In Need

Friday finally. Everybody's been studying. I, haven't. Monday was eng oral, oh ok, tues, got back the oral results and i got 30, okay, that's okay, but i realised that wasn't okay when i learned sammie got 36... what?? What creature, what monster actually gets a 36 for oral? She's crazy, dunno what she said to her teacher, i guess its either the boys, or its miss james because the highest scored she gave was 31... I don't believe the guys are so far far behind compared to the girls? Lol, okay, i kinda forgot what happened that day, i think i went to safra with just teck siang and it is here where i developed much more liking for snooker, well of course, i found it was much easier to play, i scored my highest that day, 71. Then while going home i was smsing teck telling him how concerned i was over my chinese test result cause that'd determine my chinese standard since so many people failed and only a handful passed, lol, he told me he'd frankly think i'd fail, i didn't blame him, my chi really sucked, but well maybe its cause i always ask him stuff while doing chi compo, which is my weakest link, but i was determined that i'd pass.

On wed, during chi, i got back my paper and i got a 32! Wahaha, i passed! lol, i dunno if it was unfair cause i took it late but c'mon, how could i use the extra time i had to prepare for it? But anyway, i passed. haha. Well i don't remember what i did too that day.

Thurs was chinese oral, oh man, lol, in the room, i began to feel a little jumpy cause chinese is totally unlike oral, i have problems expressing myself in chinese, haiya, what to do, i just went up ahead, and speaking to he lao shi, haiya, the passage was okay but the conversation was sooo, dunno what to say, lol, i just didn't know what and how to say stuff, and i ended up like staring at her blackheads, hahaha, i might even fail, but what to do?

So friday finally came, chinese paper! Well maybe i screwed up paper 1, as i always do, but i have a little confidence in my compo, well i injected several chinese idioms, lol, the best i could do. Then it was the paper 2, finally something i'm good at! Lol, but it was pretty hard, for the cloze passage, i was pretty much guessing the answers, then the rest was pretty easy, the comprehension was just really tiring, and really, staring at words and writing and starting gives me double vision, once again i couldn't see straight after the exam, but me and teck didn't talk much and headed straight for safra.

Today was kinda really really off, i played with kenneth snooker, my goodness, such contrast when i play with teck. Totally off, the mood, the feel, the form. i felt stupid, for the past few days i've been telling them on my interest in buying a snooker cue because i had been playing pretty good snooker lately, but here i was playing like a noob in front of kenneth, dunnno if he was laughing at me deep down, ''you call this good?'' Oh man i felt so stupid playing so lousily, maybe its cause its kenneth, i never play well when kenneth and wei zhou are there, they give me really really lots of pressure. Then i played pool with teck, haiya, so much more relaxed, lol, i just playing a fool with teck.

I made my way to church after that, but i was certain i wouldn't enjoy it. Did i ever mention there are two modes i frequently switch to, the school mode and the church mode, and recently i've been looking forward to school so much, owing to water and stuff like that, and of course, my friends. But when i got there a different group of friends took hold of me once more, and i really enjoyed myself, haha. Then xl saw my class photo in my bag! And everybody started pleading my to let them see it, but i refused lol, i loook really stupid! Lol, everyone! When you receive the yearbook, tear out my face! lol, haha, i soo don't look like myself, haiya, i loook stupid every year, but i promise i won't next year! lol

And so i met with pei fen and we went through a lot of stuff, and i asked about the other churches and i understand why so many of my friends, classmates go to them, but are never really on about it, in fact, most of the Christians in school are like these. Its the new age churches, the ones that really attract teens. The ones that are held in big auditoriums, the ones with loud blarring music, and really hyper people jumping around, this gets the teens in the mood. Teens like this, don't they? And its in english, pf told me about our dying chinese batch, and i'm proud to be part of it. About those that require its members to speak in tongue, which is not realyl correct, about many others that aren't really right. I noticed a trend in all these churches, from my friends, they backslide really easily. Firstly, these people feel really passionate, really really high on sundays, where they sing really loudly, happily and enjoy themselves, they daresay loudly, they proclaim their love, but from monday to saturday, this feelings go down and they revert to their old lifestyle. Think! Does that happen to you? especially in those hyper churches. The activity might actually excite and interest you but i guess its not spritually enriching, because it only lasts for a day! That's why i've been learning about several friends backsliding, and another reason is also because this thing attracts teens, and because it does, teens are usually the ones who leads other teens, but i feel, sometimes, doing stuff like this, a certain level of maturity needs to be reached, the age difference should be much wider. Further than the warmth care and love i feel, which could make me grow. That was why i never enjoyed it in shi xiong's church, firstly cause i wasn't used to it, secondly because i felt shi xiong was just enjoying the hyperactivity and stuff, thirdly because speaking in tongue really freaked me out.

I mean, no one ever told me speaking in tongue was wrong, but i just had the hunch, the gut feeling that, hey, this dude's freaking me out! I don't think it's because i am new, i felt ultra uncomfortable about it, and i was right when i asked pf. We have to be careful about the true meanings, many things pop out these days that divide Christianity, different sorts of churches, but do they really help? From my point of view they do, on sundays only, take a good look around!




In times of confusion, falsities arise to trick the hearts of Man.

Rabbit

Monday. Ahahahha, i finally failed maths=D haha, lol i'm crazy, forgot cos rule then didn't get my answers to 3 sig fig and all those little stuff, marginal failure=( Lol, anyway, we played badminton for pe today, lol, wanted to challenge jia jun since he's like the, ''badminton'' pro. lol, i played with him and realised he's quite pro luh..haha, not bad.. Didn't lose much, haha, but he's not bad luh, then i decided to play with robelle..hmmm, not bad.. hahaha, lol. Anyway, speaking about sports, haha, foosball (table soccer) is a great sport! lol, honestly it requires a lot of skill, i think i'm gonna do a post on master foosball,ahha.

Lol next was chinese, and Mr lim was gonna give back the chinese tests, lol, then i told him i haven't done it, remember? hahah, then he was like, Wah lauuuu, haha, then the whole class was blaming me haha, but then i told him 1 week before laa, then he also never settle, haha, in the end he read off everybody's marks. I think like more than half the class failed, even teck told me it was very very difficult, he himself got 30/60, highest was only jiia yan who got 39, wahaha, i think i'm gonna die too. Lol, then physics test, then i told mr chan i haven't done too, but luckily he just gave out and told me he'd take my previous test. But then i see teck's paper lol, so easy, then i told mr chan i wanted to do it, but everyone said i was crazy since i already had A for the last test, but nvm i guess, its good practice..haha..

