. I'm gonna buy sam a nice big present okay? haha.

And another thing we've all been anxiously awaiting is the results for the SVA competition. No doubt we're gonna win something. haha. Even faezah knows. We put in quite alot of effort you know. And from what i've seen from the guys, they tell me its really good. And of course, i bet its better than state of mind. Which won silver. And unless the judges don't like the story, we're gonna get silver AT LEAST. But of course, it better get platinum. haha. And i'm the group leader, and i haven't even seen the final product. I guess i left my team at the lurch. But we're waiting. When we get our award, and get recognition, and when we shake mr boo's hand, ''in your face!'' wahh. I really dont' know what's going through his mind. Closing down so many ccas. like basketball, though i don't like it. Which school doesn't have basketball? Its like the basic of basic ccas. So what if they dont' do well. tsktsk. Its about passion and interest. You can't take that away! I mean, isn't some part of the beattiyan spirit to allow us to ''fa hui'' in our areas of expertise or interest. I don't know, i think i made that up. But nevertheless, that should be something all schools should follow what.. What good would be a guy who's really really really good in basketball in say, uhh, info com? haha. He can't maximise his potential!

And i can't say i'm not happy with the merging of ej and dmc. Maybe i just like that name eJournalism. haha. But ya, we've got really good times, especially the few of us, sec 4s. Afterall, we've long foreseen the doom of ej after we leave, but i've never expected it to be like this, to merge, how anticlimax. haha. And now, the total population of infocom is----close to 100! It's become a small country. Of course, all of the ejers will be very very uncomfortable with the size. 20 to 100 is a big big huge jump. Oh well, i'm sec 4 already.

And soccer! The game that ruined my life! Finally i can play it again. And its against e4 again. Next wed. Supporters kindly support us!! We're gonnna win!

And friday, ran in the rain and got to church. For sc. And it was really fun this time. Street bandy! Haha, and it was a really really really good workout. But our 2 macpherson kids dropped out halfway cause they couldn't keep up with the pace of the game. It was really really really intense. Great workout, shook some fats. And ya, just 2 kids. Sigh. haha. But one of them says i look korean! Isn't that marvellous? I don't know, i guess i can pass off as a korean in korea. The name Hexun, thanks to the great dodohead, actually can sound korean = hexuna. haha. Of course, i don't know if i agree that i look korean, i look like lots of people. Some people think i look like bert from sesame street. Someone i've never seen before. Some, a dinosaur.

Yeah, then after that i was just planning with xl for the event. Haha, it really isn't easy to head one. And its still so early. I know deep down there're be like one million changes to the original. Its impossible to stick to it. Changes have to be made. Then kind ziling gave me my present! From bali, a spoilt wooden aeroplane. Maybe xuan'll like that. It spoilt! =( Cause she spoilt it =(. haha. And she expects me to fix it myself =(.

Saturday! CCA recruitment day! Of course, i didn't expect i could get as much fun as i did last year. Dressing up as a jedi. It was fun. I really love cca recruitment days. Maybe next year i'll come back to have fun! Its also a good time to make friends. Its easy to. Ya, its really fun la. So this time i didn't expect that much fun. The guys brought xbox and ps2. Sigh. We're not ej. haha. Anyway. Its good to be in infocom!!! Well darren got those mikes. That the whole school could hear! hhaha. it was really so funny. We kept singing songs while walking around. ''infocommm infocomm. infoinfocomm!!'' Really, i wanted to hyptnotize all the sec 1s into going into c2-05. Then after that i was tired, and we all sat down. I really didn't know that speaker was that strong!!! Its soo cool. They were all sitting. Then lakshmi spoke to the mike. ''why's hexun so handsome?'' then i answered, ''cause i'm in infocom!'' haha. Then isabel started, ''why did the chicken cross the road?'' I answered again, ''cause it was trying to get to infocom!'' hhaa. So we did a lot of this lame stuff. Haha, and i really didn't know it was so loud. Jhans told me all the volleyball girls were laughing. ''who's hexun?'' they asked. hahaha.. oh no.