Then was history, haiya, when it was gonna be history, teck would say, ''shiok ah! time to sleep! " Lol, so good, his class terrance doing nothing all day, i see them loitering all about everytime, lol. Then ours, mrs haridass, lol, terror, although it might actually be much better for us but lol, it really saps energy, saps a lot a lot.. Lol, today i looked out and saw the terrance tan class all walking towards dunno where, lol, while we were yanking our hair out over a pop quiz kinda thing, without warning, no open book no nothing. Lol, that useless weng fung was busy copying my work, lol at first he wrote hitler led a revolution, lol, what nonsense, revolt la, then he copied me, then the whole class wrote revolution wrong =DD, hahaha. Lol anyway, i really do sleep in her class i mean, c'mon, what's the point of listening? And i really don't get why she insists on us doing mindmaps alllllll the time, i hate it, it doesn't work for me okayy, but she really forces us to do it, haiya, so useless.

Ah, then was eng and ms wong let us off to eat for oral. Haiya, oral, i thought it was tuesday, lol. Ah then chatted with Wei Zhou and he asked me some exodus stuff and then inevitably, topic shifted to pool, then he said after shark and hustler wanted to call me predator, what nonsense, sounds so... yeee, lol, i told him to call me a rabbit. Wahaha, next was oral already, then mr lim looked for me and told me to find him right after oral since i was first. Haiya, oral, lol, in the room, everyone was a little jumpy, then ms james said i was first, then okay lor, haha, then it started immediately and i got to read the thing, lol, one look and i signalled the guys behind it was easy, haha, okay la, the image was just some void deck and some undergarments on the floor, one shocked lady and some passerbys, at first i didn't take a second look and looked at the passage, then i flipped back and realised the picture actually very hard leh. Lol, how come the woman so shocked huh? I'm sure the garments couldn't hurt her? Then i was thinking she might be kinda embarrassed since it was undergarments, lol, i worried quite a little, but i figured i'd just say everything later, then i saw the passage and realised the first sentence was dialogue and also a screaming dialogue, haha, then i was thinking how to make it seem screamed but yet not raise my voice by using different tones.

Uh so that was it, and ms james called me, flop number 1: i greeted her as miss jamie, haha, lol, i think she didn't hear it, its all the same, even if she did, i'm sure she wouldn't minus my marks?? haha, so yeah, just read and did the pic and she asked me what ourdoor street events i've seen, so i said the national day the army vehicles parade, lol, stupid one but i couldn't think of anything else, nothing much to say about it either, then she asked me about an argument i had, since i didn't usually get into arguments except occasional debates, i could only think of the one i had with mr foo, haha, i even asked her if i had to name names, haha, lol, but anyway, i gave my best storytelling face voice and tone and just told it to her like she was my best friend, lol, i tried to speak to much that she needn't even prompt me or anything, just occasional stuff and you know what?! She seemed to enjoy it! hahaha.

Haiya so busy, after that i rushed to meet mr Lim to do my chi test, wahaha, i think i did it with some sec 4 people, they seemed to be having exams, lol, so scary. Anyway, teck was telling me not to take my own sweet time cause i might not have time later, but i dunno why but i took my own sweet time in front, and realised i had quite some difficulty behind, but actually it was quite doable, but i rushed the back a bit so i might fail, since so many people fail and the good ones only got borderline passes, but i still remain confident. Lol, i had the last 5 mark question to do and i had 2 mins left! haha, so the woman stood in front of me and watch me scribble and squeeze everything in, lol, i hate to rush, its at times like this when my hand goes numb and drops off, but it didn't really, it just was so numb that my hand started bending, lol, so i was rushing and realised that my words started to bend horrible, haha, who cares?

So anyway i saw teck in the canteen and he told me mr yeo didn't allow him to open the table, lol, he seemed pissed, then he suggested going to safra, haiya, haha, then i said okay lor, since it was rare for him to have a day whereby he could go home late, i decided to accompany him, haha. Went to safra and found myself to be quite on form, haha, teck, to date, hasn't been able to once again luxuriate in the feel of a real true champion, i've seen it before, but it hasn't returned, it has escaped. Haha, so anyway, played quite well, haha, our bill for that table was 12 i think. Then i said play snooker then since teck's the snooker pro i said, let a bit luh! haha, then he said pool you thrash me snooker my turn, something like that, but anyway, i think the first game he beat me, or was it i beat him, can't remember, haha. Lol 2nd game suddenly so on form, and he was off, haiya, i think i got 63 points, i think that's my highest, lol, so low.. =(

Exams are commminnnggg.... =D

Why do birds sing so gay?

Thursday, a good day, but its not a really good day because on normal thursdays, i have to head home early for my piano lessons, but not this thursday!! Well yeah, today i'm supposed to have my piano exams so its a different thursday compared to a normal thursday, lol. Ok, so i got to school and everyone was busy studying physics during the reading period, and i was busy studying bach in his baroque period and mozart in the classical period, a load of nonsense, its stupid to have to guess the composer of whatever piece i listen to, but i still tried my best to remember them anyway. Usually, by now, my stomach would be hurting real real bad, real real bad, remembering my past year, one week before the exams i could feel the heat of the burning furnace, and the thousands of cute butterflies fluttering about happily at the expense of my uneasiness, how mean these butterflies are! Well, i've said it before, and i'll say again, i'm trying to find calmness amidst anxiety, trying to learn to forget fear, i hate that feeling okay, everyone does, and whenever the feeling goes away, you'll feel how stupid you were, worrying so much and it's all over in a flash.

But today in math lesson, i couldn't help but feel a little anxious, its because in doing math, everyone was concentrating and focussing and just had these things in their minds:

1. Figure out this easy cyclic quad question
2. Figure out other easy cyclic quad questions
3. Figure out all the cyclic quad questions and make ms tuan happy and get thru this lesson
4. Get all done and get some food during recess.