So once again, it was a really enjoyable cca orientation day for me. I played quite a lot of soccer on imran's xbox too.

Then after that my parents fetched me and we went to eat. Wha. They were in a really generous mood today. Probably because the lunch was to celebrate my brother's birthday. My mum just stopped by a swatch shop and cause my bro doesn't have a watch. Then they just picked one really nice one and bought it. Of course, being me, i felt an itch too, since they were really generous. But i just can't. I know i'll waste the money. Besides, the watch i bought last year is now around my mum's wrist. Because i stopped wearing watches and i find it hard to start. I just want to save my parent's money to buy me new track shoes.

Oh another tiring week. Spa next week! TESTS! i just realised. Have a good weekend!

2006

This year'll be over in a few hours. It's been a really quick year, a year with lots of changes, adaptation to long pants, new subject combinations, and lots more. School's one thing, lots of other stuff, new temptations, new feelings, emotional problems, but finally, peace at heart, and lots of warmth, one i've been awaiting for quite a while since the year started. My change to the ss ministry.. i didn't favour in the begginning, and i see where my mistakes lie and now i thank God for putting me here, for there're some underlying bad points in Peace.

Perhaps i'm changed, and i enjoy it. And i'm looking forward to the new year. I really can't wait for the o levels to end, i'm dying to leave secondary school. The schedule, if i have any, will be very very packed and busy for me and i hope next year will go by just as fast as this year went by, or maybe, much faster. And i want to see myself, if i can still manage to hold my faith in place, though i'm emotional, i hope the changes i've requested pf to make will really assist me.

In church today, my last day of being in ye's disciple group, sharing time, lots of thinkings and recollections of this past good year. And, haha, wei zhou called me twice, once telling me how he was freaked out at some Charismatic church.. Though, no matter how big the size, how many people go to it, how good are their sermons, how ''hot'' their stuff are, to me, they'll remain as part of the unorthodox churches. Well maybe i'm wrong, but that's what i think anyway. Besides, most of them have the wrong aim, mostly, their aim being to increase the membership and attendance, which really isn't what they should be looking for.

And lots of lessons to learn of course, on vivian, how she learnt to put her focus at the right place, and not put her aims wrongly due to stress and exams. Cheng huan, to just really accept what His plans holds for us in the future.

Back at home, reading the Screwtape Letters i told pf to buy from me at expo, another brilliant book by a genius. Because cs Lewis assumes the role of a senior devil, writing tips through letters to his nephew, we can see an entire different view. Though he, not being a devil himself cannot show truly what's happening, but he gives many valuable lessons that we cannot see directly from a human's point of view. Its funny how he says there's a devil in charge of every person, and they call us ''patients''.

Some things to learn and to remind us.. Like even simple things like not handing all over to Him, even in trivial matters, we have to look to Him. The Devil does easy of keeping things out of our minds, instead of us accusing Him of putting things into our minds. This i find true, we tend to forget and lose focus, forget our direction.

The devil teaches us to estimate the value of each prayer by their success in producing the desired feeling. For example, we ourselves, making us feel forgiven when asking for forgiveness.

Another point, all the pleasures and desires of the flesh are, made and given by God. The devil cannot create new ones, however, he can encourage us to take the pleasure at times, or in ways, or in degrees, which God has forbidden. Hence, the devil tries to work away from the natural condition of any pleasure. This applies a lot especially in terms of human sexuality. Keeping in mind, Christians that no matter how politically correct something seems to be, we shouldn't do it as long as it doensn't please Him.


Yes finally, its really coming, the new year, and i really really really really really want it to end quickly. If i had a time machine, i'd go ahead of time. Spare me all the nonsense of school, just get me over the year! I shall end here and Happy New Year to everyone, hoping you all are looking forward to the reopening of school as much as i am! =)

The return you all have been fearing of

Alright, i shall resume my blogging habit, i haven't been doing so because of many reasons. Well business is one thing, but i haven't been online frequently, thanks to Jia Yan for her reminder.. haha, its been at least 1 week.