How i wished it was that simple, i tried to make it that simple but the purple grade 5 piano exam pieces book kept catching my attention, and i wandered off thinking about whether i had prepared, then inevitably a few butterflies slipped in, as soon as i felt these butterflies, i immediately shifted my focus, to God, and to songs, and started singing to myself while others were busy solving questions, and of course, a few more extra trips to the toilet, but surprisingly, i was still quite calm.

Then it was recess, didn't eat, so i just stood around looking at others trying to study for physics, i was left alone with nothing to do, except also talk about physics. Then next was physics, lol, then 1130, but i was still wondering why an announcement hadn't been made, i thought my father was still sound asleep at home, but at like 1140 they sent a messenger to escort me to the office. After that my father brought me to eat, then i decided not to get too full in case i vomit in front of the examiner, but we still had much time, so i went home and took an unnecessary bath, and just took 5 mins to practice 1 song, my weakest, the last song.

ok, enough, i'm beginning to sound like phoebe, writing about EVERY SECOND of her life, but this has been an exciting day. Yeah, so i totally kept my mind off the exam, and chatted with my dad on the car, last year, at this time, i was busy praying, and i was soooo anxious, but i was okay, i kept telling my dad not to worry, and he kept saying, so long as you tried your best, don't worry, then i kept asking him why he's saying all these cause i haven't said anything about the piano exam except promising him a distinction, lol.

So uh, it wasn't long before we reached paragon, i was still really relaxed, then headed up, then headed to the piano place. Ah hah, this is the ultra tricky part, in there, surrounded by pianos, examination rooms, a small table and several people there. The staff told us that they had gone out for lunch and would be back soon. Okay, so they're trying to kill me eh? lol, waiting will kill a person, slowly, devouring his patience and his calmness, but i threw that aside, and found yet another factor devouring me, the cold. Lol, in there it was so cold i was totally freezing, but still, miraculously, i found my composure and found myself smiling for some reasons. Well for several moment, i realised: oh no! there's still this and that, and how on earth am i gonna survive the scales when i didn't practice them as much? And appregios? And contrary motion and whatsoever? Then i panicked a little, flipped the book a little, then i realised it wasn't much, and laid back on the chair again.














I'm gonna die, but after i die, my dad promised he'd take me out to play.














So they returned, and the waiting lady asked for my id, i gave and saw that i'll be first, well that's great! I smiled at that, what a confidence booster! I paced around, cause i was bored, okay, my dad asked me why i was getting jumpy, lol, i said since when was i getting jumpy? I was just bored. By now, people should realise, you should start building that confidence wall before the enemy strikes, no use preparing the guns but forsaking the wall, well, i made my wall well, although some of the clay were diluted, lol, and my guns were kinda water guns, okay, i wasn't prepared, i didn't intend to over prepare, i felt prepared though. Its too later, the enemy's at your doorstep. =)


Ah hah, time to disintegrate the enemy, lol, i was holding my handphone and the waiter saw it and told me i couldn't bring it in, so i was like, uhhhhhh, then i handed it to my dad, then walked towards the waiting examiner, but i stopped and ran back again, lol, then i snatched my phone back and switched it off, then i gave my dad the sad eyes and pleaded, "please la, please please, don't on and look around, please please!!!" lol, i was really afraid he'd check here and there and find some stuff, like me saying i love you to robelle (as a sister) lol, i guess he understood, but i still felt uneasy as i walked away... and so i put on my best smile and walked in, haha, greeting the examiner cheerfully, ok, so comes the downhill part. Yeah, so i still felt nothing much, i chose to start on my scales, and lol, i forgot all of em, lol, its not the practice, its the heat of the moment, in that sound proof room, waiting just a second longer makes it feel so ultra awkward, so even if you didn't know how to play, just play rubbish!!! I did, lol, i played wrong notes from the beggining till the end and i felt pretty embarrassed, haha, i just sighed heavily to let the examiner know i'm really afraid, when i'm not really. Well i guess i got some right.

Then the pieces, i figured, since this chap, some well known pianist form britain has seen my ugly side, its time to show him some skill, lol, so i tried to play really well, with as much likeliness as possible to the cd they provided, and i'm pretty glad it went smoothly, only the third song. And i realised the book holder thing was so low, i hit my hand against it several times while playing, lol. The third song is a really fast song, lasting for barely under a min, i played it so fast, i relied on my fingers and memory, until i jumbled up some keys, and i looked up at my score, lol, i realised i didn't even know where was i, so that was a little difficult, loooking around for my last note, and remember, every silent second invites one extra giant butterfly into your tummy, well i did finish the song eventually.

Next was sight reading, i'm glad to say i did pretty well, maybe because i'm usually lazy to practice my exam stuff at home and i always wander to play other nice new songs, and i did it pretty smoothly. Lol, now comes the really embarassing part, the singing. lol, remembering last year, the examiner gave me so high a note i couldn't even reach it and sang off tune, and being the boy and having to lalala your way thru is quite embarassing, lol. Well, i did it easily and realised i had VIBRATO!!! Lol, afterward i joked with my father ( lucky vibratoer) that i did a vibrato, but only because i was so afraid my voice vibrated..lol.... once again, i'd like to clarify that fact that i wasn't afraid, just tense. Cause you're supposed to sing alone, without the help of the piano, just the first note give, so in that sound proof room, so quiet, not even the sound of air and wind could be heard, just plain silence, and your voice, and the examiner's keen ears, wouldn't you be tense? I was, and i vibrated..lol



So that was about it, the last awkward part being the clapping of the rhythm, sounded so stupid, and yeah, paused several times to give the examiner a huh? and a puzzled look when he asked me a question and errrr, several more times, before being unable to withstand the anti sound room pressure and giving a guessed answer. Then after that, i was released, woohoo!!



lol, when i came out, i was even boreder, lol, i was kinda unimpressed cause its all over!!! That was all anxiety did to me, that was all the harm those butterflies did! I guess it because when you panic, you're scared, when you come out, you're really happy. But here, today, i wasn't panic, i was relaxed, i came out and nothing changed, lol, so i didn't feel specially happy, and i fely very sad cause i expected to feel specially happy but i didn't, haha, the side effects of calmness...I guess it went quite well, i'm sure i can pass, distinction's out of the question! lol, but merit is still possible!! =D



Well after that my dad brought me around to play!!! lol, we went to bras brasah forgot its actual spelling to get some stationery, then i decided to remake my popular card since we were so free, then i hinted to my dad to check out the ping pong tables, and he did, lol, 480 for a table, 9feet. And my dad's really interested, woohoo! haha, my dad's so nice to teach me everything he's so good at, and i beat him when i learn them, and he wouldn't be number one anymore, but he doesn't mind. Like foosball, or table soccer, my dad's really one great table soccer player, i've seen him thrash EVERYONE, 3 on 1s, everyone!! Lol, i always admired him, and that time at the warehouse where we bought the table, the boss came out and played with him, and lost! lol, and the boss claimed he himself was the best in the company, haha. And as i played with my dad every night, i started really lousy, but i learnt his ways and i can beat him now! Remarkable what practice can do yeah?? lol, my dad still finds it hard to believe he's been dethroned.