Alright i have been satisfied this holidays, honestly, for the first time i have been satisfied, i've had all the fun i couldn't possibly have had. Well i'll start from the last week. For the first time ever, i fell sick early in the week, and i didn't dare to tell anyone at all, because i didn't want pei fen to worry about me. There's a huge reason behind it. I fell sick finally, because it had been raining for many days, and it was just really cold, and my homewear is just a thin undersized shirt and really short shorts. I was colded i guess. I started with sore throat and a little fever. But the next day i really rushed through my healing process, early in the morning i told my maid to buy some luo han guo to treat my sore throat, and i drank galleons and galleons of water. My fever was gone within half of the day, and my sore throat still bothered me. I wish i had my sore throat healed.


Alright, the reason why i was rushing the healing process was because pei fen were bringing 7 of us to wild wild wet to rackey. hahaha, it's the funnest idea ever. Going to swim in december when its the coldest and wettest. I knew it'd rain somehow and spoil our plans, nevertheless i still hoped and i daren't think of the possible outcomes of that day. My goodness i was very happy i was all healthy and strong, but somehow pf knew i was sick the day before la, and she kept checking if we had fever. I met pf in the morning and she told me some pretty startling things about what's going to happen to the ss ministry and the changes and some new things that i will have to exprience in the year to come. Then they all came.


Pei fen, me, xl, ye, jing yang, vivian and ziling met downstairs and had our lunch. And ziling, just back from bali, was really really really really black, thank goodness my parents didn't come up with some wild idea to holiday in bali, i'd probably buy galleons of whitening lotion. The trip there was really long la. And just like i expected, it rained, but still, it stopped, probably due to prayer haha.


I was sooo excited when we got there la.. after we got the tickets we went in, though there was a locker problem, when we got changed and got out.. my goodness i was soo excited, just like a little kid. But jy kept telling me he didn't have that excited feel, So i jumped and clapped and imitated ziling to try to make him excited..haha.


Alright, when we were all dry, we got all the way up to try our first ride, the big round circly thingy that 6 people can sit. And when we were happily queueing, that www guy had to take a bucket, fill it with water, and splash it at ussss. when we where all dry! I was sooo coldd.. and the wind up there was very very very coldd. And everyone dodged behind me which made the most splashed guy and haiya.. The ride was alright, haha, i can't scream anyway.


Next was that really cool ride, the two seater ride its like a U-shaped ride, it looked really cool. And when it was me and jy's turn, we sat on and i wasn't expecting much anyway. And all the guys were looking at us from below. Haha, so i planned to sit back but when we went down, i never expected it to beee sooooooooooooo steeeeppp. The steepness almost made me pee, so i opened my mouth in shock, though i couldn't scream..haha.. everyone was laughing at my expression.


Well that were the only 2 rides, other than that, we only got into the floats and started floating around aimlessly. Well the only fun was that i started to capsize people with my legs, i just dug deep and i capsized vivian and ziling's float hahaha, though it was heavy.. and they were sooo pissed when i did that haha, vivina dunked my head into the water in an attempt to drown me..wahha.


Well after that we just resat the rides and did much more floating and we went to bathe.


After that we went back to pasir ris and went to macs to eat. And to dicuss the planning for next year. And it's going to be really hectic. There were many changes to the ministry. Many plannings for new events, and she gave a small event entirely to me. whahaha i'm so happy. And we dicussed till late at night then i went home.



Well after that we had a one day's break before sunday. Sunday sunday, the Christmas eve, everyone treated it like Christmas anyway. Though i left early cause i had to pay respects to my grandfather because he died on that day, but when i returned, i received a warm welcome.. hahaha, people telling me they've been looking for me, and i received many Christmas cards and presents.