But i guess he'll never be dethroned from table tennis, now, that's his passion, could've been a national player but he chose studying lol, and i've seen him disintegrate other ping pong players too! lol, i'm gonna learn his way and beat him, i guess.


Then he brought me to his club and we swam and then we played pool, haha, he was in such a generous mood today, i totally forgot i just did my piano exams after that, haiya, i had so much fun while the guys in sch had to suffer two tests, lol. I feel so guilty.

When i got home i headed to the piano room to play and for the first time i could play a piece alone, without my exam pieces. I don't ever want to see that grade 5 book again, i wanna see a grade 6 one, oh please! =)




It's over, more will come.

But in dreams, i can hear your name

Tamen en songoy, mi povi audi via nomo, kaj en songoy, ni volo rekonti ankoraufoje..


Today's wednesday, i hate wednesdays, wednesdays are really really long. Today when i reached school everyone started saying there'd be a spotcheck on the sec 3s for handphones, so i just put my phone in my locker, lol i realised latif already put his in, then yeah, the normal assembly, then to no one's surprise, they announced that they'd be doing a spotcheck on the sec 3s, and they said they'd be only checking for one item, lol, we were smiling, cause they won't be successful, haha, how exciting...... only to find out they were just checking for right colour ear studs for girls........... lol, was expecting better.. Anyway, today ms tuan took over dunno how many people's periods and we had 5 excruciating periods of math, haha, i was laughing to myself at the start of the lesson already, cause i knew we're gonna die of math, lol, i realise, i laugh when i'm gonna die, lol. So yeah, it was a really really really really long day, and we miraculously got thru ms jamie's last two periods. Oh my, lol, then me, amanda, huda and ray headed out, to watch our film screening. Lol, everyone was really bored, the whether was hot, and we were kinda wishing we could go home, everyone one wanted to study for the exams. Yeah, so after several short incidents and happenings, we made our way to j8 cause huda wanted to get a new pencil case, and i really really really hate to go to j8 cause its the best place to meet old friends and i hate to meet old friends.. lol

And ray was also beside me, telling me how he didn't wanna go and how he'd also meet his old friends. And true enough, after huda bought her pencil case, we were walking when ray suddenly cursed out loud, hahaha, then we walked a little then ray went to meet his friend, lol, they seemed like old lovers, haha, dunno how to explain, ray went forward to meet him but he seemed relunctant, then they shook hands then his friend forced a hug, lol, poor ray, lol, looked bullied, haha, we were laughing at a corner. And yeah, while walking, i did see some one i know, but i couldn't be bothered.

So we continued this way until we got to the substation at armenian st, we waited a while until people started arriving, caucasians, hunky malays with nice western accents, and many more, and we were in the middle of that congested hallway. Then a caucasian woman came up to ask us if we were the students in the movie, and we said yes, then she asked us if we had seen the movie or knew anything about it, then we said no, then she said we're in for a surprise, lol, then the hunky malay guy came to talk to us, telling us he was supposed to be there for the shooting too, i think, i couldn't hear clearly, lol, we felt like stars, haha. Then our man came, lol, Mr aaron wilson, the director, and that old lady, the main actress waved cheerfully at us, haha. Yeah, so we got in the small cinema and sat ourselves. Then Mr Wilson started introducing himself and stuff, and he thanked the main actress, lol, then his eyes hovered over us, then i knew he was gonna call us, oh no! haha, then he did, then we stood up and people clapped for us, we were only extras!!! haha, so anyway, the short movie started.

It was just a simple film on the residency thing, comparing the australian life and the singaporean life, about two people, who went thru the world war and stuff and how their lives differ, lol, we were shown for like, a fraction of a second, and i have to add.. : i look stupid. So yeah, if you think about it, its kinda embarrassing to just be included for a fraction of a second and still be made to look like the heroes, the stars, the vips.. the applause, the credits, all for that fraction, haha. So yeah, watched another short film and we got out again, and Mr Wilson started talking to us a little, took a group photo, and i have to add too, he's a really nice guy, haha, he was so friendly to us during shooting, and so patient and nice when i smsed him and so polite and nice when we bade goodbye, we will meet again.

So after that we made our way home, and i locked myself in the piano room to practice my piano, lol, i'm gonna get a distinction! But if i fail, you'll never hear about me again...


The exams are coming, woohooo! enjoy!






this is actually the TPA video, much better quality..=)

Be poised in times of fear

TPA~ League of Champions

hehe, the new TPA vid is out, haha, i protest again, i look like some small kid with that kiddy childish face, lol, everyone looks so cool, its okay....haiya, haha, some people never grow up ='(... Yeah, and the first face of mine, i didn't know wei zhou switched on the cam, lol, so i look stupid loooking around, haha, anyway, its stupid...haha... oo, my piano exams on thurs, gonna die!!! ahhaha =D



oh yeah btw, the ohms thingy you see beside the name is the ranking, one ohm for beginner, 2 for advanced, 3 for shark or champion, lol, master is infinity ='(

Anxiousness

Lol, i relised sammie had her piano exams today, her grade eight piano exam, then everyone croweded around her during recess, haiya, looking at her, being so anxious, what could i do except give the same advice the others were busy giving? But i decided not to. Ah hah, will people be crowding around me like they did to her next thurs when i sit for miine? hahhaa, i bet they won't even know, cause i'm not showing any signs of anxiety, which, i should show.. Yeah, yesterday my piano teacher told me off, saying i should take it more seriously, then my mum returned home and came in and started telling me to play seriously too, but by then i really went crazy and started laughing for no reason, cause i found it funny, i guess, i'm having my exams next week, haha, isn't it funny? Then my teacher even said, when you're taking exams cannot laugh in front of the examiner.... lol, what nonsense, of course i know, then my mum looked and my and started smiling too, then she said i was crazy, its about time she realised its driving me crazy.

After me teacher left my mum still told me sternly i should play seriously, then i told her, i'm tired of getting anxious out of every big stuff, so i should just take it easy, and i keep telling her i want to learn, not to play just to pass the exams, haiya, she wouldn't listen.

But anyway, the first week of the new term has gone by so fast, i felt very good today, dunno why, especially after Miss Jamie's class, then it was windy and nice and i looked and teck and said, you know what day it is? Haha, its just, friday's a good day, a really really good day.. Yep, everything zoomed by pretty quickly and before long we were released. And it was raining quite heavily. And since i had to get to church to rehearse my skit, we rushed to safra cause wei zhou wanted to redo the TPA video, everyone was not satisfied, including me, haha, when i was videotaken making shots, i couldn't even see my face. So yeah, today, got there and i started playing with teck and i'm pleased to say his standard has fallen drastically, haha, but he's still the champion, and i'm lucky to still be able to win him easily cause i predict he'll shoot up again, and by then, few can stop him. Yeah and i saw that fat relief teacher there, then i was uncomfortable when he stood there watching me and teck play, cause i was itching to play with him again and i was afraid he'd see me making a lousy shot, luckily the only words i heard form him to me were ''good shot!'' haha. Yeah, i wanted to settle a personal feud, ahha.

Haiya, but kenneth challenged him first. He walked past us while i did a break, then he said, ''wah, so fierce ah?'' lol, i snorted, then when i look over at his break, i couldn't bear it, cause i wanted to challenge him, i dunno, he's a grown man, i guess challenging and beating grown men for young boys my age brings about much satisfaction, and i saw he had many many flaws, yeah, the only TPA members who played with him were the elite, and out of the elite, only kenneth lost, but kenneth has improved much over the days. Nevertheless, everytime i see this huge menacing figure bounding over, i get jumpy, cause he's the best relief teacher in the school, i want to challenge him again and again until he cringes at the sight of me. haha. Anyway, unfortunately, he left early, and i continued with teck.

I had great rounds of pool today, teck cleared me, i cleared him, i could see the huge improvement compared to, uhhh, last year, haha, one quick game can last for 2 mins, haha, and then we saw wang yi ren and his girlfriends, lol, we see him EVERYDAY, yesterday we saw him and his girlfriends too, and we informed them there weren't any table available, i saw them last week with a HUGE crowd. And they looked over at our table, haha, we finished our games so fast, teck went to rack the balls like 5 times in around 10 mins, really! Lol, then i was really bored, and i really had to go, so i approached him and asked him for a game, with teck, then he spoke, with his heavy chinese accent, saying, ''i don't know how to play!" , lol, i whispered to teck, liar! Then we were like, what to do? Then i asked him again, then he kept saying, ''I really don't know how to play!!" Lol, so we just walked back, then teck kept cursing, haha, everyone knows he was lying, c'mon.. Daniel said he was afraid to play with us, cause he knows we play for the school and he's seen us play. True, lol, they saw us play snooker last week. Haiya, anyway, we didn't bother them anymore, they even opened a snooker table, lol, if he didn't know how to play what on earth was he doing that, what a blatant lie.

So i left immediately and sat a bus to church. Uh yeah, i have to act for a skit again, ahh, i hate to rehearse, cause its really embarassing when you act in front of your friends, i don't do it properly, but of course, when its time to act in front of the audience, you'd do it properly. Yeah, basically, everyone was having a good laugh, i was supposed to do nothing accept act cool and say several lines, haha, that's very difficult okay!

Relax, the exams are still far far away..






Ray- AKVO


Contact is but an illusion
for the fraction of a moment
of the stranger's bridge
was merely in cyberspace

Then there a chance,
Where savior was unsure
though victory was mine
when fate was where it was

Experience is only worth
what it last
only ended by a move
a fool would make

But the uncertain lost
is far from hope gone
when chance repeat
and comprehension complete.

My First Step

Well today's Tuesday, and yeah, oo, morning we had the spot check, so in the morning, at home, i started doing my hair, but lately i feel i do not put enough wax, haha, it looks so... unmade, then i realised oh ya! today got spotcheck, although my hair wasn't really long, i didn't wanna risk it cause going to detention can really spoil my beautiful Tuesday. So anyway, i already put wax, so i went to wash my hair again, haha, then i realised since i wasn't using the sweet smelling wax, must well use the nicely scented shampoo, so i took of my uniform and washed my hair once more, uhhh, then when they conducted the spotcheck, i lol, they didn't even look at me, haha, my hair was pretty safe, its still short okay..

Then that unreasonable Mr Singh called kenneth up, telling him the back of his hair was long, then kenneth said he just cut yesterday, and that it wasn't long, then mr singh started saying its not right, its not slope...!!!!!!!!!! Lol, then kenneth said the book never said must slope and if not slope then everyone in school go detention already, which i felt was right, then mr singh said don't talk back and demanded that kenenth went to the archive room. But after that, we met him again and he told us he went hiding in the toilet with tons of sec 4s, haha, i'd do that too actually. Yeah, about the slope, i'm really afraid one day the school really makes it a rule for students to cut slope, by then i'm dead, haha, i'd probably shave all my hair than go back to the sloping days, and i mean it.

Yeah so anyway, after school, i suddenly decided to cut my hair, and since darren told me he wanted to cut his hair, i decided to go with him. So anyway, while walking to central, i told darren marvellous stories again. And i'm still waiting for the perfect moment to start the book, i'm keen on starting one, cause the story i have has rocketed to the point it has become absurd, it has become a fairytale, and the fact that this story is a true story, it deserves to by written and published. Lol, and i still think i'm thinking too far, but i don't really think so, although i'd have to cooperate with ms huang and most probably ray, i want this story to be written, its too fairy tale. And i'm sure ms koh would be happy to know if i decide to write on one, haha, in pri sch she says i could be a writer, so i don't feel its too big a venture.