Then we made our way to pasir ris mrt, then to changi aloha chalet. The exact same chalet i went 2 years ago. Lots of preparations. And i was called to go shopping with zhi yang. I went into NTUC alone and did all the shopping and then came out quick. wow, i never thought i was so intependent, ahah. Then once again, i had to travel myself to tampines mrt, i even had to ask this guy which side for tampines, and he told me both sides could go..haha, it was only one stop. And i reached tampines, searched and found xl's brother and wei liang, both almost asleep, sitting on the floor waiting for us to fetch them.

So i joined them in the waiting, crouched down and waited, and they told me i really looked very ah beng. Tsk tsk, my image must be really bad. Now i finally know, i actually look like an ah beng. haha. And they did come finally, and many new friends to meet. Took a bus down to the chalet again.

In the beginning it was a little boring, pf told me to attach to a guy darrell, okay, he's quite open, as long as he's opener than me that's fine, haha, cause i'm closed all the time. The beginning was just playing some games, card games. Then was the cast puzzle competition.

I was pretty excited about it because i was never able to solve the cast puzzle in the past competitions, but i finally could, but haven't been able to in a long time because i left my puzzle at wei zhou's house. So i got a new unseasoned one, and started training. When it began, i was so proud when i could make it to section 2 and 3, cause in the past i only stayed at section 1, all the noobies. haha. Of course, in the end, only the proest got to level 4.

Then was the best of the groups, and kai xuan the previous winner went up. It was pure amazement, she open and put it back within 15 seconds, i take a minute to do that. Ya, after that was snacking time, and we all pigged at all the snacks they gave, because it still took a while before dinner.

Then, haiyo, i was really afraid, because they'd be showing the movie.. oh man i was really very afraid i'd look really stupid, although pf messaged me last night she's seen it and i look really okay. Then, it was timmee.. I was soo afraid.

Okay, i sat very in front, and had wei hong, heng wei, cheng hong all the big and strong ns guys lie on me, so i couldn't move and had to cramp my neck to watch, haha.

Well, the movie was preetyy alright, though i looked a little stupid.. haha. Well maybe i didn't do as well because i was the main character with the least scenes. Least lines, i even had a very expressive line taken away from me because i was overseas.

But towards the end, when i found no satisfaction in gaming anymore, that scene. whaa.. Haha, eveeryone said i did that really well, many people commented me on that scene. And my brother even said my acting was the best amongst all because of that scene, awww. How touching haha, YAY! YES! I've done my best and i've made it. I won't be surprised if Hollywood calls.. hahhaaha. I'm joking, do not vomit.


Ya after that was steamboat la, and each group had their own satay steamboat. The meal was alright, wasn't really very filling. Then i urged everyone to start telling us lame jokes and stupid questions, and we all went crazy, trying to solve stupid pattern puzzles, and at all the lame questions and jokes. haha. Then pf sat down and started talking to me, then we shifted to outside to the barbecue pit due to the noise.

And that was it, we sat there and chatted for dunno hoooow many hours, probably 4 or 5 hours, just talking about a lot and a lot of stuff, about next year's tight schedule, how i'm going to juggle church and the o levels, and my planning, and my events. And she told me she's giving me the whole wild wild wet event.. whoa. haha. That's really something big, and new, i've never led a whole event by myself, and this is a really big one i guess. And the steps we planned to take next year to keep my faith in place.

After that she called together the 6 of us, and she told everyone about next years plans again, about the www, and everyone was surprised that i'll be leading a whole event.. wahaa. they said i've grown up..wahha. Anyway it was then, when i started borrowing pf's feng you, her oil, and i started sniffing.. that really really made me go crazy. I started uttering nonsensical gibberish. I really really really went crazy, and not many people have the honour and opportunity to see this crazy side. And wei hong and his friend came along, and they watched me like i were in a zoo..haha. For no reasons i started scolding ye for farting..hahaha, and i kept saying and saying she farted..ahaha. They said i really loooked like a drug addict. Events of that night, i really couldn't remember. haha. But it took a few long hours before i got sober again. Actually everyone was sleeping already, except us.