But anyway, we got to hair etc and the woman asked me if i wanted to keep my V-shaped hair, my back i mean.. then i was like..uhhh, can let me see how it looks like? Then she showed me, then i decided that i wanted it to by like the wispy and sharp one, the one last time, then she said can, but it might still turn out to be a little V-shaped and if i really wanted it, she might have to trim all the way up to cancel out the V shape, so i just said, haiya, ok la, cut V shape la. Haha, ya la, so we finished cutting, ok la, not very ugly..haha

yeah, the exams are edging nearer and nearer, and the piano exams even nearer, but its ok..haha, i can't wait for the short film screening next mon, i but i'll look stupid.

Play day

I got up at 7 am today, worrying about stuff. Lol, yesterday about the filming thing, ray told me aish backed out at the last min. Then he called me at 1130 i think, telling me how we're gonna die, then he told me to find one more female, then at first i was thinking about... who would be able to make it from ej? Then ray said, robelle also can la, then i told him everyone that was online at the moment, then amanda was unluckyly online, haha, then he told me to ask EVERYONE, so i did, but everyone was busy, except unlucky amanda, haiya, but then she's so innocent, just knew her then had to be pulled in, and yeah, after a little persuasion, she finally said ok, oh my, we were really saved, by Amanda the Great. Finally i could crawl back to bed and sleep without worries.

I got up early and realised my father was free, so he told me he'd fetch me, but then he was taking his own sweet time, bathing, then eating breakfast, finally i reached sch. Yeah, so amanda and ray were already there, then we went off to meet the late huda, and when we finally met her, we hopped on a cab to telok blangah. The journey there was so quiet, and a little boring, and when we stopped there, i suddenly realised there was a bee on my lap, lol, what one earth was a bee doing on my lap? Then i started screaming for huda to jump out, and luckily it was a lazy bee, it just flew away lifelessly, the cab fare was 940, and we walked around looking for the right place and we knew we found it when this really tall australian guy waved at us and invited us into the coffeeshop.

So we were quickly introduced ourselves and the australian guy was really really very friendly to us, and huda was going crazy cause she's in love with caucasian males, and we got introduced to the lead actress too, a lively cute old chinese lady, who could speak english and mandarin fluently. The australian director quickly briefed us on what we needed to do, that the old lady will be looking at us and we had to pretend to by lively and energetic and eating our food and stuff, and then leave the scene when he said so. So he bought us a lot of food, but i didn't even think of eating a single bit of them, just bothered about my teh-0, so he helped us mess up our plates and helped us get rid of most of the food, and made our table look messy.

So, okay, basically, had to ''pretend'' to have a good chat, full of energy and life, ok, take one, quite smooth, but we weren't energetic enough, and we left the scene like kinda hurrily. And so it took 4 takes i guess, the 3rd was fine, the 4th for just in case, and he talked to us a little, thanking us, telling us we could leave, but we could stay if we wanted to, so we decided to stay till they finished their filming, and we did, we really had fun, i dunno, laughed quite a lot, was quite interesting i guess.. Then when they finished, we left and we didn't know where to go, lol, then ray said go on the taxi then tell the uncle go anywhere for 10 bucks, ahha. So we really got on the taxi and the driver started driving, then he asked us where we wanted to go, lol, then we laughed, cause we almost said go anywhere, haiya, then decided to head back to central. Lol, then amanda was like following around wherever we went, then i felt like we were boring her so i asked her if she needed to go, then she immediately said yep, she'd go home, lol, i liberated her. So we weren't doing much la, just hanging out at the library, it was 11 i think, and the class meeting was at 2!!!

So we went to the red circle cause ray wanted to meet suyi, and on the way we met mr boo!!! lol, the others didn't see him, then i was like, waving to him like my friend, haha, natural instinct, i said hello mr boo, then i motioned for the others, telling them it was mr boo, but they didn't even hear me, until i told them i 7 eleven did they realise. But then mr boo walked into 7 eleven afterwards, and he asked us what we were doing, then we just told him we went filming. So after that huda got home, and we met suyi, ate lunch then waited and finally got to siang joo's house for the outing. I chatted a lot with shi xiong today, i even told him i missed his voice over the phone, then he went to eat lunch and asked me to follow him, so i really chatted a lot more, very in depth stuff, about his personal life, and about mine, giving me some suggestions and stuff like that, it was good, then we got back and they were busying themselves by playing with the water, and shi xiong strictly said no because he didn't bring extra pants. So i continued talking with him, then he got near the pool, then phoebe came from behind to push him in...ahahaa, lol, he was very angry, haha, the funny way, lol, then they started threatening me too, but i dared them to just to be sure they wouldn't because i was in uniform ma, surprisingly sabrina still threw a water bomb at me and wet my pants, so i screamed haha, no la, shouted in agony.

Yeah, it wasn't really much of a class outing, half the class weren't there, but i was glad i showed up, the whole day i was just busy chatting to either ray or shi xiong, then ate some hotdogs, some doritos, and it was like 730 so i dragged the guys to leave, yuan hong and ray they all, so we finally left. And i got home. Woo, what a day, i didn't touch my work at all, feel so guilty i played for the whole day.. But it had been fun..

Snoooook

I seem to find a lot of time to come online. But anyway, i had to head to school early in the morning for maths extra lessons, then i told teck to wait for me just to help me tie my tie, and yuan hong was there too, so we took our own sweet time to get to school, and when we did, i was sweating like crazy, i can't walk, i sweat a lot, haha, i realised that when i walk over the bridge sometimes when i have to get to school myself. So i pulled them to the pe toilet and we sat there for 15 mins just for me to cool down, and we were supposed to reach at like 9, it was around 9:40 i think, haha, so we got to class and just went through some questions, got back the a math test paper, haiya, too many careless mistakes... i'm still making them far too much..

So after that, me teck, yuan hong and kenneth headed for lunch, and yohanus tagged along. Yeah, then after lunch headed to safra for more training, lol, it seems so routine. So today i played really well on the first table, i feel, the pockets are bigger, i was told, but i managed my highest of 73 points, i've pretty much lost interest in pool, haha snooker is what seperates the men from the boys, haha, i dunno, but the guys are losing interest in snooker, so i always have to beg someone to play with me. Then after that i switched to pool for a little while with yuan hong, but only into our 2/3 match, i think, andy's girlfriend, i dunno how to spell her name, eline? lol, looks stupid walked up to me and asked me what time i would stop playing, then i asked yuan hong and decided that since we have our friends there so i told her i'd give her the table after my match, and so i did, but i decided to play snooker with yuan hong again, haha.