We stayed through, till the morning, till sunrise. Then the clean up. I assured pf i'll never go crazy again, as long as the grass is green. But it was really inevitable, i really slowly started going crazy, maybe cause i didn't sleep, and i started making fun of people's surname and stuff. Thene everyone helped to clean up and then pf shared a cab with us and vivina and we got home then.

At home, tearing open people's presents and reading through the Christmas cards, was great. haha. The cards were all really encouraging and funny, more words finnally, because in the past i was just a quiet little boy no one really knew, and i've opened much so much more. some of the cards even extended to the next page. Haha, all the people that care.

And i slept for the whole day, though i told my mum to wake me up because i wanted to have lunch with the other people, but she didn't wake me up, i understood. Haha, then at night i went to my relative's house to celebrate Christmas. And this is the first year i haven't touched their computer to play any games, i'm so proud of myself. I guess i'm finally over the computer and the television. I don't even dare to play any games on my computer now, it all leads to = wastage of time. Time, is an essence. haha.

Other than that wasn't much. I'll be back more often to blog when the school reopens soon.

Footprints

The long awaited sunday. Well i almost couldn't wake up early in the morning due to extreme tiredness and even light night watching of japanese dramas yesterday. And we merrily headed to church =).

Well it was quite okay, i'm a lot more carefree nowadays since i'm free from the clutches of tuition, and wei hong, my dear friend.. haha. The only guy that breaks out from his own crowd, from the crowd that surrounds him all the time to chat, to come to chat with me, what a nice guy with sparkling charisma i suspect many girls stalk him home everyday. Okay that's nonsense, but anyway he had to leave for awhile with the guys to somewhere so he chucked me his psp when i didn't say a word and left. haha. What a thoughtful and sweet nice guy with sparkling personality and charm! Haha..

Anyway, yep, did some playing, and of course, it doesn't belong to me, so i lent it to everyone, though he told me not to, but i have no right over it and i have no heart to see the guys peeking over at my screen and drooling all over it.

Lunch was great and finally singspiration, the long awaited singspiration came and i could finally sing all my troubles and frustrations all out. Ya, haha, though today wasn't the highest of worship moods, funny it is for me, i never get the high mood i look for. At times everyone's just clapping along, the merriness, the cheerfulness, the smiles, the laughter, the love, and God, just makes even you tear.

Game time! Haha, it was mostly boring, but lots of laughter through such simple games, and the people around love to make me perform, i had to sing thrice, once the national anthem, once twinkle twinkle, and once the cyyam's favourite welcome song.. Haha. Though my voice was very shaky and i was on the verge of bursting out in laughter, i sang great!!! hahaha..

Ya after that was the packing for log stuff for yesterday night, and everyone got together to clean the church because the caretaker's wife's dad passed away, so they weren't here, and we washed all the toilets and mopped all the floors so they needn't have to worry. And me.. haha. Since it was raining, after most of the work was done, i just stood out in the rain with the white umbrella in hand. Haha, between the container and the church, awaiting people to go to the container to store stuff so i can ferry them across. haha. And before long when all the work was done, i was still standing there, and pei en came over asking me why i was standing in the rain, haha, everyone thought i was posing and started taking photos.. hmm my preparation.. on my way, on the correct path to being a model.. hahaha.

Yep, so we left soon after since ziling would be flying off to bali, and we all headed to the airport to send her off.

I spend this really really really rare fruitful talking time with the guy with the most sparkling personality.. guess who? Wei hong!! haha.. Well when we reached the airport, we saw ziling's sister, and ohhhh my gooodness, they looked alike and haha.. And ziling came forward and asked us how old we think she is. She told us she's in university year 1.. we almost fainted because they loooked all alike. she asked me how old i thought she was, i told her she looks like my girlfriend. By that, i mean she looks like my ordinary girlfriends from school. But okay, my bad for sending the wrong signals, i didn't even have a chance to make my amendments and they erupted.. haha. Ziling started screaming to pei fen.. ahha, and wei hong also, telling the whole world that ziling's sis loooks like my girlfriend!! NONONO!! hahaha, but then.. haha, who would believe me?!! haha, but of course, i'm only joking, i hope her sister doesn't get the wrong idea that i'm hinting her to be my girlfriend. haha.

Well the time there was great! haha, firstly wei hong treated me to a vanilla i dunno what which cost him 5.20. A sweet guy, big heart, sparkling personality, big wallet. I will repay him someday. And there, we started talking about bgr again. Why? haha. And i realised he really treeats me like his good friend, which i'm pretty surprised about, since we've an age gap of 4, and i'm a little antisocial at times, and he has the friends of his generation to talk to, but he treats me as one of his closer friends, and i'm happy.

And its wierd talking to him about girls since it makes more sense for him to talk about it at his age but for me, it doesn't since i'm only sec 3. And he openly shared me his secret about his deep crush that lasted 5 years, and he told me to guess it out so openly! No wonder. In his friendster, he has maintained the same profile since the very day i added him. The same mushy words that proclaims his deep love. And the other day i checked it surprised me that he has changed it! Then i figured it must have been something that has impacted him greatly to change his 5 year unchanged profile run.

And so the two of stood in a corner, while everyone was merrily chatting inside burger king.. And wei hong shared with me how he got over his deeep liking just 2 days ago. And he shared with me many many things. And i told him many things about the girls i like too. And he told me not to think so much about the people that treat me really nice, he said its because i look like a kid, a small kid and people always treat me like a small kid. Then i felt really sad, i wish i look less kiddy. The probably explains why some people call my childish, though yes i am childish, mix it with my kiddy face, and childishness.. That explains why i try to look fierce sometimes, cocking up my eyebrows, not because i'm trying to act cool, but because i'm trying to do away with the kiddy face! But the actual reason why wei hong says i look kiddy, he couldn't tell me, he just said there's something about me that looks kiddy.

Our sharing was so in depth, so secret, that when cheng huan came asking to join our conversation, wei hong asked him to excuse himself, because we were really talking heart to heart as in, close friends. And he kept saying cheng huan's too small.. Which was really stupid since he's one year my senior..haha. Ya, so i was surprised too wei hong shooed him away. Girls are a nono now, its not the feeling that we have for the opposite sex now we get, that's inevitable, its going out and thinking about dating.. But ya, it was quite awkward for me to share with wei hong since he's my senior and i feel stupid telling him about girls since i'm young. He told me to wait for j1, but that's not exactly what i'm thinking, i think the best time is in uni! haha.

Ya, there's the class bbq, which honestly i had no intention to go for, because i'm really really tired. But shi xiong called to tell me he'd only go if i went, and that he'd be waiting for me at tpc and he wouldn't leave till i showed up. Goodness, where on earth did i meet such a good friend? I had to go, i had to.

So anyway, ziling's family finally left, hope she'll have loads of fun and buy me gifts since i bought her gifts! haha..

So headed all the way to toa payoh, met shi xiong, and headed to miss huang's house. Oh i'm sorry guys, i seemed cold, i seemed like i had a black face, but i'm just tired. And to all the people saying i look like a pastor when i held my Bible, thanks for the compliment and i will consider one day.. haha..

Before i end off. people have been shocked to see me reading a chinese book. Its just footprints, the story about a poem that inspired millions la, and its good for my chinese. So why not share it here?



I had a Dream (Footprints)

One night i dreamed a dream,
I was walking along the beach with my Lord.
Across the dark sky flashed scenes from my life.
For each scene, I noticed two sets
of footprints in the sand,
one belonging to me
and one to my Lord.
When the last scene of my life shot before me
I looked back at the footprints in the sand.
There was only one set of footprints.
I realized that this was the lowest
and saddest times of my life.
This always bothered me
And i questioned the Lord
about my dilemma.
''Lord, you told me when i decided to follow You,
You would walk and talk with me all the way.
But i'm aware that during the most troublesome times of my life there is only one set of footprints.
I just don't understand why, when i needed You most,
You leave me."
He whispered, ''My precious child,
I love you and will never leave you
never, ever, during your trials and testings.
When you saw only one set of footprints
It was then when I carried you.''