It was quite a good day, pretty much on form, and wei zhou came along too, came along to psycho me, and yeah, then andy's girlfriend and her friends started to increase, before long, it seemed like their whole class was there, yeah, super noisy, and you know how small the snookerium is. So i got home after that, and mr yeo called me telling me that royston tan is looking for several guys, for some australian director to feature in a film, so he asked me, then i said ok, so tomorrow me and ray and huda and aish will have to once again wake up early to go filming.... as extras, haha. But i guess it'll be fun, cause there's 2e3 class outing, haiya, the 2e3 spirit still thrives, its not dead, and i guess it'll not be for a long time, yeah, so i look forward to tomorrow.

Speaking about snooker, i still can't believe ronnie 'o sullivan did a 147 in 5mins!! I mean, getting a ball in his hard enough, to achieve a maximum break in 5mins is unbelieveable..



enjoy!

Renewed love for the Lord of the Rings

Its Lord of the Rings fever again, i can't get enough of it. Many people think i'm such a foolish guy, being crazy over lotr, i have to explain it yet again, as i've done before in previous posts, but i'm not tired of doing it. The guys are busy mugging for their exams, but its ok just to use the com for a while right? So honestly, like when i see movie fans, singer fans, movie star fans, i also think they are crazy, but your time will come, one day, you'll be specially attracted to a movie, or a singer, or a movie star, or an author. Just like in the past, i was amazed at those screaming fans who idolize singers, and spent money, and they'd die to go to their concerts, so naturally, i think they're crazy, maybe cause i don't like that particular singer, but when you do like a particular singer, you'd surely want to go to his concert. Like John Denver, but he's dead, like engelbert, but he ain't coming to s'pore, but at least Lobo is in singapore! But i never really heard his songs.

So its the same for me, although i watched the first movie before i read the book, which might not qualify me as a tolkien fan, but still, i love it till now. Till now, after showing the movie to people, forcing them to love, it after, watching the movies countless times, after indulging in their songs, trailers, games and spending hundreds on their movie memorabilia, i'm still not bored of it, and true fans aren't bored of it too. Maybe perhaps the game keeps my lotr fever still on, and its just everything about the movie, Lotr is everywhere, i hear their song, i see their trailer, its everywhere, everything reminds me of lotr. I just pick up the book ms huang bought me, a huge book with lots of questions, and i find a question i cannot answer, and then i research it, either with the book or on the internet, funny isn't it, but when you're a fan of something, you spend hours researching it, hours customizing your stuff to show people your love for it, in fact, my blog skin was supposed to be full of gandalf pictures, but i don't want to bother ray, maybe till the holidays.

As i've shown the movie to my friends, they have been unable to see the massive love that exists between characters amidst all the blood and gory stuff, all the war and violence, but there's peace and tranquility in the shire, in the gardens of rivendell, and there are massive bonds among the people, everlasting friendships and love. Most importantly, its about leaving the shore of the sea, at the Grey Havens, to the undying lands, its all so peaceful, with the warm glow of the sun, and sailing off towards the undying lands.

Anyway, i got a supertrailer from one of my lotr cds and transferred it to the com. Then i put it on youtube and was surprised to learn that i'm probably the only one on youtube to have ever got this vid, no one has seen it before, and the real fans start commenting on it, although there aren't many, but it has been viewed for a good number of times, and some of the fans claim that they've even cried watching it, so i suggest you cry too, its a good trailer, and i suggest, you let the blog song finish its song before you play this trailer..

Enjoy

I'm the next Pianist

Yesterday, after the excruciating 4-5? hours of physics extra lessons, we could finally relax, so me and yh got to lorong 8 to eat a very fufilling meal, nothing much, just a plate of chicken rice and one plate of carrot cake, then wei zhou and they guys came along, they just came from wei zhou's dad's confectionary store and brought much more goodies, so i gobbled them up too, so it was quite a filling lunch. Then after that we headed to safra. Yeah, so i was in the snooker mood as usual, i've kinda lost my love for pool, i'm more interested in snooker, but i cant seem to exceed my 50 points mark, but i was pretty on form for the first game, then after that decided to change to pool for a moment cause the pool table was free, then after like 4 game i told yuan hong i wanted to play snooker, so we switched again, but this time i was playing lousily, i even ordered a plate of mee, lol, i guess i was quite hungry yesterday. Speaking about mee, i would like to tell the whole world how the safra snookerium cheats our money. One plate with special maggie mee, 3 dollars! Its just a small amount of mee, with chilli, and dark sauce, an egg, 2 luncheon meats, and that costs 3 dollars! Although it really is addictive, i hate it! Cause they cheat our money!!!! Its like, the whole thing doesn't even cost them like 1 dollar and they charge us 3 dollars! But then again, no one complains and everyone still continues eating it.

So i got home and slept, then after dinner and some piano practicing, my dad wanted to watch the pianist. Cause i told them to buy the dvd like, 3-4 months ago and till now, we haven't watched it. So for the whole night, we watched the pianist. Its about this polish jew, a pianist, who really goes through a lot when WW2 breaks out, its a really sad show, but i didn't cry cause it was more, gruesome, i mean, how the germans treated the people, especially the Jews, its so nerve wrecking, i mean, the pianist, Władysław Szpilman, escaped death so narrowly, and out of his whole family of like, 5 or 6, he managed to escape thanks to people who cared, and of course, cause he was a renowned pianist. Yeah, throughout the movie, we could see their frantic search for food and water, haiya, i'll never be choosy again, and he miraculously survived beacause a german captain took pity on him and saw that he was a really good pianist, and he survived because of his love for music and the piano. So after the movie, my father started tellin me if there was a war i would survive because i can play the piano, lol. Yeah, and after reading JY's blog, being so depressed, you should watch this movie, it will inspire you to play the piano.

And it has inspired me, i'm gonna play the piano for leisure now, not just for my exams. Speaking about the exams, they're coming! My piano exam will be on the 21st of this month, ah. I'm so behind the piano race, i'm the lowest grade among my friends in school i think, sabrina is the same grade as me though, but no one has reached the finishing line so far, at least, no one i know, i'm still so far! But i hope i don't fail this one, haha, it'll be a disgrace if i do, i'm only grade 5!!! How can i fail so early!

I realise since coming into sec 3 i've been exposed to war a lot, i mean, in detail, like in history, almost every chapter has got to do with war, whether civil wars or world wars, and of course, the Battle for Middle Earth 2! Haha, so i went around looking for Sun Zi's military stratagems, so as to improve my lotr winnings....I'm gonna practice now.. goodbye



I still mourn for the Crocodile Hunter, i haven't been enjoying Jeff Corwin recently ='(

I'm depressed

I'm very depressed, i don't believe it, i'm so close to tears now. Today, got up early in the morning, and did everything slowly, so i arrived in sch late, then mr yeo told me that they had left for the pottery farm thingy, so i had to sit mr kwek's car there, and yeah, when we got there, it was kinda doing normal stuff, hands on expereincing pottery making. At first i didn't want to get my hands dirty, but after that, i just jumped on and made a dumb looking vase of whatever, everyone said it was nice, but that's because i made it really small and simple, and faezah said i was very feminine, finally! Someone notices my feminine qualities!hahah, nah, i'm too depressed to laugh now. So after that, we got back to school, and requested for permission for lunch as we had physics extra lessons with e1, so we got the request and me ray and yuan hong headed to the coffee shop to eat, after i finished my big bowl of noodles, i thought i hadn't eaten enough so i suggest ordering a cheese prata, but i decided against it, then when we got up, i realised i was soooo full that i couldn't even walk, sooo full i really felt uncomfortable. Yeah, so we got to physics lesson and mr benjamin wong was shadowing us througout the lesson, then teck kept asking stupid questions and couldn't give a straight face, so we kept laughing when we were asking him stuff, finally it was over, then me and teck headed to safra for just one game of snooker.

He was really depressed cause he didn't have the form anymore, he believes he has lost it. But i think otherwise, i still remember back then, when he beat me so many times, which was around last month, where i really respected him and gave way to the Champion, the fact that he could reach that height shows that he has the ability to play like a champion, but now he feels hopeless. So i begged him to take 155 with me as he lived around geylang bahru and i had to go to church, then he kept telling me his aunt was gonna kill him, and in the end all was fine, and i rushed and reached church at like 6. So i sat down with ye and xl to have a meeting, and then we talked about o levels stuff till like 8pm. So i hailed a cab as it was really late and it cost me 10 dollars. Haiya, on a normal day, when i'm feeling normal, i can describe everything, everything has a story, but not today.

I was looking around and something on msn.com caught my eye, i saw that Crocodile hunter has died, i couldn't believe my eyes and click for the full story, and when i finished i almost cried. Crocodile Hunter, Steve Irwin, 44! Oh no, nono, please. The Crocodile hunter has always been my favorite animal planet show, i always looked forward to watching it, since young, till now. He has always been so entertaining, so funny, and so friendly, i absolutely loved his shows. Always a nerve wrecking moment in every episode, and always something to learn about. I remember last year, during the end of year hols, i spent most of my time at home watching croc hunter on animal planet, and when i had to go to school for ej, i complained to them, telling them i wanted to watch the croc hunter. I still don't believe he's gone! I so wanna cry, i'm so depressed, its even worse than failing english. I loved him. No wonder everyone had the turtle thing, i didn't bother to ask, until i saw the news, then i realised, i'm so crestfallen. I want to see him again, i want to see his show. I had always been wondering if i ever got to the queensland zoo whether i could meet him face to face. Its no use now, he's gone, i feel so sorry for bindi.



I grieve over the loss of Steve Irwin a.k.a The Crocodile Hunter! No one will ever replace him anymore, not even my 2nd favorite, jeff corwin.

Loss of Faith

I missed last week's church, the first time in years, just a very long while, i don't even think i've missed more than 10 times of church in my whole life, but i feel distant now, there are many modes to switch to, the church mode, the school mode, the love mode, the home mode. So yeah, when i switch into either one of those modes, i don't feel like double moding anyone of the rest anymore. So i got there today and after the session, i got down to give tuition to my tuition kid. He's frustrating more and more, when i walked in, he was drawing loads of rubbish on his paper, some pretty obscene, haiya, but what am i supposed to do. So when i taught him, he was always talking rubbish, and some pretty obscene, so as a result, i always give him that stern no nonsense face and i dunno if that's helping, i dunno how i'm supposed to approach the kid, so this kid is the one of the only few victims in the world that has seen my fierce side, the monitress can turn to a tigeress at any moment she wishes to, just that i choose to be the monitress mostly. So jing yang was complaining that his tuition kids don't bring their textbooks and we don't have any primary five textbooks so he had to resort to teaching them pri 6 stuff, and he does not want to scold them cause we're giving free tuition anyway, lol, so i was wondering if i should just be nice to my kid, not that i'm not, but just that i'm stern, and his english has definitely improved since he took up tuition, and sad to say, my english has been deproving, i don't even recall when was the last time i got an A, sometime last year i guess..

Then jy told me he'd be heading today's street evangalism, then i was pretty excited, and pretty afraid at the same time, i dunno, i look forward to it, but i totally hate it, i dunno why, i think interacting with people is fun, strangers are ok, just like when i go to safra, when i challenge guys my age, i do talk to them so that they won't treat me just as some gangster trying to challenge him, and i do make friends from here, i mean, from talking, but in street e, i just can't do it, i never find the ideal guy to ask stuff, they all intimidate me. Today's street e was just to let them do surveys. And when we got to aljunied mrt, i wasn't even doing anything, just tagging along, i guess i realise why its easier for girls to do street e, cause most girls are decent, i guess, but boys, haiya, i only look for guys with the really decent face, i daren't approach others, thats why its really difficult for me, beacause there aren't many nice guys out there.

i'm tired, i still have to head to sch early tomorrow to do a documentary on pottery?? Yeah, followed by physics extra lessons, then i have to head back to church at 4 for a meeting, and there are many extra lessons that follow throughout this week. It isn't much of a holiday, no one expected it to be one.

I hate boring posts, especially this one, enjoy your holidays!